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Why?! Why did you had to walk here right freaking now?!

This was so… awkward and not to mention the part where I had to explain this?

Yeah, everyone holds hands with their ex-fuckbuddy! UUUHG

I shook of Matthews hand almost immediately, which Sebastian noticed.

'Stop doing that,' I told Matthew with no feeling in my voice except for coldness.

My eyes were like flames trying to burn down Matthew's body.

'Hmmpf, whatever you want,' the black-haired boy said obviously irritated by the fact that I rejected him… again.

Sebastian was watching me closely, terrific.

'I'll let you know if I get an answer for your question,' Matthew said and suddenly walked away.

Maybe this kid was a little bit smarter then I figured he was.

'What was that about?' Sebastian asked me curiously and I looked back at his face, meeting his eyes.

'Home business,' I told him in a non-caring tone, making sure that I didn't wanna talk about these things with him.

'Ah.'

A small, comfortable silence fell as we looked at each other. My stomach twisted just because I saw him again after a few days.

So weird…

'Come on,' Smythe said as he stretched out his hand.

I took it.

'Who is that dude anyway?' Sebastian laughed at me.

We were sitting on some grass field just out of town, a quiet and sweet place.

'Matthew,' I spoke softly while ripping out the grass next to me. 'An ex.'

'Ex? You've had real relationships before?' Sebastian asked me with real surprise in his voice, well thanks man!

'Just so I could bang around with him a little,' I grinned at the boy in front of me. 'He just wanted it to be official, ha ha!'

The warbler laughed a loud laugh, which gave me chills.

'For how long?' he asked me.

'Like… three months I believe?'

'Really? That's quite surprising, really,' Sebastian laughed.

'I've hadn't really had a real one before though, how about you?' I asked curious and my eyes watched how his body went a little stiffer.

'I have, yes. Three. One very long, the other quite short,' he told me, his eyes looking away from mine.

'What happened? The long one, I mean,' I asked and in my voice you could hear a little bit of sympathy, not much though. I knew the longer relationship was the one that he cared about most.

'He died in a car accident.'

Oops, didn't see that one coming.

'That's horrible,' I said after a minute of silence. 'I can't imagine how that was for you…'

Sebastian looked at me, his eyes locked on mine.

'It was, yeah. But it's been two years now, I'm fine,' He smiled at me, but I knew that that was a show.

I used that smile too. Mine was just more convincing.

I nodded, not knowing what to do or say.

'After something like that happens, you end up in a whole. A dark whole and it's hard to get out of it. You just need something or someone to show you the way out. A little light in the darkness.'

I was drowning in his beautiful green eyes.

'I found mine a few days ago. Someone showed me that I could feel something again, care again,' his voice sounded so light while floating through the air.

'You are my light, Rory, do you even know that?'

I knew, all right.

The problem was that I didn't know what to think of it… how to feel about this.

I always told myself not to care about anyone. It would just hurt you, more and more and more until you'd collapse.

My eyes saw nothing. I just stared in the deep as I felt an arm wrapping around my shoulders and pulling me towards the other one's warm body.

'What are you thinking, Rory Flanagan? I want to know…,' Sebastian's lips whispered beside my ear.

I kept on being silent as I let my body lay against his.

We looked at the sunset as Sebastian held me tightly.

For some reason I felt the urge to cry. To cry hard, loud, a lot. I felt the need to scream as well, as equally hard, loud and just as much!

I couldn't take it…

I didn't understand what I was feeling these days. These feelings for Sebastian were driving me mad!

And then there was this fucking need hat I wanted to go home!

I had to!

Not for my friends, if you could really call them that. Even though I knew them I didn't tell them everything about me.

I didn't care if I would see my parents.

All I wanted to see was Evy…

Sebastian touched my cheek with his hand and woke me up from my thoughts.

'Don't think too much, right now,' he spoke softly to me. 'Just sit here with me, okay?'

I looked at his covered chest for a few minutes, then I looked back into his eyes as I nodded slowly.

A smile formed on his lips as he pulled me closer and kissed me.

It wasn't a kiss with action, it was more that our lips were connected for a little while, really.

But I could feel the passion bursting out of him.

As we parted I placed my forehead against his chin and closed my eyes with a small sigh.

Turned out a bit longer then I wanted it to be haha! Not that I mind (:

I hope I didn't make you to curious…

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