I can personally say, full on crying with your head in between your knees, trying to stop yourself from getting up and breaking everything in sight makes it a little hard to hear when someone comes in and starts to try and comfort you.
The sight of Macy managed to stop me crying a bit though when you notice its class time, you're in the boy's toilets and she's the one comforting you.
Her hand was soft as it came in contact with my saw, wet cheeks. She didn't say anything; instead she just hushed me and kissed my damped cheeks.
After what seemed like forever of crying on her shoulder and holding onto to her very tight. I built up the courage to speak.
"I'm stupid. I'm an idiot! I can't believe I was so easily fooled into believing her obvious lie! It took Joe less than five seconds to get her to tell me the truth. I hate m-" My very depressing speech was cut short by her hand.
"Shut up Nick"
I'd always been told I didn't talk enough, so it shocked and kind of hurt me to hear her tell me to do so.
And if reading my mind, she said "I'm sorry but that is the most stupid thing I have EVER heard ANYONE say. You're not stupid, don't prove me wrong now. You weren't to know she'd do that, I weren't to know she'd do that! I trusted her with a big secret. We all make mistakes Nick; it's how we build character."
Considering less than two months before that, she had been a crazed fan who would have torn me apart on sight; she had done pretty well when I had hit rock bottom. She had come down to my level by joining me on the floor of the, dirty, strange smelling toilets.
There was no way I could repay her for the last month or so. Nothing I could do could tell just how thankful I was for her help and guidance.
A nice friendly hug had to do. As I pulled her into me, she wrapped her arms around me. She didn't object as I sat up properly, making it less uncomfortable to hug.
"Thank you Macy, thank you for being there for me. I owe you big time."
Even though she didn't seem to have much of a problem with human contact, she cringed and jumped out of my arms just as fast as I had pulled her into them.
"It's nothing. Now, we need to get to class, we have a big project coming up and we can't afford to miss it."
I couldn't afford to go to it. "I'll catch up."
She was kind and sweet but she was still human. Just like every other human, she had feelings, a heart, a need for love but that was it 'she needed'. Most of us humans can share and care for others but by nature, we always think of ourselves before others, in a small way, whatever we do revolves around us. We humans are capable of higher thinking but underneath it all, self preservation prevails. It was about time I realized that, others would always care but not up to the expectation I would dream for. Everything I'd always done, had been done to keep me feeling content and happy with myself, if I'd kept people in high spirits I'd have something to look back on, it was something I needed.
"No you won't. You'll sit here and sulk till someone makes you to leave."
"I'll wait till then, then."
Macy's bad side didn't come out that often, but take my word for it; it isn't a side you won't to provoke.
Her face turned, her arms making her way over her chest as she came to stand over me. "You can leave kicking and screaming or under your own steam, you got ten seconds to decide."
Needless to say, I was out there in less than half that time.
I'm not a coward, I'm just smart. I had ran from her enough to know she was very strong and extremely fast. I'd lost nice clothes that way.
"And whilst you're cowering and listening to my every word, date another girl without my content and I might just flick you on the nose. Don't make me flick you Nicholas because I will!"
If the joke hadn't of been so friendly, I wouldn't have got her into a headlock and made her take back her words. She really was the friend I had been looking for, someone who was socially better off than me but somewhat just as awkward and as unusual as me.
Don't worry, I have an ending and it will be VERY soon :).