Chapter 10
I look over to Teddy and he has a stupid grin on his face, I look at Dr. Greene and she is looking at me intently. How can I be pregnant? This can't be right! I haven't missed a shot and I have had no symptoms
'Pregnant? How on earth have I got pregnant?' I say shocked
'Well Emily, I guess your shot had stopped working without you realizing, it can happen and it's not 100% safe. So how are you both feeling about this?
How am I feeling? I just found out I have something growing inside me and I will be stuck with it for 9 months
'I don't know, I guess I'm shocked, this wasn't what I was planning, I wanted to plan my wedding not a nursery'
'Well it is alot to take in all at once, so it's normal to be shocked, How about you Teddy?' She looks at Teddy who still has a huge grin.
'I think it's absolutely amazing, I am so happy'
He's happy?
'We had the shot for a reason, so I don't get pregnant. How can you say you're happy about this? I, for one, am angry with myself'
'Baby, all I ever wanted was a family with you, whether that comes before the wedding or after, you will get used to the idea'
Dr. Greene gets up and walks to a cupboard and picks out some pamphlets and books and then walks over to us and passes them to me.
'This is some information on pregnancies and other options if you decide not to carry on with it, and information on adoption' She is looking at me with sad eyes. I didn't plan this nor was I careless so this is not my fault, I have other things on my mind, I do not need a baby to ruin things.
'Thank you, I will have a look at them' I say trying to sound grateful.
'You will need to come and get a dating scan next week, make an appointment at the reception. Are you ok?' She asks.
'I suppose I will be, thank you Dr. Greene' I get up and shake her hand and so does Teddy and we go out of the room and walk to reception where that stupid woman is still but now she is filing her nails, she stops when she sees Teddy and blushes, which by, what I have seen, is what happens to Christian wherever he goes, and they are both oblivious to it all.
'I need to make an appointment with Dr. Greene for a week's time please' I say and the woman takes her eyes off my fiancé and stares at me for a few seconds and then looks at her computer
'She had an appointment on Wednesday at 11.45? Will that be ok?' Oh so she is being nice now?
'Yes that's fine' I wait for her to give me my appointment card and we turn and leave the building.
'Baby, this is brilliant news! I love you so much, are you happy?' he asks
'Not really, this is not what I wanted, we were planning to get married not that has to be put on hold, and I am only 20, I don't want to be a Mom yet, but it's done now and we will have to put up with it.' I am so angry
We silently get into the car and Jake starts driving but the driving is making me think about things I don't want to think about. I have this thing inside me and I don't know what to do, Teddy is over the moon.
'Emily? Are you ok?' Teddy asks.
'I don't know Teddy, this is a big shock' I rub my belly and look into my fiancé's eyes.
'Baby, I know it is. Where do you want to go for lunch? We can go anywhere you want'
'Can we just go home? I need to think about all of this' I just want to go to sleep and wish this was all a dream and everything was back to normal.
'OK baby, whatever you want. Jake home please' He speaks through the speaker phone as we have the partition up for privacy
'Right away Sir' Jake says back and we start off back home.
I stay silent all the way just looking out of the window, not thinking about anything in particular, just looking at the scenery. When we arrive at Escala we both go in to the living area and I am suddenly feeling tired.
'Baby, I think I am going to go to bed' I say trying to sound cheery
'Are you sure? You haven't ate. Please eat first' So much like his dad with the whole eating thing.
'I'll be fine, come and wake me up in a couple of hours and I will eat then ok?' There that will shut him up. I got over to him and he pulls me towards him kisses me hard and slow and when he lets me go he rubs my belly.
'Make sure you take care of Little Pea ok? Have a good sleep'
Little Pea? Little Error more like. I walk to the bedroom and slip out of the clothes I am wearing and wear my baby blue flannel P.J's and climb into bed
'Well, you have made your appearance at the wrong time haven't you? You are going to make me fat and ugly. Your daddy seems happy you are here but I'm not and I have another nine months with you' I rub my belly and prod it. This invader is ruining my body.
All the drama this morning has made me drained, I feel tears in my eyes and before I have chance to stop myself, I sob uncontrollably.
'Emily?'
'Go Away, sleeping' I swat my hand out and hit something
'Ow! Damn it Emily!' Said the voice again
I open my eyes and I see Teddy holding his nose.
'I'm sorry Ted, are you ok? What time is it?' I look outside and the sun is shining, how long have I been asleep?
'I'm fine, it's 2pm and time for you to eat. Janine is making you a lasagne so up you get, you need to keep your energy up'
Energy for what? Oh right, yes, I forgot the Little Error. Other moms-to-be are usually thrilled that they are having a baby so why don't I feel like that? Do I want to feel like that?
I walk into the kitchen and a waft of cheese fills the air and straight away I turn and run to the bathroom and I am sick, I keep vomiting until there is no more to come up, I sit on the cold bathroom floor and lean against the wall. This baby is ruining my life!
I get up and wash my mouth and face and then return to the kitchen where Teddy is sitting on the table looking worried but he relaxes when he sees me.
'Are you ok sweetie? What made you thow up?'
'I smelt cheese and it got up my nose, I'm ok now.' I try to stay cheery
'OK baby, I was thinking, do you want to move the wedding forward and have it soon?'
'Why would I want to do that? We can get married when the baby is here'
'Well I just thought you might want to celebrate without thinking about looking after a baby, enjoy the peace and quiet for now'
'Ok, I'll think about it' I get up and walk over to where my lasagne is and before I get there everything went black
I wake up on the sofa and I see Teddy leaning over me
'Oh god, baby are you ok? You fainted' he looks terrified
'Yes, I'm ok, I'll go and ...'
'Shit! Emily!'