CHAPTER 10
"From today onward,we ban you from going to Atobe's place.Once again you step into Atobe's place,we're over"
Ryoma was speechless.He gaped at his boyfriends.
"Wh..What?"he stuttered.
"We're serious Ryoma"Yukimura said seriously.
"We dont want you to go to Atobe's place anymore.One step and we're over"he said again.Ryoma felt his anger surfacing.
"And who do you think you are?"he snarled glaring at them.
"Your boyfriends of course"Yukimura said unfazed by Ryoma's glare.Fuji sigh.
"Ryoma,please.Listen to us this time"he said looking at Ryoma.
"Have you ever listened to me?"Ryoma said gritting his teeth.
"Ryoma!You're drifting away and you're getting closer with the others!What do you think we felt?!"Yukimura snapped.
"Oh,so you guys can felt that way too?!That was unbelievable"Ryoma mocked.
"Ryoma!"Fuji lose his control and yelled.
"Have you guys ever consider my own feeling?Have you guys ever thought of my feelings when you guys was distancing from me?!Have you guys ever tried to understand my feelings?!!"Ryoma snapped back.
"You're the one who was distancing from us.You never let us to try to understand you"Fuji said.
"Why would I open up to those who never saw me?"Ryoma said trying hard surpressing his tears.
"That's your problem!You're not helping a bit to make our relationship work!You never tried to build understanding between us!"Yukimura yelled.
"Am I the only one?Have you guys ever tried doing it?!"Ryoma yelled back.
"We have no problem working on it!But you should knew it when we'd spend time together"this time Fuji spoke.He didnt even bother to hide his anger in his voice.
"Spending time?With you guys?Since when did we ever spend time together?"Ryoma mocked looking away.
"I really cant understand you,Ryoma.If you have no intention to make this relationship work,you should have said from the beginning"Yukimura said.His eyes hard.Ryoma turn back glaring at him.
"Oh?I'm very sure you're the one who threatened me to agree into this relationship!"he said shocking Fuji a bit but shrugged it to ask later.
"So,you never been serious about this relationship?"Fuji said with his tone lowered slightly.
"Did you ever love us?"he ask back.Ryoma glared.This time to both of them with tears threatening to fall.
"That should be my question.Did you guys ever love me?Did you guys even tried to love me?"he asked holding his fist.
"We-"Yukimura hesitated.
"See?You guys never love me!"Ryoma said.
"We're trying!"Fuji said.Ryoma stood up in fury.
"There's no use in trying.You'll never love me if you are still thinking about the past!"he said.
"What the hell are you talking about?!"Yukimura cursed standing up too.
"No need to pretend!"Ryoma turn away trying to walk away but Fuji quickly hold his wrist.
"We're not done,Ryoma!"he hissed.
Ryoma turn back to them and harshly releasing Fuji's hold on his wrist.
"Then I'll tell you!You!You will never love me because since from the start you only use me as a replacement of buchou! Even myself realize you're still longing for buchou!"he said pointing at Fuji.Then he turn to Yukimura.
"And you!You will never love me because I was just a toy for you to play around.You use me to get Syuusuke!And you too still haven't get over Sanada!"he said and walk away.
Fuji and Yukimura tried to talk but Ryoma turn back to them with his tears finally gave in.
"I'm tired of being just a replacement and a toy.I have my own feeling too but you guys never tried to consider my own feeling.I dont think I can hold on any longer"he said and ran up to his room and slam the door shut.
Fuji and Yukimura stood frozen.After a while,Yukimura sigh slowly.
"I'm sorry,Syuu.But I need to be alone now to think rationally"he said and walk toward the entrance.
Fuji watched him going outside before making his way upstair.He knock on Ryoma's room.
"Ryoma"he called slowly but silence greeted him.He tried to turn the knob but it was locked.He open the top drawer beside the room but it turned out Ryoma had grabbed the spare keys.He sigh before knocking again.
"Ryoma,open the door.We need to talk"he said but honestly he didnt know what he's going to say.He waited a while.He was about to knock again when a piece of paper appear under the door.He pick it up and read the word which seems to be written in a hurry.
'LEAVE ME ALONE!I DONT WANT TO TALK TO ANY OF YOU!'
Fuji sigh.He crumpled the paper and knock again.
"We'll talk when you have calmed down"he said and walk to the other room.There's a lot of thing on his mind and it make him tired.He lay down on the bed and slowly sleep got him.
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Fuji woke up when he felt stroke on his hair.He open his eyes and met with Yukimura's sad smile.
"Seii"he said sitting up.He glance at the clock.It was already half past 8.
"Did you just got back?Where have you been?"he ask seeing Yukimura still in his previous clothes.Yukimura nod.
"Umm.I just went to clear my mind"he answer.
"Do you want to have dinner?"he ask again.Fuji lean against him and shook his head.
"I dont have any appetite"he said and they lost in their own thought.
"Did Ryoma get out from his room yet?"Fuji said slowly.
"I dont know.His room was locked"Yukimura said sighing.
"You should take a shower first.I'll ask the maid to make some light food"he said and Fuji got up going to the bathroom.
Yukimura stand up and went out the room.He stop at the top of the stair and turn to look at Ryoma's room.He hesitated before walking toward the room.He raise his hand to knock but stop hesitating.He sigh again before turning away and went down to the kitchen.
"Can you prepare some simple dinner?"he ask one of the maid in charge of cooking.The maid nod and went to do her work.
"Just bring it upstair later"he said again and turn away.However,he stop again before turning back toward Kiyoko who was cleaning the dining room.
"Did Ryoma ever leave his room?"he ask.Kiyoko look up at him and hesitated a bit.
"I'm not very sure.I'm at the garden the whole evening"she said fidgeting slightly.Yukimura sigh.
"Tell me if he get out from his room"he said and walk away when Kiyoko nod.
After having simple dinner,both Fuji and Yukimura lay down on the bed side by side.
"Ne,Seii"Fuji called without removing his gaze from the ceiling.Yukimura glance at him slightly before staring at the ceiling too.
"Hmmm?"he hummed.
"About what Ryoma said before,about agreeing into the relationship"Fuji said slowly.Yukimura sigh.
"That's true.I did threatened him to agree when we asked.I was blinded with hatred because he was always in my way.Also,I'm just afraid to lose someone that I care again and I know you dont want to hurt Ryoma's feeling"he said.Silence.
"When did you meet him?I never saw you guys talked"Fuji said breaking the silence.
"The day before we asked him"Yukimura said closing his eyes.
"That's why both of you disappeared after practice"Fuji said more like a statement than question.Yukimura just hummed.He turned to Fuji when he felt him shift.He own eyes met with Fuji's blue eyes.
"Then,how do you feel now?Do you still hate him?"Fuji ask and Yukimura sigh adverting his eyes.
"No.I'm very sure I'm not now.Instead I'm growing really fond of him"he said.
"I see"Fuji said slowly looking away too.
"How about you?I'm not going to lie,that sometimes I also saw you still throwing glances to Tezuka"Yukimura said without looking at Fuji.
"You're the same with Sanada,isn't it?"Fuji said.Both of them fell silence at that.They can't deny because its the truth.
"It can't be helped.We've been pinning over them for a long time"Yukimura answered closing his eyes.
"Do you really didn't feel anything toward Ryoma,Syuu?"
"I dont know.I just know,I dont want to lose him"Fuji said closing his eyes too.
"We should talk with him again tomorrow.We dont have school tomorrow"Yukimura said and they silently made an agreement.Soon enough,both of them was already asleep.
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The next morning,after doing their morning routine,both Yukimura and Fuji went to knock on Ryoma's room.But when there are no reply,they went down to have breakfast.
"Did Ryoma ask any of you to bring him food upstair?"Yukimura ask Kiyoko.
Kiyoko glance at Yuki who was fidgeting.
"No,Yukimura-sama"she said not looking up at Yukimura.
"Then,prepare some food and sent to his room later"he said and Kiyoko hesitantly nod.
Breakfast was unusually silent.After breakfast,Fuji and Yukimura went again to knock on Ryoma's room.
"Ryoma,we know you dont want to talk to us.But you have to eat"Fuji called.
"Ryoma,open the door"Yukimura tried to twist the knob but to no avail.
"What should we do?"Fuji sigh softly putting his forehead against the door.
"I dont know"Yukimura sigh too.Both of them turn around when a thud heard behind them.They was shocked when they saw Kiyoko and Yuki was kneeling on the floor with their head lowered.
"We're sorry,Yukimura-sama,Fuji-sama"both of them said.
"What are you guys doing?Why are you apologizing ?"Yukimura said with his eyes widened.The two maids bow even lower.
"We're sorry.Actually,Ryoma-sama left yesterday.We're so sorry.We tried to stop him but failed"Kiyoko said .Both Fuji and Yukimura widened their eyes.
"What?!"
"We're so sorry"the maids said again trembling.
"When did he leave?"Yukimura said holding his fist.
"About half an hour before you get home"Yuki said.
"Did he said where he's going?"Fuji said hurriedly.If only he didnt sleep after their argument,Ryoma wouldnt have left.
"No"the maids said and both Yukimura and Fuji rush to their bedroom to call Ryoma.Fuji was just about to take his phone when it rang.He quickly answered it without looking at the caller.However,his face fall when it was not the person he hoped it is.
"Tezuka"he greeted back and nod at Yukimura beside him.
"Fuji,I'm sure Yukimura is with you"Tezuka said and Fuji answered with a "Ah." .
"We'll be waiting for you guys at the coffee shop"Tezuka said and Fuji know who 'we' were.
"You see Tezuka.We have to do something now.We ca-"Fuji said but Tezuka cut him.
"It's about Echizen.We'll be waiting"he said and hang up.Fuji blinks looking at his phone.
"What is it Syuu?"Yukimura brought him back to reality.
"Tezuka want us to meet them.About Ryoma"he said and they hurried to the coffee shop.Once they were seated,both Tezuka and Sanada glared at them.
"We heard Echizen ran away from your house"Tezuka started.
Yukimura narrowed his eyes.They only knew it an hour ago and other people already knew it?
"Atobe told us.How he knew,I dont know"Sanada said as if knowing what Yukimura was thinking about.
Yukimura and Fuji kept quiet.Tezuka sigh.
"Really you guys.You've been together for months already.I thought you guys was getting along"he said.
"We are"Fuji said slowly.
"Then why did he ran away from home?Did you fight?"Tezuka said keeping his expression stoic.
"It was just small argument"
"About what?"
"Atobe"Yukimura simply said.
"About him going to Atobe?"Tezuka mentally face-palmed.Yukimura glared at him.
"You guys knew why he went there"he said and the duo stoic nod.
"I dont think you only fight about that.Echizen wouldn't ran away just because of that"Sanada said seriously.Both Fuji and Yukimura lowered their head.Fuji mumbled something.
"Sorry?"Tezuka ask.
"He said we didnt love him"Fuji said clearer again.There's a gleam in both the stoic's eyes.
"I want to know too.Did you really love him?"Tezuka pressed.
Fuji keep quiet.Being ask if he loves someone else by someone he had adore so much never cross his mind.
"Did you fight about the past again?"Sanada said.Silence.Sanada let out an audible sigh.
"You've been together for months now.I thought you guys have forgotten about us"he said.Yukimura glared at him.
"Do you think it was that easy?You know yourself that I've been pinning for you for a long time.Syuusuke was the same"he said.
"Then why did you guys date in the first place?Why did you guys bring Echizen in this?"Tezuka tried to control his voice.
"Because we're trying to move on!"Fuji said.
"Why bring Echizen in this?Obviously you guys never take in account about his own feelings.Did you guys ever told him you love him?or even just like him?Never!You guys never acknowledge him as your boyfriend in the first place"Sanada said.His tone raised slightly.Fortunately there were not that much people in the cafe and they were in a secluded corner.
"We never ignore him as our boyfriend.He himself never open up to us!"Yukimura said.
"Then stop being selfish and look beyond him!Look past your feeling on us and focus on him!Do you think it was easy to open up to someone he knows never love him?"
"He was being selfish himself!Why would he go to Atobe's place without telling us the reason?If he cared about our feelings,he should told us about it"Fuji said.
"He has his own secret.That was private reason"
"Its not a private reason if you guys know about it"
"It's Echizen's choice whether he want to tell or not"
"See.He's selfish.He never cared about our feeling"Yukimura look at Tezuka and Sanada hard.
"Then,have you guys ever thought about his feeling when you went out without him?Have you guys ever imagine how hurt it is to be in the same house with people he know never cared about him?Did you know how hurt he is when you guys ignored him for each other?"Sanada said looking at him equally hard.
"Then he should told us and stop being secretive"Fuji said.Tezuka sigh.
"Stop being so difficult.This is getting no where.If you guys dont love him,you guys should broke up with him"he said.No matter how much he love you guys,he thought.
"Br..broke up?"both Fuji and Yukimura was stunned.
"Yes.There are plenty of better person for him out there"Tezuka said.
"No!We're never going to broke up with him.He like it or not,I'm going to find him and drag him to the house.If I have to lock him then please I will"Yukimura said.Just imagining Ryoma with other people angered him.
"Then,do you guys love him?"Sanada asked.
"We-"Fuji and Yukimura glance at each other.
"Then,broke up with him"Sanada said again.Both Fuji and Yukimura turn to him.
"Why did you guys really insist we broke up with him?"Fuji said.
"Because you'll just going to hurt him more"Tezuka spoke.
"I really dont understand a bit.How are we hurting him if he himself didnt love us?"Fuji said.
"Did you guys really think he didnt love you?"
"He never told us"
"You guys were so dense.Do you really thought he would just date you guys easily?He's not that kind of person to just date anyone who ask him.Even if you threatened him"Tezuka said glaring at Yukimura.
"So he told you about it"Yukimura said slowly.
"We forced him"Tezuka said.Yukimura sigh.
"We shouldnt be the one who told you this but do you guys think you're the only one who was pinning over someone for a long time?"Sanada said.
"What do you mean?"Fuji said.
"Echizen.He too has loved someone for a long time too.He know how you guys felt"Tezuka said.
"Who?Who did he love?!"Yukimura said holding his fist.Tezuka and Sanada stared at them silently before answering.
"Both of you"
"Eh?"
Tezuka sigh for the nth time that day.
"You know we have been rejecting you guys countless time before,right.Do you know why we did it?"he said.
"Because you guys didnt love us and love someone else"Fuji said in a what elsetone.
"Because we know Echizen love you guys"Tezuka said without denying what Fuji said because it was true.
"Do you know how he felt without being able to convey his feelings?Do you know how he felt to see someone he love so much pinning over someone else?"Sanada continued.
"But how?Since when?"Yukimura ask.
"The national wasn't the first time he met you.He met you in the hospital where he treated his eyes after the match with Shinji.He saw when you broke down because of your illness"Tezuka said.
"Do you remember the flowers with card I said I found in front of your room?"Sanada ask and Yukimura nod.
"I was curious to who sent it so I arrive early one day and hid at the next room to yours.Echizen arrived with flowers in his hand and stop in front of your room.He just stood there before putting the flower at the bench near the door.That's when he smiled and said 'get well soon' and left.That was the day before you said you'll be doing the surgery"he continued.
"Dont lose hope and get well soon.Cheer up and everything will be better.I want to play you someday.We'll found out who the better player.Mada mada dane"Yukimura said softly.All three pair of eyes look at him.
"That's what written in the card.It was sent few times.I want to know if the person who sent it was a good player if he challenge me.That's why I agreed to do the surgery.I want to play him"he continued.
"And that's why I put Echizen in Single 1.Sanada told me all about that"Tezuka said.
"But when he saw how attached you're to me,he gave up and tried to move on"Sanada said again.
"And Fuji,you should know the way he looks at you since your match with him in the rain.But you never cared about your surrounding so you never look at him once"Tezuka said and Fuji lowered his head.
"You guys never see how much he loves you guys and you keep hurting his feelings.He suffered much more heartbreak than you guys because he cant even talk about his feelings"Tezuka said again.Sanada look out to the street.
"You guys would remember this place as the place where you got together right?"he said without looking away from the road outside.The other followed looking outside.
"This is where Echizen have the greatest heartbreak he ever felt.Standing there,watching his boyfriend cheating on him with someone he loves deeply too.Can you imagine how much he hurt?"Sanada said still looking at where Ryoma stood up watching his boyfriend cheated on him before.He remembered how pained his expression back then.He turn back to Fuji and Yukimura who already have their head lowered.
"Do you still want to hurt his feelings again?How much more heartbreak you're gonna give him?"he said.Fuji sobs.
"We're so sorry.I never knew he was hurt that bad.I tried hard not to hurt his feelings but unconciously I did it countless times"he said and Yukimura hold his hand.
"So please,if you dont love him,turn him down completely"Tezuka said uncharacteristically pleaded.
"No.I'm not going to let him go"Yukimura said with confidence in his voice.
"You're just going to hurt him more if you dont love him"Tezuka said but Yukimura shake his head.
"No.I'm afraid to admit it before but I love him.I'm really sure of myself"he said.
"How about Fuji?"Sanada said looking at Fuji who was still sobbing.
"I know Syuu loves him too.He's just afraid to admit it just as I do.We were afraid to admit it because we didnt know how Ryoma felt toward us"Yukimura said again confidently.Sanada and Tezuka sigh.
"Then,fix it before its too late"Tezuka said.
"But where should we find him?We dont really know where he usually go"Fuji said wiping his cheeks.
Tezuka put 2 piece of papers on the table and push it toward them.
"Come tonight if you want to fix your relationship"he said and Yukimura and Fuji take the paper.It was tickets.
"Violin and piano collaboration competition?What does it have to do with this?"Yukimura said.
"Just come and see"Sanada said and they stand up.
"Fix this problems or Echizen's cousin will never let you go"Tezuka said shouldering his bag.
"If you dont fix it by tonight,be ready to lose Echizen for real.Atobe would be more than happy to know he's single.Or we will take him"Sanada said and they walk away.
"What does he mean by taking him?"Fuji said still looking at the tickets.
"Because they loved Ryoma"Yukimura said.Fuji turn to him in shock.
"Why do you think they were so overprotective of Ryoma?"he continued.
"Then why?"Fuji ask in confusion.
"If it was you,dont you want to see the one you love happy with his love ones?They have each other now.They got together also because of Ryoma.They promised each other to protect Ryoma as his seniors"Yukimura said.
"Then,we should fix things up,right"Fuji said looking back at the tickets.
"Aa"
TBC First of all,I'm so sorry for the late update.I know a lot of you are angry at me right now.So I apologize once again.I'm so so so so sorry..It's not that I dont want to update.I tried..Believe me I tried..I tried to write but my mind just wouldnt coorporate with me..I have a terrible writer block this time..And to add to the fuel,I am in the middle of final exam.. I know you guys had waited for a long time,so I tried to do my best to write it more exciting..I terribly sorry if it didnt get to your expectation..I'm so sorry.. Actually I read other's stories to get the feeling to write an update but I cant grasp the feeling..It was hard to write when you have no idea to write.. Lastly,I'm sorry again for the late update..I'm not abandoning it..You will see the end of it..I promise you.. RnR ..