Show Me Heaven: Chapter Ten
ELIZA'S POV
Incredible. That's all I've got. Arizona has spent the past two nights here and yeah…it's been incredible. I wasn't sure how I would ever feel should we have tried again but right now, I feel like we are exactly how we should be. I think we are both a little wary, but I'm not concerned. I'm not worried that she is about to tell me that she can't do this or that she doesn't want me. She has every right to be wary about our relationship. The last time around it ended badly and yeah…things could've gone differently. She knows I never wanted her to walk away from me but I completely understand why she did. I understand that she needed to be alone to work through her past and I couldn't be prouder about that. She knew what she needed in that moment and she worked with that she had. Herself. I know I wanted to be with her every step of the way, but it wasn't as simple as that. She didn't need a lover beside her. She didn't need me to tell her how great she is. She needed to figure that out alone. She needed to do what I believe she should've done a long time ago. Heal. Move on from the past. Not our past, but her own past. She needed to become the person she once was and wow, it's truly amazing to see. How she just lights up my life when she walks into the room. How she is so content with herself and who she is. It's something beautiful to witness but I guess in the back of my mind…I never doubted her.
Maybe when we first met I should've pushed her to find herself before any kind of relationship blossomed between us. Maybe I should've just been a bystander in her life whilst she worked through her painful past, I don't know. I'm not sure I ever could've done that, but I'd like to believe that I would've done the right thing. I'd like to believe that should I have recognized it all sooner, I'd have let her go to do what she needed to do. Not for me or for us. Not for anyone other than herself. She has so much to give and I know that this time around is going to be even more incredible than the last. It's hard not to feel that way when I've woken beside her the last two mornings. It's hard not to feel that way when just yesterday, she completely worshipped my body with no uncertainty. No fear. No apprehension about what my intentions were. It's hard not to feel that way when I can feel the love seeping from her skin every time her hands touch my body.
Sinking down onto the couch, my coffee is gripped firmly in my hands and my heart is completely settled. My entire being is completely settled. I don't know when this all flipped and became better, but it did. It did and I cannot wait to see Arizona tonight. She's out of town today working on a car, and even though I miss her and want her here with me, this alone time gives me the chance to think about the past couple of weeks since I returned from working with Kaden. It gives me a moment to breathe and just think about the huge turn around in my life again. Hard to believe, I won't lie…but God, it feels so perfect. Just like it used to. How it's supposed to. How it always should've been. Crazy but yeah, so fucking perfect.
My cell buzzing on the coffee table, a number I don't recognize is flashing on my screen. My brow furrowed, I accept the call and clear my throat. "Hello?"
"Eliza, hi." I recognize the voice but I can't quite place it. "It's Jess."
"Oh, uh…"
"Sorry to call but have you heard from Arizona at all?"
"Not since this morning, no." I don't know why Jess is calling me but I don't like the fact that she has my contact details. "Why?" I ask, a little harshly.
"Just…I haven't heard from her for a couple of days." She says. "I knew you guys were back in touch and I was hoping everything is okay…"
"Everything is fine, I think."
"That's good." She breathes out. "She gave me your number a while back. Said if I couldn't find her to contact you."
"Why?" I ask, my voice laced with confusion.
"She said you are the only person she would be with if she ever disappeared." Wow, okay.
"She's working out of town." I smile. "She's fine, Jess."
"Thank god." She sighs. "That girl worries me sometimes, I swear."
"You have nothing to worry about…" I run my fingers through my hair. "She's working and she will be back later this evening."
"Yeah." She agrees. "Maybe I'll see her tonight, I don't know."
"I'm not sure what her plans are, sorry." I know I want her here with me but that doesn't mean that's how our night will end. Arizona may not even come by here when she gets back. "I'm sure you could call her, though…"
"Oh, I don't want to intrude." She clears her throat. "She knows where I am if she needs me." I'm hoping she will never need Jess again but it's good to know she has friends. "Thanks, Eliza."
"No problem." The call ending, I set my cell down in my lap and rest back on the couch. It isn't the warmest day today so I think kicking back and relaxing is just what I need. I don't have anywhere to be and honestly, I'm not sure I'd care even if I did. Toying with my cell, a smile curls on my face when it buzzes in my hand.
Did I ever tell you how fucking gorgeous you are? Zo x
Mm, once or twice...Maybe. E x
Well, you are. Fucking gorgeous. My world. I love you. Zo x
Okay, not what I was expecting from her but yeah, it feels kinda good to receive messages like that from Arizona. This new confidence she has going on can only benefit the both of us and I'm grabbing it with both hands. If she wants to be cute and adorable with me then that is perfectly fine. I'd be lying if I said I'd never wished for that from her, so yeah…my new girlfriend can send me messages like that all day, every day. She's always been an honest person so I know it's complete truth. I know she isn't just trying to make me feel better.
God, I've waited for this for so long…
Relaxed with a movie playing, I shove my last piece of pizza into my mouth and throw the box down on the coffee table. Arizona is due back in town in the next hour or so but I don't know what the plan is. I feel like she is probably going to head over here but I haven't asked her outright. I don't want her to think that she has to be here, regardless of whether I want that or not. If she wants to kick back at Jess' place, that's fine. It's no big deal. Sighing, I pull my throw tighter around me and check my cell again. Nothing. I may or may not be feeling a little needy right now but I kinda can't help it. Arizona has always made me feel that way and now is no different. It will never be any different. She just has that presence about her. She just makes me want to always have her attention. It may be selfish of me, but I want what I want and that is Arizona.
A loud knock pulling me from my thoughts, a smile curls on my mouth and I rush from the couch, the throw falling to the floor. Tugging at the door, it opens and I furrow my brow.
"Is she here?"
"Uh…Dani, right?" I hold out my hand.
"Yeah, right." Her hands remain shoved in her pockets. "Is she here, or?"
"I'm assuming you're talking about Arizona?" I raise an eyebrow. "You may be pissed at her but she has a name."
"Pissed at her?" She scoffs. "I'm beyond pissed."
"I'm not entirely sure what the problem is, but Arizona isn't here." Shrugging, I attempt to close the door but Dani's foot suddenly seems to be stuck in it. "If you could move?"
"You guys are definitely back together?" She studies my face. "She actually took you back?"
"I don't know what she has told you but yeah…we're back together." I give her a look of confusion. "Is there a problem with that?"
"Guess not." She shrugs. "So, I was just some fuck to keep her entertained?"
"Uh…"
"Whatever Zo wants, she gets." She spits. "The women fucking fall at her feet and you are just the same."
"You don't even know me." I scoff. This woman is out of her mind but I'm doing this with her. I'm not going to stand here and justify myself to her when she doesn't know the first thing about me.
"No, but I know you're the same as the rest." She gives me a sarcastic smile. "I hope you know what you're getting yourself into, Eliza. She will be fucking you and whoever else she can get her hands on now that she is feeling good. Just fucking wait…"
"Yeah, you can leave now."
"Mm, I can do that but you know I'm right." She narrows her eyes. "I can see the worry in your eyes. You know she used to fuck me and everyone else in that bed you once shared with her? Threesomes…sometimes four, even five?"
"Why are you telling me this?" I ask, confusion all over my face. "Why is it relevant to me?"
"Because she won't be able to keep her hands off of them." Dani backs away. "Now that she has that confidence back…she will take what she wants from all of them. Just like she has done with me." Watching Dani walk away, Arizona's car comes to a stop outside my place and she rushes from it.
"Everything okay?" She glances back at Dani who hasn't even turned back. "Eliza?"
"Jesus Christ." I breathe out. "She really had it bad, huh?"
"I don't even know what that means…" I curl my fingers through her belt loop and pull her over the threshold. Kicking the door closed, Arizona narrows her eyes, a small smirk forming on her mouth. "What's going on?" She asks as I drop down on the couch and drag her down on top of me.
"She just thought I should know some stuff." My lips brush her own. "Nothing that concerns me, though…"
"What stuff?" Her breathing a little ragged as my hand slips down the front of her jeans, I study her face…her eyes closing and her bottom lip suddenly between her teeth.
"You sure you wanna know right now?" My fingers connect with wet heat. "You want me to stop?"
"Fuck, no." Her head dropping to my shoulder, a low moan rumbles in Arizona's throat. "Is this how you plan to always greet me?"
"Maybe." My tongue runs up her neck and my lips brush her ear. "If you're always going to be this wet for me, then yes…" Smiling against her ear, I apply a little more pressure to her throbbing clit. "Have you been thinking about me, Arizona?"
"What do you think?" She groans as she rocks against my hand.
"Tell me…" I whisper. "Tell me exactly what you've been thinking."
"About fucking you." She whimpers. "In my car."
"Yeah?" I groan. "Sounds fucking amazing to me…"
"Oh, it was." She smiles against my neck. "I fucked you so hard."
"We should make that a plan…" Fresh arousal covering my fingers, I know she is close. I can feel her pulsing for me. "Fuck, we should definitely make that a plan…"
"Y-Yeah…" Her knees tremble either side of my body. "You were so wet for me."
"I'm always wet for you," I admit. "Every minute of the day…"
"Fuck." Forcing her hips harder against me, my pace increases and Arizona's entire body shakes above me. "Yes, fuck…don't stop." Moans filling the air, a smile settles on my mouth and her body drops down on my own. "Shit, that was some welcome back…"
"That doesn't mean to can me leave town whenever it suits you." She pulls back and studies my face. "You got that?"
"Yeah." Her lips pressing against my own, a low moan rumbles in my throat. "Mm, I missed you today."
"Yeah?" My smile widens. "Wasn't sure you would even come by…"
"Couldn't wait any longer to see you." She admits. "You doing okay?"
"More than okay." I breathe out. "It's good to see you."
"Yeah, I kinda figured that out when you dragged me through the door." Pulling her body from my own, she drops down on the opposite end of the couch and runs her fingers through her hair. "I feel like I've been on the road all day…"
"Why so?"
"I got to work as soon as I arrived so I could head straight back. I didn't even stop for food."
"You haven't eaten?"
"Well, no." She shrugs. "You have, though." She narrows her eyes and focuses on the empty pizza box.
"I'm sorry." I give her a sad smile. "I wasn't sure when you would be back. I didn't want to ask in case you hadn't planned to see me tonight."
"That's okay." She climbs from the couch. "Would you mind if I ordered something here?"
"Knock yourself out." I glance over my shoulder. "Jess called me…"
"She did?" Arizona furrows her brow as she turns back to face me, a familiar takeout menu in her hands. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay." I stand. "She was worried about you."
"Worried about me?" She deadpans. "Weird how nobody was worried about me before…" She scoffs. "I'll call her later."
"She wondered if she would be seeing you tonight…" Closing the distance between us, Arizona takes my hand in her own and pulls me into her body. "Will that be happening, or?"
"I should head back later and talk to her…"
"O...kay." I narrow my eyes. "Kinda like how you had to talk to Dani last week?"
"No." She shakes her head, a laugh falling from her mouth. "Just because she doesn't know what's going on and I've been crashing with her since well, you know…"
"Right." I clear my throat. "So, I'll be sleeping alone tonight?"
"Well, I don't know…" She searches my face. "But I can just see Jess another day if that works better for us?"
"No, Jess called because she was worried so you should go and see her." Giving Arizona a genuine smile, she gives me a slight nod in return and holds her cell up to her ear. Placing an order for some food, she reels her list off to the guy on the other end of the phone and I simply watch her. She sounds hot just placing an order for food…how is that even possible? The call ending, she sets down the menu and leans back against the counter. "So, I get you for a few hours at least?"
"You do." She presses her lips to my own. "Good day?"
"The worst…until you arrived."
"So, are you going to tell me why Dani was here?" She raises an eyebrow. "I know it wasn't because you guys are friends."
"Well, I don't know what her problem is but you might want to ask her to take it down a notch." I scoff. "Coming here with attitude won't work for me…"
"Attitude?" Arizona pushes off the counter. "The hell did she say to you?"
"That I should know who you are…now that you are feeling good. Something along those lines, anyway."
"She's spreading lies about me, isn't she?" Arizona shakes her head. "I swear I'm going to kill her."
"Just leave it." I shrug. "It's no big deal."
"What did she say?" She gives me a questioning look. "I need to know, Eliza."
"Just some stuff about your past…how you would go back to sleeping around." I clear my throat. "Threesomes…"
"She didn't." She pinches the bridge of her nose. "She fucking didn't say that…"
"Yeah." I sigh. "But I know she is full of shit so I'm not concerned."
"That was my old life, Eliza." Wait, that stuff did happen? I mean, I know she is a freak in the sheets but threesomes? I didn't expect that. She unravels herself from me and paces the floor. "You know that, right?"
"Of course I know that." I furrow my brow. "Why are you worried? I know I'm not…"
"Because she is clearly out to get me now that I don't want her…"
"Was there ever anything there between you guys?" I ask. I know she has already given me an answer to this but I'm asking again. I need to know so I can be prepared for any kind of comeback. "Anything at all…"
"Nothing worth holding onto." She shrugs as she paces the floor. "I mean, there was some kind of connection there but we are friends. That is all we've ever been."
"Do you think she saw it that way, though?" I ask. "I mean, she seemed pretty mad at you."
"Yes, she knew what we were." Arizona stops and looks me straight in the eye. "She knew we were nothing more…"
"Okay." I nod.
"She was fucking other people anyway." Arizona scoffs. "Now that I'm happy and back with you, she doesn't like that. I don't know why, but no fucking way is she ruining this for me. No way."
"She won't." I close the distance between us and take her hand in my own. "I know the real you. I always have."
"I know you do." She gives me a sad smile as she laces our fingers together. "It doesn't make any of this right, though. I mean, who the fuck does she think she is coming here and talking shit about me?"
"Maybe you need to sit down with her one final time…" I suggest. "You said she wouldn't listen last time?"
"No, she only hears what she wants to hear." Arizona sighs. "I can try again, though. I don't want her coming here running her mouth. Not to your home."
"I'm good." I smile. "Don't worry about me, okay?"
"Hard not to when the woman I love has to listen to that shit." She shakes her head, disappointment evident in her tone. "I am sorry she came here."
"It's no big deal," I reply. "I was kinda bored so it was a little entertainment to keep me going."
"Yeah?" She laughs. "How so?"
"Seeing her freaking out like that…her eyes bulging? It was sort of funny." I shrug. "She may think something else was going on between you guys but I know the truth so all that anger she had built up and the way she was so determined to make me hear her out…it was kinda lost on me."
"You're amazing." She rolls her eyes, playfully. "Amazing and mine."
"Damn right." I give her a nod in agreement. "The sooner Dani knows that the sooner she can stop getting all hepped up. It isn't good for the body to be stressed over something that is never going to happen…"
"Right." Arizona's arms wrap around my waist.
"Just…maybe you should stop giving the women what they want when you're free and single…" I pull her against me. "I'll have a mob outside the door before too long."
"I can promise that." Her lips ghost over my own. "Since I'm not planning on ever being free and single again…"
"Good answer." I smirk. "Very good answer."
Thanks for reading, guys. Reviews are welcome and appreciated as always.