J/M: I am so happy with this so far. I regret to inform you all that this story is drawing to a close. I'm afraid that maybe there is only one or two more chapters with out including this one. that makes me very sad but that's that. So I appreciate all your support and all the awesomesauce reviews I've gotten! Thx so much!

Chapter 10 (is it really? Omg! It is! Gasp!)

It took two freaking days for all of us to reach Forks. TWO DAYS! My brain shrieked. Two more days for them to cut her wrists and mar them like mine. Two more days for them to shock her. Two days for me to worry that she'd changed her mind. Two days to pray that she still loved me after all of this that was my fault.

We pulled up to the chamber of commerce. A teenage girl screamed in front of us. I was out of the car in a flash ready to grab Tori. But it wasn't Tori and the bitch was yelling about being in Forks and something about a sparkling vampire. I scowled.

"Jade you'd better wait here. We'll go ask about the mental hospital and come back and leave ok?" Beck asked. I nodded. They all filed in and I leaned against the truck. Suddenly I was sobbing again. What if it was too late? What if she didn't love me? These questions were all my brain could think and some sad little voice answered. The same voice that had assured me I loved Tori in the first place.

It is too late. She doesn't love you anymore. Who could love a girl who cuts herself because she's broken hearted? No one that's who.

This voice was a bitch I decided. But still I sobbed. I felt arms around me and soft voices promising it was gonna be ok. All I could do was shake my head. Everything was far from ok.

~Line Break~

Every muscle in my body seemed to understand that my lover was close. If that's even what she still was. I was so tense that my legs shook with the tension. We pulled up in front of the institute and filed out of the three cars we'd brought. I stared up at the dismal grey building against the grey clouds. I shuddered thinking of sunshine trapped in a jar. My sunshine was trapped in this jar. That's when the screaming started.

"Tori!" I cried desperately. We ran up the steps and flew through the doors. A woman sat calmly at a desk tapping away at a computer. A big cheery poster across the wall shouted: Shady Brooks mental institution for the gay and lesbian. We make troubled minds and hearts whole again. I scowled at it.

"May I help you lovely young people?" The screaming had died down and was now a quiet whimpering.

"Yes. We are here to see Tori Vega. May we?" Beck's quiet voice asked. The lay watched him for a moment.

"Well Tori is in therapy right now but she'll finish in about 5 minutes and then you all can see her. Ok?" She smiled sweetly. I really hated her. Beck nodded and We all trooped over to the chairs in the corner to sit and wait. Andre and Cat where whispering quietly. They'd been together for 6 months now. Robbie and Trina where also whispering. She and him where dating why I had no idea but they where. Beck sat awkwardly looking at me. The minutes trickled by slowly. Finally the clock on the wall above us chimed noon.

Click, click, click.

I raised my head at the sound of the heels. "Now, now honey. Some nice people want to see you. Don't worry they are your friends." A sweet voice crooned. The a tall women with long strawberry blonde hair and beautiful blue eyes stepped out from around the corner. "Are you all here to see Tori?" We nodded. "Well you'll have to go one at a time. She doesn't like people much so we will have to take this slowly. Who first?" Every one looked at me. I stood up and walked around the corner after the woman. She held open a door for me and I stepped in.

I gasped at what I saw. Tori was skinny and looked sick. Her brown eyes looked dead as they looked at me and her skin was a sickly yellow color. Her hair was matted and looked awful. But the worst part was the pain that parted her lips. The pain that had her breathing rapidly and made her face drawn. I heard the door click and I knew the woman was gone but I didn't look.

"Tori. Honey do you remember me?" I asked crouching in front of her. She studied me.

"Take me home. Please. Please just take me home." She said and suddenly she slid off her chair and into my arms. I held her as she cried. "They made me forget. I cant remember who I love. But you smell familiar. And you look familiar. Who are you?" She asked.

"Tori baby I'm Jade and I'm in love with you and you love me and I'm gonna take you home." Tori studied me for a minute. "Jade? I know a Jade?" She was lost in thought for a minute and then she looked at me. "AAAAAAHHHHHH! Somebody help! She's gonna hurt me again!" I stared at her and saw the panic. She now associated me with all the pain she felt.

Fuck.