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Chapter 10
It's confirmed. I have it. I'm paralyzed.
So alone, so cold. She said I'll get over it, I'll walk again. She tried to be as nice as she could but no, there is no other way to make it easy.
Paralyzed. Me. Why.
I tried to give it a reason, all my life I didn't care for no one. Apart from my job I have nothing. No one. Just a couple of friends and co workers. No family, no boyfriend. Nothing.
Better of dead. Because being alive I'll only be a burden on someone, or on the health system.
Poor Elliot, he has been here all the time. But soon he will come less often, explaining that work is busy, or has to take care of the kids. Figures.
There is no reason why he would take care of me. Paralyzed. Me.
He look's at me with those blue eyes. Pretending he understands. He is not paralyzed how can he even understand?
"Elliot, go away"
Elliot lifted his head. "What?"
"I said go away. I want to be alone". Olivia closed her eyes. Tears started to form. She didn't want Elliot to see her cry.
"Liv, what's wrong?"
"I want to be alone, please!"
"O.k,O.k don't get mad. I'll be back tomorrow"
"Don't even bother" she added.
"What?" Elliot couldn't understand why she was acting this way.
Olivia shut her eyes. She didn't even bother to answer his question.
Elliot gave her a sharp look. "Don't push me away. I'm here with you because…"
"Because what Elliot?" she opened her eyes, tears began to fall down her cheeks "because this is the right thing to do? Or because you feel sorry for me?"
Her words pierced his heart. He turned his back to her and left the room.
I knew it. I knew he was going to leave. Couldn't take the heat …. I wish I could die right now. Please god put my out of my misery…this is too cruel
The door opened. Elliot stepped back in. Olivia could tell he was angry. When Elliot got angry his eyes would shrink and he would place his hands on his waist.
"Do you think it is that easy to see you like this? I won't leave you, you are my partner. If this was the other way, you wouldn't leave me!"
He came back…..I can't believe it….please don't go!
"Olivia…..I…I'm in love with you" there! I said it!
Olivia's heart skipped a bit. What did he just said?
Elliot got closed to Olivia's bed. He touched her hand.
"I will never leave. I'm here for you"
Olivia froze. She couldn't speak. She didn't know what to say. Tears were sliding off her cheeks.
"Please say something Olivia, anything"
She started sobbing.
"Please hold me. Hold me and never let me go"
Elliot hurried to obey. He felt relieved as he was holding her and running a hand through her back.
"It's o.k baby, everything is going to be just fine. I'm here"
After a moment he felt her going limp in his arms.
"Liv, are you alright?" he was beginning to freak out.
"Yes….just feel weak, so tired"
Elliot kissed her on the cheek as her eyes closed slowly.
"It's going to be alright. I promise".
I know…too romantic – promise more to come, it will get more interesting than this!