Chapter 8(ii)

Gently, Kyou placed Tohru down on the bed and covered her with a blanket. Watching her, he was surprised by how peaceful he felt. He stroked her face a few times gently and softly, cautious not to wake her up. He knew now what he needed to do.

When Chika kissed him then, he was astonished to find out how that felt horrible. He had expected the usual high of kissing someone, but there was none he found in Chika's kiss. When she did it, flashes of Tohru in his mind played like an old movie in his head, that was what made him push her away from him. He needed to get away from Chika, because he knew now that Tohru belonged to him as much as he belonged to her.

Smiling, he left the house once again.

Tohru woke up and realized she was back at home again. She looked around, yet there was no Kyou. Her heart sank. Had she become this unimportant to him? She sighed. There was really nothing she could do. He had made up his mind. Perhaps he's with Chika right now, doing something that she do not want to know of.

She fought back the tears that was threatening to fall. Pull yourself up, dammit, since when did you start becoming such a crybaby!? Tohru forced a smile up and went to the toilet, practicing her smile once again, as she always did. She went to the kitchen, took a few deep breaths to cheer her heavy heart up and started to prepare the food.

An hour later, she heard the turning of keys from outside. She put up the smile that she had practiced, and ran to the door, "Kyou!" Kyou looked at her softly and smiled, stop forcing yourself to be happy… He wanted to say to her, but don't. After years being with her, he could tell when she's happy and when she's just faking a smile.

"I'm preparing some supper," She turned around, but stopped when Kyou started, "Tohru… I…" Her heart seemed to jump, afraid to hear the words that came out from his mouth.

"Ah, I'll go check if the water is boiling, maybe then we could have some tea too," She said, clearing her throat. Kyou looked at her, from behind, he pulled her in and wrapped his arms around her waist. He rest his head on her shoulder. She looked away, trying to hide the tears that was brimming on her eyes. She wanted, so much then, to push him away and tell him that she was not his anymore. She wanted to give him the tightest slap anyone could give someone and tell him off… and question why he did what he did just now. But she couldn't.

"Cry if you're feeling down," Kyou spoke finally. As if obeying him, the tears immediately fell and she began to sob. Her knees felt weak and it gave way, she fell to the floor. "I cannot do this, Kyou," Tohru said while Kyou kneeled beside her. "I cannot do this…" She said and hugged him. They stayed in that position for very long before they pulled away from each other.

Finally, with such determination and courage, even Tohru was surprised by how easy the words came out from her mouth. Kyou stared at her openmouthed, unable to reply. He began shaking his head, as if in denial.

He wanted to tell her he love her and only her.. She wanted to tell him how disappointed she was in him and it was impossible for her to love him anymore. He wanted to tell her how sorry he was. She wanted to tell him she couldn't carry on this façade anymore. He wanted to tell her he had bought 2 rings with their names carved on the rings and they were meant for each other forever. She wanted to tell him that it was impossible to trust him anymore and that it hurt so, so much inside, that being with him would hurt her even more and she was a fragile thing. He wanted to kiss her then, to show her how they fit together like hand to glove.

"Let's break up, Kyou."

Today is a half day at school so I decided to write a little for you guys to read. =] A lot of things had been happening lately... a lot of depressing things rather, but well, writing numb my feelings a lot, and especially all the warm response i've been getting... thank you so much.