A/N: Two updates in one day yay! I think I will end the story in two more chapters three tops I will be sad when it ends I really had fun writing my first fanfic.
I do not own Degrassi.
Do you understand now why I am not the one he is going to marry? So now here I am about to watch my first love marry someone else.
I make my way in to the hall through the back door so Bianca can't see me. I can hear her going off on some poor bride's maid about her dress.
"I don't like that dress it is not the way I wanted it, why can't anyone just listen to what I want and do it. It's my wedding day and I want everything perfect!"
It takes me a while to realize she is yelling at Fiona.
"First of all Bianca you gave me a three days' notice about your wedding and I am sorry if I don't dress like a skank like your friends, now either this dress is fine or I don't walk in your wedding, let's see what my boyfriend the best man and Eli's best friend says, it's that simple." I was glad Fiona didn't take crap from Bianca.
"I don't want excuses, just get ready to start" Bianca changed her tone quickly I guess she never expected Fiona to get an attitude, and to tell you the truth neither did I. I need to remind Adam to never make her mad.
I start making my way to where the ceremony is being held it is decorated with bright colors even way too bright for my taste I'm sure Eli does not like it.
I look at the guests and I can't believe it Bianca invited so many of our old class mates but I never got an invitation. Alli sat next to me after going and saying hi to a few friends.
"Clare, are you ready? The ceremony is about to start" she was holding my hand.
"Yeah I guess I am" I never took my eyes off of Eli I needed to see his reaction when Bianca walked down the Aisle.
Everyone started settling down Eli stood up straight and Adam who was standing next to him turned to look directly to where I was sitting and winked at me. I guess Fiona told him I was coming.
The piano player starts playing a soft music and the doors open the first one to walk down the aisle is the flower girl then the bride's maids make their way down the aisle Fiona is the second one she turns and looks at me and smiles. Bianca only has three brides' maids.
My heart starts pounding Alli squeezes my hand to show support. The song changes and Bianca walks out I am not paying attention to anyone or anything around I have my eyes set on Eli.
He looks at Bianca and smiles at her my heart is pounding against my chest and now I squeeze Alli's hand but after Eli smiles at Bianca he looks straight out not at her just at the wall and his smile disappears.
"Did anyone bother to tell her she looks like a cupcake?" Alli snickers.
I try really hard not to giggle at her remark it was really hard but I have to concentrate on what I am about to do.
The ceremony begins and Alli has not let go of my hand, every now and then Adam and Fiona turn to the direction where we are sitting at and give me a reassuring smile.
"Ok Clare this is it remember Eli is the love of your life this is your last chance don't blow it we are here to support you in everything." Alli whispers in my ear as she starts to slowly let my hand go.
I have not been paying attention to the ceremony I have only been waiting for the preacher to say the magic words so I can get up.
I feel a blush rise to my cheeks and my hands start trembling I push the feelings back and take a deep breath.
"Speak now or forever hold your peace" those words finally spill out of the preacher's mouth.
"This is it Clare, go for it" Alli has completely let go of my hand.
I get up with shaky legs 'here is my last chance' I tell myself I make my way to the middle of the aisle and look straight at Eli I feel everyone's eyes on me but I don't care anymore all I want is to tell Eli how I feel to tell him I love him and that I think he is making a huge mistake.
Eli turns when he notices that the preacher won't continue with the ceremony. He locks eyes with me and turns to tell Bianca something. "Eli" I start to say and I hear my voice trembling I take another deep breath and I see that Eli is making his way towards me with Adam and Fiona behind him. I notice someone beside me and realize its Alli.
"What the hell Saint Clare!" I hear Bianca screech from the altar
"Shut up Bianca" both Alli and Fiona yell back.
Eli finally makes it in front of me I put my hand up signaling him to just let me talk.
"Eli just hear me out please, you know this isn't me I don't do stuff like this, but this" I point at him and then at everything around us. "This is not you Eli I know the real you and you can't possibly tell me this is what you really want. I couldn't sit there and do nothing while you get married and ruin both of our lives I couldn't let you throw us away and walk away from the one good thing we both had. I know I messed up I know I should have talked to you about Columbia I should have let you make the decision to stay or go" Tears are already rolling down my face but I try to keep my voice as steady as possible.
"I know that now, Eli just please don't say yes please don't make the same mistake I made by giving up on us I know you still love me I can feel it, or are you going to tell me I'm wrong?." I can see tears in Fiona's and Alli's eyes and Adam has his hand on Eli's shoulder for support. I search Eli's eyes for any sort of emotion. But saw nothing his eyes are vacant they no longer have that shine.
"I had to try Eli I couldn't let you marry her without telling you how I feel without saying I love you one last time without giving you the option of running with me one and getting out of here. I am so sorry for interrupting your wedding please forgive me and tell Bianca I'm sorry I realize you are hers now you no longer belong to me and I will respect that I just had to try." I lost him forever. I look up at his beautiful emerald eyes and give him a kiss on the cheek he doesn't even flinch.
Alli holds my hand again and whispers "I'm sorry Clare let's just go." in my ear. I look at him for the last time before walking out of his life for good.
"Clare I ..."
Sorry for the cliffhanger. I should have the next chapter up sometime tomorrow, in the meantime please review and let me know what you think will happen next.