I'm sad to say that I have a hint of writer's block for this chapter so I'm watching 10 Things I Hate About You for a little needed inspiration. I also have a picture of the 15" PowerBook in front of me for that little bit of motivation that always helps. (

Btw, I definitely recommend the Georgia Nicolson Books by Louisa Rennison. They're fantastic. I'm starting to think that I should've been British seeing as every book I enjoy seems to be written by an English writer (Angus, Thongs, and Full-Frontal Snogging: Confessions of Georgia Nicolson, Harry Potter [of course], and A Tale of Two Cities [I admit, it was a good book and I enjoyed it]).

Only five chapter left after this!! (And I already have the last two written!)

Enjoy!

hello there; the angel from my nightmare the shadow in the background of the morgue. The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley, we can live like jack and sally if we want, where u can always find me. And we'll have halloween on Christmas. And in the night we wish this never ends. We'll wish this never ends

"I Miss You" blink-182

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Again 10

Groping and Grieving

It was an early April morning in London. The flowers were just starting to bloom and life was beginning to return after the long, cold winter. Wizards and muggles alike were all enjoying the glorious weather that had been bestowed upon them.

Sirius, Lily, and James were all walking around muggle London after a day of lectures and demonstrations on how to properly file paperwork. James sighed. "When are we going to learn how to become *real* Aurors? All of this paperwork crap is going to be the least of our worries."

"It takes time James, McKibbon said that within the next month or so we're going to be able to go out and do some field work." Said Lily in her lavender sundress.

~*~

James's eyes fluttered as the morning sunlight poured into his bedroom. He began stretching in his bed before he got up and hit a big lumpy thing with his arm. He moved his arm in the same direction and once again hit the big lumpy thing. James groaned with pain as he sat up and put on his glasses. His head was killing him. He must've had a hangover. James sighed in pain and looked over to his left. James was shocked at what he saw. There was Kristin lying there wearing nothing but a sheet over her naked body. James looked down at himself and realized he was in his birthday suit as well.

This could not get worse...but of course, it did.

Lily Evans in her dressing gown pulled open the door and entered James's tiny bedroom unaware of the nudity around her.

"Hey James I was wondering if- -OH MY GOD!"

"Uh, hi Lily."

"James what the...Who's with...WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?" James quickly got out of his bed, worsening his hangover, and tried to calm Lily.

"Lily, sweetie, you're over reacting. Now just calm down."

"How can I calm down when you're walking around with your dick flopping about? I don't want to see that!" Cried Lily with her hand over her eyes. James grabbed the closest article of clothing, a shirt his mother bought him for Christmas, and hid his "how's your father".

"There, its all covered. You can look now." Lily removed her hand and looked around the room. There were discarded cloths everywhere.

"James?" Called a groggy voice from his bed. James turned around and saw Kristin sit up. Lily gasped.

"Kristin!? What the hell are you doing in James's bed?" Exclaimed Lily. Kristin groaned. "Well, answer me!"

"Lily, I think it'd be better for you to come back in about 15 minutes. Now what was it that you came over for besides to ruin my morning?" Asked James.

"Well I wanted to borrow some of those hangover pills you gave me back in September. I didn't expect to see two of my best friends naked!!" Yelled Lily. James groaned.

"For someone with a hangover, you're doing a lot of yelling."

"Yeah, well in situations like this, yelling is necessary. Listen I just want to get the pills and leave so I can try and get all of this nudity out of my head. Where are they?" Asked Lily.

"In the medicine cabinet in the bathroom." Replied James.

"Thanks." Said Lily leaving the room. She walked down the tiny hallway and opened the door to the even tinier bathroom where Sirius Black was taking his morning leak. He looked over his shoulder and smiled.

"Morning Lily!" He said cheerily. Lily yelled in frustration "WHY IS EVERYONE NAKED THIS MORNING!?" She grabbed the container of pills from the open medicine cabinet, and walked into the living room and out the door back to her own flat.

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About a half hour later while Lily was writing a letter to her mother thanking her for the birthday gifts, Kristin, who thankfully was fully dressed, entered her flat. Lily looked up at her and began to walk to her room.

"Lily, I know you're upset with me. I just want to know why." Said Kristin. Lily turned and rounded on her brunette friend.

"You want to know why? I'll tell you why. You slept with James!" Exclaimed a very blunt Lily.

"So? Yeah, okay, I slept with him. Big deal? Its not like he has a girlfriend or anything."

"But you slept with James Potter! The biggest man whore ever to graduate Hogwarts next to Sirius!"

"So? You did too!" Shouted Kristin.

"I did not!" Exclaimed Lily. "For your information, I'm still a virgin."

"Oh. Well then.... But I still don't see how what I did was wrong. We just slept together. It's a one-night stand. They happen."

"But you slept with James. My friend James."

"He's mine friend too! I wouldn't get this angry if you had slept with Sirius."

"That's different."

"How is that different?

"Because James is *my* boyfriend that's why!" Shouted Lily then immediately turned a bright red. She didn't expect that to ever penetrate her mouth and she hoped that a pink suade elephant would suddenly appear to draw some attention off of her big mouth. Kristin smiled

"Ohhh...I see now." Said Kristin slowly.

"What?" Asked Lily defensively.

"It all makes sense now." Responded Kristin. "You still have some feelings for him and still see him as yours."

"No, that's not it at all."

"Yes it is. You just think that since he hasn't been with anyone since you he would just tag along with you and act as your stand in boyfriend if you were single."

"No." Said Lily trying to defend herself and failing miserably.

"That's exactly what it is. You still have feelings for him and can't let him go." Said Kristin matter of fact-ly.

"No its not!" Shouted Lily. Kristin stood there and looked at her friend.

"I'm not going to stand here and be criticized by you anymore Lily. I'm going back to my place and if you want to talk like a civilized person sometime soon, owl me. But until then, don't even bother." Kristin turned around and closed the door. Lily plopped down on her couch. What had she just done? It was only 10 am and already she had seen three of her friends in the nude and yelled at all of them. Lily sighed. "Happy Birthday, Lily. 19 must be your bitchy age."

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A week passed and Lily still had not patched things up with Kristin yet. Neither James, Sirius, nor Lily had heard any word of her since the day after Lily's birthday. The three were walking home after a night at a nearby club. They had all drank a little too much and none of them felt comfortable walking home. Lily sighed.

"I feel bad." She said.

"Why?" Asked Sirius. "It's a lovely April night and I meet four gorgeous women tonight. What could possibly make you feel bad?"

"Kristin." Said Lily heavily.

"Lily, if you want to make up with her, let just stop by her place so you can apologize." Suggested James. He really liked Kristin as a friend and didn't want to loose her just because he slept with her.

"Apologize for what? I did nothing wrong!" Exclaimed Lily knowing that was wrong and that she should apologize.

"Why must you be so stubborn?" Asked James with a smile. Lily smiled back. You know, he really does have a handsome face, Lily thought to herself.

"Fine, I'll do it. But you two have to come with me to hold me back just in case I have the urge to scold her again." Demanded Lily.

"Fine, I just want to get home already. I'm tired as all hell." Said Sirius yawning.

"Come on." Said Lily. Luckily, Kristin's flat was only a few blocks out of the way. The trio walked all the way to her place and entered her old building. The building looked very much like the building Lily, James, and Sirius lived in. When they reached Kristin's door on the fifth floor and top floor, Lily knocked apprehensively. There was no answer. Lily knocked again. Again, there was no answer.

"Hmm, she must be asleep. Oh well, I guess we'll just have to go home!" Exclaimed Lily trying to head for the stairs but unfortunately, she was blocked by James.

"Wait just a minute. We didn't come all this way just so you could knock on the door. I say we apperate inside. I'm sure she won't mind the extra company." Said James. Lily sighed.

"Fine." She said angrily. And with a pop all three of them apperated into Kristin's flat.

"Holy shit, what smells?" Questioned Sirius with his hand over his nose. Lily looked around the flat and procedded to look for Kristin.

"Kris?" She called out hoping someone would answer.

"Yeah. It smells like something died in here." Said James desperately trying not to inhale the foul odor. Lily sulked silently and back into the room where James and Sirius were waiting for her. The color was drained from her usually bright face and there was no blissful smile or happy expression on her face.

"Something did die. Kristin."

~*~

Sirius and James were sitting in the Atrium of the Ministry of Magic silently waiting for the Ministry official by the name of Darcy Unger to inform them of what the people at St. Mungo's had found. He told them to go to the Ministry and stay in the Atrium and wait for him to get back. Two and a half hours later, the three of them were still there waiting and waiting. Sirius sighed.

"How much longer is this going to be? I'm one second away from conjuring up a bed and camping out right here in the Atrium." Threatened Sirius.

"It shouldn't be much longer now. Hey, have you seen Lily?" Asked James.

"Didn't she go for a walk a little while ago?"

"Yeah, I think so. I'm gonna go find her. Its late. Who knows what trouble she could get into at this hour of night?" Said James leaving his seat. He started walking and rounded a short corridor when he found Lily slumped against a wall with a sad look in her eyes. She was crying.

James felt somewhat awkward and didn't know if he should just go waltzing up to her or kindly leave her at peace. Just as James was turning around to head back over to Sirius, he heard a soft voice call his name. He rounded on Lily. "Hi."

"Hi." Said Lily sniffing loudly.

"Are you okay?" Asked James as he approached her. Lily rubbed her emerald green eyes.

"Yeah, I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. Go back with Sirius."

"No, I don't want you to be alone." James slid down next to her. Lily laughed quietly.

"I feel so stupid crying." She said with a bit of a smile.

"Don't feel stupid." Said James wrapping her in a tight hug. "I'm sad too. Kristin was a great person."

"But I feel so horrible for telling her off for sleeping with you. I should've just respected her opinion and gotten on with my life." Stated Lily.

"Lily, believe me, you are far from horrible. You're the most wonderful person I know." Said James honestly.

"James...don't say things like that if you're just trying to make me feel better because it's not going to work."

"I'm not just saying it. I really mean it." Replied James sincerely. By now there wasn't an inch between their faces. Both of them were looking deep into each other's eyes.

"You mean it?" Asked Lily almost inaudibly. James nodded. He tried to control himself but he couldn't help it. He leaned in and kissed Lily softly on her lips. He half expected her to slap him but he wasn't prepared as to what Lily was starting to do. She started kissing back.

James tenderly pried her lips open and slid the top of his tongue in. He started to move his hands down her arms on to her waist. Suddenly he heard Sirius's voice.

"James? Lily? Are you two down here?" Lily sighed and rubbed her temples. James was still breathless but quickly tried to regain his normal stature. Sirius approached to two and eyed them curiously.

"And just what were the two of you doing?" Questioned Sirius cocking an eyebrow.

"Use your imagination." Taunted Lily. Sirius closed his eyes and grinned from ear to ear. "Mmm." He moaned.

"Alright that's enough! No more of that. Fantasize about me on your own spare time." She said pushing Sirius to the Atrium

"Oh I will." Said Sirius with a wink. James chuckled and followed but still thinking about that kiss. Lily acted like nothing even happened. Not even the slightest reaction. Was it a good kiss or had he loose his touch? Kristin didn't complain. Kristin.... Thoughts of Kristin started to run through his head. She was gone and she was never coming back. Never.

No more late nights with the four of them. No more scoffing at Fudge's inability to be a proper minister without Dumbledore's help. No more Kristin.

"Hey," called Sirius from the Atrium, "the guy's here! Hurry up Prongs!" James jogged down the corridor and joined Lily and Sirius who were gathered around Darcy Unger with a clipboard in his hands.

"Well, we have the report on your friend."

"And...?" Asked Sirius impatiently.

"It was the killing curse that did her in. They say it was self inflicted if you catch my drift." Said the ministry official.

"What? That's insane! Kristin NEVER would never commit suicide." Exclaimed Lily.

"That's what the reports said, miss." Said Unger.

"What about the wand?" Asked Sirius. "Couldn't they just find out the last spell that was used and decide from there?"

"They did and they found Avada Kedavra." Replied Unger.

"Read to us exactly what the report says." Demanded James.

"Oh, and who are you to be ordering me around?" Asked an annoyed Unger.

"James Potter, Nicolas Potter's son." James cringed slightly. He hated using his father's identity for his own benifet. But this was different. This was to help Lily.

"Nick's son?" Ugner asked. "He was a good man. I knew him just before he died." Unger sighed. "If you three promise to go home when I'm done I will."

He cleared his throat and began to dictate Kristin's report. Lily wasn't paying full attention, as she should have been, but instead was focused on the man coming into the building. There were two very striking things about this man. One being that he was entering the Ministry of Magic through the main entrance at 1 am and that he had long blonde-white hair, cold gray eyes, and was dressed head to toe in black robes.

The man swiftly entered the building and walked to where ever he was going. Lily couldn't help but stare at the man. She didn't notice anything else around her including James tapping on her shoulder trying to regain her attention. As the man passed by across the Atrium, he fixed his cold gray eyes on Lily. He sneared and stared at Lily as he walked parallel to her and her group of friends until he started a conversation with the security wizard that kept an eye on things. While Lily was watching the man pass by only moments before, she couldn't help but focus on his wand. Although it appeared to be a regular Ollivalander wand, there was something about that she just couldn't let go of.

"What if someone else did it?" Asked Lily suddenly. Unger, Sirius, and James all looked at her. "What if someone else got a hold of her wand and used it?" Unger laughed.

"Why that's ridiculous! Are you proposing that someone would apperate into this woman's flat, steal her wand, and kill her? You haven't even got a proper motive or suspect for that manner!" Unger laughed once more, enraging Lily.

"Listen to me! Something's not right about this! There's more to it than it appears. Get some Aurors or something over there and dust the wand for finger prints!" The three men all looked at each other and back at Lily. Lily sighed exasperatedly.

"It's a muggle thing they do to find out who's touched something." Explained Lily.

"Ohhh." Said all three men.

"Listen," started Unger started to get frustrated with the three teens, "its late. I have a family of my own to get home to. Now maybe if you come up with some reasonable evidence or something shows up that proves your theory the ministry can do something about it. But as of now, the case is closed. I advise you three to go home and get some sleep. 'Night." And with a loud snap Ministry official Darcy Unger dissapperated into the night. Lily groaned in frustration. Sirius sighed.

"James, Lily, I'll meet you home. I need to get some sleep." James nodded and stayed behind with Lily. He wanted to ask her about the kiss. Lily had other things on her mind.

"James, come here." She said. James obliged and went to her side. "Look at that man in the black." She whispered in his ear. The man she was watching before was now boarding the lift.

"With the blonde hair?" Asked James quietly. Lily nodded. "Yeah."

"Do you get the feeling that he might be more than just a ministry employee?" She asked.

"Yeah, I get that feeling too." The elevator doors closed and the man with the cold gray eyes headed farther and farther underground.

"I think that Kristin was murdered by a Death Eater for being half muggle." Stated Lily. "I know it might seem crazy but..."

"No, I think you're absolutely right." Said James. "C'mon, lets head home."

He had noticed the young red head staring at him and her friend with the messy hair and glasses. He knew exactly who he was and could easily figure out who the woman was.

"Filthy little mudblood." Sneared Lucius Malfoy.

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OMG I AM SO INCREADABLY SORRY ABOUT THE WAIT!!! I swear it will never happen again! I was home sick today and I was looking through my hard drive and I found this and I thought I submitted this but I never did!! I feel so bad! Well, at least its up now! Once again, I'm so sorry for the wait but I hope this chapter was good. I wrote this story in pieces and I just reviewed it and I'm hoping I didn't leave out a part. If you have any questions, review the story and leave your question there. I'll get it in my e-mail. Thanks!

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