A/N: Alright, so here starts a new journey in this story….. it will be interesting. (: Enjoy! This is kind of a filler chapter; hopefully, a lot of it will be Blaine's thoughts.

"Blaine? Blaine?" I heard my name being called. I fluttered my eyes open to see Kurt. Right, Kurt. We were in a hospital, because Kurt tried to take his life.

"Jesus, Blaine. Normally you look so peaceful when you sleep, but now, you were just… sad. You looked sad. Is everything okay?" Kurt asked

Kurt knew me too well. But I wasn't about to bring this upon him; what kind of boyfriend would that make me? Telling Kurt I am a recovering bulimic while he's lying in a hospital bed? He doesn't need anything to worry about; nothing at all. He needs to focus on himself right now

"I'm fine, I must've just been having a bad dream." I said, knowing that the understatement I just made was a huge one.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Kurt asked, whispering

"Kurt, we need to focus on you right now, alright? Not me. It was just a stupid dream." I snapped. I immediately regretted it.

"Oh." Kurt said. Oh. That's it.

"Kurt, I'm really sorry, I really am. I'm just really tired." I said shaking my head

"Don't worry about it. Get some sleep" Kurt said

"No time. We have to go to Doctor Jones' thingy talk thing."

"Blaine, it's four AM. The appointment is at 1 PM. Get some sleep and I'll see you in the morning." Kurt whispered.

"If it's four AM, what are you doing up Kurt?" I asked, worried

"Just thinking." He responded

"About what?"

"Blaine, save it for the appointment. Get some sleep, I love you."

"I love you too."

I repositioned myself on the uncomfortable hospital room couch. The nurses tried to make me leave, but I told them I wouldn't. I told them I would never leave Kurt, and that he would be devastated if I left, so I wouldn't. They were hesitant but fortunately they let me stay. I shut my eyes, drifting off into dream land for a few more hours.

I fluttered my eyes open; letting them burn at the sensation of daylight. I stretched my back and cracked my neck on both sides before sitting up. I rubbed my eyes once more and turned to Kurt who was lying on his bed. His eyes were open, staring at the TV. He must've heard me move, because his eyes turned from the screen to me, a smile slowly forming on his face.

"Good morning beautiful." I said to him, rising from the couch to kiss my boyfriend good morning. I felt his eye lashes flutter on my cheek bones as I kissed his sweet lips. I pulled away, and he smiled back up at me. I sat down at my chair that was stationary at his bed post, and grabbed his hand. I rested our conjoined hands on his thigh; my thumb stroking the side of his hand slowly.

"Good morning." Kurt finally said. "The nurse already brought me breakfast, you should go get some for yourself. I don't recall you eating much since we've been here." I internally panicked. What if Kurt already knew? What if he hated me because of my past? What if he thinks it gross and unattractive? Phew. Blaine. Keep your cool. You've done this before.

"It's fine Kurt, I actually was up at 6 and I got something from the cafeteria." I said coolly. Smooth move Anderson.

"Oh alright." Kurt said with a smile, squeezing my hand.

"Are you ready for today?" I asked nervously. We had another private conference therapy again, today, and we'd be going in farther deep than last time.

"I don't think I will ever be ready. But let's not talk about it. I don't want to." Kurt said coldly.

"We won't as long as you open up later. If you do well today, they might let you go home soon."

Kurt opened his mouth to answer when we heard a knock at the door.

"Come in!" I yelled. The door opened and Finn was standing at the door. Kurt froze. I knew he was worried about the last confrontation, but he seemed to have opened up. Finn closed the door behind him and awkwardly walked in. He pulled up another chair next to me, at the foot of Kurt's bed.

"Hi Kurt." He said quietly. I squeezed Kurt's hand and looked to him. He gave me a worried look. I mouthed courage. He turned back to Finn.

"Hi." He said quietly. I watched Finn's face light up. It was amazing how the smallest interaction he had with Kurt made him so happy. He didn't understand the least bit what was going on, but I knew he knew that Kurt was scared; Kurt was ashamed. And we both knew he had nothing to be ashamed of.

"Kurt, I miss you at home." Finn said

"I miss it too." Kurt responded a few seconds after.

"Kurt, I stopped by today because I miss you. I don't remember the last time I had been around you when you were happy, and you were always kind of cool when you were happy, I guess. Then, things went downhill, and I didn't stick up for you like I should've. And I should've, Kurt, I really really should've. And then we became brothers, and you went to Dalton and you met Blaine. Blaine made your whole life light up again. He made all of our lives light up because he made you light up. And then I don't know what happened Kurt, I really don't. You were still with Blaine, but you weren't so happy any more. Especially when you moved back to McKinley. And then prom came, and you got even worse, Kurt. And the whole summer went by and I KNEW something was wrong, I KNEW. And I did nothing. I did nothing to help you, again. I'm supposed to be your brother Kurt, and look what almost happened! Look where we are now! I could've done something Kurt, and this wouldn't even be an issue right now. And I just… I'm having a really hard time forgiving myself for what could've happened." Finn said. I watched a tear fall from his eye; I knew Finn was speaking from the heart.

"Finn Hudson." Kurt said, quietly, but firm.

"What I almost did was NOT your fault. By no means was it. That was my decision. You've been a great brother, Finn. Please, stop worrying. You have nothing to worry about. And besides, I'm here right now, so let's think about what is rather than what could've been." He said

I smiled at Kurt with pride; he had already come this far in his healing. I think that this is the moment I knew Kurt would be alright again someday; these scars wouldn't fade, but they'd be minimal.

"But Kurt, you can't deny it didn't happen! I mean, you could've died and stuff! And what if this happens again Kurt, but that time it follows through? What am I going to do then?" Finn yelled obviously frustrated

"I promise, I will be fine. I love you Finn, and you know it. You did all you could. And I love you for it. Now, can you please leave? I need a minute. I will have Blaine call the family and see if they can come down at some point."

Finn stood up from his chair and looked back at Kurt.

"I love you Kurt, I'll see you soon." Finn said, leaning down to Kurt to give him a hug. He spun around and walked out the hospital door, not without looking back at Kurt with a sympathetic smile.

I turned to Kurt who already had tears running down his cheeks. I squeezed his hand, and brought it to my lips.

"Are you okay baby?" I asked softly

"Look what I did to him. Look what I could've done to him. He thinks he's a terrible brother, and he's not, all because of this. What have I done?" Kurt said, the tears rolling faster.

"Kurt, take a deep breath. I'm going to call Doctor Jones and see if he can move our appointment up, okay?"

Kurt nodded, wiping another tear from his cheek. I swatted his hand away playfully, and he looked at me in question

"I'm the one who's supposed to wipe away your tears. It's my job; it's an honor. I love you, Kurt." I said, kissing his lips quickly after I rose from my chair. I walked out of the room to go change the appointment.

Post A/N: So this was definitely a filler chapter; but it is important. Finn's appearance in this chapter is going to affect what happens at Kurt and Blaine's next therapy session; which will be in the next chapter. I will have that posted either today or tomorrow! (: