Chapter 10
When Sara got to the airport, she looked which flight was the fastest to San Francisco. She didn't know why, but she knew she had to start there to deal with her past. Her past started there, so it seemed almost logical. She took the flight of 10 am, which was pretty soon. She hoped Grissom wouldn't go after her, otherwise she would doubt she made the right decision. He was too sweet for her, but she thought that her leaving would change him. She just hoped he'd understand… She hadn't told him her biggest secret either, so maybe, one day she'd come back, and she just hoped that he would take her back by then.
Meanwhile, Catherine looked stunned at Grissom.
"What? Who's gone?"
"Sara…"
"What?!
Why would she leave?"
"Here,
read the letter…"
Catherine took the letter from him, and read
it:
Gil
You know I love you. I feel I've loved you forever. Lately, I haven't been feeling very well. Truth be told, I'm tired. Out in the desert, under that car that night, I realised something, and I haven't been able to shake it. Since my father died, I've spent almost my entire life with ghosts. We've been like close friends, and out there in the desert, it occurred to me, that it was time for me to bury them. I can't do that here. I'm so sorry. No matter how hard I try to fight it off, I'm left with a feeling that, I have to go. I have no idea where I'm going, but I know I have to do this. If I don't, I'm afraid I'll self-destruct, and worse, you'll be there to see it happen. Be safe. Know that I tried very hard to stay. Know that you are my one and only. I'll miss you with every beat of my heart. Our life together was the only home I've ever really had. I love you. I always will.
Goodbye
Catherine looked stunned and got confused. Why didn't she see that coming? Why didn't Grissom see it coming?
"Why
didn't we see it coming? Now I think of it, Sara wasn't the same
after the kidnapping, did we accept her strange behaviour because of
that? Were we blinded by her kidnapping, did we blame the kidnapping
for her behaviour? Why are we so stupid!"
"Catherine, relax.
How could we have seen this coming, she didn't say anything to us,
and when I saw her smile a few weeks ago, I thought everything was
going to be ok…"
"IDIOT!! Why are you still here? Go after her!"
"No. And
stop yelling at me. Sara has to deal with her past alone, I want to
help her with that, I really do, but if she needs help, she knows she
can call me. Or at least I hope she knows that. And I'm sorry, but
I'm going to respect her choice."
"Okay, you've got a
point. Let's hope she calls you soon, I'm officially worried now.
Sara got out of the plane, and looked around. She felt like she was coming home. She just hoped that the people she knew when she lived here still knew her…