"I will update the story with the most reviews," I've always wanted to say that, but sadly no, it doesn't work that way with me. :C I can write when i can and can't when i can't. But yes, reviews has a lot of influence in the motivation department. "Friends with Benefits," for example, if it weren't because of the reviews, I might have dropped it a long time ago since I have no clue where to go with it. But the reviews, oh the reviews for that story are too tempting, XDD.
And I FINALLY GOT HERE! Yay! I've waiting to reach this point for soooo long. Which mean we only have a few chapters to go and it's the end. :D I don't know when the next chapter will be though. Btw, i hope i reach 100 reviews with this chapter :) But if it doesn't than will just have to wait. Thanks y'll fall the read and being patient with me.
NekoxUsa:Thank you so much. The flow is lot better with your help :D
For the first time since she had come to live in the western land palace, Nao was sleeping alone.
"Don't wait for me tonight," Sesshomaru had told her.
Don't wait for me?
Was he kidding?
Who was waiting?!
He was so full of himself to think that she would care.
So he had another demoness warming his bed tonight, so what?
She had longed for a night alone for as long as she had been here and she was so glad to finally have it. It would be best if he never come back!
She still remembered the smirk the lioness demon, Princess Etsuko, gave her.
"Lord Sesshomaru and I will be busy until late into the night," she said with a suggestive smirk after Sesshomaru's statement. Of course Nao knew what she meant.
Nao just coldly walked away from Sesshomaru and the demoness from the hall she had met them while she was on her way back from her walk.
She knew the demoness wanted her to be jealous and maybe even expected her cry. But she could hope all she wanted; Nao would not shed a single tear. No way would she satisfy the demoness' fantasy. She could keep on dreaming until the day she died, but Nao would not be jealous. She didn't desire Sesshomaru in the first place.
She could keep Sesshomaru for all Nao cared!
Nao shifted to her right side. The bed felt big and empty with only her in it. Good. More room for herself.
Her hand reached out to wrap the thin blanket tighter around herself. She wondered if she should get another one.
From the position of the half-moon in the sky through the window, it should nearly be midnight. He must be going another round with the demoness. He had always been active. Great! Now Nao would no longer have to lose her sleep because of him. She could sleep without being disturbed.
She pulled the pillow down a little, adjusted it to make it felt right.
She wondered what the princess would say when she heard Rin's name. Would he murmur Rin's name with the demoness? Would she be trembling with jealousy when he said that name in such a possessive loving way?
But she doubted he would say another woman's name while having his way with the beautiful princess.
She was the princess of the lion clan who came to discuss about the treaty between the two clans. According to the maids' gossips, this was not the first time she was here. But what Etsuko truly wanted wasn't the mere treaty agreements, but the title of the lady of the western lands. However Sesshomaru didn't show any hints that he had even noticed her desire for him. She had no choice but to drool over him and dream on. Not until today anyway.
Nao doubted he would let the demoness hear the name of his lover, Rin. He only said it with Nao because she was meaningless, a toy, a whore, and could do nothing to him no matter how much she disliked it. The demoness however was a princess; he would never disrespect her in such a way.
Why didn't they just get married already?! They were both from a loyal family and were demons. They suited each other perfectly like the moon and the stars. They meant to be together, they just get married and leave Nao alone!
She shifted to the other side of the bed. Somehow the bed wasn't very comfortable. The moonlight was dim tonight and she could barely see inside the room. She should be asleep by now, Nao noted, yet sleep refused to claim her.
He finally grew tired of her. How great that was. She had been waiting for this day since the first day she had been here. And he went for a demoness this time which was even better. As she had heard, he had always ripped a human woman from her love ones' arms to come here to comply to his lust, always humans. She was glad that it was not another fellow human this time.
But would Sesshomaru discard of Nao now? Or would he still keep her around just for amusement sake? She hoped not. She didn't want to go anywhere near him after tonight. No, she never wanted to be near him since the beginning.
General Hisoka was send back to his post as soon as the sun hit noon, an hour after his greeting with Nao, even though he had planned to stay longer. The servants converted not so very quietly that Nao was the cause. It was the punishment for daring to make a move on the lord's favorite whore.
Made a move? It was hardly a greeting!
But she wouldn't be surprised if he were truly sent away because of her.
The general came to bid his farewell to Nao, though she didn't see the reason why. It wasn't like she was close to him, they had barely talked.
It didn't matter.
So that was why no one had talked to her? The whole palace was forbidden to make a conversation with her? Or was it only because Hisoka was a man?
How unreasonable of Sesshomaru! She couldn't even talk to another man yet he was cuddling another woman.
But what made her think it would be equal between them? He always did what he pleased. She was just his toy, nothing more. Even if he no longer wanted her, he would not allow anyone to touch her. Maybe he would kill her just for the reason that she was once his.
She wondered where he had taken the princess to. Were they in the same room Nao was in last year? Unlikely.
Not that that room was bad, but the demoness was a princess, not a whore. Even if she was a whore, she had titles. He would not take her to the same room he took all the worthless woman, Nao included.
When would Nao be told to move from his chamber? He should want his room back to himself now that he was tired of her. Would he give her that old room? Or would he just send her straight into the dungeon and save all the commotion of moving? Well, it didn't matter. She had always been at his mercy. She always knew this day would come.
But suddenly she froze. All of her thoughts process came to a halt when she heard the chamber door slide opened and closed lightly. She held her breath, didn't dare to move. Was it Sesshomaru or was it some random demon who wanted her dead?
She didn't have to guess long when she felt the sheet being gently lifted and a familiar solid body slid silently next to her after removing his top garment. It was him, Sesshomaru.
A clawed hand came to rest around her waist as his body spooned behind her, making himself comfortable.
"I told you not to wait," he stated quietly in his deep monotone voice, but loud and clear to her ears. He knew she had yet to fall asleep.
"Who's waiting!?" she wiggled away from him to the farthest edge of the bed, away from the contact. Sesshomaru's eyes widened slightly in surprise at her actions, but say nothing. The brief contact reminded her of how warm it was beside him.
"Why are you here anyway? Didn't you say you would be with the princess tonight?" she ranted.
"I was," he answered coolly though he would not deny that he was shock at her outburst. She had never showed so much emotion.
"Then why are you here?! Why didn't you stay with her? She's so beautiful. Her skin is smooth and white. Her face is attractive and small; her lips are red and pout too. Not to mention she has a perfect lustful body any man would dream to enjoy."
Sesshomaru raised a brow at her statement. "She is indeed famous for her beauty." He commented nonchalantly.
"I bet it must feel good to the touch too with that soft skin of hers. Not to mention she has big breasts!" she vent angrily without even realizing it. All she knew was that she wanted to slap the demon behind her. How dare he come back to her right after he was… he was…
His clawed hand once again found her waist and his bare chest found her back as he murmured in agreement to her statement, "Hn".
"Stop touching me!" she cried as she roughly peeled his hand of her body. She was already at the edge of the bed and could not move away farther from him.
It felt disgusting, the hand that had been touching another woman. She was so angry she didn't care what would happen to her. She didn't even care if he would behead her now.
But, she had never cared when she would die, before or now.
"Why are you angry, Nao," he asked calmly beside her. His deep monotone voice felt softer than usual.
"I'm not angry!" she denied even though she was about to burst into flame.
"You are angry," he stated coolly.
"It's has nothing to do with you!"
"You are jealous," he dared to wrap his hand on her waist again, firmly this time.
"I'm not jealous!" she almost shouted out from frustration. She wasn't jealous. She was anything but jealous.
"You are jealous," he nuzzled her neck line. "Please tell me you are jealous." His deep voice sent waves of hot and cold chills vibrated down her spine.
"I am not jealous," she said sternly, gritting her teeth. Why did he insist so much that she was jealous when she clearly wasn't! Just leave her alone and go back to his princess!
"I will let you in on a secret." He made a light pattern of kiss up her neck.
She felt disgusted to have his lips, the lips that just kissed another woman, ran all over her neck, but his grip was too tight for her to escape. She had unsuccessfully peeled his hand off her, so she waited to see what he had to say. It wouldn't change anything anyway.
After a long pause, Sesshoamru finally spoke, "Tonight, between Etsuko and I…" he paused again for affected which made Nao wanted to slam his mouth shut so he could never told her how good their night were. She wasn't interested. She didn't want to know. "Nothing happened."
And with just those last two words, Nao's entire body went limp. She didn't have any strength left. He gently turned her to face him, she didn't resist, and then he pulled her closer into his chest. She looked into his golden orbs that almost seemed… happy and amuse. Nao's expression however appeared as if she had just seen a ghost; that and a very confusing face.
"She's too ambition and it's disgusted me. I would never lay a hand on her even if it's kills me," he explained.
"You said she was beautiful," she heard herself murmured robotically. But she knew for a fact that the demon lord was too proud to lie. He had never lied to her once.
"I said she is famous for her beauty." He corrected.
"You agreed that her skin feels good to the touch and her breasts are big."
"I didn't notice them until you pointed them out. But since they are true I don't see the reason to deny." He snuggled her closer into his chest while his lips kissed her clown lightly.
"You were jealous," he murmured again, a tiny smirk griped the corner of his lips. His golden orbs gave out the softest and warmest appearance she had ever seen on his cold stoic face.
Staring into his handsome face, tears started to drip down from Nao's eyes, one after another, as the realization hit her.
She had falling in love with Sesshomaru!
Somewhere along the way, she had developed feelings for this demon. She was no longer cold and indifferent. He had made her feel love again.
What would she do now?
He had taken her only defense away. What would she do from now on? He had slowly made her fall in love with him. Made she feel the emotions she had forgotten. First she pitied him, and then angry at Rin, hated Rin because of him, he made her laugh, and now she was jealous of the princess. It had all fallen into place of why she disliked Rin's name so much when she never cared about it before.
Because Rin had his heart and not Nao, she unconsciously wanted him to love her.
She loved him, she loved Sesshomaru.
She blinked another fat tear away. His golden eyes widened with shock, yet said nothing.
She had come to care for him and it terrified her. If this were a war than he had already won and she was left at his mercy. Nao was now defenseless; without weapons or armors.
Vulnerable.
She could no longer act like indifference if he decided to kill her.
Oh god, no, please don't ever let him kill her. It wasn't fair for her to die by his hands. Please be anyone but him. Just the thought of the man she had come to love lifting a hand against her was too painful and unbearable.
Nao found herself sobbing; her hands came to cover her mouth.
Unsure of what to do, Sesshomaru pulled her into his chest and held her protectively. His claws gently stroke the back of her hair.
Now that she realized her own feelings, she didn't know how she would do without these pair of strong arms surrounding her. The warmth that she had become so accustomed with, the embrace she always had every night.
Now she feared again. Just like the little woman she should be. The emotions that she had long been buried resurfaced. The fear of losing him, the fear of being unwanted and unloved, the fear of rejection, and those fears grasped tightly at her heart.
What would she do now if he decided to cast her aside?
She felt human again.
It was unbearable.
She wouldn't be able to bear the day he throws her away like the people Nao trusted did to her.
And for the first time since she had met Sesshomaru, she cried.
Her sob echoing inside that dark room while she was inside the warm embrace of the man she unknowingly came to love.
I love this chapter! I know I am bias and shameless, but I'm so happy with his chapter. :D REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW! I expect to reach 100 reviews with this chapter ^_^ (Am I asking for too much?)
As always, thank you so much for the support and reading this story :D
Da 0122: Yes it was Sesshomaru, but could not hear them, he only see them.
Smpt: Thank you :D I love playful plots :) In this story, I wanted to make her slowly feel again.
Icegirljenni: Lol, the fall was really fun. :) and no, he would not do anything stupid.
Taraah36: lol, you made me see Sesshy in Inu's "sit" position too. XD She would be laughing more from now on. :D
NekoxUsa: lol, I'm glad that it's funny because I was picking my brain to come up with something that would make her laugh.
chrysanthemum-nhu : he's jealous thinking she was smiling at the general.
Lp: He now understand :D
Gienix: Yes, she is realizing it now. :)
July 19, 2013