Chapter 9 - A incoming train.
Duo sluggishly opened his eyes. Everything was white. Where was he? It looked like a hospital room.
"Duo."
Duo blinked and turned his head to the side. A face came into view.
His mouth was dry and his tongue felt too big. "Matt."
The dark man smiled. "How are you doing?"
"Ssshit." He slurred
"I hear ya."
"Wu?"
"He will be right back. He went to call your mom."
Duo groaned. "What happened?"
"Someone probably put some shit in your beer. And since we found Treize with his hands down your pants, we have a pretty obvious suspect."
Duo almost felt his heart stop. A million questions flashed through his mind but he settled for the most important one. "We?"
Matt frowned. "We what?"
"Who we?"
"Oh, me and Wufei."
Duo closed his eyes tightly. 'Great, one night at 'The Starship' and I manage to destroy the best relationship I have ever had. Wufei defends me and I go and get high and have sex...' Duo's brain suddenly catches up to what he had just been told and comes to a terrifying realization. He turned to his friend. "Did I get?"
"Raped? No, we got there before anything happened. But I tell you, it was fucking close. God damn, the sight when we got the door open...he had you up against the fucking wall with his hand over your mouth. He had his fucking dick out and everything. Shit it was scary. We got him the fuck off you but we couldn't catch you in time before you fell. You hit your head on the way down and there was blood all over the fucking place. Shit. All hell broke loss. We couldn't get you to wake up, Treize was trying to make up some fucking bullshit explanation while Wufei were trying to fucking kill him. The guards came in and... yeah. Fucking chaos."
"Is he okay?"
"Wufei? Yeah, a bit shook up, but other than that." He laughed. "Damn, for such a small guy, he is one fucking vicious little guard dog. Almost ripped the fucker to pieces."
That warm fuzzy feeling spread throw him. Maybe Wu wasn't angry with him. He couldn't stop a pleased little smile from spreading."Yeah?"
Matt snickered. "Oh yeah, It was fucking insane. Treize is at least three times his fucking size but he had the fucker on the floor in like two seconds. Don't ask me how he did it because I don't fucking know."
Duo gave his friend a tired smile. "I don't think Wufei is the only one that is shaken up."
"What? Why?"
"Because you've been saying 'fuck' about two thousand times since I woke up."
Matt snorted. "Can you blame me? Fucking shitty night."
There was a sound from over by the door and Duo carefully turned his head to watch an extremely tired looking Wufei walk in. Unease spread trough his body like wild fire. But when he meet Wufei's relieved eyes, all his fears about Wufei being angry with him just blow away.
Dark eyes looked at him lovingly as his lover walked over to him. "Hey Angel, how are you?"
Duo wondered if it would be very un-manly and pathetic to just whimper and crawl up in his lover's lap.
"Ok." He answered and scooted over when Wufei made a move to sit down next to him on the hospital bed. A sharp pain from the back of his head made him flinch. "Ow." He complained quietly and raised his hand to touch the bandages.
"You cut up your head pretty bad. They had to shave off some hair to stitch it up." Wufei looked heart broken at his own words.
Duo smiled. "It'll grow back again."
"Yeah." Wufei bent down and placed a light kiss on top of his head.
"Well, I need to go call the others and tell them that you are alright." Matt said as he got to his feet. He groaned slightly as he stretched his back out. "Fucking shitty fucking uncomfortable fucking chairs." He mumbled as he walked out.
"So how are you really?" Wufei asked, as he throw his legs up on the bed and leaned back next to him.
Duo sighed and scooted further down so that he could lean on his boyfriend. Wufei opened his arms and pulled him up against his chest. Turning his head slightly to avoid the stitches, Duo put his head down on the other's shoulders and hid his face in his neck.
He relaxed with a deep breath of the familiar smell of his lover. Wufei didn't say anything, he just held him tight and stroked his back.
"I'm tired, I feel like throwing up, my head hurts, I feel sluggish and I have a really, really, really bad taste in my mouth."
Wufei laughed slightly. "My poor angel, most of those things I can't do anything about, but maybe the last one."
A smooth hand took a hold of his chin and carefully angled his head up. Duo let his eyes slide shut as his lips met Wufei's. Slowly they danced against each other. The taste of coffee, something sweet and his lover invaded his mouth.
Wufei pulled back with a smile. "I'm going to have to agree with you. That really was a very bad taste." He said before kissing him again.
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It was dark when Duo woke up and a quick look at his wristwatch told his that it was seven in the evening. He had spent the entire day at the hospital, falling in and out of sleep but always with Wufei by his side. This was why he was a bit taken aback when he woke up alone in his hospital bed. Looking around he soon found his lover standing over by the window with his back to him. It looked like he was deep in thought.
"Wu?" He asked quietly.
"Yeah?" The Asian responded without turning around but Duo did notice that his back had tensed noticeably at the sound of his voice.
"Are you okay?"
There was a slight hesitation before he responded. "I'm fine. The doctor was here earlier and we can leave as soon as Matt gets back with the car."
"Oh." Duo opened his mouth to say something more but he didn't know what. It was strange, he had never had any problems talking to Wufei before. But it was just something about talking to Wufei's tensed back that set him on edge. The hospital room was quiet as both men stared out into the air.
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Duo had called his parents in the car on the way back and convinced them that he was fine and that they didn't have to come home earlier. He would admit that he had down played the whole thing but he just couldn't stand it when people tried to take care of him, especially when there was nothing wrong with him. His head hurt a bit but other than that, everything was fine. Well, he was fine, but the wasn't so sure about Wufei who was acting strange.
Ever since Duo had woken up, Wufei had been distant. It wasn't that he was shying away from him and he didn't seemed to be angry with him, not really. Just distant. Wufei was thinking hard about something but when Duo had asked him what it was he was thinking about, his lover had just shaken his head and looked out the window.
He didn't act all that differently towards Duo, he still held his hand when ever he wanted to and he still did everything to make him comfortable. But there was still something in his eyes that told him that Wufei wasn't really there. Especially since Wufei had hardly said a word to him the whole ride back.Duo tried to start up a few random conversations but got only tense replies back. It was almost like when Wufei meets someone that he doesn't know, like he would talk to a stranger on the bus. Duo tried to ignore it, but it hurt.
He wanted his Wufei back. He wanted the cuddly sweet man that kissed him even when his mouth tasted like crap, who called him an angel and stroked his hair.
He knew that he was pushing and that he should just hold back and let Wufei work out whatever it was that he was thinking about on his own. But the urge to touch, to cling only got bigger as he tried to restrain himself. It burned that he even had to try. He had never had to hold back with Wufei before, he had always given in to his impulses and Wufei would just smile. His arms ached to hold his lover close but he knew that he shouldn't.
They were both silent as they got home. The house was dark and Duo bit his lip anxiously as Wufei didn't immediately switch on all the lights as he usually did. He followed Wufei's back through the dark hallway, up the stairs and into his old bedroom. Not once did Wufei even glance his way.
Wufei emidiantly started changing his clothes for bed with his back turned to him. The clothes that his lover usually would have folded and put on the computer chair was thrown in a heap on the floor. Duo watched as the hair band that he had spent so long to convince Wufei to wear unceremoniously fell to the floor. Panic bubbled in his chest and he didn't stop to think about what he was doing or the consequences as he throw himself at his lover's back, making both of them tumble down on the bed.
Wufei's fell head first on the bed, barely missing hitting his head on the head board. "What are-" Wufei started but got cut off as Duo turned his boyfriend's head towards him and kissed him messily. Wufei made a slight move to get away but Duo refused to let that happen and kissed him deeper as his hand palmed the Asians crouch. Fumbling to get Wufei's boxers off with one hand, the other quickly found one of the bottles of baby oil that could always be found in his nightstand since his early teens. Wufei was trying to say something but Duo was far too scared to hear what he had to say to even think about stopping. He pulled Wufei up on his knees and spread his legs so that he could fit between them. Fumbling to get the bottle open before he quickly prepared Wufei. 'Too quickly' a voice whispered from the back of his head but Duo ignored it. Lining himself up he pushed in while Wufei was shivering with his face buried in his arms.
The sex was rushed as they both almost desperately climbed towards their release. It was over far too quickly and Duo collapsed next to his lover.
Duo tiredly wrapped his arms around Wufei's chest as the other man rolled over on his back. Dark hair tickled his face as he rubbed his nose against the soft slightly sweaty skin behind his lover's ear. Taking a deep breath, he finally let himself relax. He was so sick of being this paranoid. Wufei was probably just tired, Matt had said that he had been pretty shaken up by the whole thing so it was probably just something left from that. It wasn't like he could demand that Wufei had to be the perfect attentive boyfriend every minute of every day. It was probably nothing and everything was going to be just fine the next day. His parents and Q were going to get back sometime tomorrow so they could all spend the day together. No worries, just some peace and quiet.
But no matter what his mind tried to tell him, Duo still fell asleep with a hollow feeling in his chest when Wufei's arms didn't wrap themselves around him like they usually did.
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Duo didn't know what had woke him up. He just knew that something was wrong. The room was dark and a look over at his glow in the dark batman clock told him the it was in the middle of the night.
"Wu?" Duo mumbled in question when he fumbled over the cold empty space next to him on the narrow twin bead.
"I'm here." A tired voice spoke from somewhere in the dark.
Duo sat up with blurry eyes and tried to make out his lover. A creaking noise from his old computer chair told him where Wufei was seated.
There was a long silence.
"Why are you awake? You're usually out before your head hits the pillow." Duo joked awkwardly, trying to break the tense atmosphere in the room.
Wufei sighed. "I never went to sleep. I've been thinking... and I- I now know that there is something that I... have to say to you."
Duo almost stopped breathing at the sound of his lover's tense and somewhat nervous voice.
"I wasn't going to say anything about it, but then... all of this happened." Wufei's weak voice spoke from inside the dark.
A cold feeling spread through Duo's body and suddenly he knew this was it. This was were the dream ended.
"I didn't want to do anything to hurt our relationship but..." Wufei sighed. "This... I have to do this because I can't stay quiet anymore. I just can't."
Duo swallowed thickly. It felt like his throat had shrunken as his breath came in short shallow rasps.
The computer chair creaked. "This isn't something new. I- I actually started thinking about it when we were back home... but I told myself that I was wrong to even think about it. Why risk a good thing, you know. But.. then we came here and I got to see a whole different side of you, a side that you had been hiding from me... It's been hanging over my head for quite a while now. I've been able to ignore it but this... this just..." Wufei trailed off and there was a long silence in the dark room.
'So this is how it ends.' Duo thought as he pulled his knees up against his chest. He should have known that it was too good to be true. As his eyes started to adjust he could see the hunched over shape of his lover over by the desk with the help of the pale moonlight that were shining trough the window. The distance between them had never felt so far. Duo wanted to be angry, wanted to protest loudly against the incoming end, but he could hardly force himself to breath.
He felt like he was sitting on a train rail, just waiting for it. He could hear the sound of the incoming train and the vibrations in the ground but he couldn't do anything to save himself.
He desperately tried to think if there was anything that he could do or say to stop this, to make his love stay but there was nothing. Duo closed his eyes and tried to stop his tears.
"Wufei." He pleaded.
"Please, just let me say this. If I don't do it now I might never get the courage to do it. I- I just..." His lover took a shaky breath.
"Yesterday might just be- no, I know that yesterday was the worst day of my life."
Duo flinched.
"I saw you leave the table and I just knew that something was wrong. Something in the way you moved just screamed that you were hiding something. I was going to follow you but there was so many people there and I hardly had time to blink before you had disappeared in the crowd." Wufei took a deep, shaky breath before continuing. "Then when we finally found you... I- I could hardly believe my eyes."
Duo ducked his head to hid his burning eyes.
"He was touching you, like he had a right to do it while you were just hanging there in his arms... I've never been that angry in my life."
There was another long silence and Duo struggled not to let his painful breathing be too loud.
"I might be new to love, relationships and all this but I- I know myself and I want- I- I know when there's-... there's- when it's... shit." The chair creaked and he heard Wufei get to his feet.
Wufei's steps echoed painfully in his head as they came towards him. Duo knew that he probably looked totally pathetic where he was curled up like a frightened child with his head bowed. He knew that he should straighten up and look his -oh no, no, please, god no, NO, no, no- soon to be ex-boyfriend in the eye but he could do nothing but curl up tighter and hope that the dark would hide him as much as possible.
Wufei's voice spoke out from next to the bed. "I've been thinking about it for quite a while but I talked myself out of it because... we were good together and I didn't want to..." Wufei cut himself off in annoyance. "Damn, this is hard. I'm just trying to say that- I want to- that I think we should..." Wufei stopped and the silence that followed was like a physical touch. A cold harsh touch. "I convinced myself that we were fine." Wufei sighed.
"But then we came here and I got to see a whole different side of you that you had only let me see glimpses of before. I know now that you were holding back and hiding those sides of yourself, showing me someone who wasn't fully real... Maybe we don't know each other all that well. Maybe we could need more time but... no, I doubt that it will change my mind." Duo felt the bed dip next to him and he tried not to flinch.
"I might regret the way I said it because god knows I'm not handling this speech all that well. I'm not trying to make this more complicated then it is but, but I just want to explain why I'm doing this... It's selfish I know and I know that there is a risk... that things probably wont be the same as before and for that I'm sorry." Wufei's voice sounded heavy and slow like he was stalling to say the words that he was working himself up to saying.
Duo peeked up from behind his arms to look at the dark shape that was his love. The pale light from the moon played over Wufei's frowning face and Duo's fingers itched to stroke those lines away. But he was about to lose that right.
How was he going to go on after this? How was he going to keep living his life? Duo tried to imagine going back to class knowing that Wufei was sitting all alone up there in the back. Did Wufei still want to be his friend? Duo didn't know if he could do that. No, he couldn't go back. It would be torture to be close to Wufei but not be allowed to touch him. It had been hard enough to keep his hand off of him when they were just friends, but now when he knew what his skin felt like, what it felt like to be touched by him, to be loved by him, to love him so much that it hurt, there was no way that he could do it. Duo wanted to die.
"So what I wanted to do was to give you this." Duo looked over at his lover and just stared on the small velvet covered jewelry box that Wufei was holding out in the palm of his hand. Wufei's shaking hands clumsily opened the lid. "It's just a promise ring, so it doesn't have to be that serious."
Duo just gaped with his eyes wide as he stared at the golden ring held out to him.
Wufei flinched. "I knew this was a bad idea. Shit, I'm sorry." He closed the lid with a sharp click. "I wasn't going to give it to you, but last night I kept thinking that if you would just wake up I would do it. It was all I could think about in the ambulance. That I should just have given it to you, no matter how stupid it would have been. You were lying there with a acid mask over your face and I could barely hold your hand for all the wires and tubes. You wouldn't wake up and I- I was so scared, so fucking scared. I kept thinking, over and over again that I should have told you that I should just have given it to you. I'm sorry, but I promised myself that if you would just wake up I would-"
Duo cut him off by taking a hold of his lover's shoulders and trowing him down on the bed. His hands fumbled as they clawed at Wufei's boxers and a primal whine made it's way out of his throat. Ripping the boxers off his lover's legs he pressed his naked body against Wufei's. Taking a hold of the Asian's hip, he lifted it up in his lap with Wufei's legs spread wide. Wufei was still slick from their last round and Duo slid himself in with one fast motion.
"I'll take that as a yes." Wufei panted as he clung to his lover.
"Fuck yes." Duo hissed out as he spread Wufei's legs out wider. "You're mine."
Wufei smiled with his head thrown back. "Yes."
"And you'll never leave me."
Wufei's nails bit into his shoulder blades. "Never."
Duo almost sobbed at the words. It was too much. Emotions rose and fell inside of him to the point that the only thing he could do was to drive himself in fast and deep into his lover. He didn't know any other way, it was the only thing he could do to handle this emotional overload.
Wufei pushed his hip back to meet his trusts, making Duo gasp. "Ah, Wuu, yes, yes just like that." He groaned happily as he trusted in long deep motions with a tight grip at his lover's thighs. Wufei didn't respond in words, he just looked at him with so much love in his eyes that it made Duo dizzy. He needed more, needed to get closer. Wufei's breath were coming in short fast gasps as he held his legs wide to allow Duo's almost vicious thrusts.
Duo purred when his lover licked his way down his throat. "Mmmm, fuck baby yes. God, you feel so good" He gasped as Wufei bit hard in to his shoulder followed by a wet lick with the flat of his tongue. "Aaahh, you feel so fucking good." He moaned as he moved in and out in long hard strokes.
"You look so good, beautiful, mine, you're mine. Love you. God. I love you so much." Dark legs wrapped themselves tightly around his hip and he soon felt heels digging into the back of his thighs, urging him on. "More, yes, fuck mmMhh, yeah." The way Wufei was moving against him was maddening. "Fuck yes, fuck yes, fuck yes. that's so good, fuck yes." He chanted breathlessly.
Wufei was jerking himself off in times with his thrusts, panting with his head thrown back. Duo bent down to suck and lick his lover's neck, shuddering in desire as he felt Wufei's quiet, needy breaths so close to his ear. A sweaty hand made it's way down his back and in between his cheeks where it circled his opening before pushing in.
That was all it took. Duo shuddered as pleasure rolled over him and light flashed before his eyes. Life could not get better than this.
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And we are back to the fluff, tell me, what did you think of the little trip to angst-land?
A huge thanks to my wonderful beta for all her help.
No time to answer the reviews since I just realized that my beta was done with this chapter and I'm leaving very soon (it's time to dance my ass off! YES!)
But I have to say thank you to Christalake who was all upset for my sake because she thought I deserved more reviews -hugs her- I really don't know why people don't review this story. I have a few theories. It might be because 2x5 isn't all that popular... but there are still people reading it... it might be because it's kind of happy, I think people mostly reviews stories with angst... but no that's not right ether. I almost got Duo raped and that got me even less reviews, lol. -shrugs- I don't know, it might simply be because people don't like it enough to have anything to say, who know. Well anyway, thank you for you kind words and thanks to everyone that actually left reviews, I really appreciate it