Losing You Chapter 10: safe, a twilight fanfic

Ok first of all I'm sorry about some of my wording, my computer is really annoying lol I've read through my last chapter and noticed that I always have James as jams: sorry i don't mean it, its my stupid spell checker lol, because i type fast the words sometimes aren't spelt correct, i could really use a beta lol. Anyway here's the next chapter

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I have been sitting on the cold stone floor in the basement for about six hours now, and its making me crazy.

Ive just been looking at the wall or yanking on my chains, i cant take it, its like living in a cage with no way out, or sitting in a room with the walls closing in on you, after sitting in this room for half the night I've realised that even the biggest of rooms can feel claustrophobic if your in it to long.

I rested my head against the stone cold wall and sighed, it felt like i was never going to get out of this place.

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I woke up to a screeching sound and saw the basement door that lead to the garden was opening, i breathed in and hoped to god it wasnt James.

It was Kieran.

"Kieran?, wh-what are you doing in here?" my voice croaked because i was so relieved but also so distraught after being locked up in here for hours.

"Bella what the hell are you doing chained to a wall" i looked at his face and then to his eyes.

"oh Kieran , you've gotta me, please, please get me out of here, i cant take it, tell him I'm sorry please, ill do anything just tell him I'm sorry" I cried and cried so hard I thought I was never going to stop.

"Bella, what are you talking about, tell who you are sorry?" he leant down and took in my appearance, I must've looked a mess sitting there in my pants (undies) and ripped t-shirt that covered barely anything.

He brought his hand up to my face and caressed my cheek. " god what has he done to you, look at you, you're a mess"

I grabbed his arm and started shaking it.

"Please, Kieran, please tell him, get me out of here, I cant take it everything's to small its making me crazy, pleaseeeeeeeeeee" I was begging him, somebody just let me out was all I could think. How could anyone in there right mind do what they did to me.

"Bella these shackles there to strong to get open how am I going to get them open, do you know where the key is?" I shook my head, no, James kept it somewhere upstairs.

"Kieran I- I think it know how."

"I need you to go into the garage round the front and get a screw driver or a drill to get them out of the wall, please"

"ok ill be right back, you going to be ok?" I nodded again.

He kissed me on the forehead and then walked out the door in search of a drill. When the door opened for him to lead the sky was blue and cloudless, it appeared to be a never ending sea of just blue, I could look at the sky all day, so peaceful, so open and so free.

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"I'm back, are you ok?, right, erm so ok cover your ears it might be a bit noisy"

"OK, wait, are you sure you know how to use that" I said pointing to the drill in his hand.

He grinned at me. " of course, I mean its me , Kieran right?" he raised his eye brows to me,

"yeah right"

I covered my ears and within two minutes my hands were free, I rubbed them a bit because they were saw from trying to get free.

I stood up and threw my arms around Kieran as tears began to resurface.

"Thank you, thank you so much" I whispered into his neck. He hugged me back and I just clung to him, never wanting to let go.

"What the hell happened to you, I mean why did he put you down here, did he hurt you are you alright" I looked down at my feet should I tell him, I asked myself.

"Kieran he-he raped me " I broke down and fell to the floor in Kieran's arms, and nothing, nothing felt more right at this moment. I cried for everything, I cried for my dad, I cried for the loss and grief my dads death had caused our family, I cried for Edward not believing me, and finally, I cried for everything James had ever done to me, the rape, the kicks and the punches and the sly comments and name calling,

I cried for everything that had gone wrong in my life. Everything.

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For the rest of the day Kieran and I spent the afternoon lying around in a field under the sun. He asked me questions about my life, and about James, and how it all started. He comforted me and told me everything was going to be ok, but it wasnt. I knew too well that nothing or anything would ever be ok, not after everything that had happened, and not as long as James was walking around a free man.

We talked about hobbies and school and everything. I found out that he was quite the clubbing type person, usually you would think that any person that went clubbing every weekend and slept with your mom, would be a bit of a wacko but not Kieran. I knew quite a lot about him now. He was born right here in forks, and lives with both of his parents, still happily married and alive. He has two younger siblings in the 4th and 5th grade, and he has a dog called bingo.

Of course I knew a lot more than that, but that was the basics of him. Kieran was quite good looking but looked older than he really was, which is probably how he got into the clubs without ID, or maybe he has a fake one who knows, anyway, he quite big built, has dark brown eyes along with brown hair, he's about 6 ft 4 very tall, especially since I'm barley 5ft 4.

He had a great personality, considering he's popular would probably make you think he was a jerk or something, but he wasnt. people judge to easily, they think that just because someone is popular, they are either a jerk, a slut or a bitch, kind of stereotypical.

I had learned that Kieran was trust worthy, and that he would never tell my secret unless I said he could, he said that he would try and keep me safe.

I sat on the grass next to Kieran and leaned into his shoulder.

"Thank you" I said looking up to his blue globes.

"I'll try and keep you safe ok?, jams is a monster, how can he hurt you like that" he brushed some hair out of my face and then sighed.

"Kieran , I erm I understand that you have to ignore me at school, for your own sake . I don't want you to feel guilty, and I understand if you have to join in on the name calling and notes and stuff, I don't want you to get hurt or beat on " he pulled his hand up to my cheek and rested his forehead against mine.

"We'll figure it out, we'll make it ok." I saw the sincerity in his eyes and I really wanted to agree, I really wanted to, but I couldn't, because it wasnt true..

I looked down at my appearance, I had my ripped shirt still on and Kieran's shirt wrapped around my waist, he was so much bigger, his shirt could have been one of my gypsy skirts.

I lay back and for once felt content, the sun ray coming down on me, Kieran next to me and my father watching over me, and for now this was all I needed.

After I came out of my thoughts I looked up at Kieran who was sitting right next to me.

"What are you thinking Bella"

I looked into his eyes filled with kindness and breathed in.

"I'm thinking about how content I feel right now" I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"What do you want to do about James then, where are you going to go?, are you going to go back to your house?"

"I have to, there's nothing else I can do"

"You could come stay at my house if you like" He was so sweet, the best friend that I hadn't had in six months, he reminded me of how Edward used to be, kind loving and selfless, thought nothing of what he could do for himself, just other people.

"Kieran, it'll only make things worse, I've got to go back, but I'll just sneak in and stay in my bedroom for the rest of the weekend, I'll be fine.

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When it started to get dark, Kieran drove me home and gave me his cell phone number just encase.

I walked up the steps of my house and opened the door quietly, but as soon as I got in the door I heard James.

"BELLA" he yelled loudly, he sounded angry, but he wouldn't do anything while Edward was here. would he?

I walked into the living room and saw Edward sat in the arm chair with a can of beer in his hand, and James strewn across the sofa beer in one hand and a cigarette in the other. I sighed inwardly Bastard.

He eyed me and I could see anger in his eyes. I will always remember those eyes, so full of lust and anger all the time.

"Where the fuck have you been" I jumped at his harsh tone and stepped back a bit. I looked at Edward who looked kind of confused.

" I went out with a friend" he started laughing and then turned to Edward.

"did you just hear what that slut just said " I went out with a friend" listen whore you don't have any friends. Tell me the truth." he stood up and came forward to me until he was inches away. I held my breath and closed my eyes please just be a dream, please be a dream, help me please.

"I--I was with a friend , I promise, James, I'm just going to go to my room." I turned to walk away but James's hand grabbed me tightly, so I turned back to him and then looked at Edward. His fingers were clutched to the arm rest and his knuckles were going white, he was angry. But at who?.

Me or James ?

"James let go! Your hurting me" he didn't listen he just clenched his hand harder and made me drop to my knees in pain.

He still had my arm in his hand , and the pain was becoming unbearable. I looked to Edward again, telling him with my eyes, please do something Edward please, my eyes pleaded with him.

"James calm down, let her go she's not worth it" he closed his eyes and then dropped my hand before returning to his place on the sofa.

Thank you I mouthed to Edward, but he just looked away in defiance.

I walked up the stairs and went to my bedroom to write in my diary.

Dear Katie, today was so nice, well most of it anyway. Yesterday I told Edward about everything, and he didn't believe me. It hurt soo bad to know that he was once my best friend, and now he can barley even look me in the eye.

James got me again yesterday, I thought nothing would happen because Edward was here, but I was wrong. Why does he do it Katie? Why does he do those horrible things to me.

He chained me to a wall in the cellar last night, if it wasnt for Kieran I don't know what I would have done. Kieran's like my best friend, I don't know how he is so nice to me, its like he's my guardian angel or something. I miss my dad so much, he'd help me if he was here,

I don't know what to do anymore, I have no idea how to stop all of this. It feels like it could go on forever, my skin feels tainted and I feel like my body is used and unwanted, its disgusting, I have disgusting skin and I feel like I want to die sometimes.

When I looked into Edwards eyes today, they made me want to die right there, he couldn't look at me, and when he did its like I almost burnt his eyes.

Kieran says that its going to get better, but it wont, it never will. It never gets better.

I put my diary down and then decided I wanted to go in the Jacuzzi , it was already 12 at night and I needed to relax for a minute. I walked to my bedroom and went to my draw and pulled my swim costume out.

It was a turquoise colour and clung to my body nicely. (.) I filled out quite well in all the right place, until that night and since I lost weight, a lot of my body's compliments disappeared, my breasts went from a D to a B and my stomach went from nice and toned to nearly going inwards. My body was a mess.

I walked down to the third floor and opened to door to our pool and Jacuzzi anywhere.

I walked over to the Jacuzzi and placed my towel on the side and my Ipod that I had picked up before came. I got into the hot bubbling water, and all the tension in my muscles disappeared.

I reached over and picked up my Ipod and picked a song. There you'll be By Faith Hill, it was one of my favourite songs, and I reminded me of Edward so much, even though Edward had hurt me, I'll never forget what he was once and that means a lot to me.

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

The song finished and I closed my eyes and let my body sink further into the water.

I looked over at the pool right next to the Jacuzzi and remembered when Edward had taught me to swim when I was ten. Edward had always been a good swimmer even at eleven, he excelled in everything.

"Edward , I cant do it, I just can't, its too hard, I cant even float. I'm scared." Edward took my hand and lead me to the pool.

"Don't worry Bella, I'll protect you always I promise"

"Ok" I stepped into the shallow end of the pool and waited for Edward to help me"

"so!! Fist of all, we need to teach you how to float ok?" I nodded.." ok lie on you back , ill hold you"

I lay back in the water while Edward supported my back.

"see ok now all you have to do is keep your body straight ok?"

"Yeah ok" I held my breath as Edward let go, but I sank, I began sputtering and kicking my arms and legs everywhere.

Edward grabbed me and then pulled me out.

"Bella believe in your self, you wont be able to do it, if you don't believe"

I lay back again and held my breath just encase I sank again, but I didn't, I was floating.

"oh Edward look, I can do it, thank you, thank you, thank you, your the best"

I smiled at them memory, but then I remembered those six words that he had promised me and broken.

"I'll protect you always, I promise" I whispered to myself

"But you didn't Edward did you, you didn't protect me.

I got out of the Jacuzzi and wrapped a towel around me and walked to the door.

But before I shut the door I turned and whispered to nothing.

"you didn't"

Ok I hope you guys liked it, I tried to make it longer lol, seven pages of writing. Please review. Love charisma XxX