Rainbows Are For Fillyfoolers: Chapter 10: Silence
A/N There is an alternate ending, for those who do not want this ending to be... the end.
Rainbow was jerked from her thoughts, and she sighed, as she sat at her table in her kitchen, looking at all the ponies down below.
They're all... so happy. Why can't I have happiness, too?
Her life had been turned upside down, by everypony but Applejack. She had been at her side. Even though it had only been for a year or so, it felt like ten. It was a month since she died, and Rainbow was getting more and more depressed.
She couldn't sleep, she never talked to anypony, she was going to be mocked anyway. If she tried to talk to anypony, they would just continue to ruin her life even further.
She thought about how much she valued it. She valued her life less that she valued Raindrops, because life was a bigger effect.
She had never tried to... end it all before... because she was scared of failing, and only causing pain.
But she was even more scared of the idea that life just ends when you die, it doesn't continue to heaven. She hoped it was true, the things people say about that place. She really, truelly did not believe that there was a heaven, but, it was worth... a try.
If she did find Applejack, she was scared that she would be mad.
It's worth never living again.
Who would care, anyway?
Not me.
Who would notice?
Nopony.
"Fuck it," she said aloud.
Rainbow stood in the middle of an open space, the living room, of her house. She looked above her. A beam of wood held the cieling up, and another horizontal one held it together. The beam was sturdy.
Rainbow flew up to the beam, and tied a rope in a double knot around it.
She grabbed a stool. She stood on her hind legs, and tied a noose on the end of the rope, then she slipped the loop around her neck.
"Cruel, is what life is."
She kicked the stool away.
Instantly, she felt an emmense weight on her chin, and she couldn't breathe.
Failsafe... she thought to herself, as she slipped into unconciousness.
Two minutes later, her heart stopped beating.
She went limp.
...but there was no heaven. She was alone, in an experienceless dream, without feeling or knowledge. She was dead, and there was nothing to greet her.
And she had no idea that she had ever existed.
The only thing she had cared to do before that moment was preserved for the ponies that would never come up to the cloud house.
There was a sign, hanging next to the open door.
It read:
"Happy now?"
~The End~
Credits:
A very special thanks to whattheydonttellus, for promoting this story and its plot.
Another very special thanks to StevieMagnet, for reading and responding to my questions.
To a friend of mine, who knows who he is, that read my story even though he doesn't like fan fiction, or the different personality I gave Rainbow.
To another friend of mine, that accepts me for who I am, and proceeded to read this even though I told her it was brutal.
My good friends Google docs, gmail, and for allowing me to create this work of art.
Thank you,
Sky High