So the last chapter was all about how Gwen was coping, now see how Remus was. The same 4 days...
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Chapter 10: The Days 1 and 2
RPOV:
Day 1:
'I hate this' I muttered to Padfoot as Gwen walked past where we were sat in the great hall. Again. Every time she passed I had to bite my lip and stare at my food to stop myself from calling out to her, asking her about the last day or telling her I'm sorry for being a jerk.
Because I was. I was being an absolute jerk.
Sirius rolled his eyes at me, 'Moony you have GOT to chill. She'll get over it soon enough and then things'll go back to normal.'
'I don't want to do this anymore, she must hate me.'
'Moony this was your idea.' Prongs threw in.
I sighed, he was right. I wanted to keep my secret so I had to do this. 'I still hate it.' I muttered as I felt her looking at me. Werewolf instincts sucked, I could feel the intensity of her gaze on me and shuddered.
Sirius looked in her direction and glared. 'Oi?' I said to him. Did they have to glare at her?
Padfoot grinned, 'Hey, it's the only thing stopping her from sitting next to Peter and trying to pull info out of you.'
'What does Lily see in that Jerk?' James whined next to me as he put his head on the table.
Padfoot, Wormtail and I looked over at lily, she was laughing with Malcolm on the Ravenclaw table. Lily and Gwen had had a fight though I wasn't sure what about. I could guess that James came up quite a bit though.
Day 2:
'Remus?' someone called behind me down the corridor. It was her. Padfoot, Prongs and Wormtail were in detention and so I was all by myself. I couldn't do this. I walked a little faster down the corridor pretending that I hadn't heard Gwens voice calling me.
I knew what she would want to ask, she'd say that it's Wednesday and that would be enough. We both know that every Wednesday for the past few weeks we had been going to the library to work on Ancient Runes. But I knew that if she asked me now then I wouldn't be able to say no and then we'd go to the library and then eventually she'll ask me things and I'd have to lie, and then she'd be stacking up clues in her head. Until she works it out. Then she'd hate me.
That was enough to make me run away from her. If she was going to hate me, I'd prefer it to be this way. This way she won't look at me like i'm a monster, just a jerk.
Day 3:
I walked in the common room and froze; she was sitting at one of the tables at the back reading. I wanted to go over to her but Wormtail alerted Prongs and they walked in front of me and pulled me up to our dorm room. She didn't know I was there so I stared at her since I hadn't been able to properly look at her since that day at hogsmeade. She looked tired; and lonely. Her and Lily were still fighting.
Marlene was with Jordan and I don't know where Dorcas was. And I was avoiding her, I cursed at how horrible this all was to her.
She shuddered and for a second I thought she had sensed me looking at her but then she flicked the page and continued reading eagerly. She was really absorbed in that book. I tried to peak at the title and dipped my head to read it.
I read it and froze. Padfoot pulled me to our dorm.
I nodded to him when we got there and he flopped on his bed. I started pacing.
'Padfoot... that book.'
'What? The one she was reading? What about it?' he said lazily while stretching his long limbs out on his bed.
'Did you see it?' my voice was shaking.
'No. why?' he sat up on his bed and looked at me.
'It was nothing.'
'What was the damn book Moony?!' Prongs shouted from his bed.
I gulped. 'It was 'The most terrifying monsters to walk the wizarding world''
Sirius and james shared a look. Wormtail sat up on his own bed, 'And?'
Sirius frowned, 'Is it in there?'
'Yeah' I said my voice shaking.
'shit' Sirius and James chorused while Peter was trying to catch up.
Day 4:
I watched her in potions. She kept looking at Lily. Something ached inside when she did. She obviously missed her best friend but then as lily and Malcolm went to kiss each other something in Gwens eyes flashed. I saw her knock her cauldron to the ground by Lily and Malcolm causing them to jump apart. Lily turned to glare at her. She gave a bittersweet smile back.
Something in me clicked. Wait a second.
Her and Lily are fighting. They had a fight on the day of lily's first date with Malcolm right?
Lily's sitting at Malcolms table. Gwen tried to stop them kissing.
Oh sweet merlin no.
Does Gwen like Malcolm? My beast growled. My heart felt heavy, too heavy-in my stomach. Wormtail looked at me, 'What's wrong?'
I didn't answer. I concentrated on the board and wrote down notes. My quill crushed the parchment until big splotches of ink ruined my paper. I slammed the quill to afresh piece and it snapped in my hand.
I looked at it in my hand, crushed and broken.
My three best friends were watching me. They didn't understand this. They probably just thought I hated avoiding Gwen but now it was more than that. I hated Malcolm.
I bared my teeth as I saw her looking at him again. Had I waited too long? Had I avoided her to the point that she forgot about me?
Forgot about you? She didn't like you in that way in the first place.
SHUT UP. I mentally yelled at the small voice of the beast in my head.
That's it get angry. Angry at Malcolm. Make him pay.
No, shut up shut up shut up.
It'll come out eventually: the anger, your secret your werewolf. Why would Gwen want to be with that?
Shut up. I locked the voice up in my head and returned to the present. The marauders were staring at me.
I was still staring at the quill. I threw it in my bag and as the bell rang I ran from the classroom to avoid Gwen but today she didn't try to follow me out or even try to call out to me.
My heart throbbed. I slowed down wanting her to come to me.
No, it's better this way. I went into my dorm and pulled out my Ancient Runes. I still hadn't done it. Normally I'd have done it with Gwen. I'd do it tomorrow. I couldn't read either.
Every time I picked up a book it reminded me that Gwen still had that book about monsters, the one with a whole chapter on werewolves. I knew it was in there because I had read that book before, it had society's view of werewolves in there. We were monsters.
Recognising us, finding us, killing us. What we do? Where we hid? Why we existed? Everything. And if she kept reading at the speed she was, she would find it really soon.
And then she'd know.
Holy moly! Drama Drama Drama.
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