Alrighty so this has now reached the same length as my first Lorikki fanfic "This Love" and I'm really getting stuck on storylines for this. I have 1 but it wont come in for a whiiiile! So please read, review (good or bad) and maybe suggest a storyline youd like to see!

I love how at the beginning of half term (which I meant to use for revision) I say no updates and this is like the 3rd update. I wont do well in life! :D

NIKKI'S POV:

The sun's warmth burned my skin so I went back into school to collect my things. It was 3:30 and the students had gone home while the teachers were finishing up. I quickly grabbed my black bag and realised I had to collect some forms from the Barrys. I slid into my cool, silver 4x4 and drove the full 30 minutes drive to the Barrys. Carol took her stance in the front garden in her full black and leather attire.

"Mrs Barry" I greeted as I climbed out the car. "The forms ready?" I asked. Kacey obviously heard and quickly ran out to join her mother's side.

"Are you sure this is what you want pet?" Carol wound her arm round Kacey's shoulder and looked down at her. Kacey nodded enthusiastically as her mother signed the papers. I'd never seen Kacey so happy since Tom's death. I smiled as Carol handed the forms over.

"I'll get these sent off." I gestured towards the papers. "Enjoy your evening." I smiled as I climbed into my car. Something crackled between my bottom and the chair. I felt around for what it could be and found the crumpled paper on which Eve wrote her poem. I fumbled around the paper so I could read my daughter's words:

It is a cliche,

To write a poem about your mother,

But how could I not?

When you're all I ever think about?

Tears began to form in my eyes, threatening to overflow and wash away my Eve's poem. I couldn't read on. The tears began to cascade down my cheeks and intrude onto Eve's paper. I quickly put the paper away and tried to control my breathing. What sort of woman would leave her own baby?! When she was born there was no special moment all parents talk about. Eve never felt like she was mine! I wish I had that moment, I wish I could have raised Eve with her father. Eve you're all I ever think about now! I couldn't breathe, I thought I'd choke on my own tears. I grasped the wheel for support when my phone screen illuminated with Lorraine's name and number. I quickly wiped my eyes and nose to answer her.

"Lo?"

"Nikki, you alright. You're not home and I can tell you've been crying." she sounded sympathetic. I wanted to just go home and cuddle Lorraine, preferably with Eve. But Eve's gone now.

"I'm on my way home." I sniffled. "I just want a quiet night in tonight love"

"I've got the wine and I'm on the sofa waiting. I love you Nikki." Lorraine waiting for me!? We were going to be ok! That lifted my mood a little.

"I love you Lorraine" I set the phone down and drove all the way home, keeping myself together until I reached Lorraine's waiting arms in her lounge.

"She's gone Lorraine!" I cried. "Her father picked her up! I thought I'd never love her as my daughter but I do now!" I cried even harder. All Lorraine could do was kiss my cheek to wipe away tears as her hands held me and my heavy heart together on her cool white leather sofa with the fluffy pillows. The sunset luminescence creeping in from the netted curtains as my sources of comfort. I expected my heartbreak would be from Lorraine, I'm actually heart-broken from Eve. She's all I ever think about.