Chapter 9
Misunderstandings
I was aware of a few things. The sun streaming through the window onto my face. My splitting headache. The fact that I was starving. But still I didn't open my eyes.
Rolling over my hand brushed against something and a familiar smell hit my nose.
I slid closer so that I was resting against his chest, picking up his arm and putting it around my waist I smiled as I breathed him in.
If anything Logan made a great blanket.
I nuzzled further into his neck, cuddling closer. He made a great pillow too.
I wondered briefly how I came to be in his bed. In his arms. But only briefly. How ever it had come about, I was glad that it had. O.C. would be happy, I thought with a smile.
My stomach growled and I dared to open my eyes and look up at him.
He was sleeping.
I'd wondered from the moment I first crashed into his life, what it would be like to wake up in his arms. To be able to watch him sleep from those same arms.
An overwhelming feeling of warmth, security, and dare I say love, washed over me.
Suddenly I wanted him to wake up and kiss me. To end all the little doubts and worries that had played such an enormous part in keeping us apart. I wanted him to keep me in his bed all day. Locked safely in his arms, while we finally made Original Cindy's predictions come true.
Looking up at him I blew on his chin. He shifted in his sleep pulling me tighter but not waking up.
Smiling, I traced a finger down his jaw and whispered his name.
"Logan?" I purred.
"Max." he answered not opening his eyes. Surprisingly he loosened his grip on me and pulled back.
"I'm going to go fix breakfast." he stated leaving me confused and alone in his now enormous bed.
Maybe I hadn't expected him to whisper words of love but I certainly wasn't expecting him to run from the room either.
I decided to take a quick shower before confronting him and pretending like nothing happened. I'm so sick of nothing happening.
Shit. Damn. Fudge. Freaking stupid...
Maybe swearing wouldn't help release this constant tension but it helped with the intense frustration I was feeling.
She had no idea how hard it had been for me to leave her.
If I knew she remembered. If it really had been Max in my arms...
Who was I kidding? I'd probably still run.
Cook Cale, just cook. Forget her. She'll come around. Just forget about it.
Maybe I'd come on a little strong. After all I didn't remember why I was in his bed.
Maybe it was for some stupid reason, and now he was totally creeped out by my actions.
If I woke up and found him in my bed, I'd run too.
Stupid, freaking stupid. Damn I was an idiot.
He was probably just being the nice guy that he is and I take advantage of that.
Slamming my fist into the wall, I let the water run over me in attempt to calm my nerves.
I don't think it worked.
"What's for breakfast?" Alec's voice called out and I turned around and shot him a death glare.
"Where did you go last night?" I accused. I could have used his help when Max had started to seize.
"Look Cale. Max wasn't the only one they'd brainwashed you know. I had things to do. I assumed you'd appreciate me bringing her to you first." Alec answered.
"Sorry. She had an episode last night..." I drug out not knowing why.
"So did about half of the others. I think its the drugs they had them on." Alec offered. "Does she remember?" Alec asked.
I shook my head no. And Alec looked at me in surprise.
"Really? Most of the others are starting to. I guess I just figured she'd have started remembering something by now."
The shower stopped and I really didn't want to find out what would happen if Max saw Alec.
"Look, she'll be out here soon. I don't think it's a good idea for you two..." I drifted off.
"I'll be back later." Alec offered and left before Max could emerge.
"Logan?" I questioned slipping into the kitchen behind him making him jump when I spoke.
"You remember anything?" he reluctantly asked after a significant pause.
"Not really. What happened?" I asked following him to the table. He gestured for me to sit and I gladly did.
"You had an episode. " he stated slipping into the seat next to me. There was something he wasn't telling me. He was acting strange; he had been all morning. Treating me like I was going to break or like I already had.
Like he didn't know who I was.
"Logan is everything okay?" I ventured wanting only to crawl into his lap and make whatever was bothering him go away. But that would never happen. We were too bent on protecting our employer/employee relationship. I couldn't distance my meal ticket.
"Bling said everything was going to be fine. You scared me last night. That's all." It must have been worse then I thought. For him to call Bling, for him to admit that he was scared.
"Hey, I'm superwoman remember. Its okay." I offered trying to comfort his lingering fears with bravado.
"I wish you did." Logan muttered under his breath as he nodded and stood. Since I was trying hard not to be intrusive, I decided to keep the fact that I'd heard him to puzzle out myself.
His sadness seemed to curb my hunger and I noticed that for the first time since I'd met him I wasn't able to clear my plate.
Oh yes, I know it was cruel of me. Next chapter will be better.
Misunderstandings
I was aware of a few things. The sun streaming through the window onto my face. My splitting headache. The fact that I was starving. But still I didn't open my eyes.
Rolling over my hand brushed against something and a familiar smell hit my nose.
I slid closer so that I was resting against his chest, picking up his arm and putting it around my waist I smiled as I breathed him in.
If anything Logan made a great blanket.
I nuzzled further into his neck, cuddling closer. He made a great pillow too.
I wondered briefly how I came to be in his bed. In his arms. But only briefly. How ever it had come about, I was glad that it had. O.C. would be happy, I thought with a smile.
My stomach growled and I dared to open my eyes and look up at him.
He was sleeping.
I'd wondered from the moment I first crashed into his life, what it would be like to wake up in his arms. To be able to watch him sleep from those same arms.
An overwhelming feeling of warmth, security, and dare I say love, washed over me.
Suddenly I wanted him to wake up and kiss me. To end all the little doubts and worries that had played such an enormous part in keeping us apart. I wanted him to keep me in his bed all day. Locked safely in his arms, while we finally made Original Cindy's predictions come true.
Looking up at him I blew on his chin. He shifted in his sleep pulling me tighter but not waking up.
Smiling, I traced a finger down his jaw and whispered his name.
"Logan?" I purred.
"Max." he answered not opening his eyes. Surprisingly he loosened his grip on me and pulled back.
"I'm going to go fix breakfast." he stated leaving me confused and alone in his now enormous bed.
Maybe I hadn't expected him to whisper words of love but I certainly wasn't expecting him to run from the room either.
I decided to take a quick shower before confronting him and pretending like nothing happened. I'm so sick of nothing happening.
Shit. Damn. Fudge. Freaking stupid...
Maybe swearing wouldn't help release this constant tension but it helped with the intense frustration I was feeling.
She had no idea how hard it had been for me to leave her.
If I knew she remembered. If it really had been Max in my arms...
Who was I kidding? I'd probably still run.
Cook Cale, just cook. Forget her. She'll come around. Just forget about it.
Maybe I'd come on a little strong. After all I didn't remember why I was in his bed.
Maybe it was for some stupid reason, and now he was totally creeped out by my actions.
If I woke up and found him in my bed, I'd run too.
Stupid, freaking stupid. Damn I was an idiot.
He was probably just being the nice guy that he is and I take advantage of that.
Slamming my fist into the wall, I let the water run over me in attempt to calm my nerves.
I don't think it worked.
"What's for breakfast?" Alec's voice called out and I turned around and shot him a death glare.
"Where did you go last night?" I accused. I could have used his help when Max had started to seize.
"Look Cale. Max wasn't the only one they'd brainwashed you know. I had things to do. I assumed you'd appreciate me bringing her to you first." Alec answered.
"Sorry. She had an episode last night..." I drug out not knowing why.
"So did about half of the others. I think its the drugs they had them on." Alec offered. "Does she remember?" Alec asked.
I shook my head no. And Alec looked at me in surprise.
"Really? Most of the others are starting to. I guess I just figured she'd have started remembering something by now."
The shower stopped and I really didn't want to find out what would happen if Max saw Alec.
"Look, she'll be out here soon. I don't think it's a good idea for you two..." I drifted off.
"I'll be back later." Alec offered and left before Max could emerge.
"Logan?" I questioned slipping into the kitchen behind him making him jump when I spoke.
"You remember anything?" he reluctantly asked after a significant pause.
"Not really. What happened?" I asked following him to the table. He gestured for me to sit and I gladly did.
"You had an episode. " he stated slipping into the seat next to me. There was something he wasn't telling me. He was acting strange; he had been all morning. Treating me like I was going to break or like I already had.
Like he didn't know who I was.
"Logan is everything okay?" I ventured wanting only to crawl into his lap and make whatever was bothering him go away. But that would never happen. We were too bent on protecting our employer/employee relationship. I couldn't distance my meal ticket.
"Bling said everything was going to be fine. You scared me last night. That's all." It must have been worse then I thought. For him to call Bling, for him to admit that he was scared.
"Hey, I'm superwoman remember. Its okay." I offered trying to comfort his lingering fears with bravado.
"I wish you did." Logan muttered under his breath as he nodded and stood. Since I was trying hard not to be intrusive, I decided to keep the fact that I'd heard him to puzzle out myself.
His sadness seemed to curb my hunger and I noticed that for the first time since I'd met him I wasn't able to clear my plate.
Oh yes, I know it was cruel of me. Next chapter will be better.