Chapter 10 - I Will Remember You; Will You Remember Me?

OK First Off:

I AM SO SORRY! Why am I apologizing? Because apparently my last chapter was really similar to a doujinshi and I HAD NO IDEA! I SWEAR ON MY LIFE! I NEver even heard of it til now! I actually had this idea from a movie i saw! A wonderful person was able to clear this up with me without ripping off my head like i would expect from fangirls/boys, but she didn't and i thank her! Thanx! You know who you are!

Again sorry for that! I guess i should research doujinshi's in order not to make this mistake again! Final time, sorry! I hope you may forgive my rudeness. Enjoy the last chapter~ And hopefully it doesn't end up being another doujinshi story too... If so, i quit (-_-')...

Izaya had fallen asleep in Shizuo's arm after the blonde woke up from his startling dream. To see that the ex-bartender had cried because he had a dream of him dying, he felt happy. Shizuo cared about him, and he loved him as well. A fuzzy feeling inside the brunet made him smile as he curled up against the larger male. He loved Shizuo, all that was true. But he wished that he could remember the other parts of his life so he could better understand the blonde. So much of his six years were filled with holes and he had to refill them somehow. But how? Lying next to Shizuo, the brunet wondered what their life was like during high school. Were they friends, lovers, high school sweet hearts, or enemies? Did they have the same class together? How did they meet? So many questions were left unanswered and he needed to know. Slowly slipping underneath the blonde's hold , the informant tip toed out the room and into the streets. At least he'd remembered his own address now so he wouldn't get lost. Walking down the street, the brunet let his feet take him where his conscience knew where to go. And he arrived in front of Raira Academy. Stepping on school grounds, he saw that no one was around. Summer break had started so the place was empty. He walked on throughout the grounds until he stopped in front of a tree that was located near the corner of the school. A flicker of images went through his mind as he tried his best to concentrate on them. He was able to see a box being buried in a hole near a tree. And it was him who was burying this box. He had a smile on his face and was dressed in his graduation gown; cap and all. Finishing burying his box, the brunet smiled and walked back to the celebration that was occurring in the front of the school. Coming back from his flashback, Izaya went on his knees and started digging at the spot where his box should be. Clawing at the dirt, he soon was able to find a small metal box and unearthed it. Wiping away all the dirt on the cover, he sat down with his back against the tree and took a deep breath before opening the box. Inside were millions of photos. Pictures of him as a teenager in his school uniform, smiling and putting up peace signs with three of the same people around him. One picture that stood out the most was the one where all four of them were in their graduation gowns and were holding up their diplomas in one hand while they had the other draped around a person's neck. The back had the names of who was in the picture and date it was taken on.

-From the left: Shinra Kishitani , Shizuo Heiwajima, Izaya Orihara (me), and Kyohei Kadota/ Taken on May 19, 2006.-

They were all smiling and laughing in the picture, even though Shizuo's face seemed a bit pissed off, he was still happy. The image of them all together made Izaya tear up as he went through each picture one by one. He slowly regained some of his memories from back then, like who Kyohei was and how he came to Raira. He couldn't believe how many photos there were of him and his friends. It was like his entire high school life was captured in the pictures. Every single thing they did was frozen in time; from their lunch time chats on the roof, to dodge ball at PE, it was all there. As the brunet finished looking at all the picture and places them back into their case, he spotted an unopened envelope at the bottom. Taking it out, he undid the seal and revealed two long back to back written loose leaf pages and by the looks of it, it was his hand writing. Unfolding the first page, Izaya prepared himself for the worse as he got comfortable against the tree trunk and began reading his written testimony:

At last, the day has come where everything ends. All the teasing, the laughs, the smiles, the arguments, the fights, all of it. Though it saddens me, I know that these past two years at Raira have been the best years of my life. I actually made friends, well at least I think I did. Shizu-chan might not consider me as a friend, but we are somehow on equal grounds. Shinra and Dotachin are people I can rely on at least. We all stood together through high school and honestly, I don't think I would've been able to survive it without the three of them. Now I must learn to live a life without them by my side. I'm left alone again... But they'll be around. I heard that Dotachin and Shinra are moving to Ikebukuro, where I plan to move as well. I'm not entirely sure what Shizu-chan is gonna do, but I'll keep tabs on him. He's important to me after all. The reason why I stayed by him, even through all the pains, is because I fell in love with the monster. I don't know why, but there's just something about him that I'm drawn towards. But I should just give up. There's no way he could love someone like me. I'm a horrible person, causing trouble and pain for others. I can see why he hates me. But there are those moments, like today for example, that he smiles at me. He smiles a true smile that just takes my breath away. And I hate him for that. I hate how I can never have him. And the worst part is, he's so handsome! No girl would be able to resist his beautiful face. But on the bright side, he's monstrous strength keeps most people away from him, so I can live with that. Why can't he see that I understand him? Guess he's too busy chasing me all over the place to sit back and realize that someone loves him. But that's ok. I know one day he'll fall for me. And when he does, I'll be there for him. I'll be there for you Shizuo. I'll wait for you. Just for you. So don't worry Kay? I will always love you. Even if you fall in love with someone else, my love for you will always live. Always...

As he finished reading the letter, Izaya felt tear roll down his face. He'd loved Shizuo since high school. He had friends, people who cared about him. The fact that he found that out was amazing. He couldn't stop crying. The tears just flowed out his eyes and fell onto the dirt floor. As he sat there, he wondered when Shizuo started to fall in love with him. Was it after high school, before he lost his memory, after he lost them? When? And why? He wanted to know. And it was like the gods were reading his mind, because the only person that could answer his questions was right there in front of him.

"I found you."

"Shizu-chan? How-how did you-?"

"It's not that hard to predict your moves. How do you think I'm always able to find you so easily?"

"Shizuo..."

"Whatchou got there?"

"Ohh just some high school memories I buried here for some odd reason... I just happened to walk here and remembered..."

"Hmm, I remember that day. It was graduation. I was looking for you and saw you burying that box. I didn't say anything about it."

"Why?"

"It seemed personal. Hey! Why are you crying?"

"Ohh! I- I was just happy to remember some of my past that I teared up. It's nothing!"

Trying to reassure the blonde that he wasn't sad, Izaya was suddenly pulled from the ground and was embraced by Shizuo.

"Shizu-chan?"

"Izaya... You know that I care about you right?"

"Y-yes..."

"So you must know that we had something in the past. We had a connection. Though it wasn't normal, there was one there."

"Uh huh... Well you chasing me all over the city and trying to kill me isn't normal but-"

"It was all an act. I would never- no... I did hurt you..."

"Hey, it's ok! It was an accident."

"But...you could've died..."

"But I'm not dead! I'm right here."

"Still..."

"Would you like me to punish you then? Would that make you feel better?"

"I guess."

"Then I want to hear your true feelings for me. I want to hear it Shizu-chan. I have to know."

"...I..."

The blonde's face was red as he looked away from Izaya. He wanted to tell the brunet how he felt, but the words were just hard for him to say. Talking a deep breath, he stared back into the informant's eyes and smiled.

"I love you."

"Shizuo…!"

"I love you Izaya."

"R-really?"

"Yes."

"I… I don't know what to say…. Shizu-chan! I'm so happy!"

The brunet jumped into the blonde's arms and laughed and cried on his shoulders. He heard them, those wonderful words from the person he loved. It was as if he had died from hearing such sweet words. With their true feelings revealed to one another, the two males were able to live happily. They lived together and woke up next to each other every day. Shinra and Kyohei were still the same friends he'd remembered from high school and they all hung out on daily occasions. The four of them created new memories to substitute those that were still lost. But in time, Izaya slowly was able to retrieve his lost memories as the years went by. But every time he remembered something horrible he'd done to Shizuo, he would apologize a hundred times even though the blonde kept telling him it was ok. Still, the informant would cry and beg for forgiveness and get all depressed. To think that he did those things to someone he loved agonized him. But for some reason, Shizuo always, always forgave him.

"Why? I don't understand! Why do you not hate me? I did such horrible things..."

"The past is past Izaya. Everyone makes mistakes. For you to remember those things, it'll only make you a better person."

"How?"

"Well, we review history so we won't make the same mistakes twice in the future right? So now we can live a life without mistakes. That's why I can forgive you. Forgive and forget."

"Shizu-chan..."

"And how can I hate you? You're my life now. You're slowly starting to remember a huge part of your past. And that makes me happy. It means that you're remembering me as well. And I won't ever forget you. No matter what happened back then, I will be here with you."

"So you won't leave me?"

"Never. Not even when I die. I'll always be there for you for all of eternity."

"Always?"

The blonde took the brunet's hand in his and smiled.

"Always."

"Hey you love birds! Come on! The fireworks are about to start!"

Kyohei was calling to the two males that were sitting inside the beach house. As a celebration for Izaya creating new memories, Shinra had booked a two week trip to Hawaii for the 4th of July. As the sun started to set behind the horizon, they walked hand in hand down the sandy beach and met up with the glasses wearing doctor and the always reasonable former gang member. They all sat side by side, staring up into the sky waiting for it to light up.

"Hey Izaya! Shizuo! Kyohei!"

"Hmm? What is Shinra?"

"What would you say if I asked my dear Celty to marry me when I get back?~"

"Go for it man. But don't say we didn't warn you if she says no."

"Aww Kyohei! You're so mean!~"

"I'm just stating the facts."

"Hahaha! I say do it Shinra."

"Really? You think I should Izaya?"

"You only live once right? So take all the risks you can before it's over."

"Yeah you're right! I'm gonna do it!"

"Hey, we're here to support you all the way."

"Thanks Shizuo."

A loud high whistle interrupted their chat as all eyes face the empty sky. Colors of the rainbow and many more danced in the night sky as the four males gazed at them. Shizuo had slipped his hand towards the brunet and held onto it. Izaya smiled as he continued to watch the beautiful fireworks explode on the sky.

"Here to another memory created."

"Thank you Shizuo... This has been the best one so far."

"And I'll be sure to create many more in the near future."

As they gazed up at the sky, Izaya felt something weird on his finger. He gently pulled away from Shizuo's and looks at his hand.

"Sh-Shizu-chan!"

Kyohei and Shinra looked over to Izaya when they heard him yell.

"Hey what's going on?"

"You ok Izaya?"

"I- it's- he- when-?"

The brunet couldn't even get a word out as he held out his hand to let the other two males see what he was freaking out about.

"Whoa... I see your issue..."

"Wow! It's so pretty!"

The thing they were staring at was a diamond incased ring. All around the sliver ring were small diamonds inside it and they glistened in the firework lights. Turing around, Kyohei and Shinra saw that Shizuo was smirking as he stood there, hands in his pocket, trying to act cool.

"Shizu-chan! Is this? Is it really?"

"Yeah."

"But... I didn't even say yes!"

"I know. I just figured that since I know you so well, I'd saved the trouble of asking. Besides, you'll say yes right?"

Staring at the smiling blonde, Izaya ran up to him and hugged Shizuo like he was afraid to let go.

"Of course! Yes yes yes yes!"

"Hahaha, see. I told you that I knew you ."

As they hugged, Shinra brought out his camera and took a picture with the two males embracing and the fireworks behind them, setting the perfect scene. And when they look back to that summer and reminisce, they always remember how that day brought them even closer together. Many years passed by as the two got married and adopted two kids. They raised them and cared for them; and when their time came, they went their separate ways. Unfortunately, so did Shizuo. On March 26, 2077, Shizuo Heiwajima passed away at the age of 83. Izaya cried for days, and he was once again left alone. His friends had all passed away just a few years before the blonde and they were the only two left. But now, it was just him. As the brunet walked up the hill to where all his friends awaited him, he smiled at the sky; it was the same as the one years before. Approaching the resting place of Shizuo, Shinra, and Kyohei, he stared at the spot where he would be buried, side by side to all his friends; just like the picture in high school. Sitting down crossed legged in front of Shizuo's grave, he touched to cold stone and sighed.

"Wait for me... I'll be there soon Shizu-chan... Just wait a little longer..."

His vision slowly blurred as his hand slid from the grave stone and fell onto the warm grass. His body tipped to the side as he stared to the sky and smiled. His end was finally here; the end of his life alone was about to come to a close. All human life comes to an end, but when they die, they are not left alone. They are greeted by those who are waiting for them. And as Izaya slowed closed his eyes, he later reopened them when he heard someone's voice calling his name.

"Izaya! Hey Izaya!"

Pushing himself up from the ground, his eye met with those chocolate colored eyes he hadn't seen for years.

"Shizu…chan….?"

"Come on! Everyone else is waiting for you!"

It was like the blonde had returned back to his high school body. His face was smooth and his golden hair shined in the sun. He was holding his hand out to the brunet as he smiled.

"We've been waiting for you."

In the distance, Izaya spotted the young Shinra and Kyohei smiling and waiting for him to join them. Reaching out to Shizuo, Izaya felt a tear fall down his face as he smiled back. Pulled up from the ground, Izaya realized that he was back to his young teenage body as well.

"Shizu-chan..."

"Welcome home, Izaya."

Giving the brunet the kiss he'd hadn't received in years, Shizuo lead Izaya towards their group of friends and they all went into the light warm. The light where they can all live together, forever, smiling and laughing for all of eternity.

"Yeah…. It's good to be home."

A/N:

Was the ending ok? It's different thats for sure rright? I've notice that i 'kill' Izaya alot so im also sorry for that... I'll try not to do it as often as i seem to.

I feel awful now because of my stupid mistake... Hope u may forgive me. Thanks for following this story~ Hope to see you around, maybe... PM me is you have concerns or if something bothers you or just want to say hi I shall try my best to make up for what i've done!