Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach or the characters or even the amazing original story line. Enjoy the story from a yaoi fanatic ^^.

AN:I know I know fail I take forever's I'm sorry I have had no time nor any motivation but I do think and say to myself your yaoi is waiting and I will complete every story I type or write cuz once I start something it must be finished. So I will do my best to finish this up.

Chapter.10- MiXeD EmOtIoNs

Luppi entered his dorm closing the door behind him except instead of locking the door ended up collapsing from all the abuse it got from Grimmjow and other violent characters. Luppi's eyes widen staring at the door that was now to pieces, he let out a sigh and rolled his eyes; he was tired of everything right now and he needed to relax he had finished all of his errands and sort of though things through.

He makes his way to the bathroom washes his hands thoroughly the luke warm water. He glanced at the mirror and studied himself touching the tattoo above his eyebrow and let out a small smile that tattoo brought him faint memories he let out another sigh and brushed his hair it was already the afternoon and Luppi's stomach was begging for food.

"What happen to the door Luppi? Where you in a bad mood?" said an amused voice behind the small male interrupting Luppi from whatever he was thinking at the very moment.

Luppi's expression turned sour he decides to ignore the question hoping the black haired male would just leave him alone. Luppi fixed his hair trying to look busy making sure to keep his back to his roommate he stuck out his leg beginning to close the door behind him with the bottom of his shoe to show no interest.

Shuhei opened the door making Luppi fall forward "Hey Luppi, what you doing?" he asked coming in on his own according smiling curiously already having planned to start a conversation or some sort of gesture to hang out.

Luppi stumbled to the floor and angrily glared at Shuhei accusingly "That hurt! What do think your doing! Get out!" Luppi stood up quickly and swung at Shuhei who caught his arm and pushes Luppi against the wall causing him to flinch as a result.

Shuhei stares at Luppi curiously "I was just checking on whatever you were doing, you don't have to try to hit me." He said placing his chest against Luppi's cornering him his mouth curves into a devious smirk "Not like you can right?" he teased.

The smaller male face glows a light shade of pink his eyes never ceasing to stare his eyes turn into a cold glare that was piercing into Shuhei's eyes. Luppi was beginning to grow more irritated by the second not only that Shuhei didn't seem to be retreating whatsoever which only added to Luppi's annoyance. "Will you get off!" he snapped losing patience. "I thought you were homo-phobic? Look at you, you're all over me if you're not going to do anything about it but just tease and anger me then don't bother your only making me hate you more than I already do! With your fake kindness and blunt loose mouth that doesn't know how to shut up." He spat purposely.

Shuhei eyes widen he backed away slowly confused by Luppi's cold action "What I do? Did you have a bad day? You don't hate me Luppi you're just saying that cuz' you're tired." He said in a soft tone beginning to feel hurt.

Luppi rolled his eyes at Shuhei "I am tired. I'm dead tired of you and your fake actions stop talking to me. I hate you." he said in a tired whisper walking around Shuhei and leaving the bathroom. He glanced around looking for the time.

"It's six-thirty, you going to go somewhere?" Shuhei asked ignoring the fact that Luppi had said anything to him he simply thought nothing of it and continued to approach Luppi shamelessly. "If you want I'll come alo-."

"Away from you, how did you know I was looking for the time?" he asked almost resenting to have asked the question. He wanted to avoid Shuhei as much as possible he grew tired of the black haired male he just wanted to leave already. He wanted to be away from everyone for a moment at least he was tired and stressed.

"Well you were looking around frantica-"

"Whatever, I don't care how you knew. I'm leaving." he said hastily making his way out the door before the other male could finish his sentence or even ask where he was going. Luppi let out a relief sigh. He was about to look back to see if Shuhei would follow but decided to just let that go and get himself something to eat to silence that stomach of his.

The cafeteria was practically empty which brought a smile to Luppi's face he trotted toward the menu and looked around to see what they had to offer moment later he grabbed a bowl of tempura noodles the steam ends up touching his nose and he couldn't help but close his mouth to keep the drool from slipping. He walked toward the other stations of food and grabbed some green sweet tea he then sat down on the table placing the contents down Luppi pouted noticing that he had forgotten something and turned around to go back to the station to grab a bowl of white fresh rice but stooped on his tracks turning to look at the person in front of him blocking his path.

The black haired male stared down at Luppi the pale feature made Luppi freeze in awe at how godlike his features were so intimidating and arousing his thoughts and flashbacks returning to what he had first felt when he Ulquiorra first placed those pales lips on his. He held the bowl of rice to Luppi's nose and gave off a kind aura. He opened his mouth to speak.

Luppi dodged Ulquiorra's kind offer "What would I want with that?" he said sticking his nose up and began walking to the station refusing, hoping that would make Ulquiorra go away. He felt a tight pressure in his chest filled with regret.

Ulquiorra followed Luppi never faltering to follow he walks up next to Luppi. "You always have a bowl of rice with your noodles…" he said sounding confused he was sure himself unless Luppi wasn't himself today.

Luppi picked something else then sat down feeling a bit agitated he lowers his eyes to his food as he lifts his fork and scoops up some noodles enjoying the spicy hot taste that melted into his mouth as soon as he swallowed he glances at Ulquiorra shyly "What do you want? I'm trying to eat." He said looking away from Ulquiorra hiding away a small blush it honestly made him happy that Ulquiorra was right next to him but it was fake it was false hope he cringed a bit wanting to runaway.

Ulquiorra not used to this kind of treatment unaware of what or how to respond to Luppi's question. He looks at Luppi wondering why he was facing away from him "To talk." He said simply. Ulquiorra lifts a napkin and wipes Luppi's chin.

Luppi flinches and takes the napkin from Ulquiorra "I can clean myself! I don't need you watching over me all the time; and talk about what? You already said what you had to." he snaps avoiding eye contact he frowned a bit feeling grouchy wishing he'd stay in his room but even then his roommate would be annoying him to no extend even then Ulquiorra would make his way in. This was torture to him.

"I wanted to…apologize…" Ulquiorra stares at the table his hair shadowing any emotion that he had in his eyes at that very moment.

Luppi's lip trembled "Apologize? For what?" he asked almost sounding desperate he turned his amethyst orbs staring at Ulquiorra piercing him with his stare ignoring all his surroundings. He held back the tears that were pushing to wash down his cheeks in pain he didn't understand what Ulquiorra wanted to do either he wanted to hurt him or maybe hopefully be with him.

"For upsetting you and causing you grief you look sad it worries me." He said finishing looking at Luppi reading his features. "You should rest. Or else you'll be useless to Lord Aizen."

"Fuck Aizen! Grief? You did more than that! You're sorry for making love with? For hurting me, for practically using me? So you're saying it was a mistake for sleeping with me! Worried? Bull crap! Useless…" Luppi's face looked pained he gets up and starts to head off he didn't want anything to do with Ulquiorra anymore it was too much pain to keep holding onto such false hope of ever being loved he shook his head he didn't want to say anything anymore he wanted to hide under the covers of his bed and never come out better yet he wanted to leave and never see Ulquiorra again.

Ulquiorra grabs his arm "Wait! That's not what I meant." He said adding pressure to Luppi's arm not letting him leave he pulled him back hesitating a bit he didn't know how to fix things at the very moment. He was trying to hide the fact that he cared for Luppi; Lord Aizen was starting to be the least of his worries.

Luppi already felt a tear streaming down his check he sniffled a little the tears wouldn't stop he angrily clenches his fist and turns to glare at Ulquiorra "You…Why did you have to touch me! Why did I have to fall so…hard for you…?" he gulps down any excess saliva down his throat trying to clear away the heavy feeling in his throat a small sob escaped his mouth he felt so weak crying and whining in front of Ulquiorra his face was all flustered he tried to pull away again but Ulquiorra's grip wouldn't loosen. "Let go…"

Ulquiorra pulls Luppi to face him, people around were beginning to stare at the fourth oddly for it was starting to look like nothing more but a lover's quarrel. "I'm a guy…doesn't that bother you? It isn't right…We only had sex…" he whispered in a low voice so no one else would hear.

Luppi pulled away from Ulquiorra breaking off and running as fast as he could he managed to make it out of the cafeteria only to be stopped by Ulquiorra again. "What do you want me to say to that? Fuck you! I hate you! We only had sex! That's not what it was to me! I'm your relief…? Is that all I was! A Fucking chew toy!" Luppi strikes Ulquiorra's face and angrily stares at Ulquiorra losing controls of his emotions slipping tearing through his controlled state he was breaking he felt so stupid so used so pathetic.

Ulquiorra grabbed Luppi's wrist after the blow he taken it didn't hurt him he knew it probably hurt Luppi more than it hurt him. "Calm down, no you don't! That's not it listen to me." Ulquiorra began saying he started to lose his cool also. Even more confusing to why Luppi was acting so rash he just couldn't accept that Luppi had a thing for him males can't feel like that toward other males it wasn't right.

Luppi pushes and struggles from Ulquiorra "Let go! You don't want me! You don't! You don't know what you want! You're stupid! All you're doing is hurting me! You don't care about me!" Luppi hits Ulquiorra throwing blows not caring that Ulquiorra felt pain or not it was the thought that counted to him. "Please…just let go!" He shouted hatefully glaring at Ulquiorra with so much rage and hate.

Ulquiorra pushes Luppi hard against the wall making Luppi groan in pain "Nghhh…" Luppi's head spun losing a bit of conscious tears never faltering to stop. Ulquiorra stares deeply at Luppi wipping away the tears he began to shake a bit realizing what he had done. "L-Luppi…That's not true…" he licked his lower lip staring at the unconscious male Ulquiorra just didn't understand

A figure pushes Ulquiorra making him lose balance almost falling he stared startled at what had pushed him out of the way. "Back Off!" said the male in an angered tone his tone of voice threatening a brawl.

Ulquiorra places his hand on the wall confused he places his hand against the sheath of his sword and dashes forward dodging the male that was in front of Luppi. "You made me drop him." he says reclaiming Luppi with ease.

"What are you doing? Why don't you leave, I'll take care of him. After all you don't love him, you don't feel anything for him you should leave." said the other male approaching Ulquiorra fearlessly looking at the lifeless Luppi in Ulquiorra's arms he gripped his weapon to stop the trembling from his hand the weapon began slipping.

"I do…love him…but being with him…I can't…" He stood up looking at the other male with annoyance and putrid anger "You strike me?" he said approaching the other male slowly deciding to change the subject Ulquiorra absolutely did not want to explain something even he couldn't quite comprehend he was lost, confused. "I can bring death much quickly to you if you desire to provoke me any further. Surely I can do it without placing dear Luppi down." He said confidently and with no doubt his bloodthirsty eyes sends chills down his opponent's eyes.

"Really?" a forced grin escaped the males lips his weapon was unsheathed and ready for usage "Why not go out with him already and save my energy?" he said moving closer to Ulquiorra making Ulquiorra glide with extreme speed flawlessly avoiding his opponent's he grabbed the males neck squeezing it with intention to kill. The male smiles weakly at Ulquiorra "You're the one…" the male fought to let words out. The situation he was in was threatening his life "Who told me to protect Luppi!" he pushes Ulquiorra off and slides against the wall falling down he coughed loudly his energy was gone already it took everything of his energy to push the fourth off. His mind overwhelmed at how difficult and strong Ulquiorra was he had taken him for granted that was for sure looks weren't everything Ulquiorra was thin and frail looking but he was a ferocious monster.

Ulquiorra flashes toward the male not keeping his distance "You're protecting him against me?" his head tilts to the side studying the weak male who sat defeated beneath him. The fourth approaches the other male. He lifts his sword "Shuhei your beginning to annoy me. Sticking your nose where it isn't suppose to be stuck into." He said coldly placing both hands on the hilt of his sword and digging the sword centimeters away from Shuhei's crotch and crossing his fingers around the hilt he brought down his chin to the tip of the hilt staring blankly at Shuhei "It might get cut off." He said sounding quite eager.

Shuhei stares down at the sword gaping at the weapon he could feel sweat drops begin to drip down his forehead if he stared at the sword too long it would cost him his life if he didn't speak up. "Nnghk…If I don't then I wouldn't be doing what you asked me to…" the sword tilted forward toward his groin this cause Shuhei to panic "W-Why aren't you with Luppi? Why are you trying so hard to stay away from him like that?" he said trying to distract his opponent he had lost his ability to think straight his lifeline felt near death much closer.

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"You are stubborn why are you so curious? But you're willing to figure it out even if it may cost you your life you amuse me." Ulquiorra sighed " Well I can't my duty is to do as what Lord Aizen requests until Lord Aizen is satisfied and is done with his goals, then I too can be satisfied. I can't let emotion get in the way of Lord Aizen's goal that's why I'm an Espada it's my duty. I have a responsibility that I must hold onto." Ulquiorra moves away rising is sword.

Shuhei raised his weapon to shield himself but the longer he waited nothing happen so he bravely opens one eye and sees that Ulquiorra had sheathed his sword he felt something drop on top of him his eyes widen at how light Luppi was. He stared at Ulquiorra oddly. "What…?" he says confused.

Ulquiorra turned around avoiding eye contact he opened his mouth to say something but immediately closed it he stared intently at Shuhei for a long while "I'm sure your going to keep it between us whatever I just had told you."

"Not like he has an idea why." Shuhei said picking Luppi up he looked at Luppi carefully. "I don't know what he sees in you. But your happy this way right?" He said standing up tiredly and beginning to head to his room he ended up stumbling in pain almost dropping Luppi. That was Ulquiorra's error. Shuhei turned to look at Ulquiorra shocked "What the hell!" he sat against the wall pained droplets of sweat dripped from his chin.

"You humor me that is merely a flesh wound. Let that be a warning. Don't fool around with me your not a child so I expect you to have much more knowledge to not stick your nose in my business and next time it won't be a flesh wound." He says viciously turning to leave annoyed with the black head. "Clean up the mess." He says disappearing in a flash.

Shuhei drops his head backwards staring at the ceiling of the hall in agonizing pain he stood up sort of stumbling "F-Fuck…" he cursed under his breath. He looked in the direction Ulquiorra had left 'What are you? Such cold hearted hollows…What hollow isn't cold they're all insane compared to us soul reapers.' He thought silently to himself.

~Moments later~

Shuhei sits back in front of Luppi's bed he was tending to his wound cursing to himself "Just a flesh wound fuck that…" he mumbled with a huge pout across his face. Shuhei sighed he was starting to hate Ulquiorra he finished up cleaning his wound he found himself staring at Luppi whom laid on the bed across from him. He stood up angrily and walked over to Luppi staring at him for a long minute "I took a fucking shank from your barbaric boyfriend." He says like he was obviously obligated to do so.

He gulps to himself and moved himself closer to Luppi s studying the soft features Shuhei caught a whiff of Luppi and he was drawn to come closer he didn't understand but overtime he found himself kissing Luppi he wanted to stop but he couldn't it felt so soft so wrong but it made him want more he places his knee on the soft bed feeling temptation take over. He tried to stop but it tasted so good doing something so wrong never felt so good.

A/N: Well I managed to finish another Chapter I'm sorry for the wait I am trying to get myself to write more but me being busy and work Grr being a grown up sucks lolz. Anyways Shuhei the homo-phobe, kissing Luppi? Ulquiorra's gonna be so mad if he sees ^^ Anyways review. And thank you for reading. ^^