I was having problems trying to concentrate on what everyone was saying. They had all began to break out in a muse, saying how it is dangerous to tell me in our current state and how we needed to get to some kind of safer hide away.

"I'm not having any part in this if you don't all begin to open up. I've had to live in secrets my whole life, and none of you bothered to tell me any of this. How am I suppose to act if I don't even know whats going on?" I didn't answer anyone directly, I was simply talking out loud. But that got everyone's attention.

"We don't need you to act, Rins, we need you to just be you," Train was the only one who answered, his beautiful voice sounded a little cold and harsh.

"Well obviously that is not, I repeat for your benefit Train, not going to happen, not in hell," I spat towards him.

He spun around so fast my eyes had barley caught the movement. It had all happened so fast and it only reminded me of how low I sunk on the list of beings that stood in this room. Especially next to Train. In terms of rank, he was top. Sure he was royal, but he was strong. Just plain deadly and strong.

As weak as you are I will not let you become what I am. Eldans harsh words tore through my mind once again, in the blur of the moment I saw her, or my, face flash through my mind as I blinked.

Train was fast, it didn't even take him a second and he was already gripping firmly at my shirt and I had only just barely reacted fast enough to push my hands out in front of me; my weak attempt to block him. He leaned over on one knee, his body bent over my own, over powering me without any hesitation. His golden eyes flashed dangerously.

"Rins, I'm just trying to protect you. You ask for my trust but how can I trust you when you don't want to attempt to listen or try what I say? No one can give you the answers that I can, and if you want them, you need to trust me," he was so close, I felt his hot breath splash over my face, every word he pushed out of his clenched teeth began sinking deeper and deeper.

It was only us, in that moment. I hadn't seen Sven or anybody else. I was just staring at Train, and those eyes that were threatening me. If he wanted to he could have used compulsion to make me do what he wanted. But he didn't. So why couldn't I trust him still? My heart hurt. I was forced to think back to the trust I had felt with Andrew, and with Sven, not to mention Kyoko, all the trust I spent years building up was shattered in seconds. How could I go through that pain again?

But as I stared into those eyes, those always seemingly knowing eyes, I gazed back at him, power and electricity burning around us. It reminded me of the Train I had seen in my flashbacks. The old Train who was fierce and willing to throw everything out there to protect what he wanted to. He was willing to put his life on the line to protect what he believed was right. This was the way Train was suppose to be; powerful and in charge.

It made him look sexier then ever.

It made all that passion flare up at once.

Then a stupid, yet brilliant idea hit me. More like a stupid memory.

"Train, you had once told me that you would tell me anything my hearts desires. My heart desires this, Train," I looked up at him and also pushed a silent message through our bond.

I'm ready to do what I have to do Train. But I will not go through with anything in the dark. Please, please can you tell me what you know, I begged him. He pushed himself up and off of me perching himself back beside me. I kept my stare on him as fierce as I could, Train was staring out the small window in the familiar room. The way he sat reminded me so much of the night me and Andrew were here, the time he stood by the window and kept watch, even attempting to wield a sword he didn't know how to use. Train took a long time before he answered and it took him a moment of one last hesitation before he finally sighed out loud and faced me, his eyes incredibly amazing; they were mind blowing, those golden hues that shone in the faint light of the late day sun. It was a look I had never experienced before, it drained me of every word I could have, it could probably drain every ounce of blood in my system. It was a look of pure trust and total respect. Honesty, passion. Everything.

It was a look not even Andrew or Sven had given me.

"Creed is a virus, Rinslet. He wants power, and he feeds off the weak to achieve this," Train started slowly, his voice sounding a little distant.

"What do you mean 'feeds on the weak'?"

"He's nothing more then a hybrid, an experiment bringing a bad name to the night world. His search was the same as Andrew Walkers, your brother. Only their goals were different. Creed was already part of the night world, with him being born in the Orgenial Clan, his witches clan having more advancements in their specialization, earth power. He began experimenting with spells that he learned 'from the dead'. I only remember him talking about how when he was a kid 'ghouls' started bringing him to shadow land in his dreams. Then they would tell him how to bring them back." Train wasn't looking at me at all as he spoke. His mind was years away from where we were now.

I flinched slightly as I processed his words, 'ghouls' started bringing him to shadow land in his dreams. I shuttered. That hit a little too close to home.

"I still don't understand," I tried shaking out memories of Andrew on that ghostly plane.

"He found a spell that turned him into a vampire Rinslet," I felt my heart sink. But not from what I had just heard. It was the way I heard it. Train sounded as if he was going to crack, like he would shatter right then and there if he kept talking. I began to shiver, those over powering feelings were draining into me.

I felt my breathing getting harder, I began to take heavy breaths in and out, my chest rising and falling fast. I wanted to pull away all of Trains hurt, it just didn't seem fair – in some twisted way I wanted to be more there for him the Saya could ever be. And I know that she couldn't do this. She wouldn't be able to take away all his pain, because she was the cause of it. And we were bonded. They weren't. So I wanted to take it all away.

I couldn't see it, I only pictured all of it; all of this darkness surrounding Train.

I pulled all the darkness from around him. It felt so natural, all I had to do was reach out and then tug on it.

"Rinslet stop that! Make her stop Sven!" I heard Sephiria's voice shout out, Sven stood up so fast as he began to lean over the bed and grab me, but I squirmed away until I felt Trains arm. I touched it and let my hand slide down his arm until I twined my fingers through his.

Then I felt my anger flare up.

"Can't you just leave me alone! I want to be able to do what Saya couldn't! She would never be able to take away his hurt like I can!" I yelled.

"She would never be able to, right Train?" I looked up at him for conformation and comfort.

"Rinslet you just need to calm down," I watched Trains lips hesitate and flinch slightly before he dodged my question.

"No! Train, you know what I'm trying to do right? Sven? I just want to help. I need to help and if this is the only way then I will," I just kept talking. All I knew is that everything that was bottled up within me could now bubble to the surface.

"It's the only way I can help!" I repeated.

"Rinslet, you need to just calm down," his words got very intense, compulsion laced through them.

"Saya couldn't do this," I said one last time before I let the compulsion bleed through me.

It took a moment for everything to sink in, my breathing slowed, my heart beating normally again. In a way I felt kind of dizzy; and words were missing from my head that I knew I had just said out loud. What just happened?

All I knew is that I felt calm. All the darkness around me felt like it had lifted. When I looked up I saw Sephiria in front of me, her face was stone like and as she leaned over the bed, her hand raised high in the air.

And then she slapped me. Right, good across the cheek.

My head swung to the side, my flesh stinging as I lifted my hand to it and held it as tight as I could, tears stinging at my eyes.

"You stupid fool! Tricks like that will get us all killed!" she yelled.

I just stared up at her, the tears threatening to overflow, but I tried to push them back; my cheek burned now.

"This conversation no longer needs my attention. Not only did you not make the transformation, you're now practically giving the dead a way to find us. She must have relayed my terms of the agreement from that night. So let me refresh your memory. I will do what ever it takes to keep us all on plan. I respect your vampires wishes, but we need to train you fast and hard. With no interruptions. And with tricks like that, every non living being that Creed has manipulated will be here within seconds. Do you understand Rinslet Walker?" Sephiria's eyes were hard and intense. Every word shooting some kind of fear in me.

Even though I didn't understand, I still replied, "of course," and shook my head.

"See to it then," were her last words before she spun around and stalked out the bedroom door. Sven tugged down on his hat and sighed.

Everything in the room was so quiet, I only heard my breathing.

"Perhaps I should explain," it was Eve's small voice I heard that broke the silence. It startled me at first, mostly just because I had forgotten she was still in the room, and that she was the last person I thought would speak up in a crowd.

"Rinslet, what you just did was dangerous -"

"I don't understand what I did so wrong!" I glanced over at her. I felt the anger still stirring around me; it felt something menacing; like needles that kept pricking at my skin.

Eve stared at me, not at all upset at my out burst. She tried again, "it's dangerous because you and Train are bonded by the dead Rinslet. When he gets upset, you can feel it. And you can also take it away. And every time you do that, you open yourself up to the night world, they can feel all the energy around us, and when you pull away Trains darkness, they can feel it. Creed can feel it, and he can pin point exactly where we are; where you are more specifically."

I stared at her for a moment, my mind wandering.

Just how strong is this bond?I asked silently. I still couldn't believe how much I didn't know. It felt like whenever I took two steps forward, everything else took five. But then again, everyone was exactly that, always five steps ahead of me.

Saya knew about the war, she was making preparations for it.

"Fuck," I cursed out loud, frustrated at the memory.

"Our bond is only strong because our bond isn't a normal bond," Train answered my silent thought out loud.

"Then what the hell is it! These are the answers I'm looking for! What role do I play in all of this Train?" I felt that rush of hot anger trickle slowly into my body; my blood began pumping fast and my heart started to thunder in my chest.

"It is a soul bond," he confirmed. But not the ones that are found with everyone else. We both died Rinslet. I see those ghosts that you see, their real. I'm pulled into the darkness like you are Rinslet. But we heal each other. Like how you saw, you can take it all away, and my compulsion can make it disappear from there. You catch my insanity Rins. You get so out of control because, subconsciously you pull it all away from me.

Train was facing me, he turned all the way around, his face was calm now; he didn't look like he was about to break anymore.

I found it hard to look into his deep eyes, "but all soul bonds can do that." I could feel Sven shot me a funny look before he remembered Train and I shared the bond.

Saya couldn't,he sent silently to me, and I felt my heart drop.

My breathing hitched, and everything seemed to stop. My earlier words were being replayed to me. They were soul bonded too?

"You and Saya were bonded?" it was hard to speak, I thought I would choke on my words, they felt like I had vomited them all up. Of course they were, I'm such a fool.

"Yes. Our soul bond didn't feel like a soul bond though," he looked away from me, his gaze shifting down.

"Of course it did." I began shaking, my words not coming out the way I wanted them to. It had felt like I was punched in the gut, I wrapped my arms around myself; as if to hold myself from falling apart right there. I don't even know why it had hurt so much. It's not like I was in love with Train. I was only bonded to him. I loved Sven, right?

I glanced at Train, who was now looking at me. I could see his passion through his golden eyes, but I was still confronted with so much mystery.

Then I glanced at Sven. He was looking at me too; giving me a sad and concerned look from his green eye. The ones he normally gave me and that I would always sink into. How come I wasn't sinking now when I wanted to be? Instead I was so caught up with being Trains one and only.

Why was it such a competition with Saya?

"I'm going to take a quick shower guys. I need to wrap my head around everything that's been going on." I lied, I just wanted time by myself. I needed time by myself.

Train glanced up at Sven and nodded, then back at me and smiled, "of course Rins."

Train and Sven stood up in unison and walked towards the door, shutting it softly. Eve stood up as well, but was facing me, her innocent eyes staring me down.

"I just need some time, Eve," I gave her a faint smile, but she didn't buy it.

"Everything will be okay," were her last words before she made her way out as well.

I felt so hurt. And somehow lost. Like I couldn't remember the me that I use to be or anything. I felt hurt that I had been so naive. Of course Train and Saya were bonded, it was only, well, natural. Wasn't it?

When I come out, I'm going to be ready to talk. Please have the answers I wish to hear ready for me I pushed towards Train and through the bond I heard him chuckle.

Of course Princess

Don't call me that, I replied and to my dismay I smiled to myself. The pain of Saya and Train being bonded hurt, it had hurt so much; like I had, in a way been betrayed. Or maybe I was betraying Saya? I shook my head.

"Can't think about it," I mused to myself.

I pushed my self off the bed, and creaked over to the door as well, seconds before my hand touched the glass knob I felt something cold touch my shoulder.

I half spun around, to see what it was, my eyes quickly being drawn towards the long shadows from the corner of the room. I took a deep breath in, holding it; not wanting to make any sound.

Then it moved.

Slowly but surely, it moved to the side, then it moved forward. Beginning to take shape. I felt my heart quicken. I didn't want to scream, or yell for anyone to come. It was more like I couldn't scream and yell for someone to come.

"Rinslet."

That voice. I could pin point that voice anywhere. I let my breath go, a little bit relieved but still scared. It was Andrew.

"Rinslet, why don't you visit anymore?" The shadow began to take a little bit of a shape, I seen his faint image in it.

Never go looking for them Eldans order shot into my mind. I shivered, hating the way Andrews presence sent chills up my spine. My gut was churning, telling me to get out of there.

"I can't Andrew."

"Yes you can," his voice sounded different. There was a kind of menacing hiss under his tone. My gut still turned, flipping over and over, my heart quickening and all my muscles tensing up. As if I could fight a ghost.

"Andrew, you have to leave," I tried to make my voice sound tough, but it betrayed me.

"Your bonded with the vampire?" His voice was a deep growl that sent chills through my body; like I had just been shocked with an electric bolt.

I seen his translucent head twist to the side, his faint, but memorizing jade eyes looked almost like black holes.

"Your bonded with Saya?" He made a strange connection, and my breathing hitched in my throat before shivering out in pants.

"You have to leave now, brother. I can't have you staying there or here. I can't see you anymore. Please Andrew. I want you to be happy-"

"I'm happy jussssst where I ammmm!" The air turned cold, and I felt a hard pressure weighing down on me.

"Andrew you have to leave!" I tried again, it was hard to stand. I held on to the knob of the door to keep me up. It pushed down on me harder and harder. My throat felt constricted, the oxygen in the room seemed as if it had been cut off.

"Please leave!" I finally managed to scream. And everything stopped. The weight lifted and I fell hard on my knees to the ground. I sucked in a glorious amount of air before pushing myself as far against the door as I could and scrambling up, swinging open the door and nearly running to Train.

"Rins? Whats wrong?" He looked around and then back at me, his hands grabbing my shoulders firmly.

I shook my head, and tried prying his hands from me, "n-nothing, it's nothing." I was panting. I touched my forehead, so sure I was sweating.

I felt Train in my mind. Flipping through my memories and thoughts like a book. I closed my eyes and tried to clam my breathing.

"Rinslet, what did he want?" I forgot that the bond only let him see certain memories; but he could feel everything that happened.

"Nothing, really, it was nothing. He just...He just scared me." I looked away and Train pulled me towards him.

"Oh Rins," he breathed, his husky voice sounded so sweet and silky. He tucked his head close to mine.

I just blinked throughout the whole encounter; loving the way his scent made me drown. It wasn't what I would have expected the scent of a vampire would smell. He smelt clean – like pine, or leaves. Then I felt his lips at my neck. I tensed up, getting ready for the bite. In some sick way, I wanted it – oh did I ever want that rush of adrenaline. That beautiful high where I didn't have to worry about anything. I craned my head slightly, closing my eyes the slightest, getting ready for the second of pain that came when you got bitten by a vampire.

But it never came. Instead, I only felt his lips touch my neck so softly. He kept them there for a while, before pulling away and looking at me with his beautiful, golden eyes. He was smiling and reached over to tuck a loose strand of hair behind my ear.

Again he just stared at me, his yes incredibly intense. And I found myself asking, "why didn't you bite me?"

He smiled at me sadly, "ever since the night you and I became bonded I stopped being that monster. Well, I tried." he inclined his head towards my puncture wounds.

"Why?"

"After that night, I felt everything you had felt. And ever since I have felt everything you have felt. You think we're monsters and always out for blood. I wanted to be different, instead of a monster, I wanted to just be a normal man." His thumb cupped my face and his thumb gently stroked my jaw – a move Andrew always use to do to me. It felt so different with Train. I felt like I could melt in his gaze and with his touch.

"Why just after we were bonded?"

He smiled again, and this time he leaned down towards me – and was so close I thought he just might kiss me. I turned my head slightly to the side, closing my eyes.

Then I felt his lips at my neck again.

Just as I looked up at him he pulled away and began to turn around to walk away, "hurry up with that shower Princess, we have a lot to go over," he said over his shoulder, but I could hear the smile in his tone.

I grinned, "don't call me princess," I called after him and also turned on my heels towards the bathroom door.

^.^

I didn't want to think about Saya and Train while I was alone; mostly because the topic upset me, but because I wanted proper answers, not the ones that my mind distracted me with.

I came out of the steamy bathroom in an overly large bathrobe I had found, a towel tossed over my hair. I put my clothes in some of the soaking water so they could at least get somewhat of a good wash. I assumed we would have to go back to the castle to re stock.

I walked out into the living room. Sven was lounging on the small love seat, and Train laying on the couch. Eve had taken up a spot at the end of it. I walked in the middle of the room and sat down next to Sven.

"So, I figured out what I want to ask." I announced.

"Shoot," Train made a gun using his index finger and pointer finger, then aimed it at me.

"Well, I guess, I should start out, what role do I have in this war?" I had been asking this question for a long time and never seemed to get any answers.

'That's tough to answer," Train replied, I watched him as he pointed his imaginary 'gun' at the ceiling, before he brought his arm down and let it hang over the couch.

"I guess, I need to re-instate that, you play a very important role. Not only in the war, but after. You will be my queen. It's not about the war per say; more about the after affects of it because it won't be easy for people to get over something as traumatic as this. Humans and Night world beings have fought for years. Now the night world is fighting? It will cause both sides to suffer Rins."

I waited for the punch line, but it never came. So I laughed, "really?"

"Really Rins, your actually very important in the war," he glanced over at me, even from across the room I felt the full effects of his smoldering eyes.

"Is it because I'm bonded to Saya?" I don't know why it slipped out, but it did. I bit down hard on my lip, God I was such an idiot. I tried not letting the whole 'S' word bother me as much. But it really did.

"I-I mean, you know, I can see her there, kind of bonded thing," I laughed, deep inside I had a feeling that this topic shouldn't have brought it up. Well just not yet.

Train chuckled a sweet tone too at this point, and then a silent message was pushed my way before I had heard his voice out loud.

"Do you have another questions about the war?" This is what he said out loud. It at least distracted everything away from my earlier out burst, but I still knew that Train had already made the connection. Probably so did Sven and Eve at this point; I was just way out of the loop.

If you gave me another chance to re deem myself for those marks, I will tell you everything you desire about me Rinslet. Tonight even. This was the message he had sent through the bond. I raised an eyebrow at him from across the room and he winked in reply.

"What do we do now?"

Sven answered this time, "we need to go back to the castle, you need to go back to school and make it seem as if nothing happened. Kyoko will be awakening soon and we will get answers out of her as soon as we can. Right now, we are all about getting more troops," Sven took a quick breather and glanced over at Eve and smiled. She smiled back hesitantly and then looked down and blushed.

I had totally forgotten about Kyoko. But the sooner she woke up the better. I can get more answers from her. It sounded cruel, but I really didn't care what they did with her, I just knew that she was, well as safe as a non dead person could be.

"You're actually going to make me go back to school? What about training?" I discarded the silent exchange of fluttery eyes between Eve and Sven and glanced at him.

Sven chuckled, "I really didn't think you hated school that much. Training will be going on as proceeded. But now that you know everything, we have to be extra careful. You can't be going around by yourself anymore. The night world knows about your bond. Well not you yourself, but they know of a forbidden bond. Not only will we have Creeds men after us, but the night world counsel, Sephiria can only hold everything back for so long. You need to learn how to use and control your supernatural powers. Your vampire won't change you unless your strong, and for our planning, this sets us back." Sven stopped and glanced down at my pendant.

"I was already under the impression you had transformed," he mused silently, and then sighed. It was as if he was sort of relieved. That image of Sven, always looking out for me and always being, well just always being amazing, wonderful Sven.

I smiled and touched his hand softly, "just plain old, delinquent Rinslet," I replied my earlier words. He looked at our hands and then back up at me and his mouth relaxed into a smile.

"Plain old amazing Rins," he grinned.

I could only smile back and kick myself in the head like an idiot. How can I not fall in love with Sven? He was there my whole life, protecting me and teaching me. Why couldn't I fall for Sven? I thought I had fell for him at one point, but now I just couldn't get my head around anything. Everything was so much more complicated then I could have ever imagined.

"So wait, love the plan and all, but what about Train? What's he going to be doing?" I glanced over at Train, hands behind his head and staring up at the ceiling.

"Well Princess, I do have a job to get back to," he mused quietly, and I huffed.

"What job?"

"I have a kingdom to rule, and all that kind of crap," he hissed. I felt a little bit of where he was coming from. I hated the fact that I had to one day rule a kingdom.

"Your going be on the throne?" I asked curiously. Wouldn't that defy the whole purpose of staying low?

Sven chuckled, "he can't go straight to the throne. Even though he is the royal linage, he has been missing for years, centuries even. First he needs to get himself to court and get himself on the counsel. Then from there, he can move up the ranks," he explained.

"But doesn't that defy our whole 'stay low' purpose?"

Train chuckled this time, "princess, we need him to come right to us."

"Yeah, but why? Doesn't that put a lot of people at risk?"

"No one's at risk when you have an ace like us," his voice was low. Almost like a growl. It made me shiver delightfully.

"What ace?" I asked cautiously.

Train turned around on his side, propping himself up on his elbows and gaze into my eyes. From across the room it felt like he was right beside me, I felt that heat instantly and flinched at the tingling sensation that radiated off my body.

"You'll see Rinslet."

^.^

I didn't ask anymore questions after that. He must have used compulsion, or maybe I just started getting use to waiting for answers, but I felt like I could trust anything and everything he was going to do. It was as if he was my skin, Everything I felt was because of him, he triggered all my nerves and senses. Blew my mind, subdue me with his golden stare, make me feel like I was floating.

He made me feel like I might actually want to fall in love with him.

He made me feel as if I couldn't run away anymore.

The trip back to the car and bike had given me some time to think. Think about a alternate plan and things to ask. I always had questions. We had came on horse-back, thanks to Sven. But there was only 3, so Train, me and Sven each took a horse and Eve rode with Sven. I had the black mare, and as I rode; I let my mind wander; the moon high above us all. As we were leaving I felt a ping of guilt leaving my child hood home. I could imagine Andrew waving good bye to me as we left. He was standing on the porch, his arm high in the air and forearm moving left to right slowly. Or maybe it wasn't my imagination.

I was mentally aware that we had found the vehicles by this time. Eve and Sven offered to take me with them but I declined. Train and I grabbed our helmets and watched at they backed out. Then I turned to Train.

"Okay, no more nice girl. You promised me answers," I put my helmet on and crossed my arms.

I heard him laugh, it was a sweet kind of soft tone.

"What? What's so funny?" I asked, kind of shrugging into myself. Maybe I had a stick in my hair?

"Nothing, nothing," he was shaking his head, confirming himself. Then he turned around and made his way to his bike, stuck the key into the ignition and the engine roared to life. The one headlight came on and cast some light on the dark surroundings.

"Alright miss. not so nice girl, you want answers right?" he leaned against the seat of the bike and I stood my ground, waiting for whatever deal he was about to come up with.

"Yes, what about it?"

"Well, first things first, I need a place to stay. And I hear the kings daughter is a very compromising person. SO I had hoped she would share some accommodations with me."

"Seriously, you just want a place to stay?" I asked out loud and then started walking towards him, "that deal is so easy, go ahead and stay in the castle."

"Princess, home is where the heart is."

I rolled my eyes, now tired of his games. Or maybe just tired in general.

"Whatever, let's get going," I ordered and hopped on the bike. He slid in front of me and I wrapped my arms around his strong waist while resting my head on his back, we pulled out fast and before I knew it we were on a main road, the air blowing around me wildly.

I was only slightly aware of the strange feelings of the dark surrounding as we zoomed through the roads. A feeling that eyes had been following our every move. A feeling that reminded me; we were not alone.