a/n: This chapter was done on the quick due to the fact that I doubt I'll have any more time this month to update. I was initially planning on posting this on Saturday, but since I have an all day conference tomorrow... yeah. This chapters sucks and is completely ooc, so feel free to flame and bitch all you want. In my defense though, this was written in a like a day.

DISCLAIMER: I do NOT own Digimon, it's characters, etc. in anyway, shape, or form. I do NOT own anything that is under copyright law that is mentioned in this fanfic. Therefore, that implies that I don't own lyrics, sites, shows, etc. mentioned in this fanfic. Like, for real.

Up in the Air

What had started off as a peaceful morning quickly took a turn for the worst, all because of a simple slip of the tongue. Davis had explained everything to Kari, starting off at the beginning. Almost over a year ago, he had filled in as a dj for a showcase that his friend J was hosting. Unknown to him, the event's planners had also booked Matt's band as one of the performing acts. During one of breaks, the blond had confronted him backstage. After a brief conversation, he promised to keep their encounter a secret. Davis soon found that out to be a lie, receiving an e-mail from TK a few weeks later. Over the course of that time, the two teens exchanged messages and a few phone calls to each. There had been a few mentions of Davis's possible return, but nothing was never said to be official. It had been very much to TK's surprise when he heard news of the burgundy haired boy's arrival.

Now, unlike how he had hoped it would feel, a weight wasn't lifted off Davis's shoulders. If anything, he felt more burdened with guilt than relief. Dreading Kari's response, he knew that she wouldn't take the truth very lightly. The regret from the lies were starting to come crashing down on him harder than ever before.

"Why?" she finally spoke, "Why did you do it?"

Why did he decide to lie about everything? Davis couldn't give her an answer because in truth, he didn't know why. At the time, he had been under the impression that he wasn't going to be in Japan for long. He didn't think it was necessary for anyone to know that he was back. The thought of being confronted by the others upon his return was so overwhelming that he panicked. It just seemed convenient to portray himself as someone else rather that be himself when he had found out that he was going to have an extended stay. Looking back, he knew from the start that lying would come back to bite him.

"To be honest, I don't even know why I lied," he replied, "I guess I-"

"I'm not talking about that," Kari interrupted, "I'm asking why you abandoned us."

"What?"

Abandon them? How could she think something like that? Her of all people, Davis least expected Kari to accuse him of such things. Though she may have felt like that was what he had done, abandon them was the last thing he had did. When he left left, she was the only to actually keep her promise about wanting to stay in contact. The others hadn't even bothered as to leave even a short e-mail saying "hi." It had given him the impression that they didn't care about his departure, making him resent them even more. The way he saw it, it was they who abandoned him.

"Are you kidding me? It wasn't like you guys went out of your way to make any contact with me either."

"That's a lie, Davis," she exclaimed, "I called, I left messages. You never replied back."

"Yeah, just you," he scoffed, "the rest made it very clear that they didn't give a fuck if I was gone."

"How could say something like that?" she asked, hearing the hurt in her voice, "You make it sound as if we never about you cared from the start."

"Well, that's what it felt like," he remarked, "Did it ever occur to you that maybe the reason why I 'abandoned' you guys was because I was tired?"

"Tired of what?" she asked, "What are you talking, Davis?"

Was she serious? She honestly had no idea as to why he felt that way? If that were the case, then it truly had been as if she barely knew he was alive. He had gotten so fed up with the way the group had treated him, that it was part of what influenced his decision to leave. He was sick of they way others would belittle and ignore him. From what he could recall, none of them had ever truly accepted him as their leader. Every idea, every suggestion was shot down and ridiculed before it was ever given a chance. How they would often inadvertently make hurtful jokes at his expense. During the times when the insults were intentional were the harshest, when he had to pretend he was too stupid to understand to prevent his feelings from getting hurt. Later when it was up to him to save the day, they had claimed it to be luck rather than actual success.

"Know what, Kari?" he began harshly, "Forget it. You can go around acting like I'm the one in the wrong, but don't act so surprised when you realize that you ain't exactly the angel you lead yourself on to be."

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"What is it supposed to mean?" he repeated, mocking her slightly, "It means fuck you, little miss innocent."

"What I am gonna do?" he spoke desperately into the phone, "She won't even look at me anymore."

Davis paced around his room as he listened intently to the older man on the other end of the call. Not even a day after his fight with Kari, Davis immediately regretted his actions and sought out to apologize. Unfortunately for him, she wasn't in any type of forgiving mood when he showed up at her doorstep. That was four days ago, he had yet to get through to her since then. After various phone calls, text messages, and attempts to talk to her at school, Davis became at a loss. Now he was seeking advice from the one person that knew Kari better than anyone, her brother.

"I don't know, Tai," he began "I messed up big this time."

On top of having to deal with the situation with Kari, he also had to face the reactions of the others when they got news of the truth. Upon seeing him at school, Yolei immediately came at him with full force, not once letting up. She relentlessly scolded him on how "heartless" and "cowardly" he had been when he left. Claiming that he had hated from the start, and also that he was a pathetic excuse of a leader. When it got down to Cody, although he wasn't as harsh, it didn't stop him from expressing how deeply disappointed he was. Davis had gotten lucky that Ken wasn't able to make a trip to Odaiba. He was relieved that he wouldn't find out just how much he had hurt his old best friend.

"The things I said were pretty fu-" he paused, reconsidering his choice of words, "...they were pretty bad."

Sitting on the edge of his bed, Davis sighed as he ran a hand through his hair. He didn't know what to do anymore. Now that the truth was out, things had become more complicated than ever. Just as the overwhelming feeling from before left him, it had come back. He couldn't stand being in Japan anymore, he needed to get out. He was tired of this drama and the stress that came along with it. It felt as if he couldn't breath, like being there was suffocating him.

"I'm so sick of this, Tai. I can't deal with everything being up in the air."

a/n: So yeah, that's it.