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Liz

She hated walking away from Matt, but she couldn't, shouldn't, do this at work. Implementing Jason into the mix was too much. Having Matt kiss her in reaction to what he saw was not why she wanted him to kiss her. She and Jason had their chance, and it wasn't meant to be. She had tried to come to peace with it a long time ago. She would never stop loving him but she would stop loving Lucky either. The thought of Lucky hurt sometimes too much to think about. He deserted the boys when they needed him the most. Cam was still dealing with losing his baby brother.

She was relieved that Jason was no longer at the nurse's station when she came back. She didn't want to see him right now. She just wanted to finish her day out without any more drama.

"Liz," she heard Matt say from behind her.

She turned slowly towards him, and saw a man on fire. He had passion, hurt, and longing in his eyes. Such a mixture of emotions for someone who was usually so guarded.

"Matt, we can finish what we were talking about later," she told him moving closer to him lightly touching his arm.

He seemed to relax when she touched him, and she could have kissed him right there in the middle of the hospital. She knew that would not be the wisest decision with Epiphany and Robin looking on. She didn't know that Jason was watching this small exchange from a distance.

She didn't see the devastation in his face as he realized that something was going on between them. She didn't realize that anyone watching them could see that there was a deeper connection there then just two co-workers. The two of them didn't realize that their feelings for each other radiated from them like a pulsing light. With every beat, the light shone brighter and brighter.

"Liz, I shouldn't have put you on the spot," he started remorsefully.

"Shhh. It's okay. Later. Not here, okay?" she pleaded looking into his eyes.

He nodded and smiled lovingly at her before going off to another patient. She avoided the eyes that were staring at her as she went back to work. All she could think was that this day would never be over fast enough.

"Liz, is everything okay?" Robin asked gently.

She only nodded and said nothing else. She didn't want to talk about this at work. Matt had a huge realization when he saw Jason and her. This was something he was going to have to deal with in his own time. She looked up just as Jason walked into the elevator. She was glad he was leaving. Maybe this whole thing will just simmer down now. Amazing how one little visit from Jason could stir up so many problems.

Kelly was the next to come up to the desk, and for once Liz was seeing someone she wanted to see. Kelly was talking about a baby she had just delivered, and as usual she was glowing. Kelly had picked the profession that was perfect for her. She loved delivering babies and it showed every time she talked about her work. Kelly seemed to think of it as a calling and not just a job.

"Kelly, can I talk to you?" Liz whispered lowly so interested ears wouldn't hear.

Kelly seemed to get the hint because she motioned with her head for Elizabeth to follow her. They walked to a quiet hallway, and Kelly asked what was up.

"I need to get on birth control," she told her getting right to the point.

Kelly's eye brows arched, "I knew something was going on with Matt. At least you are going to be safe about it. We don't need any more baby drama. No offense."

"None taken. Can you just prescribe me some? Or do I need to come in for a visit?"

Kelly seemed to contemplate that, but finally pulled out her script pad. She wrote Liz a prescription right there, and didn't push the subject any further. Liz knew there was going to be a girl's night out in the near future because her friends were going to want to know what was going on with her and Matt. Everyone was going to have something to say, but she would listen because that's what she did. Whether she was going to take any of the advice given depended on what was said.

A few hours later her shift was finally over, and she was so glad to be home with her boys. Cam had homework, and Aiden was already down for the night. He was such an easy baby. As she and Cam finished up his homework she heard a knock on her door. She knew that she would be hearing that sound soon, and the inevitable happened.

She sighed and opened the door to find Jason standing on her doorstep. Her heart dropped to her stomach. This was just not her day to avoid drama. She was realizing that now.

"I, uh, won't stay long. I just had to ask if you and Matt were seeing each other?" he said in low voice that meant he was trying to hide his feelings.

She knew him well enough to know that despite being with Sam this bothered him. Part of her was screaming "HA!".

"If you must know, which I really don't think it is any of your business, yes. Matt and I are seeing each other."

"But what about Maxie? Wasn't he seeing her?"

"He was, yes. I had nothing to do with that. A lot happened while you were on your honeymoon. Long story short, he and Maxie broke up, and now we are seeing where it goes."

She wished this was not happening. What right did he have to be here? What right did he have to ask her questions?

"Okay, I just wanted to know. Spinelli will be happy to know that Maxie is now free. As long as you are happy."

"Jason, you really have no right to even care either way. We haven't hardly said anything to each other for years. We never even really talked about losing Jake. You married Sam. Our chapter has ended."

"I know, but that doesn't mean that I don't care about what happens to you."

She sighed and leaned against her door, "Jason, I care about what happens to you also. But if I am going to be able to have anything real with Matt, I can't have you show up at my door. I can't show up at your door as I used to do."

"Elizabeth, we have always been friends. We have always been able to be there for each other."

"We will always be friends, but we won't be able to be there for each other like we used to be. The person that needs to be there for you now is Sam. She is your wife. I don't want to be like Carly and barge in whenever there is a problem with my life. I just can't do that. I won't do that. Please, just go home," she spoke softly just as Matt walked onto the porch.

His face did not hide his feelings. He looked upset to see Jason standing in front her. Jason turned to see matt standing there, and she prayed that there would no confrontation. Matt would not be able to take Jason on in no way, shape, or form.

"I was just leaving," Jason grunted and he walked away.

She smiled at Matt, and pulled him into the house.

"What was he doing here?"

She shrugged wanting to talk about anything other than this, "He asked if you and I were seeing each other."

"What did you say?" he questioned.

"What do you think I told him? Of course, I told him yes. Then I told him to go home."

He took in what she said as she went to get Cam ready for bed. She wanted to continue after her son was safely in his bed away from any harsh words that might be spoken. She didn't want to fight with Matt.

She walked back down stairs, and found him sitting on her couch. He had started a fire and seemed to be staring at it. She sat next to him, and he turned to look at her.

"I had no idea he still stopped by. I had no idea the connection between you two," he stated sadly.

"I tried to explain it you. I guess it is something you have to see. But it doesn't matter anymore. Matt, really."

"Why was he here then?"

"Who knows with Jason. I have known him for a long time, but I still never know what goes on in his mind."

He looked at the fire then back at her before speaking again, "I guess I shouldn't be jealous since that is your past. But I hated the way he looked at you. I have never been jealous of the relationship between Spinelli and Maxie. I have never cared that she was always with him. I knew that they had been in love, and that he was still probably in love with her. It just never bothered me. But seeing the way Jason looked at you," he stopped closing his mouth audibly.

She touched his face, "Matt, there really is no reason to worry. I don't want to go down that road again. As much as I loved him, it just wasn't meant to be. I want a fresh start. I want to be with you. We're a clean slate and I want to see where this takes us."

He pulled her to him and kissed her roughly. The way he kissed her made her feel like the whole house would catch on fire. She lay on top of him, and let herself feel what they both seemed to be feeling. There was no way of knowing where this road was going to take them, but she liked the way it was going for the moment.

She didn't stop him as his hands began to roam. She didn't stop him as he kissed her neck and chest. She didn't stop him as he moved so she would be under him. She loved the feel of him on top of her. She wanted him, but she didn't know if she was ready to go that far yet. She felt like a nervous teenager, and it was strange to say the least.

Matt

She wasn't stopping him. He had managed to take his shirt off and she was still just as invested as he was. He wanted her. He burned for her like he had never burned before. He felt a desire to feel her, and he never wanted to stop. She suddenly broke free and looked up at him.

"What are you thinking," he whispered between kissing her all over her face and neck.

"I am thinking that this is not slow, but it feels so good. I don't know if I want to stop," she breathed in ecstasy.

He looked her in the eyes, "We can stop if you are not ready."

She shook her head, "It's not that I am not ready. Not by a long shot. It's just I'm scared."

He caressed her face gently, "There is nothing for you to be scared of. I am not going anywhere."

She chewed her bottom lip nervously before pulling him back down into a kiss. She ran her fingers up and down his chest before gently scratching them down his back. He thought that he was going to come out his skin.

"Take me upstairs," she whispered in his ear, and she didn't have to tell him twice.

He scoped her up and they went upstairs.