I push my thoughts away when I hear a knock on the door.
"Come in." I say barely in a whisper. Those memories had hit like a truck.
"Hey, Neeks. How are you doing?" Jason says soflty, slowly walking in the room and closing the door behind him.
"Well enough." I answer leaning back on the bed. I watch as the son of Jupiter comes closer to me until he is sitting next to me.
"Why are you lying to me, Neeks? I know it's not fine. You are not fine."
I turn my head around, trying to avoid Jason's gaze at all costs.
"I know you aren't, Nico. You loved him, I know you did." Before I can even process what is happening, Jason wraps his arms around me and pulls me closer to him.
"It's okay to cry sometimes, Neeks." That was when I realize the silent tears falling from my eyes. However, this time, I don't fight it. I let it all out; all the pain that I felt comes out in sobs.
After a while I stop crying. Not because I'm ashamed to cry in front of Jason, not because I want to be or seem strong, but because I am weak. Ian weak. I do not have any forces left to cry. My eyes are dry, I cannot cry anymore, but the pain is still there, burning me like Tartarus did. I feel numb.
"What will we do?" Jason asks after a while, breaking the silence, but never letting go of me.
"What do you mean?" I ask, confused, looking up from his now soaked shirt.
"To find Will." He says like it is nothing. If only he knew...
"Wi- Will left me. There is nothing to do. He left in his own free will. He couldn't stand it any longer. He couldn't stand ME any longer. That is why he left us, left me." He left me. He left.
Him, the one I decided to give my trust back. Left me.