( Am I the only one who notices that I touch on some very sensitive subjects when I write? This series talks about suicide, and dealing with it if you witnessed it, or you are close to the person that committed suicide. In a new kid in town, I talk about teenage sex, drug and alcohol abuse, and depression. #Foreshadowing. But I hope you guys enjoy this series, because this is the last chapter! That's right the last chapter. #FEELS ALERT)
Chapter 10: Break
I sat in the barn. I grieved for days, not coming out of my sanctuary of darkness. Occasionally somebody would knock on the barn door, but I stayed in the dark not bothering to answer. One day during my grieving, Pearl waltzed into my fortress of solitude. "I've told you countless times to leave, why are you here?" I asked. I was laying sprawled out on the floor. "Lapis has something she wants to tell you." She said. I got up and walked outside. The sun blinded me, and I covered my eyes with my hands. "Hey…" Lapis said. "From what happened about 5 days ago, I think we should take a break." Like losing somebody close was depressing enough. "I understand." I said not trying to raise anger. "I'm gonna go back inside." I said walking in the other direction.
"While you're here you should take a break." Pearl said. "No thanks. I want to spend time with JJ." I replied. "When will you accept the fact she's gone." Lapis said. "You hardly knew her, so it doesn't hurt you near as bad as me." I mumbled. "And your right." Pearl said. "But you can still move on." She said. "I'm going for a walk." I said. I walked through the forest until I got to the red and white striped tower, above Stevens house.
"Keep hanging on JJ, I'm coming." I said to myself. I stood in a jumping position until lapis' cold hands grabbed my shoulder. "What are you doing?" She said. " I said nothing nd brushed her hand off. "Skinny stop, you need to stop! Don't do this! Think about ruby… think about me…" She said. "I did" I replied. "And I think you'll do just fine." I jumped. The wind from me falling was rushing against my hair. I was falling for the biggest and sharpest rock on the beach, and I was successful. JJ, i'm coming. Just hand on...
