Hello everybody :) 1) thanks for the reviews! 2) I apologize for not updating for a few days..blame school for that! 3) I apologize to the people that got upset. Im not a specialist n pregnancies.. 4) About the nursing thing u'll see n this chapter.. my mum's sister in an OB/GYN so I asked for a few things and yeah... ENJOY :)

Olivia didn't return home sooner than ten days after her daughter's birth due to serious injuries that were caused from the labor. She was forbidden from any sexual contact, gym or anything that had to do with her legs. Her daughter had to stay n the hospital, in a incubator for two more months, due to the fact that she was premature. She had to stay there for as long as she was supposed to stay n her mother's belly.

Olivia and Nick had entered their apartment less than an hour ago. They had came back from the hospital, where they went to finally take their daughter home. Olivia was now sitting on her bed, her back against her pillow as she was breast-feeding her daughter. She couldn't take her eyes off of her.

A few moments later a shirtless Nick entered the room and laid next to her, admiring that moment of motherhood. He kissed the bare skin of her shoulder. Olivia smiled at him. She put her bra back on its normal positing and starting gently hitting Amanda's Jr back waiting till she let out a small burp. Nick sucked that bare piece of skin and looked in her eyes..

"You're natural" he told her as he traced his hands up and down her skin. Olivia kissed his nose as she stood up, putting Amanda Jr n her crib just next to their bed. She returned back on the bed as Nick climbed on her.

"Keep the nose kisses for your daughter Liv" He said as he forced his tongue n her mouth. She chuckled as she opened her mouth, allowing his to have access. He moved down on her neck and stayed there, sucking every inch of it..

"God, Liv you're beautiful" he murmured into the curve of her neck."So beautiful, so hmmm."The next words were a mumble against her skin.

She chuckled.."Control yourself Amaro, I'm too tired tonight. Besides, its our daughter's first night at home and you're gonna show her how she got here?"

He stopped and looked at her eyes.. "No Liv, I don't wanna have sex with you. I wanna make love to you." he whispered and nipped her earlobe with his teeth.

She moaned." You're saying that cause you wanna get in my pants." Nick once again stopped his actions and looked at her.

"No,I'm doing this because I love you. Because I missed you, and because I want you." His look was serious.

Olivia couldn't help it but melt as the words escaped his mouth. She rested her hand behind his neck. "Okay." She said and pushed him toward her for a kiss. He slid his hands down her nightgown and ran them n her entire body. He wanted to feel her. After all those months. He just wanted to feel her. He caressed the flesh around her genetic organs with his hand, as he also slid his head down her cloth, moving to her breasts.

She moaned and laughed at the same time, as she was tickled by his breath. He unclippsed her bra letting her breasts exposed at his touch. He played with her nipples, sucking them softly.

"God,Nick" she whispered not wanting to wake the baby up as she dug her nails n his back. All his moves were soft. He rubbed her clit with his hand and moved his lips on hers for a passionate kiss as she moaned n his mouth. He felt his hand getting wet and he knew his tongue could make its miracle. He place a soft kiss on her lips.

"I love you" he said looking deep n her eyes. She saw his face slowly disappearing as he moved down to have vagina and licked her clit. She squirmed, her whole body making erratic moves as her orgasm hit her.

He got in position to get in her and dropped his boxers, but she stopped him.

"Nick,I'm not on the pill, and I really don't want to get pregnant again." She whispered.

"It's okay Livvie, I'll be careful" He reassured her but she didn't seem calmer.. The labor experience was still fresh to her and it wasn't the best one..

"No,Nick.. seriously..I really want to do that but.. it's better to stop it here if we don't have protection." He saw fear in her eyes and understood that she was still afraid of experiencing pregnancy again, or even think about it. He moved his hand on the small table near their bed and opened its drawer, and took out a condom. He got back and captured her lips n a sweet kiss.

"I got us covered baby." He said as he wore the condom and moved inside of her..

"Nick,Nick,wake up baby, you gotta go to work." Nick slowly opened his eyes and looked at the person who tried to destroy his sleep. He saw Olivia holding their daughter n her hands, smiled at this terrific view.

"Okay,babe I'm awake.." He said and stood up.. "Wait.. you said I gotta go to work, you're not coming?" He said and gave her a loving embrace.

"No, I asked for they day off so I can find some baby-sitter to keep Amja the days when we both work."

"Amja?" He chuckled.. "What's this.. a nickname from Amanda Junior?"

"That's exactly what it is Amaro" she kissed him as soon as the words escaped her mouth, but got interrupted by her daughter's cry. "Guess who's hungry again" she said, moving into the living room followed by Nick.

"Okay babe, you feed her, I'm gonna have a shower and get ready." He kissed her forehead and moved to the bathroom. Olivia nursed her daughter without taking her eyes off of her not for a single second. She felt so blessed to have her in her life.. but the truth was, everytime she held her.. She couldn't help it but wonder, how it'd be like if her other daughter was alive too. She pushed that thought away from her head when Nick gently shook her.

"Liv, you okay?"

"Yeah, why?" she said with a lost look.

"I've been talking to you for about five minutes.."

"Oh, Nick I'm sorry, I got lost somewhere in my thoughts." She said. He knelt in front of her.

"Liv, I know you were thinking about our dead daughter, I think of her much too often. And I really wish she'd be here with us. But we can't change that, and what happened to her was not your fault.."

She interrupted him. " It wasn't? Nick you've been a parent for more than I have. I should have listened to you and take it easier maybe.. maybe then she'd be here with us.."

"Olivia, it wasn't your fault. Things happen. We can't change them sweetie, just live with them. She knows we love her and we won't forget her, but, at least we have Amja here.. and that's the best present you could have possibly given to me, a little you. So now, let me give you one present to pay you back okay?"

Olivia smiled at his words, and looked down at her now sleepy daughter. He was right..Amja was the best present she herself could have possibly received. She looked back at him to see what he meant my giving her a payback present. He was already holding that small box wide open in front of her..her eyes filled with tears and let them fall as he spoke.

"You wanna marry me Liv? Cause I surely as hell want to."

Olivia kept staring at the remarkable,glowing ring that was n that box. She wiped her tears away. "I uh..Yeah..I do..." she said and pulled his tie, bringing him closer to her, for a kiss. Once they broke the kiss he put some hairs behind her ear and looked n her sparkling eyes..

"Thank you." He pulled n another hug and held her there for a few minutes. He then put the ring on her finger and stood up as his job was calling for him. "Stay safe." he said and kissed her forehead, and then his daughter's cheek as he slowly disappeared.

"Can you move it Stabler?" Amanda said to Elliot and gently pushed him back. He was standing right behind her, as she was trying to open her locker to take her second blouse and wear it. Elliot had spilled some coffee on the one she was wearing when she got there. He chuckled.

"Let me help you" He said. She blocked him from touching her locker.

"Haven't you done enough already? That was my favorite shirt!" She complained and turned her face back on her locker..

"I'm sure you look better without it" He said with a smirk.

She made a quick move to face him but his lips stopped her. Her eyes widen when she noticed what was happening. He moved his hands on her shirt unbuttoning it, so as to prove her that his last sentence was true. She grabbed his hands moved them away from her as she broke the kiss.

"I'm sorry" he murmured.

"Elliot just, go outside so I can change okay?" He obeyed , and left the room not saying a single word.

Amanda returned back n the squad room and sat on her desk, not looking at Elliot when Nick walked in.

"Good morning Nick.."

"Good morning guys!' he shouted with a smile on his face.

"You seem happy" Amanda said.

"Well, I am.."

"That daughter of yours right?" She chuckled.

"Yeah what can I say.. Amja is amazing... she's so perfect. She's been home for less than 24 hours and Olivia is already stuck with her...but..that's not all.."

"You and Olivia had sex!" Elliot said, trying to guess what was the other reason Nick was that happy. Amanda rolled her eyes.

"Shut up Elliot not everything is about sex!" she answered.

"Hey guys, calm down. It's not any of your business what me and Liv do in our bed. The reason I'm happy is that I proposed to her this morning, and she accepted." He said and sat on his chair staring at the ceiling, the smile never leaving his face.

"Proposed? Like proposed proposed? With a ring?" Amanda asked,excited. Nick nodded as she ran n him and hugged him. "Congratulations you guys.. I guess she's not coming today is she?"

"Nah, she said she wants to find a baby-sitter for Amja, but I know her.. she just wants to spend more time with her!"

"Well I don't blame her. She was alone for a very long time, she had a bad pregnancy, she lost a child.. and now she finally has her daughter home.. I can't even imagine her happiness" She said and couldn't help but think how Liv was doing..

Olivia was now walking on the street, for some baby-cloth-shopping, wearing her baby carrier. She couldn't help but laugh when she saw her reflection on a storefront, as she reminded herself a kangaroo. It was a sweet image though. It was her first walk with her daughter and she felt extremely happy. She walked to the park near her neighborhood and sat there on a bench, with her daughter, watching the children with their parents, running up and down the playground. She couldn't help but put herself n their place, cause in a few years she'd be chasing her daughter all around that playground. Her attention was distracted by a man who approached her.

"Excuse me ma'am. I believe this belongs to you" he said and handed her over her wallet.

"Oh yeah it does... Thank you sir, where did you find this.."

"It was n the store where you bought some baby clothes earlier.. I was there buying clothes for my nephew.."

"Oh, oh yea.. such a negligent I am!"

"Haha, it can happen to everybody.. Oh, I'm George by the way." He said and gave her his hand.

"I'm Olivia" She answered. Amja started crying. Olivia's mother instinct immediately woke up, as she took the carrier off of her and Amja n her arms to feed her. George who had sat on the bench next to her, turned his head n the opposite direction as not to see her nursing her daughter. Olivia chuckled. "It's okay, . It's something normal after all, isn't it?"

George looked at her again. "Yeah it is. But many woman don't like others staring at them. Your daughter, she's beautiful... she is your first right?"

Olivia nodded as she held Amja closer to her. "Yeah she is. Is it that obvious?"

"I had five kids of my own, believe me I can tell by the way you look at her, you've wanted her so badly"

Olivia laughed.."You're right. What about your children.. are they here n the playground?"

George lowered his head. "No they uh... they and my wife died in a car accident two years ago."

"Uh... I'm so sorry to hear that.. It must have been hard" She said, gently hitting Amja's back again.

"You can't even imagine..But yeah.. shit happens all the time right? I'm helping my sister raise her three angels now.. you see them over there, the three blond boys.." He pointed his finger toward the little boys.

"Oh yeah I see. It's very kind of ya. Lucky sister"

"I couldn't just abandon her.. she's a single mum, and she's my sister. When she got raped she just broke and her husband left her.. I helped her get back on her feet.."

Olivia looked at his with wide eyes. "Your sister was raped?" she asked,changing into her detective mode.

He nodded. "Yeah about 15 months ago"

"Did they ever catch the rapist?"

"No, the police didn't even care."

Olivia was about to talk when her phone rang. "Excuse me for a sec" she said and answered it

"Benson. Who is it? Oh hey Captain. I'm..I'm fine.. just went for a walk n the park with Amja.. yeah..well I know.. tell him not to worry. Okay cap.. see you tomorrow" She put her phone back n her purse and wore her baby carrier again placing Amja there. "George, I'm so sorry for what happened to your sister.. you can give her my card.. if she needs anything.."

George took the card from Olivia's hands.."Answering with your surname, calling the person captain, giving me card.. what are you a cop?"

"As a matter of fact I am. I'm a detective in Manhattan's Special Victims Unit. I need to go now..but..thank you for the company and the wallet. Maybe I'll meet you again n this park right?"

He smiled at her."Right.. take care detective"

Olivia went back home,happy. So happy that she didn't notice the car that was following her all the way.