AN: Sorry for the absence! life got in the way! I also lost my muse for a little bit but now i got slapped in the face. It may not be extremely long because i'm not gonna force stuff anymore.
Any-who! there's gonna be a bit of flash backs to last chapter. Mostly about Ichigo and the Twins and how Masaki is handling Shiro at the moment. Italics is gonna be the past at the moment.
Disclaimer: Ya know..I don't own Bleach. But the kiddo's are mine.
Shiro walked in the hallway of the shop, Ichigo was asleep and so where the twins. Urahara said they where small because of their early arrival and they'd need to stay here. Ichigo was going to have to rest, but everyone knew he'd try everything to jump in on the fight. They hadn't opened their eyes yet but Urahara said that its nothing to worry about, even though Masaki opened her eyes a half an hour after being born. Shiro sighed, knowing it was his fault and nobody could tell him other wise.
Masaki was wary around him even after Ichigo comforted her. All of their friends were injured because of him, his fists tightened. The albino knew even if it had been years since the Winter War, he knew that he'd always be that man. Some where deep inside him and it had always scared the shit out of him. His biggest fear was Masaki or now, The Twins getting a inner hollow.
Shiro shook his head and was about to walk into the room that held Ichigo when he felt a hand push him against the wall. It was Renji, he looked pissed and beaten. Shiro had been waiting for this as well, he knew everyone hated him right now. Shiro stared at Renji levelly, ready for a speech. "We need to talk Shirosaki."
"Obviously or ya wouldn't be lookin' at me like tha'." Renji's expression darkened. "You almost killed Rukia and your kids. You almost killed all of us." Shiro remained silent so he could continue.
It was true, Isshin and Urahara had to usher Shiro out of the room after Ichigo passed out, his oxygen levels had dropped. That one scream haunted Shiro in his fitful sleep. "You couldn't even control yourself, Masaki is terrified of you and cries because she's not sure if you're you. When you sat there and held Kaito i couldn't believe Ichigo let you! We all have been careful of you since you and Ichigo started dating."
"I know and i've tried to gain you guys trust." "Well as for me, that's gone." Renji said, Shiro bowed his head. "I'm sure i'm not the only one." and with that Renji walked off.
Shiro sighed and slid down the wall, shaking his head.
"ICHIGO?!" Shiro yelled to his husband, that blood curdling scream rang through his ears, along with the beeping of a few machines. Urahara asked Shiro to stay outside, knowing that Masaki was out there and Ichigo needed as much air as the small room provided. It killed him to see the Albino's guilt ridden and worried look when he slid the door closed. Urahara jogged back to Isshin's side, he had began to take one of the twins out, Urahara placed a mask over Ichigo's mouth. A cry filled the room suddenly.
Isshin breathed a sigh of relief and cleaned the baby off and Urahara began the same procedure for the other one. Ichigo jolted when he went to remove the baby, when Urahara pulled the baby out nothing happened. The baby wasn't breathing, Urahara rushed to get the supplies to suction the baby's mouth and nose. Isshin placed the first born down in a bassinet and ran to stitch his son up. After a long, long moment the infant cried.
Urahara felt weight lifted from his shoulders as Isshin finished the stitching, looking to the machine that monitored the orangette's levels on everything, oxygen, blood pressure and more. His oxygen levels had returned to normal and Isshin looked up and smiled. Everything was gonna be okay.
Shiro sat outside the room, he looked to his daughter who had said nothing the entire time just stared at her father with fear. "Masaki.." Shiro reached for his daughter but she whimpered and scooted back, tears in her eyes. "You hurt Daddy.." Shiro faltered and looked down.
"Why.." she whispered and Shiro shook his head, close to tears himself. "I.." Ichigo showed here in their daughter. "No...you almost hurt Aunt Orihime..and you almost killed everyone else.." Masaki pulled into the corner of the hallway.
"Stay away from me..I hate you." She sobbed and shook. She was a four year old but she felt so strongly. Shiro started at her daughter and tears fell, he pulled his knees up and rested his head on them. He shook from the effort of trying to keep the rest of his tears at bay.
Yoruichi walked down the hall and looked sorrowfully at the two beings. Masaki was shaking and Shiro had clocked out, tears slipping slowly down the albino's face. Yoruichi walked to the young girl and picked her up. Shiro watched the cat woman and she sent a very small smile and carried the sobbing girl away. Shiro sat in the hallway alone, hating himself more than ever in that very moment.
He was a monster with kids he didn't deserve and a man that surely didn't deserve him.
Ichigo woke up after falling asleep to a very broken looking Shiro. The twins where asleep in their bassinets that Urahara had. They had told everyone that they'd get them when the boys woke up. "Hey Shi.."Ichigo said to his husband. Shiro looked to the man in the bed and gave a very broken smirk.
"Hey.." Ichigo sighed and shook his head. "It's not your fault." "If i had more control over myself we wouldn't have almost lost Kaito or our friends." Shiro stated bitterly.
Ichigo stayed silent and shook his head. "Arsen was contriving you." "You don' understand Ichigo. I remember everything and a part of me liked it. Part of me liked hearing the screams." Silence filled the room for a brief moment.
"That isn't you, Shiro." "Oh, Bullshit. I know you're thinking about the Winter War." Ichigo bit his lip and looked away. "I should just disappear.." Shiro mumbled.
"No. You will not leave Shirosaki." Ichigo said, eyes shinny. "Masaki wouldn't be scared anymore.." "Masaki doesn't know what happened to you."
Shiro fiddled with his thumbs. "Tensa said you need to stay here.." Ichigo whispered and Shiro whipped his head to look at him. "Tensa..?" Ichigo nodded and took Shiro's hand.
"I know that Renji and everyone is probably blaming you but i will always be on your side. It wasn't your fault and you're my husband and the father of my children. I will be with you through it all and help you through it. As soon as i can move we're gonna go kick some ass." Ichigo smirked ever so softly at Shiro.
The tiny fire shone behind Shiro and he smirked softly at him, the twins whimpered signalling that they where awake. Shiro kissed Ichigo's hand and he got up, telling everyone that the twins where awake. They all looked dully at the albino and walked in to see the babies. This time they got to hold them. There was a thick silence until Nel sighed deeply.
"Guys..it wasn't him." "Bull." Renji said bitterly. Grimmjow sighed and nodded. "It wasn't..as much as i want to blame him."
"Renji..calm down." Rukia said, looking up from the snow haired twin, Kaito. Renji sighed and looked down, going quiet. Orihime looked down at Ryuu and gasped. "His eyes are opened." Ichigo's smiled "Really?"
"He takes after Ichigo" Ulquiorra said from his spot behind Orihime. Orihime giggled. "He's a spitting image of you Ichigo." Rukia looked at Kaito "Looks like he's trying to open them.."
Shiro had a small fear of one of their children would have his eyes to a T. The black scelra and golden eyes. It's like Kaito knew his father's anxiety. Orihime walked over to Ichigo since he was still on a bed restriction, Ichigo beamed with pride. "He's beautiful, Ichi" Shiro said.
Ichigo nodded, looking up from the orange haired baby to see his older sister with Yoruichi behind her. Masaki looked at Shiro for a brief moment then snapped back to look at her brothers. Ichigo bit her lip then took Ryuu from Orihime and passed him to Shiro. "Come see Ryuu, sweetie. Papa will help you."
"Can't you help me, Daddy?" Ichigo gave Masaki a reassuring look that also said 'No.' Masaki bit her lip and walked over to Shiro who was now kneeling so he was level with his daughter. Masaki walked over slowly, Ryuu looked up at his sister and made a little baby noise. Shiro looked down and smirked then looked back at Masaki. Masaki looked at Shiro then leaned down and kissed Ryuu's cheek.
Ryuu cooed and cuddled to Shiro, but held his baby hand out to his sister who stuck her finger out. Ryuu squeezed it and Masaki giggled softly. Ichigo smiled at the two then looked at Rukia and silently asked if she could add Kaito to the mix. She walked over and placed Kaito in Shiro's other arm, after he had shifted Ryuu slightly. Kaito then took the opportunity to open his eyes and Shiro's eyes widened.
Kaito's eyes were golden on black. "Kaito..i'm so sorry.." Shiro whispered and kissed the infants head. He wiggled his nose and looked at Shiro curiously. Ichigo watched and felt sorry for his husband and his fears but he also felt the baby had beautiful eyes.
Each of their children where beautiful in their own right and he wouldn't have had anyone else for their other father or had them look any different. Masaki kissed the little albino's head. "He looks like you Shi." Ichigo said and Shiro looked up at him from his place on the floor. "Yeah.."
"I wouldn't have it any different." Nel smiled at them and Rukia did as well, she leaned down and whispered to the older albino. "I know you weren't at fault." Shiro looked at the petite woman who only smiled softly at him.
"You'll make it up to us some how. I know it."
AN: Damn it..almost hit 2,000. Oh well, it felt right leaving it there. I didn't wanna drag it out any longer. I think this story is gonna be coming to an end soon..But don't worry. There will be a sequel. ^_^
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