I lightly brushed the head of the gun back and forth under my chin. I took a deep ragged breath.
Do it now. You are a monster. You can be with your family now.
That last thought put me at a strange ease. I closed my eyes and I could see their faces. My thumb pushed down the safety lever. As soon as my pointer finger was ready to pull ths trigger, the gun was ripped from my hand.
"Are you kidding me? You are giving up, just like that!," Reesa put my gun in the back of her jeans and bent down next to me.
"Reesa, Give me my god damn gun!"
"No."
I stood up and Reesa did the same.
"What are you going to do? Beat my face in like you did Ashley's?"
"Reesa, that was a cheap shot."
"I know. You can't come into our lives and decide to check out! You are one now, we fight. We don't roll over and give up.'
" You really believe Dean will be able to save me?"
"Yeah. You know why? He saved you once. He can do it again."