Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or any songs used, or motor vehicles.
Chapter 10: Goodbye
Music is love.
Authors note: I love this song.
Fictional bands:
(The other parts next to names are things the play too, I put lead to show who play what usually.)
The Remembered
Bankoustu–lead bass, harmonica, saxophone, back up vocals
Sango-lead guitar, bass, writer
Rin-lead drums, guitar, violin
Inuyasha-lead vocals, screamer, writer
The Forgotten
Kagome-lead vocals, keyboard, writer
Kouga-lead guitar, back up vocals
Jakoustu-lead drums, writer, back up vocals, cello
Hojo-lead bass, back up vocals, saxophone
Songs used:
Goodbye- Kristina Debarge
My Immortal- Evanescence
XxXIxLovexSpidemanXxX
Kagome's Pov
So Inuyasha had been gone for a month, and I was all alone. Damn life sucked right now. Sango had left with Miroku. They were engaged; of course he went with her. I'm proud of him though, they had an amazing relationship. Rin left and she and Shingo hit it off. He followed her to America. I knew they'd be a great couple. And Sesshomaru left too. Bankotsu took Eri with him too.
Yuka and Hojo were still going strong. And Kouga had proposed to Ayame. I know it was fast but, apparently youkai roll like that, he said she was his mate or some soul mate shit like that. She was a cool girl, and she moved in. Jakoustu and Onigumo were having a fantastic time. They acted like parents. I rolled my eyes at the thought. Onigumo moved in too.
Right now we were taking a break from the music scene and decided to take time for our personal lives. And that fucking sucked cause everyone in Japan was happy with their significant other.
I lay in bed sadly. All I did was fucking mope all the time, I hated it. I never realized how much I missed Inuyasha before. But back then my band distracted me. Now I was truly alone.
I was about to go to sleep when my phone rang, it was a boyfriend. I smiled.
"Hello?" I asked.
"Kagome?" Inuyasha asked.
"Hey baby," I smiled.
"Hey, how are you?"
"I miss you. I'm horny. I'm laying in bed. I'm lonely. And I'm so fucking bored."
He laughed at my complaints. I rolled my eyes as I heard people speaking English behind him. Fuck America for stealing my man from me. I sighed at my stupidity. It wasn't America's fault. I'm sorry America.
"I miss you too. Well, there's only eleven more months left and I'll be right there. You know you can always visit."
I grinned, "I will. How about tomorrow? Just tell me when and where."
"You fuck nut, you're so quick to see me."
"Yeah, you're my boyfriend." I said slowly as if I was talking to someone stupid.
He laughed a lot, "You bitch! I'm not stupid."
That caused me to crack up.
We both got silent.
"Miami, 9:30." He said.
I smiled, "I'll see you tomorrow. I need to go, I'll talk to you when I can."
"Okay, bye Kags."
We hung up.
"YUKA!" I screamed and ran to Hojo and her room.
"Kagome, what is it?" a concerned Yuka questioned.
I happy danced.
"I need a fucking ticket for 9:30 to Miami for tomorrow. I'm going to see my boyfriend bitches!" I cheered.
Yuka simply laughed.
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The flight was not that bad, in fact it was chill. I was too excited right now. I looked around for my amazing ass boyfriend.
I found him….with another girl beside him?
What the fuck? Shit is going down.
The girl was really tall and blonde, her eyes were blue and her skin was pale. She was wearing Inuyasha's favorite black hoodie that I should be wearing and jeans with snow boots. Her blonde curls cascaded down her back. It was winter time now.
Next to her Inuyasha stood, his hair was up in a ponytail. He wore a red hoodie and regular jeans with shoes.
He finally spotted me.
I was wearing black sweats, black sport sandals, and a big white hoodie. My hair was in its usual rock star look. And I wore no makeup.
He ran over to me and hugged me. I smiled at the embrace of my boyfriend. I said nothing as I pulled the collar of his shirt and kissed him.
Finally we were out of breath. He smiled at me.
"I have someone I want you to meet," he said excited.
I nodded, as he led me to the tall blonde.
"This is my girlfriend Kagome," Inuyasha smiled.
The girl offered me her hand and I shook it.
"Oh Inuyasha she's so little and cute! She so Tokyo! I'm Katie."
I smiled, "Nice to meet you."
Katie smiled, "I'm Inuyasha's singing partner, but hopefully if things go well I'll be a permanent member. But Kagome, I'm a really big fan of yours. And as a follow singer I have to say you're one of my role models."
So the bitch wanted to kiss up to me? I felt like Inuyasha's jealously rubbed off on me. Maybe I was being paranoid?
"Thank you, Katie." I said.
I did not like this bitch. She was fake as hell. I sensed another Kikyo type here.
Inuyasha smiled, "Let's get your shit to the car."
My boyfriend carried my suitcase to the car. And he sat in the driver's seat. The bitch was quick and took my rightful seat next to him, so I had to sit in the back.
"So Kagome, what do you want to do in America?" Katie asked.
"Just hang out with my brother, boyfriend, and friends."
She frowned, "You don't care for the sights?"
Now I was getting pissed. How are you going to wear someone else's boyfriend's jacket, steal the seat next to him, sing with him when that should be me, and try to suck up to you. I'm not stupid. No one does this unless their Kikyo. I was beyond suspicious of this girl.
I laughed coldly, "Um no, if I did I'd be here and you wouldn't even know our names."
Inuyasha looked at me with wide eyes.
"Inuyasha, get the fucking hint, I'm so fucking pissed." I said in Japanese so the bitch wouldn't hear.
His ears pulled up and his eyes widened. Katie quieted getting my tone of voice.
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Finally he and I separated from the blonde chick I didn't like.
"Kagome," He sighed trying to hug me.
I pulled away from his failed embrace.
"Who the hell is she? What the fuck has been going on! You look so fucking guilty right now Inuyasha! Ex-fucking-plain yourself now or I'm walking." I screamed.
"She's my singing partner. Kagome, she and I are nothing in real life. But in the public we're together. She's being used to get me publicity. I swear I don't have any feelings for her." He sat down on his bed.
I frowned, "And what the fuck are we publically?"
He grimaced, "I'm cheating on you with her publicly."
I closed my eyes, "Have you kissed her? Have you hugged her? Have you fucked her? Tell me what the fuck is going on." I said calmly as possible.
"Yes we've kissed and hugged…" He paused.
I frowned.
"Answer the other question." I said looking at my feet.
The long pause was the worst of my whole life. Even worse than when we were signed, my heat was beating fast and in my soul I already knew what he would say.
He gulped, "Yes Kagome. Yes I cheated on you with her. It was a mistake."
I felt my heart shatter into little pieces. And the pain became too much for me to be angry anymore.
I sighed, "No Inuyasha, you were a mistake. This whole relationship was fucking stupid. It's fucking done Inuyasha. Don't you ever fucking contact me. Don't bother trying cause I'll guarantee your ass will be so dead."
The anger was flashing through both of our eyes now. And I don't know why, for him. He has no right to be angry. He grabbed both of my arms now and looked me dead in the eyes. What an asshole.
"Kagome, don't do that. Don't you fucking get that I'm in love with you? You're my best friend, and now I'm in love with you. Don't take away those two roles I need in my life." He roared.
My heart nearly exploded. How is he going to cheat and then say that? I love him too, so much. But this is too much shit for anyone. He has to be the same person everywhere he goes when it comes to me. I don't like his bullshit.
I sighed, "Inuyasha you say you love me, yet you cheat. You say you miss me but you have her. And you say you love your job because it's your passion. You lost you self somewhere along the way. It's not about the music in your job anymore. And you know that. So I'm going to give you two options and I hate doing this because I know once upon a time you used to love what you did. But now you have no morals, there's no Inuyasha there anymore in that body. So I want you back as yourself. Choice one, you can leave this music business and I'll give you another chance; it'll be like everything used to. Or choice two, keep doing what you're doing just don't fucking involve me in it anymore in anyways other than professional."
He looked at me dumbfounded.
That's when I blew up. My aura was growing now and since I was a miko I knew for a fact it was hurting him. It slowly killed him right now. But if I used it as a weapon he'd be dead in a second.
"INUYASHA! WHAT IS IT GOING TO BE THE MUSIC OR ME? YOU CAN'T DO BOTH BECAUSE YOU CAN'T HANDEL IT." I screamed at the top of my lungs.
"I can't lose either. I love them both." He whispered.
The anger in my body reached its peak.
I smiled venomously, "Then fuck you. If I don't matter at all that's cool. Just know that I was in love with you. But you, you fucking disgust me. Goodbye Inuyasha."
With that I started walking, fuck the suitcase of clothes, fuck the plane ride, and fuck my aching heart. I wanted him to following me, to come get me back, to make me turn around and cry into his arms. I wanted him to tell me he'd never do this to me again. Was I not worth the chase? Did he not care enough to come after me? My heart yearned for him to come. But my brain was pissed off and walking off. I don't know what I'm going to do.
And I called myself a cab, and gave the guy instructions to the airport. Thank god I remembered to bring my purse or I'd be stuck here. My pride would never let me go back to that room to get anything left behind.
And in that cab I broke down sobbing. It's like the anger disappeared and now the full force of pain came. The only thing I could regret was thinking this would work out.
Inuyasha was not only the guy I was in love with, he was my best friend, I loved everything about this guy. And he was the one who hurt me. I sighed, thinking about how I don't have a ticket back home and pulled out my phone to the one person in this country that could help me out.
"Hello?" I sniffed.
"Kagome, what's wrong?" I heard his voice slightly pissed now.
"Miroku, I need your help." The tears poured out.
"Where are you?" My brother questioned.
"Going to the airport, I need you there as soon as possible. Please come alone." I begged.
"I'm already putting my shoes on, are you going to tell me what happened?" he asked.
"No, everything is fine. I just need to get home, I just don't feel right here, you know." I faked a laugh.
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Miroku got me back home with a few lies and calls. And I landed back in Japan in a few hours.
Kouga would come pick me up. He sensed me and quickly ran over and hugged me.
"Your bags?" He questioned.
"It doesn't matter. I just want to get home."
Another month has passed. And let's just say I lived in my room. I told no one what happened and I slept and cried most days. My black hair grew a lot. It was so healthy, and now went down to my boobs. I cut out my silver highlights that reminded me of him.
Jak walked in my room with Kouga and Hojo. They all looked pissed off.
"Kagome I know something is wrong, and you don't want to tell us but you need to stop this shit now." Jak said as if he were my mother.
"Our break is off, and we need you Kagome for our band." Kouga stated.
"And we all miss you. Tell us what happened." Hojo ordered.
I gulped; this was like high school all over again, when they'd be my protective ass force.
I sighed, and tears poured out. Kouga immediately took my right side while Jak took my left and Hojo sat in front of me. They were all hugging me. I smiled a broken one.
"He cheated." I whispered.
Some of the pain went down. I guess talking about it did help.
Hojo got up and walked somewhere and Jak frowned.
"I'll kill that bastard!" Jak whispered.
"I already hurt him enough," I grinned.
"Your aura got the best of you huh?" Kouga smirked.
"Yeah." I laughed.
Hojo returned with a notebook and pen.
He smiled, "I know it's soon. But Kagome fuck that jerk, you have us. And we need you. Tell the whole world about your story."
He winked as he set the notebook and pen on my lap.
"Karmas a bitch, right?" I smirked.
"Why do you say that?" Kouga smiled.
I laughed, "That's what our next album will be called. I already have a bunch of ideas boys."
"Hell yeah!" Jak cheered.
"Let's kick ass." Hojo grinned.
"Let's do this." Kouga nodded.
I laughed at my guys. I have forgotten that writing lyrics was my escape. It made my troubles go away. And my band mates made me realize that this is where I belong. Writing my shit, singing and kicking ass, not here alone, I was better than that. And I'd make sure everyone would know that you don't cheat and expect me to bitch all day. I'd comeback with a bang.
"Thanks guys," I hugged them.
Another month later Yuka got us on a live TV concert. When I told her what happened, she just said 'hell hath a women scorned' and set to work. She did amazing.
"Hello Tokyo! This is our newest album we are playing today! I love you all Tokyo. This is my home, were I was raised and born. And I need to thank you all, the fans. Half of the profits made on this whole thing will be given to a cancer charity as well! And I hope you like the new things because we worked our butts off creating this concert for you!"
They applauded.
The cameraman lens showed the big audience.
I smiled as the music began and everyone watched me. My hair was put in a high ponytail now that it was long enough. I had extensions so when put down it came to my belly button. My makeup was very natural. I wore a gold short dress with heels.
"Am I supposed to put my life on hold because you don't know how to act? And you don't know where your life is going? Am I supposed to be torn apart, broken-hearted in a corner cryin'? Pardon me if I don't show it!"
I smirked at the lyrics. This verse was written by Jak. He wanted attitude for this song. I thought it be a kick ass metal song but he said let's make it pop.
"I don't care if I never see you again! I'll be alright. Take this final piece of advice and get yourself together. But either way, baby, I'm gone."
I rolled my hips with every note hit. This verse was by me.
"I'm so over it, I've been there and back! Changed all my numbers and just in case you're wondering. I got that new I'm-a-single-girl swag! Got me with my girls and we're singin' it Sing!"
That was all Jak's writing. He loved the idea of the song.
"Na na na na, na na na na. Hey hey hey, Goodbye! Na na na na, na na na na. Hey hey hey, Goodbye!"
That part was written by Kouga. When we wrote it we just passed the notebook around and put stuff down.
"Cut my hair cause it reminded me of you. I know you like the long do. Had to switch up my attitude up. Thinkin' of changin' up how I ride. No more on the passenger side. Too bad you missed out on the way that I drive it."
I personally didn't get this verse. But it was by Hojo.
"I don't care if I never see you again! I'll be alright. Take this final piece of advice and get yourself together. But either way, baby, I'm gone."
I smiled into the mic and everyone watched.
"I'm so over it, I've been there and back! Changed all my numbers and just in case you're wondering. I got that new I'm-a-single-girl swag! Got me with my girls and we're singin' it Sing!"
Everyone in the small audience was dancing their asses off. I laughed at the thought.
"H-hey, H-hey, H-hey, Goodbye!"
I danced around the stage holding that mic as if my life depended on it.
"I'm so over it, I've been there and back! Changed all my numbers and just in case you're wondering. I got that new I'm-a-single-girl swag! Got me with my girls and we're singin' it Sing!"
Everyone sang the choir with me.
"Na na na na, na na na na. Hey hey hey, Goodbye! Na na na na, na na na na. Hey hey hey, Goodbye!"
I bowed at I hit that last note. And the stage got dark once again. I ran over to change the outfit I was wearing for the next set.
The light came back on and everyone now say me with my curly long hair down. I was wearing a white gown. It was see through and earthy.
The mic was attached the grand piano I was currently playing. This song I wrote by myself. I fell in love with the song after writing it.
Everyone was silent as my finger cascaded each key.
"I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears. And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave. Your presence still lingers here."
With this song, I was letting people in. I was afraid. I was hurt. I was in pain. And they'd feel in reflecting off of this song I poured my heart into.
"And it won't leave me alone. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real! There's just too much that time cannot erase!"
No matter what I did, I couldn't forget Inuyasha. Everything reminded me of him and I hated it. I've never hurted this badly before. It was him. He wouldn't leave my thoughts and it killed me.
"When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears! And I held your hand through all of these years…"
This verse was about our friendship. I was there for everything in his life. I've always supported him.
"But you still have all of me…"
He had a part of me with him no matter what just like I did with him. I didn't want anyone else but him. I looked down to the tattoo of his name on my wrist. I wouldn't get it removed. It hurts now, but I'd regret taking it out now. I heard applause at this line and grinned. They loved it. My voice sounded amazing right now.
"You used to captivate me by your resonating light. Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind. Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me."
This verse was all about him changing who he was. What if I was in love with the Inuyasha I once knew? And this body was just something for now. He used to love music; he used to hate everything that got in its way. When he started it he always told me to sat real, that the people should love you for your music not the publicity shit. Now he was lost in the fame.
"These wounds won't seem to heal; this pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase."
Everyone had teary eyes. And I smiled a bit at the reactions.
"When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears. And I held your hand through all of these years."
I stayed looking at the piano. My eyes were watery now.
"But you still have all of me."
That note was cut short.
"I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone."
My fingers were working magic now on my piano. The tears were flowing free as I put my whole in this.
"But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along!"
I held out the whole note as the stage light came on again. The guys started playing. Another person appeared next to me to play piano and I got up. I closed my eyes holding out the final note and walked front and center.
"When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears! And I held your hand through all of these years. But you still have…"
I dropped to my knees as their playing stopped.
"All of me..."
The piano started again. My eyes were open now clearly blue and crying.
"Me…"
All eyes were now on me.
"Me…"
I faded out as the piano played.
When the last note was hit there was silence. I stayed on the floor with my eyes close. Did they not like the song? The silence was strong. And finally they clapped.
I opened my eyes to see everyone standing, teary eyed and clapping.
I smiled into the microphone and everyone cheered.
I laughed into the mic now and smiled the brightest smile I could muster.
"Thank you Japan and to all those watching we have twelve more acts coming up after this commercial and break."
I smirked. I don't know how Yuka did her stuff but this was an amazing gig. We all went back stage and got ready for the next songs. While we were back stage we had Ayame sing some stuff. Ayame learned a little guitar from Kouga and she sang well. So we decided her start would be here with us.
I don't know why but I really wished he was watching this.