Elena couldn't sleep. She was far to keyed up; she lay on the floor with Damon. He was fast asleep and she rested her head on his chest and listened to his heart thumping away, it was oddly soothing. She had a lot on her mind and she knew she had a lot to discuss with Damon when he woke up.

When Elena said her wedding vows over five years ago she'd meant them. She'd been the best wife to Doug as she could and she loved him, she did, but things were just so different now. For the last year Doug had been distant and cold towards her most of the time. Back when they were dating he'd been all flowers and candy but now he seemed bored of her and he spent most of his free time on his lap top. Elena had blamed herself for his lack of interest, she was unable to give him a child and she desperately wanted to be a mother, it was everything she'd ever dreamt of.

And here she was now, lying naked wrapped around her best friend. She'd broken her wedding vows, she'd cheated on her husband, she should despise herself but although she felt guilty about what she'd done just hours ago she didn't regret it. Damon made her feel special, he made her feel loved. He worshiped her and she knew it was wrong that she'd betrayed Doug but it wasn't as if she'd just had a one night stand with a stranger because she wasn't getting the love and attention she desperately craved at home, she'd been overcome by a tsunami of devotion for her best friend. She loved Damon and she knew she didn't love him on the same level that he loved her but she was close to it. She knew she should be disgusted with herself and that she should be running home and begging Doug to forgive her but she couldn't bear to get up from the floor and leave Damon, she felt safe here with his arms around her. She always felt safe when she was with him, he always protected her and comforted her but at the same time he kept things exciting, Damon had always challenged her as they grew up, never letting her give up or fail.

Elena snaked her fingers lightly over Damon's stomach feeling the soft hairs of his happy trail. Was it so wrong of her to want Damon? In her head she could justify it but she knew it was wrong. She was going to have to choose between the two men in her life. Would Doug forgive her? Could she properly be with Damon, could they take that final step from best friends to partners? She knew they worked as lovers and her whole body was thrilled at the memory of their love making earlier. She was still in awe at how good they went together…

There were too many thoughts going around in her head.

"Stop it." Damon mumbled quietly

Elena jumped a little, she though he was asleep.

"What?" she stopped moving her hand over his stomach

"Whatever it is you're thinking." He murmured

"How do you know that I'm thinking?" she asked as she resumed touching him

"Because I can feel it, I can feel you're distracted." He said gently

"You know me too well." Elena smiled. She kissed his chest briefly.

"I do." He smiled

They fell into a comfortable silence for a while. Elena glanced at the clock, 5am. Doug hadn't even called…

Elena yawned and nuzzled herself closer into Damon's body.

"You have no idea how good this feels." Damon said, squeezing her a little tighter for a second "I've been waiting for ever to hold you like this."

"I know what you mean." Elena said honestly "this feels good."

"Can you do something for me?" Damon asked

"What's that?" Elena asked

"Can you please go to sleep, I don't want you worrying. We can worry in the morning." He said gently

"It's almost morning." Elena stated "And I need to pee…"

Damon laughed "Well go." He said

"I'm too comfortable." She complained "Why is your bathroom so far away?"

"Sorry." He apologised

"I forgive you." She smiled; she moved and kissed his chastely on the lips. "Be right back."

While she was in the bathroom she heard Damon shout up

"Do you want some coffee seeing as how you won't go to sleep?"

"Please." Elena yelled back.

She surveyed herself in the mirror as she washed her hands. God she had that "just fucked" hair going on. She ran her fingers through it and flattened it before she padded down the stairs. She could hear the kettle boiling from the kitchen, just as she hopped off the last stair Damon came out of the kitchen and grabbed her around the waist.

"Ah!" she squealed somewhere in between shock and delight. "Damon!"

"Do you even know how sexy you look right now?" he said in a tone that made her whole body flush

"Hardly…" Elena said feeling self-conscious

"You're so beautiful." Damon said lifting her chin with his finger

"Kiss me." Elena commanded, the words coming out before she realised she'd said them. She pushed herself forward in his arms and kissed him. Her hands cradled his face while his clutched her hips. The kiss was hot, all tongues and teeth. They were both groaning and panting into to the others mouth. Damon's hand went around her hip and he pulled her closer into him. She could feel his erection against her stomach.

She pulled her mouth away from his briefly

"Fuck me." She begged

In a flash Damon had her pinned against the wall. This was the hottest thing she'd even done. He lifted her in his strong arms and lowered her onto his erection.

"Oh God!" Elena cried out

"Yes, Come on Elena." Damon encouraged

He set the pace, giving her exactly what she needed, and she needed it hard.

His thrust up into while his strong arms held her steady.

"I'm going to cum… It's coming…" she cried

"No…not yet." Damon said "Hold it in Baby…"

"I… I can't…" Elena said, trying her best to ignore the intense building sensation

"Try harder." Damon said, "Concentrate…"

He slowed his motions and Elena whimpered.

He grabbed her thighs and hooked his hands at the back of her knees before he stepped away from the wall a little.

"Move, please…" Elena begged

Damon bent his knees a little then began bouncing Elena up and down.

Elena cried out at the sensation as his hard cock hit a special spot inside her

"Right there!" she cried and Damon continued bouncing her.

Elena's orgasm was building and growing. Her whole body was shaking now

"I can't…" she cried as the overwhelming pleasure increased further "Stop…it's too much…"

Damon ignored her calls and continued…

"Come on Elena… Cum for me baby!"

Elena exploded on command experiencing a world shattering orgasm. Damon came along with her and she milked him for everything she could. Her pleasure went on and on and she clung onto his body for support.

Damon fell against the wall and slid down onto the floor with Elena still on him. She sat on his lap as she came back down to earth, he was still inside her.

"Damon that was…" Elena panted, lost for words

"I know." He agreed. He kissed her head gently "Wow."

They stayed there in that position for a while, both unwilling to move.

"You're cold." Damon said eventually.

"Where's that coffee?" Elena teased

"I'll get it now."

Elena stood up from his lap and Damon got up and went to the kitchen. She walked into the other room and dressed herself.

"Here you go." Damon said handing her a large cup of coffee.

"Thank you." She smiled as she took the cup.

"It was my pleasure." Damon said and he kissed her

"Hmm…" Elena groaned in contentment "Do me a favour and put some clothes on, you're rather distracting…"

Damon smirked but did as he was told.

"Better?" he asked when he was decent

"Not better…" she smiled "let's call it bearable."

Damon sat down. "So." He said "let's discuss this like adults…"

Elena smiled a little, this was so surreal. "Do you want to start?"

Damon cleared his throat "I don't really know what to say…I guess I just want you to know that last night and well just before really meant something to me. I know it's different for you and there's Doug and the kids but I don't want this to be over…"

Before Elena could reply Damon's cell rang. He pressed the ignore button.

"Sorry, go on." He said

"I'm going to need a little time to think about this. I'm going to have to tell Doug…"

Damon butted in "Only if you want to, I mean if you want to go back to how we were before then I don't want you ending your marriage. I won't tell Doug either…"

"I know you wouldn't but I can't just go back home and pretend that this didn't happen. It's too big Damon, it's not like it was a drunken mistake, this changes things. I don't want to tell you that I'm going to leave him and that I'm moving in and we could live happily ever after because I'm not sure, I just don't know what the right thing to do is."

"I understand" Damon nodded "Really, I do. Like I said there's no pressure for you to decide, I want you to be sure. The only thing that concerns me is Doug, what if you tell him and you decide that you guys will start afresh. He's hardly going to let you near me again. That would be the end of us completely and I can't have that…"

Elena bit her lip. He was right, of course he was. There was no way this was going to work; she was going to lose one or the other.

"Damon you know I'd never stop being there for you, no matter what happens with Doug…"

Damon's phone rang out again.

"You can take the call." Elena added.

"It's my publicist, what's she calling at this time for?" Damon wondered aloud

"Hello?" he said.

Elena went back to drinking her coffee. She zoned out as he talked on the phone. Maybe she should just cut her losses and leave Doug… but the house, the mortgage… how could she do it?

"Wow, thank you, bye Linda." Damon said

Elena snapped out of her day dream

"Linda just got a call; she couldn't wait to phone me… they want me to go to London on a book tour and I've been asked to go on Paul Livingstone's talk show…"

"Paul Livingstone!" Elena shrieked, her life drama forgotten for a minute "Oh my God, Damon! That's incredible…congratulations!"

"I can't believe it. It's amazing…" he said

"When do you leave?" she asked excitedly

"In two days." He said with a frown "It's bad timing."

"Damon." Elena said seriously "This is an incredible opportunity, you have to take it. I'm so proud of you."

"But I can't just leave you now… what about Doug… and us…?"

"Maybe it's a blessing in disguise." Elena said "It will give us some time apart; it will give me time to think…"

"I'll be gone for nine days." Damon added

"It will be fine." Elena encouraged "I won't let you miss this opportunity and I'll look after Jinx too."

"If you need me I can come straight back." Damon said seriously

"I promise I'll call you if I need you." Elena swore "We'll get this mess sorted out."

A/N sorry guys but this chapter is so messy! I wrote it in minutes and I don't have time to fix it. I'm off on a little trip for the next few days so there won't be so many updates. Thank you all so much for the lovely reviews! Dr. B X