IM WILLIN' TO DO WHAT EVER MAKES YOU HAPPY...

Equality

"Bella..." I heard my name being murmured softly in my ear. I moaned and rolled over. I didn't want to be woken up, I was so very tired. Yesterdays events had put me under a little bit of emotional stress. I was alright, but it took me awhile to get to sleep, and even then I tossed and turned all night. So here I was, extremely tired and, being woken up by Jacob, he was calling my name and kissing me softly. Any other time, I would have loved to be kissed awake, how cute was that!, but not right now, all I wanted to do was go back to sleep.

I looked over at the clock, it was only 6am! I knew he wanted to get an early start, so we could get to our final destination, but I was really, really tired.

"Bella, sweetheart, we need to leave, you can sleep in the truck" he offered, trying to get me out of bed. I knew that his pleading was for my benefit, because if he wanted me up that badly, he could just pick me up. I thought about how much I really didn't want to be carried, and that was enough to get me out of bed. I stood up slowly, my eyes had to adjust to the light radiating form the lamp, the sun had not risen completely and it would have still been dark in the hotel room.

We had packed up our clothes last night, and Jacob, on his shopping trip, had bought us new suitcases, they were small, and absolutely perfect for the little amount of clothing we had. While Jacob took our bags to the truck, I paid the hotel bill, knowing that when Jacob came back to pay it, he would be angry that I had done it. He didn't yell or anything, he only frowned slightly and asked

"why wouldn't you just let me pay it?" he didn't sound angry, he just sounded worn-out. And I almost felt bad for stressing him out further, but I needed him to know that he wasn't the only person in this relationship.

"Because Jacob, relationships need to have some equality." I said simply. And it reminded me about the argument I had with Edward in the hospital after my 'accident' and I frowned a little. Thinking that maybe he hadn't changed me because the idea of having me around forever made him sick. But then why did he even bother saving me? Why not just let James kill me? Maybe because he hadn't had all of his fun with the 'human.' I didn't want to think about it any longer, it was upsetting me, it didn't matter much anymore why he had toyed with my heart, because although it had hurt, and still did a little, I had Jacob to make it all better.

"I know, and your absolutely right, im sorry" he replied. That had surprised me. I thought that he was going to be difficult. He had even apologized. At that moment I understood clearly how different Jacob and Edward really were. Edward always had to be in control, but Jacob understood fairness, and the idea of partnership. I liked this so much better.

"Thanks Jake" I said smiling, taking his hand in my own, and leading him outside toward the truck. I had noticed on my way out, that the woman behind the counter was smiling at us. And I wondered how mushy we looked to people. But I didn't care. I loved being romantic with Jacob.

We were on the road again, talking about nothing really important for a while. When the conversation suddenly turned serious, again. All Jakes doing, of course. I learned my lesson from the previous night. I wouldn't jump to any conclusions, I would let him say what he had to say and not over react.

"Bella, not as complicating as last nights question, but I have something else to ask you" I nodded to him and he took that as his sign to continue.

"I just want to know when you want to get married" automatically, I looked down at the ring. 'When did I want to get married?' I wasn't really sure. I hadn't thought all that much about it. Not that I had any aversion to marrying Jacob, because nothing would make me happier. It was just that I had been so preoccupied with everything else.

Before, if someone had asked me that, my answer would have been never. I mean, I didn't want to be like other people, who get married right away, and then break up. But what Jacob and I shared was something deeper than most people could even comprehend, I was certain. So we would be ok. I had a feeling that our love was strong enough to last.

But what if it wasn't, I thought. Well there was no real way to tell, other than basing my decision on how I felt about Jacob. I knew that I couldn't let go of him. And I did want to have such a powerful claim on such a wonderful man. I would be Mrs. Jacob Black, Bella black. That sounded so right together. I knew he was still waiting for an answer, if I took too long he'd think I was doubting him, or that I didn't want to marry him.

"Soon, but not too soon" I said. " I want to wait until we are settled and safe. And then we can get married, and maybe even invite our friends and families." The only friend that I actually thought about inviting was Angela, but I'm sure Jacob would want Quil, at least, there. If Embry couldn't come too. But maybe by then, it would be ok, and we would be able to go back to forks.

He smiled. Seeming content with my answer. And there was nothing more to say at that moment. Jacob took my hand in his and whispered a soft 'I love you' I returned it with a kiss to his cheek. I would have loved to kiss his beautiful full lips but he was driving and I didn't want him to crash or anything. I wasn't sure if either of us could live through that. He was a werewolf, but what did that truly mean? We hadn't really gotten a chance to talk about it. I didn't know much about it, other than they protect people, and the simple fact that I didn't care what he was. I'd ask later, I told myself silently not to forget.

I was still tired, I hadn't gone back to sleep in the car like I thought I would have. Jacob had started a conversation and I couldn't not talk to him. But now that it was silent again, I felt like my eyelids were way too heavy, and I closed them drifting off to sleep, with Jacobs warm hand in mine. And I had the most wonderful dream. It started out, on the cliff near the reservation. The one Jacob and I had passed on our way to ride our newly fixed bikes. But the entire group of boys was there, including Sam. But he didn't look evil, vicious, or mocking. He was smiling at me, no at Jacob and I. And I was in a wedding gown, looking into Jacobs blackish brown, loving eyes. It was absolutely gorgeous, and I wondered if getting married on that cliff was possible. It would be an excellent place to get married, over looking the water, possibly a sunset?

I woke up a short time after that. It was in the afternoon and Jacob was still driving. He saw me sit up and look at him. He turned to me, smiling

"are you hungry? we can stop and get some food." I hadn't thought about being hungry, but now that he had mentioned it, I was.

"Sure Jake" I answered, still kind of sleepy.

"So, what did you dream about?" Jacob asked. Smirking. He gave me a knowing glance, as if he already knew what I had dreamed. And I felt like I was missing out on a joke. And then it donned on me, I had been talking in my sleep and he had heard it all.

"What did I say?" I asked, not sure if I should be embarrassed or not.

"Well, you kept saying 'Jake love me forever' and 'I do, I do'" he answered grinning. I smiled too, no I shouldn't be embarrassed, I was happy that I was dreaming of our wedding. Well more accurately, I was happy we were having a wedding, this couldn't get any more perfect. Surprisingly, I was looking forward to it. I just hoped it wouldn't ruin everything we had. My biggest fear was that once we were married, he would realize what a huge mistake he made, and leave me. But I reminded myself that this was Jacob, and he wouldn't do that to me, I had doubted his love enough for a lifetime, huh? Yeah I did!

We rode in silence. Jacob was concentrating on driving, trying to find a restaurant, and I was wrapped up in my own thoughts. Mostly the wedding, and I wondered what our final destination would be. I hadn't even thought to pay attention to the signs. But they made no difference, I would only know where we were heading, but not where we were stopping. Sigh.

A little while later, Jake found a small diner, you know one of those that looks light it belongs in a horror movie? Well in all fairness, a werewolf was about to walk in. Although he wasn't evil like how they were portrayed in film and most literature, thank goodness. He wasn't going to walk in and attack unsuspecting citizens.

We walked in, causing a little bell hanging on the door frame to jingle. Right away we were given a booth near the back, by a waitress with lots of curly red hair, who liked to chew her gum loud, that would have been real disturbing, but her bright smile and warm eyes told me that she was genuinely nice, so I could deal with a little noise from her gum. Jacob and I both ordered orange juice and breakfast. It was the afternoon but we hadn't eaten this morning so it didn't seem too inappropriate. Waffles for Jacob, pancakes for me, and don't forget lots of syrup. We ate and chatted.

"so, how do you like running away so far?" Jacob asked playfully, but I could see the curiosity written clearly across his face.

"I'm enjoying myself very much, but I knew I would, after all I'm with you" I answered, smiling.

He beamed, and I was pleased to have made him happy.

I looked at his smiling face, and I had never really noticed how him smiling made me feel. I always knew that his pain was my pain and him happy made me happy. But now, as I looked at him from across the table, I realized that it made me love him even more. But it wasn't really the smile itself, it was what it represented, his joy, his pleasure, his care free attitude. His free spirit and how it had helped to free mine too. I really did love this kid.

"Would you allow me to pick up this check?" I asked Jacob when we had finished eating. He opened his mouth to protest, and I raised my eyebrows and pouted innocently, knowing that he was going to say no, but begging him not to.

"Yes Bella you may pick up the check, but may I inform you that I do have a job waiting for me when we get to where we are going." he said. And I wondered when he had planned all of this out.

"Where" I asked, curious.

"An auto body shop, where else" he said in what can only be describes as a 'shouldn't you know that already' kind of voice.

Well I did know that he liked to work on cars, but I never really thought of it as a career opportunity. But thinking about it now, it sounded perfect for Jacob.

"Where am I going to work?" I wondered out loud. I was really just talking to myself but Jake answered anyway

"as it is, right now, you wont have to work, ill be making enough money for both of us" he told me, sounding pleased with himself.

"You know that I can't let you pay for everything, at least let me work part-time" I tried to reason with him.

"Why won't you just let me take care of you Bella?" he looked so hurt in that one moment, that I almost felt like crying. He really knew how to provoke really strong emotional reactions from me. Stupid perfect boy that I was in love with.

"It isn't that I don't want you taking care of me, but I can't just let you work all the time to support us. Not only would I miss you because you would be working way too much, but you would wear yourself out. Part of taking care of me, is being with me, and also I've told you before that the equality thing really bothers me" I concluded, hoping that he would understand.

And he did understand, he caved. Telling me 'what ever makes you happy Bella" Yay!

A/N: ok so just like i promised it was a nice and long chap...so yea plz review, ill love you forever! and i think that you may want this update..in the next few chap. things get kinda interesting! so you know our deal reviews equal updates...k thx bye!!!