Chapter Ten - Revelations
It was beginning to get light out and she was aware of wind blowing strongly against her face. She shivered and curled closer into the warmth that held her. Opening her eyes, Kagome realized with a start that they were flying. She looked up at Yue in wonder. The pure white wings on his back made him seem like an angel. A guardian angel.
How fitting, she thought before sending to Yue. Why didn't you tell me you had wings?
He looked down at her. You never asked. Do they bother you?
Of course, not. I think they're beautiful. Besides, they're a part of you.
He let out a silent sigh of relief. He had been afraid that she would shun him because he was so different. Then again, she traveled with a hanyou, a kitsune, a demon exterminator, and a perverted monk. Not only that, but she herself was magical. So his fears had been completely unfounded now that he thought about it.
We'll have to go on by foot soon. My wings are starting to get tired.
Just a little longer, please? I like flying with you. Her chocolate brown eyes were imploring.
Yue suppressed the smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. I suppose there is no harm in it.
Kagome flashed him dazzling smile and snuggled deeper into his hold. The guardian struggled against the urge to kiss her. She loves Inuyasha, he reminded himself. But she looked wonderful with the wind blowing through her raven locks and her cheeks rosy from the brisk air.
She looked up at him and noticed that he was straining to keep them aloft now. Her brows furrowed. We should land. You're exhausted.
He didn't reply, but the girl saw the gratitude flash through his eyes. With a shock, she realized that he would have kept flying until his wings gave out from fatigue if she asked it of him. He must really care for me.
* * *
As they traveled towards their campsite of the night before Kero noticed that everyone was on edge and ready to go mad with worry for Kagome. Either they didn't care about Yue or they just considered him too powerful to be concerned. The only one who didn't seem upset at all was the Card Mistress. Eventually, curiosity got the better of him and he settled on her shoulder.
"Sakura, why is it that you actually look happy that Kagome and Yue are missing?" he asked.
"Because, Kero-chan, wherever they are they're together."
Kero was confused. "So? What does that have to do with anything? Besides, of course, that Yue can protect her."
Sakura laughed. "Kagome can protect herself. There's only one person Yue needs to protect her from; himself. And I don't think our miko friend will mind too much if he failed."
"Huh?"
She sighed as if explaining something to a child. "Yue is in love with Kagome. I can see it every time he looks at her. I'm surprised you haven't noticed. And Kagome is in love with Yue."
The little guardian's jaw dropped. "How can you tell? She doesn't act like it."
"I know." She giggled. "Amazing that she could hide something like that better than Yue can. Anyway, she told me and Sango when we were bathing the other day before the Dark Twin and Dark Fight showed up."
Kero gave a low whistle. "I thought she was in love with Inuyasha. Boy, was I wrong."
"You're not too far off. She used to be in love with Inuyasha, but then she grew tired of competing for his affection with someone named Kikyo."
He gave her a confused look. "But he loves her, not Kikyo. It's so obvious."
Sakura sighed. "Well, it's too late for that now, because she doesn't love him as anything more than a friend anymore."
They grew silent at that, neither of them realizing that they had just broken the hanyou's heart. His keen ears had focused on the conversation the instant Kagome's name was mentioned. And now he felt like he had when Sesshoumaru stuck a hand through his chest, only a hundred times over, possibly even a thousand. He couldn't really tell. He had suspected that Kagome had feelings for the guardian, but without verbal confirmation he could easily deny it wasn't so, could believe that she still loved him. Now his world had come crashing down with Sakura's words. I was a fool to think she would always wait for me. It's not like I gave her a reason to believe she should. He thought. Now it's too late to tell her that I love her. Kagome loves Yue.
* * *
Neither of them could sleep when they stopped to make camp. They sat in an awkward silence, both thinking about their hidden feelings for each other. As usual the guardian's gaze grew sorrowful and he couldn't keep his eyes off of her. She shifted uncomfortably under the weight of his gaze. She didn't mind him looking at her it was the sadness that was too much to bear. Finally, she growled in frustration and jumped to her feet so she could pace on the other side of the fire.
"You know, if you're going to stare at me so sadly you could at least tell me what's wrong," Kagome told him.
"As I told you, there is nothing wrong."
"Bullshit!" He was shocked at her vehemence. "I can practically slice your misery with a knife and I hate it."
"I apologize if what I feel bothers you," he said, unable to keep the sarcasm from entering his voice.
The girl came over to crouch in front of him. "Of course it bothers me. I don't like seeing you in pain. You're my friend."
"I don't have friends."
She smiled sadly. "You have friends, Yue-san. You just don't let them in. Why? Don't you get lonely? Did it hurt you so much when Clow Reed died that you're afraid to let anyone in? Sakura told me you were lovers, but you can't let that keep you from feeling again."
A bitter laugh escaped his throat. "Is that what you think? That I loved Clow so much that I can't bring myself to do it again."
Kagome gave him a perplexed look. "You mean it isn't?"
The guardian rose abruptly and she yelped in surprise when he picked her up bridal style. Without a word, he took off towards the silhouette of a castle in the distance. His eyes had a strange light to them. It almost frightened her, but she held silent. He obviously had something to show her. When they reached the castle he brought them down on the balcony of a grandly furnished room and set her on her feet, making sure to stay in the shadows.
Where are we? She asked.
Clow Reed kept a castle in Japan.
Her eyes snapped to him in shock, then movement in the room drew her attention. Sitting in a leather armchair was a kindly looking man in elaborate robes with black hair and wire-rimmed glasses. Clow Reed! As she watched, the door opened and a young Yue entered. His face was expressionless, but his eyes showed trepidation, resignation, and weariness. He stopped before his master and bowed.
"You summoned me, Clow-sama?"
Clow Reed smiled warmly. "I have needs, Yue. You know what I want."
"Clow-sama, I am quite tired tonight. Must I service you tonight?"
His voice was soft as he replied. "It is one of your duties, Yue. You know this."
"Hai, Clow-sama. I will wait for you in the bedroom as usual."
His voice was so full of weariness that Kagome wanted to take him in her arms and just hold him until he felt strong again. She didn't want to see anymore, but she felt she had to see it through to the end. Yue wanted her to see this, to know. The least she could do was know it all. As she watched, Clow Reed finished his reading and then made his way to the bedroom.
You don't have to see the rest. You know what is about to happen. Yue sent to her.
She shook her head. You brought me here to see this.
He nodded and brought her over to the bedroom window just in time to see a naked Clow Reed slip into the bed where the young Yue obediently waited in a similar state of undress. The young miko blushed at the sight of so much naked flesh, but she did not turn away. As the scene played out before them the guardian was drawn into his memories of it. He recalled the feel of his master inside him as Clow mounted him from behind. He recalled how his master would idly stroke his member, hoping to arouse him just as he was. He recalled what Clow always said once his lusts were sated.
"Excellent job, Yue. You certainly know how to fulfill your duties."
The voice broke through his memories and he realized that it was over. Once again he picked Kagome up bridal style and silently flew them back to their camp. He expected her to move away from him with disgust written on her face. Instead she remained where he put her down.
"You asked if it hurt me when Clow died. It did, because I thought of him as a father. He created me, after all. But I didn't stop letting people in because of that. I stopped letting them in because I don't deserve it if I can't keep such an abomination from happening."
He was taken aback when Kagome grabbed his face and forced him to look her in the eyes. "That is not your fault. You had no control over what happened. He was your master, he created you, you were created to do as he wished whether you wanted to or not. Those things belong in this time. Let them stay there and move on. They do not define who you are in you soul."
"Do I even have a soul?" Yue asked brokenly.
"Of course you have a soul! Clow Reed gave you one when he created you. You may have been programmed to do certain things, but that doesn't change the fact that you have a soul. Without a soul you wouldn't be able to feel. You wouldn't care one way or another about what we just saw. Who you were then and who you are now are because of your soul and Clow Reed didn't create that."
"How can you be so sure? He created the rest of me."
Kagome shook his head gently. "Because there is only one being who can create souls. He let Clow Reed give it to you because that's how you were meant to be created in this lifetime." She removed her hands from his face and hugged him. "And I wouldn't have it any other way."
Yue leaned into the embrace, for once just allowing himself to show emotion without fear.
* * *
An evil grin crossed the Dark Mistress' face. Turning to her partner she saw that the look was mirrored on his face. This proved to be a most useful bit of information. Now they knew how to get to the miko. The bitch wouldn't be interfering with their plans for much longer. Soon they would destroy her.
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Shayril: Hey, folks! What's you think of the beginning of my story? I'd really like to apologize if the characters are OOC. For one thing, it's actually been a couple years since I've seen Card Captor Sakura. They don't show it here in America anymore, at least not that I've seen. For another, I haven't seen more than a couple dozen episodes of Inuyasha, then Cartoon Network decided to change the time slot to after midnight and I can't stay up to watch it because I have school. I try to keep them as in character as I can. I honestly think the only one really out of character is Yue and I made him that way on purpose. (A large bang can be heard as a door slams open.) Inuyasha: WHAT THE HELL! I leave for a few minutes to take care of a fucking youkai and you go and take Kagome from me?!! That's fucked up! Shayril: Actually, I planned on making her fall in love with Yue from the beginning. Inuyasha: Nani?! Oh, you are so DEAD!!! Shayril: AHHHH! Save me! Navi: Get her! Shayril: Hey! Navi: (Shrugs) What'd'ya expect? I tuture people for a living, remember? (Shayril dives behind Yue as he suddenly appears.) Inuyasha: (Stops short.) YOU! You took Kagome from me, you bastard. First I'll kill you, THEN I'll kill her. Shayril: Eep! Maybe it wasn't such a good idea bringing you here. Yue: (Evading Inuyasha.) I think that is an understatement. Shayril: OH! (Light bulb appears above head.) I know what to do. Hey, Inuyasha! Inuyasha: What'd'ya want, bitch! I'll get to you in a minute. Shayril: Remember I promised to bring Kagome here to visit? (Kagome appears with a confused look on her face.) Kalika: Oooh. This is gonna be interesting. Navi: (Disappointed) But not nearly as fun as watching him kill her. Kagome: What's going on? Shayril: Inuyasha's trying to kill Yue and says he'll kill me next. Kagome: Nani?! He can't do that. You haven't officially put me and Yue together, yet! INUYASHA! Inuyasha: What?! I'm busy. Kagome: SIT! SIT! SIT! SIT! SIT .. (Fades into background still saying 'SIT' with loud bangs being heard.) Yue: That was excellent thinking. Shayril: Thanks! I think we'd better go for now. Don't forget to review, everyone. I have Chapter Eleven half written and if you want me to finish it then you have to let me know what you think. Oh and at least 5 of you have to say you forgive me for what I did with 'You Belong Here'. Bu-bye!
It was beginning to get light out and she was aware of wind blowing strongly against her face. She shivered and curled closer into the warmth that held her. Opening her eyes, Kagome realized with a start that they were flying. She looked up at Yue in wonder. The pure white wings on his back made him seem like an angel. A guardian angel.
How fitting, she thought before sending to Yue. Why didn't you tell me you had wings?
He looked down at her. You never asked. Do they bother you?
Of course, not. I think they're beautiful. Besides, they're a part of you.
He let out a silent sigh of relief. He had been afraid that she would shun him because he was so different. Then again, she traveled with a hanyou, a kitsune, a demon exterminator, and a perverted monk. Not only that, but she herself was magical. So his fears had been completely unfounded now that he thought about it.
We'll have to go on by foot soon. My wings are starting to get tired.
Just a little longer, please? I like flying with you. Her chocolate brown eyes were imploring.
Yue suppressed the smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. I suppose there is no harm in it.
Kagome flashed him dazzling smile and snuggled deeper into his hold. The guardian struggled against the urge to kiss her. She loves Inuyasha, he reminded himself. But she looked wonderful with the wind blowing through her raven locks and her cheeks rosy from the brisk air.
She looked up at him and noticed that he was straining to keep them aloft now. Her brows furrowed. We should land. You're exhausted.
He didn't reply, but the girl saw the gratitude flash through his eyes. With a shock, she realized that he would have kept flying until his wings gave out from fatigue if she asked it of him. He must really care for me.
* * *
As they traveled towards their campsite of the night before Kero noticed that everyone was on edge and ready to go mad with worry for Kagome. Either they didn't care about Yue or they just considered him too powerful to be concerned. The only one who didn't seem upset at all was the Card Mistress. Eventually, curiosity got the better of him and he settled on her shoulder.
"Sakura, why is it that you actually look happy that Kagome and Yue are missing?" he asked.
"Because, Kero-chan, wherever they are they're together."
Kero was confused. "So? What does that have to do with anything? Besides, of course, that Yue can protect her."
Sakura laughed. "Kagome can protect herself. There's only one person Yue needs to protect her from; himself. And I don't think our miko friend will mind too much if he failed."
"Huh?"
She sighed as if explaining something to a child. "Yue is in love with Kagome. I can see it every time he looks at her. I'm surprised you haven't noticed. And Kagome is in love with Yue."
The little guardian's jaw dropped. "How can you tell? She doesn't act like it."
"I know." She giggled. "Amazing that she could hide something like that better than Yue can. Anyway, she told me and Sango when we were bathing the other day before the Dark Twin and Dark Fight showed up."
Kero gave a low whistle. "I thought she was in love with Inuyasha. Boy, was I wrong."
"You're not too far off. She used to be in love with Inuyasha, but then she grew tired of competing for his affection with someone named Kikyo."
He gave her a confused look. "But he loves her, not Kikyo. It's so obvious."
Sakura sighed. "Well, it's too late for that now, because she doesn't love him as anything more than a friend anymore."
They grew silent at that, neither of them realizing that they had just broken the hanyou's heart. His keen ears had focused on the conversation the instant Kagome's name was mentioned. And now he felt like he had when Sesshoumaru stuck a hand through his chest, only a hundred times over, possibly even a thousand. He couldn't really tell. He had suspected that Kagome had feelings for the guardian, but without verbal confirmation he could easily deny it wasn't so, could believe that she still loved him. Now his world had come crashing down with Sakura's words. I was a fool to think she would always wait for me. It's not like I gave her a reason to believe she should. He thought. Now it's too late to tell her that I love her. Kagome loves Yue.
* * *
Neither of them could sleep when they stopped to make camp. They sat in an awkward silence, both thinking about their hidden feelings for each other. As usual the guardian's gaze grew sorrowful and he couldn't keep his eyes off of her. She shifted uncomfortably under the weight of his gaze. She didn't mind him looking at her it was the sadness that was too much to bear. Finally, she growled in frustration and jumped to her feet so she could pace on the other side of the fire.
"You know, if you're going to stare at me so sadly you could at least tell me what's wrong," Kagome told him.
"As I told you, there is nothing wrong."
"Bullshit!" He was shocked at her vehemence. "I can practically slice your misery with a knife and I hate it."
"I apologize if what I feel bothers you," he said, unable to keep the sarcasm from entering his voice.
The girl came over to crouch in front of him. "Of course it bothers me. I don't like seeing you in pain. You're my friend."
"I don't have friends."
She smiled sadly. "You have friends, Yue-san. You just don't let them in. Why? Don't you get lonely? Did it hurt you so much when Clow Reed died that you're afraid to let anyone in? Sakura told me you were lovers, but you can't let that keep you from feeling again."
A bitter laugh escaped his throat. "Is that what you think? That I loved Clow so much that I can't bring myself to do it again."
Kagome gave him a perplexed look. "You mean it isn't?"
The guardian rose abruptly and she yelped in surprise when he picked her up bridal style. Without a word, he took off towards the silhouette of a castle in the distance. His eyes had a strange light to them. It almost frightened her, but she held silent. He obviously had something to show her. When they reached the castle he brought them down on the balcony of a grandly furnished room and set her on her feet, making sure to stay in the shadows.
Where are we? She asked.
Clow Reed kept a castle in Japan.
Her eyes snapped to him in shock, then movement in the room drew her attention. Sitting in a leather armchair was a kindly looking man in elaborate robes with black hair and wire-rimmed glasses. Clow Reed! As she watched, the door opened and a young Yue entered. His face was expressionless, but his eyes showed trepidation, resignation, and weariness. He stopped before his master and bowed.
"You summoned me, Clow-sama?"
Clow Reed smiled warmly. "I have needs, Yue. You know what I want."
"Clow-sama, I am quite tired tonight. Must I service you tonight?"
His voice was soft as he replied. "It is one of your duties, Yue. You know this."
"Hai, Clow-sama. I will wait for you in the bedroom as usual."
His voice was so full of weariness that Kagome wanted to take him in her arms and just hold him until he felt strong again. She didn't want to see anymore, but she felt she had to see it through to the end. Yue wanted her to see this, to know. The least she could do was know it all. As she watched, Clow Reed finished his reading and then made his way to the bedroom.
You don't have to see the rest. You know what is about to happen. Yue sent to her.
She shook her head. You brought me here to see this.
He nodded and brought her over to the bedroom window just in time to see a naked Clow Reed slip into the bed where the young Yue obediently waited in a similar state of undress. The young miko blushed at the sight of so much naked flesh, but she did not turn away. As the scene played out before them the guardian was drawn into his memories of it. He recalled the feel of his master inside him as Clow mounted him from behind. He recalled how his master would idly stroke his member, hoping to arouse him just as he was. He recalled what Clow always said once his lusts were sated.
"Excellent job, Yue. You certainly know how to fulfill your duties."
The voice broke through his memories and he realized that it was over. Once again he picked Kagome up bridal style and silently flew them back to their camp. He expected her to move away from him with disgust written on her face. Instead she remained where he put her down.
"You asked if it hurt me when Clow died. It did, because I thought of him as a father. He created me, after all. But I didn't stop letting people in because of that. I stopped letting them in because I don't deserve it if I can't keep such an abomination from happening."
He was taken aback when Kagome grabbed his face and forced him to look her in the eyes. "That is not your fault. You had no control over what happened. He was your master, he created you, you were created to do as he wished whether you wanted to or not. Those things belong in this time. Let them stay there and move on. They do not define who you are in you soul."
"Do I even have a soul?" Yue asked brokenly.
"Of course you have a soul! Clow Reed gave you one when he created you. You may have been programmed to do certain things, but that doesn't change the fact that you have a soul. Without a soul you wouldn't be able to feel. You wouldn't care one way or another about what we just saw. Who you were then and who you are now are because of your soul and Clow Reed didn't create that."
"How can you be so sure? He created the rest of me."
Kagome shook his head gently. "Because there is only one being who can create souls. He let Clow Reed give it to you because that's how you were meant to be created in this lifetime." She removed her hands from his face and hugged him. "And I wouldn't have it any other way."
Yue leaned into the embrace, for once just allowing himself to show emotion without fear.
* * *
An evil grin crossed the Dark Mistress' face. Turning to her partner she saw that the look was mirrored on his face. This proved to be a most useful bit of information. Now they knew how to get to the miko. The bitch wouldn't be interfering with their plans for much longer. Soon they would destroy her.
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Shayril: Hey, folks! What's you think of the beginning of my story? I'd really like to apologize if the characters are OOC. For one thing, it's actually been a couple years since I've seen Card Captor Sakura. They don't show it here in America anymore, at least not that I've seen. For another, I haven't seen more than a couple dozen episodes of Inuyasha, then Cartoon Network decided to change the time slot to after midnight and I can't stay up to watch it because I have school. I try to keep them as in character as I can. I honestly think the only one really out of character is Yue and I made him that way on purpose. (A large bang can be heard as a door slams open.) Inuyasha: WHAT THE HELL! I leave for a few minutes to take care of a fucking youkai and you go and take Kagome from me?!! That's fucked up! Shayril: Actually, I planned on making her fall in love with Yue from the beginning. Inuyasha: Nani?! Oh, you are so DEAD!!! Shayril: AHHHH! Save me! Navi: Get her! Shayril: Hey! Navi: (Shrugs) What'd'ya expect? I tuture people for a living, remember? (Shayril dives behind Yue as he suddenly appears.) Inuyasha: (Stops short.) YOU! You took Kagome from me, you bastard. First I'll kill you, THEN I'll kill her. Shayril: Eep! Maybe it wasn't such a good idea bringing you here. Yue: (Evading Inuyasha.) I think that is an understatement. Shayril: OH! (Light bulb appears above head.) I know what to do. Hey, Inuyasha! Inuyasha: What'd'ya want, bitch! I'll get to you in a minute. Shayril: Remember I promised to bring Kagome here to visit? (Kagome appears with a confused look on her face.) Kalika: Oooh. This is gonna be interesting. Navi: (Disappointed) But not nearly as fun as watching him kill her. Kagome: What's going on? Shayril: Inuyasha's trying to kill Yue and says he'll kill me next. Kagome: Nani?! He can't do that. You haven't officially put me and Yue together, yet! INUYASHA! Inuyasha: What?! I'm busy. Kagome: SIT! SIT! SIT! SIT! SIT .. (Fades into background still saying 'SIT' with loud bangs being heard.) Yue: That was excellent thinking. Shayril: Thanks! I think we'd better go for now. Don't forget to review, everyone. I have Chapter Eleven half written and if you want me to finish it then you have to let me know what you think. Oh and at least 5 of you have to say you forgive me for what I did with 'You Belong Here'. Bu-bye!