He looked at me with an unemotional face. But his eyes were glittering.

"Severus, I love you...I know I do!"

"I know you do. Now, are you sure you don't want to take a break for your feelings, for us?"

"Yes, I'm sure I don't want to part!" He looked sceptical for a second, and then said,

"We'll see how it goes, and if you still feel insecure about us by next week, we'll have to do something..."

"WHY?" Did he really not want to see me or what?

"I don't want you to be uncomfortable with us; I want you to be ready and comfortable. I wanted us to do this when you spoke of going too fast. I don't want you to be unhappy."

"I'm not unhappy; I'm just confused, well, my feelings are..."

"That's the problem! I want your feelings to be settled and not all over the place before we go any further." He was right; I couldn't fight with him anymore. It was better for the both of us. But I didn't want to part with him!

"How about," I said slowly, "we spend a normal week, and if I still feel this way, we shall do the parting thing. BUT ONLY at the end of the week? Is that ok?" He nodded and said,

"All I want is you to be happy and loved by me in a proper way. I don't want us to have to do this either." I smiled weakly. He does want the best for me.

Severus was trying to correct papers, but he just couldn't. She kept coming back into his mind. He didn't know what to do with her. He wanted her to be happy and comfortable with their relationship, but ever since they had had the "fast" talk, she was being paranoid. She thought he was hiding something from her, and she was right. But he pretended he wasn't. For her sake and his.

He wanted her to take a break from him so she could at least have a moment's peace from love. It would be better for her nerves, but she was claiming she couldn't be without him. Did she really love him or what she just trying to get over Black by using him/ using him to try and get over Black? Maybe her feelings for him weren't true, and that's what her heart was saying to her. He loved her and did everything he could and just after three weeks it failed.

Three weeks, he thought, had it been that short? It felt like they had been together for ages. All the love, gifts, moments and even snogs that they had had, all of it, in three weeks? They had lasted three years before, why couldn't it work the same this time? He could never have Lily, so he wanted this one, but not more than Lily Evans. He had to do something, and the only thing he could come up with was time apart? He didn't want to lose her, and he almost did by proposing that idea.

There was only one thing left he could do...

Third of December

Dear Diary,

It has been a week since we talked about my feelings, and I have to say I have chosen what I want. I chose this by considering what could happen in my future, my life and how I really feel about Severus. I was ready to restart and come back to life. My feelings are now in order. I didn't even need the parting time, since Severus and I didn't really speak to each other this week. So I went down to his quarters to tell him the news.

I knocked, and he opened the door to let me in. He showed me into his living room. I sat on the chair, as he sat in front of me. I took a deep breath and said,

"I came here to tell you something, an important decision."

"I have something to say too." He did? I was curious to hear what it was...

"Well...um...you start."

"No," he said gently. He looked sad. "You go first. I want to hear what your feelings are..."

"Why don't we do it together?" He smiled a little; my childish behaviour did work!

"Sure," he replied. I counted to three and we said,

"Severus, I love you and I want to stay with you."

"We should break up."

Then we both screamed, "WHAT?!"

"You do love me!" he said.

"You want to leave me?!" I cried. At this point, my feelings were almost back to coming undone. I thought he loved me! Why did he want to leave me? Was it the fact he loved Lily too much? Why is he so surprised that I do love him?