"That's impossible Viktoria" I whispered not wanting to believe it.

"You'll talk to Mark and Oksana tomorrow after they heal Dimitri" She said trying to calm me down but my mind was still trying to adjust to what she just said. That couldn't be possible.

Three days later

DPOV

I was still in the cold and heavy darkness. I didn't know how long I had been there but I was thankful of some company every time Adrian came and told me that Roza was alright and that she had actually tried to get him drunk so he'd come and visit me. She wanted to know if I was alright and wanted Adrian to tell me that she loved me.

I felt a little bit better when he said that. I was very glad that she fine but I couldn't wake up. Not yet. Adrian explained to me what Oksana thought was wrong with me and that she would try to help me in a couple of days because she had been gathering strength. My soul was still separated from my body and that was why I was still here. I didn't like it any better but if I had to stay here some time just so I can go back later then I would do it. I loved Rose and I wanted to be with her so I had to endure this place, this coldness and darkness that was like a torture chamber because it kept replaying all my mistakes and from time to time some good memories with Roza.

I had only seen the cabin memory once and I relieved all my feelings for Roza, her face and expression when we finally decided to let go of everything we ad been carrying and give our selves to each other. I didn't regret it at all.

But then the bad memories came rushing to me and were hurting like hell. I had been experiencing this awful headache that felt as if someone was smashing me skull against something many times. The bad memories were the ones where I pushed Roza away because I had thought that I thought it was best if we stayed away from each other. How wrong I had been and the look of hurt in Roza's eyes had been just too much. It took the best of me being there. I couldn't take it anymore!

The pressure around me was suffocating me and everything was so quiet and dark that it was frustrating. All the time I had been in here I could feel some sort of switch. Well not exactly a switch but a way to let go any moment I wanted and right now it was tempting to just let go and get rid of this agony. The alternative had repulsed me at first because I had to be crazy if I let go and the fact that now it was appealing to meant only one thing. I was either going crazy or the pain and pressures were the ones to blame.

I tried to calm my self down but I couldn't.

Everywhere I looked there it was Roza and every time I tried to go to her she disappeared or simply went away. Some of the Roza's there were Strigoi and some were still pregnant with our baby. I even saw a Roza holding a baby but she wouldn't let me get anywhere near her.

She was screaming at me that I left her and now she hated me. All of them hated me or tried to kill me. It was just too much, I couldn't deal with anything anymore and the darkness tried to take me away again but I wanted to keep seeing my Roza. Even if it meant listening to her words full of hatred and hurt.

Suddenly I felt like I was floating away from it all and alarmed bells started to ring in my head, if I was letting go then I was dying. I couldn't die! Not after all this that I had been enduring and waiting for someone to come and bring me back to my body.

RPOV

Everyone was around Dimitri's bed. Adrian was talking in whispers to Viktoria trying to console her because she had finally started crying. Lissa and Christian were in the corner just watching. Since yesterday we hadn't talk because what I said it was true.

Janine was with another Moroi and both of them were watching me carefully and warily as if at any moment I might start attacking people. I might do it if Oksana didn't hurry up bringing Dimitri back. Dimitri's family was also here, except Paul. Karolina had told Paul to stay in his room. Olena and Yeva were trying to keep their distance but they were just as worried as Sonya and Karolina.

I was beside the bed holding Dimitri's hand, waiting for him to wake up when Oksana started to try to bring him back by only healing his body and eventually his soul would come back to him. I was sure I'd be able to handle it because today I was feeling a lot better than I had yesterday.

Mark and Oksana promised that they'd explain everything after Dimitri's awakening.

"Ok I'll start but I need you Rose to be patient if he doesn't wakes up right away ok?" I nodded and sighed.

She placed her hands on Dimitri's neck and I could see how his skin was closing and healing leaving no trace of that injury but just a barely visible scar.

I tightened my grip on his hand when Oksana backed away from him but he didn't return the squeeze. He just lay there not opening his eyes and not moving. I reached out and put my hand on his cheek caressing his cheek slightly and with love. I leaned closer and started whispering in his ear.

"Dimitri please wake up. I'm here, I'm fine please just wake up. I miss you" I kept on whispering things in his ear and the baby started to kick more. As a last resort I placed his hand on my belly so he'd feel the baby and after a couple of seconds his eyes flickered open.

He looked at me and then down at his hand that was touching my stomach. He smiled, the smile reached his eyes and I couldn't help my self anymore. I leaned in and kissed him. He kissed me back and cupped my face with his hands.

I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tight. I was so happy that he was alive and smiling but mostly kissing me. The feeling of his lips against mine was the best. I felt safe and loved again.

"Roza, oh God Roza I thought I lost you." He said after we pulled away to breathe and then he started kissing me all over my face and I giggled.

"Dimitri… we're not alone" I said to him and then he seemed to realize where he was.

"Dimka!" Viktoria and his family came to the bed and started to kiss him and hug him and all that. I was actually very happy. He pulled me on the bed and kept me at his side with him.

"Thank you" Dimitri said to Oksana and she smiled at him. I was very grateful that she had been able to bring him back to me.

"Dimitri we need to tell you something" Oksana said looking sideways at me and Dimitri looked back and forth between us.

"What's wrong?" He asked confused and I sighed.

"There's something wrong with… the baby and me" I said and his expression quickly became concerned. He placed his hand on my belly and looked up to me.

"What's wrong Roza?" He asked and I couldn't stand seeing him all worried like this. I was already worried enough for both of us.

"I…" Thankfully Oksana continued.

"Dimitri the baby… she's not Damphir"

"She's human?" Dimitri asked surprised but I wish that she had been human.

"No" Oksana continued. "She's Moroi" Dimitri's eyes widened and his expression was definitely not surprised but troubled and almost scared.

"That's not possible…" He murmured in denial.

"I don't know how that's even possible but… it's true. That's not it though" I sighed waiting for Dimitri's disgust at seeing me. "Rose, she… she's changing too. She developed a new taste for blood and we think that it might be because of the baby. She needs blood to survive." Dimitri's jaw dropped and when he turned around to see me his eyes looked full of hurt and…something else that I didn't care to know what it was.

It might have been disgust but I didn't want to see it clouding his beautiful brown eyes so I looked down. "We just don't know for how long,"

"I think we should let them talk for now" Mark suggested and slowly everyone started to leave the room. Viktoria came and kissed Dimitri and me on the cheek before leaving.

"Everything will be fine, he'll understand" She whispered in my ear and then she left.

I sighed.

"Roza…" I don't love you anymore you disgust me and I don't want to get married with you, was what I was expecting but when I didn't look up he lifted my chip up to look at him.

"I didn't now, I swear and if you don't love me anymore…"He kissed me.

"Roza I don't care about the blood. Roza I love you and that will never change." His words brought tears to my eyes and he wiped them away.

"Dimitri I'm thirsty for blood and… I have fangs" I showed him the fangs but he didn't care.

"Roza I love you just the way you are" He was saying the truth and I knew it but I was still scare for being this new person and I didn't know how much I could take. The baby started to move again with Dimitri's nearness and he smiled running his fingers up and down my belly. It felt good to have him back.

"I missed you so much" I said against his chest as he leaned back against the pillows in a sitting position and he squeezed my shoulder.

"I thought I'd die when you were taken Roza and I went through hell the two weeks you weren't with me." His voice was full of pain.

"Dimitri let's just forget about it ok? The only thing that matters now is that we're fine and we can go on with our lives together here." That was what I wished the most but at the mention of staying here he stiffened. "What's wrong?"

"We need to talk about this Roza, let's go talk with your Mother alright?" He said softly caressing my cheek.

"What does my Mother have to do with this? Did she try to talk you into something?" He realized that I was getting angry and tried to calm me by giving me a quick, soft kiss on the lips. Didn't work that well though.

"Let's go… we need to talk about something else." He got up and we walked towards the living room downstairs holding hands. I didn't want to let go because I might have fallen down the stairs without his support and because I had miss his warmth and touch.

I'm sorry for not updating in such a long time but now I'm here. I'm also reading Spirit bound, almost done, but I've been getting weird looks from people in the hallway whenever I gasp or look like an injured puppy because I cannont belive it! Dimitri is so fucking mean! But it gave me an idea for my story Lovely Rose with Thorns. Although I'm still shocked and I'm not sure I'll be able to keep wrting this story without remembering what really happened. I cannot picure Dimitri like that but his words are stuck in my head. I'm going to save the tears for when I get home, I don't want to give a spectacle of my self. Anyways, please tell me what you thought of Spirit bound and if, like me, you want to get in the book and shake some sense into Dimitri's head, or at least keep him sane and give him a kiss or two no matter how many Guardians are around. Maybe even go visit the Queen and have a talk with her (aka throw some punchs at her).

Please review more, I need lots of reviews to keep me happy and writing. Also, to keep you on edge let me tell you that I'm already writing the part where Roza gives birth to her baby, though is going to be a while till you see it because I have some other things in store for all of you before we reach such a happy part like that.

Could you guys leave me some books names to read? I'm running out of options. Help.

SEE you guys later and please don't forget to review, remember that its like pinching Dimitri's ass!

PS.

Tell me how you break up with your boyfriend, in a non mean way that won't hurt either of you. Need help, urgent.