Two days had gone by and Sheldon felt numb to everything around him. Sure, he still went to work, he still ate, followed every fragment of routine. He smiled, gasp laughed, was completely himself. It was only logical after all. But the world felt different. Everything was different without her.
It was at work though that it finally dawned upon him.
She was not for him.
He would never play Star Trek doctor with her, battle at counterfactuals, go to the zoo, kiss her where she'd never been kissed. He lost her. She was gone. She was not for him.
Leaning up against his desk looking at the equation board, he knew for a fact he'd lost. It wasn't until he felt the moisture on his shirt that he'd realized tears were falling freely. He didn't remember the last time he'd cried that hard. Except for….
(flashback)
Three Years Prior to Meeting Amy
"Mee Maw please, please don't go. I don't have anyone else." Sheldon cried.
His grandmother smiled sweetly from the hospital bed and spoke softly. "My little Shelly bean don't ya worry, your Mee Maw is always going to be with you, in your heart and in everything I've ever taught you. Ignore Missy and George them be both as stubborn and as stupid and a brain dead pot belly pig. I know you'll grow up to be something great Shelly, a real man of honor and Texas Pride. You gonna be someone special out there in the world, and you're gonna make some poor girl extremely lucky. Now I know in my eyes there ain't ever gonna be someone good enough for you, but when you find her…and ya will." She added glaring at Sheldon as he opened his mouth to protest. " Give her this. Give this to the girl who has your heart, even if it's made of aluminum alloy."
She placed inside his large hands her own small and fragile ones and dropped down a small and intricate silver locket.
" There is no need to call it a dream if you know it's going to happen."
Keeping a hand on his and raising the other to his cheek. She whispered that she loved him and asked him to go so she could get some sleep.
She never woke up.
That was over four years ago.
Today he felt that same kind of pain that overwhelming sense of loss and confusion.
He needed to see her, he needed to tell her and love her and kiss her in Salt Lake City. He wiped the tears in his eyes and ran out of the room, crashing painfully into Leonard.
"Leonard you tiny fool, you're small stature and slight build has severely injured my scapula."
Sheldon cried out annoyed. Looking down at the tiny man though he felt instantly guilty.
Leonards eyes were red and his nose looked almost animated. "Leonard ….what's wrong."
He looked up at Sheldon and croaked out. "Penny's pregnant."