Entry 10

Sundas, 24th Of Last Seed

On this day, Khajiit will go to the Underforge to grieve Kodlak. His funeral was held the night before; his body laid to rest on a pyre over the flames of the Skyforge. The Companions gathered and said their farewells, and this one and Vilkas stood close together as Kodlak's body burned.

This one longed to take his hand and offer comfort, she was certainly close enough to do so, but knew from the grief shining in his eyes that he needed his space. This one recalls before heading to bed that Eorlund asked for one final shard of Wuuthrad, one that Kodlak kept in his chambers. Khajiit is in no hurry to go to Kodlak's room or through his things, but she must. She will touch nothing but the shard.

Ahh, what an exhausting day. This morning, J'Hirra awoke and found Vilkas gone. She remember Eorlund's request and went to fetch Kodlak's shard of Wuuthrad. She found a journal in his drawer with her name in it and could not resist reading. He'd seen this one in a dream, a dream in which he challenged the beasts of Hircine's hunting grounds when his time came for death, and with this one at his side!

It breaks this ones heart and makes it whole again to know how highly he thought of this one, how much he believed in her, trusted her, and admired her. He dreamed that this one would break the curse over him and even wanted J'Hirra to lead the Companions! How he believed in her…it brought tears to this one's eyes. No one has ever thought so highly of her.

Khajiit met her shield-siblings in the Underforge and Vilkas didn't meet her eyes as he spoke of how he believed Kodlak had mentioned a way to be cleansed, even in death. Khajiit wanted to smack him upside the head for never mentioning it before! Aela believed the place he could be cured was Ysgramor's tomb. Eorlund appeared with Wuuthrad, fully repaired, which he bequeathed to J'Hirra and together, this one and her companions traveled to Ysgramor's tomb.

There, Vilkas led this one aside and confessed that he felt unworthy of entering the tomb after our actions against the Silverhand. This one understood, of course, and he demanded that she come back in one piece to tell him everything. This one believes he was worried. Stupid, endearing Dog.

This one ventured into the tomb with Wuuthrad, Aela, and Farkas and battled the ancient Companion's spirits. It was challenging, probably the hardest fight this one has had yet! Farkas refused the go further. The icebrain has a fear of spiders. Funny, no? Khajiit will certainly not use that against him in the future. Aela and this one fought on until at last, Kodlak was found. Or, his spirit, yes?

Khajiit was overjoyed to see him again. He explained he was here with the other Harbingers, hiding from Hircine's wrath. Khajiit could not see any of these Harbingers, but Kodlak believes it is because this one's heart knows only him. He is the only one she cares to know, aside from Ysgramor himself, of course. "You've brought honor to us, J'Hirra," he told this one and her heart swelled with pride, "You still have the witches' heads? Throw one into the fires, and the ritual will be complete." Yes, this one still had the witch head...It was sitting in a sack in her backpack this whole time. She almost forgot. Yuck...

This one cast the witch's head into the fire and Kodlak's body trembled as a ephemeral wolf burst from his chest and tore across the ground towards J'Hirra. Khajiit blocked as it's teeth closed around the handle of her axe and tugged, claws tearing at her chest. Aela rushed in and drove her dagger into the beast's side, and as it stumbled away with a yelp, this one raised her axe over her head and swung it down into the wolf's skull!

Kodlak was freed, and Khajiit was finally able to repay her debt to him. He disappeared with a smile, promising to fight alongside this one when her time came to join him in liberating the other harbinger's from the Hungry Cat's hunting grounds. Now, that will be the adventure of this one's lifetime; to fight by his side as she never got to in life, coursing together through the Hungry Cat's hunting grounds. She shivers to think of it...

Before he vanished, he told this one to lead the Companions to further glory, and this one fully intends to. She spoke to Vilkas and Farkas and Aela about the coming change in leadership. Aela found this one worthy, Farkas was agreeable as always, and to this one's surprise, Vilkas said, "If you'd have told me a few weeks ago that some outsider would become Harbinger, I'd have slit your throat. But your honor is apparent to all. There is no one else I'd trust with the Companions' leadership. The old man made the right choice."

This one still smiles to think back on the warmth in his voice.
Now this one will sleep at the inn in Winterhold and travel to Whiterun in the morning. So much has happened and only in a week!

By the Twin Moons...They really let someone they've known for a week become Harbinger of the Companions? When this one thinks about it...is it not a little strange?
Is this one ready for such a task? Surely, Kodlak would not have entrusted her with the Companions' leadership if he didn't believe this one worthy! This one will trust the old man's judgement, or else she might feel a tad bit overwhelmed by her sudden new position...