AN: woo… another one. Don't know when I will upload again. Hope you guys understand. ENJOY!
Nessie POV
"Oh hey… Alec." My eyes almost bulged out when I saw his angelic face smiling at me. What was he doing here?
He jogged lightly to us and his slightly long hair bounced a little. He was wearing a blue button- down shirt with sleeves rolled nicely halfway to his elbow and a one or two buttons undone. He was also sporting a casual-looking Jeans. (AN: Sorry, I don't know how to describe clothes. XD).
"Hey, I had no idea that I'd be seeing you here." He smiled at me and my knees turned Jell-O. I was actually surprised that I could still stand still. "And you to…. Um…" He looked at Claire.
"Claire Clearwater." Claire reminded him sweetly though I know she was internally rolling her eyes but right now I didn't really care. The fact that he remembered my name sent me flying to the outer space… Yeah, do not kill my buzz by reminding me that I almost have all of my classes with him so there's no escape for him to remember.
"Yeah, what a surprise. What are you doing here?" I said.
"Um… Enjoying the long weekend?" he answered but it turned out a little like question. Of course he was having a vacation. Stupid me. I should've just shut up. My face burned from embarrassment.
"So are you going to the party too?" Nice save Claire. Note on my mind, Thank Claire later.
"Yes... Um would you mind if I walk there with you guys?" He addressed the question to both Claire and I but he was just looking at me.
" Sure." I told him without getting my eyes off him. I know that I must look like a weirdo but I couldn't help it.
"Let us go then." Then Claire tagged me with her and I was compelled to look away from Alec's perfect features.
He walked a step or two ahead of us as if leading the way. Now that he wasn't looking, I smiled like an idiot while trying to suppress a squeal. GEE… HE'S HERE! I couldn't believe it. If I know, I was just dreaming.
When we got at the venue, I was about to ask Claire if she knew where the boys were but she magically disappeared… Now What?
I looked on the other side to see Alec smiling at me. I offered him a little smile too. My heart was really pounding and I could hear it with my own ears. I wonder if he could hear it too. Gosh, that would be freaking embarrassing then.
"Um…Claire disappeared huh?" I nodded. "Well, do you mind being with me for a moment? Until you find your friend again? "I gapped at him. I couldn't believe my own ears… WOOO.. Stay calm, act naturally, and stay calm…. Act naturally… STAY CALM RENESMEE!
"Yeah, I guess so… If you don't mind." I added in the end. Maybe he was just being polite.
"Believe me, I don't." then he lead me to the middle of the dance floor where there were several people dancing to an upbeat tune. Now I'm scared. I couldn't even walk properly with a flat surface now would you expect me to dance?
Luckily when we get there the DJ played a slower song.
"May I have this dance?" he said and held out his hands. Then I had a déjà vu. Alec had been a nice sweet escape from thinking about my best friend these past few minutes but now he reminded me of a memory that leads me back to zoning out and think about the whole my-best-friend-is-in-love-with-me-and-I-don't-know-what-to-do situation.
I was broken out of my reverie when he waved a hand in front of my face.
"UM… Renesmee are you there?…" He asked while still waving his hands and eyebrows scrunched.
"Yeah, i…. Sorry, I just…. Yeah" I waved my hand as if it explains why I zoned out.
"Oh, are you okay? Do you want to just sit?" he was starting to pull me at the corner but I stopped him.
"No, I'm alright." I told him. Gee. He must have thought that I was such a weirdo that left her freaking mind every now and then
"Oh ok…so you want to dance?" He asked once more. I nodded.
He pulled me closer to him. His one hand rested in my lower back while the other led my hands to his neck where I wrapped them. After that his hand joined the other on my back and he pulled me a little bit closer. Not too close but close enough to make me blush as we started to sway slowly to the rhythm of the music. He was looking directly into my eyes holding my gaze. I know I was blushing like a fire truck now and the idea of him seeing my tomato colored face adds burning to my face.
"I never noticed that your eyes are prettier when close up. I only see them far away but now I can appreciate your chocolate brown eyes. They're beautiful." He smiled at me. I blushed even more, if that was possible. Then he stroked my cheeks. " Your blush is cute too. Do I make you nervous though?" He asked. I was about to answer with a quick witty remark when my eyes saw the glaring figure of Jacob past Alec's shoulder. I didn't know if it was for me or for Alec but if looks could kill… We'll be a big pile on the floor by now.
From blushing, my face was now distorted into a frown resulting from irritation, sadness, anger and confusion. Alec noticed the difference.
"Oh, sorry. I must have sound creepy, am I not? I… well, I'm just stating the truth."
" Ah, no it's not that. I mean thank you for the compliment. I… just don't think that I look …. Pretty?" I wouldn't tell him the real reason why I suddenly frowned.
"What? Are you kidding me? YOU are beautiful." He smiled at me.
WOAH! Did I hear it right? The guy that I had a crush since I can remember thought that I was BEAUTIFUL… OOOHH.. I wanna fly now! But the moment was spoiled when I once again saw Jake's face. DUDE STOP GLARING AT ME. I want to shout at him
"Thanks." I hid my face. He must have thought that I was leaning my head on his chest for he hugged me there. Not that I complain though. I just tilted my head a little so it wouldn't be awkward. Can you spell heavenly place? H-E-R-E. Yeah right.
"Hey, Ren." As much as I loved where I am now, it would be more appropriate if I look at him when he's talking to me right? So I have no choice but to look up.
"Look, I know this is so sudden and all that but, I… I've been admiring you in a distance for a while now. So… I was hoping that you'll say yes if I….ask you to go out next Saturday perhaps? He looked at me under his lashes and I couldn't say no. .! ALEC. . OUT! AM I dreaming? Pinch me! Woo..
I couldn't speak yet for I don't trust my voice so I just nodded. He seemed to understand though and he suddenly hugged me tight. I was surprised to I froze.
"Oh, sorry." He apologized. Then his phone suddenly rang. He took it out and released me for a minutes.
"Hello… Oh, Hey…Okay…okay.. wait just give me five minutes okay? Bye." He turned off the phone.
"Um… sorry about that.. Its….. My…mom. She wants me to… call her." He said did she just called him?
"Um she can't hear me well so I needed to go out now." He said.
"Oh okay. Go on then. I'll just look for my friends now." I said then he walked out without even saying goodbye. But then he whirled around.
"Oh, remember on Saturday okay?" he said. Then walked away once more.
"Yeah, bye." I waved though he didn't hear and see me.
I walked around the crowd and looked for my friends.. I saw them goofing around one corner.
" RENESMEE!" Claire shouted and pointed at me and all of them looked at my direction.
"Hey chica, I saw you dancing closely to that dude from school eh? I didn't see you kissed though. Or you did sneak a kiss or two that my surveying eyes didn't noticed? " Embry teased.
" Yeah, Claire filled us with what happened earlier." Quil piped in.
"Details young, Lady. Tell everything to your Uncle and convince me not to tell you parents about what had happened." Seth used his uncle card on me. Oh, haven't I told you yet? Seth and Leah were sort of my uncle and aunt because their mom married my grandpa so… Yeah..
"Shut up, Sethy." I snapped and they all laughed except Jacob.
"Can I talk to you for a second" Jacob said in a very serious tone and he dragged me outside the party hall to a slightly secluded place far enough so no one would hear.
"What the heck. Let me go." I tried to break free from his hold. He released me when he was sure that we were far enough.
"What was THAT?" he said in a firm voice with his face a little purple and obviously irritated. I know what he was implying but I didn't really know what's the matter with him.
"Excuse ME?" I said in equally irritating tone. I don't want to have a fight with him but his getting on my nerves.
"You are flirting with that ALEC! That douche." He snarled Alec's name and that adds fuel to my irritation and him calling douche makes me red with anger.
"So what? What the heck is wrong with you!" I shouted.
"Wrong with me? Renesmee. You should have known better. He's not good for you!" He insisted.
"Not good for me? You don't know everything Jacob. I'm not flirting with him and what is it to you if I am? I like him, you know that. Since the very first time I saw him. And YOU DON'T CARE. You shouldn't!" I said without even having my mind filter all the words. I know that it hurt him based on his changed features but right now my angry side was still ranging.
"I don't freaking CARE? OF COURSE I DO! I FREAKING LOVE YOU AND NOW YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT I SHOULDN'T CARE? I'm sorry but I freaking DO! It kills me! The sight of you with him breaks me. You looking at him like that cut through me. Him hugging you like that makes me wanna tear all his limbs because that should be ME!" I could see gloss in his eyes that depicts pure agony. I could feel the hot tears streaming down my face and his features soften. He went to me and hugged me. I noticed the difference between his and Alec's. I feel giddy and happy with Alec's arms around me but with Jake I just feel safe. Feels like HOME.
"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? Jake, you are my best friend. Stop this. It's insane. I like Alec…and I desperately NEED you to be happy for me." I cradled his face in my hands and slightly shake his head as if it would make him understand everything.
"But I'm in love with you. I'm the right one." His eyes seemed to beg me to understand what HE was talking about.
"But I'm in love with HIM." I simply stated. That seemed to seal the deal. His eyes were blank for a minute.
"Jake, you are my best friend. I don't want to lose you over this. Please. I know you might be a little confused right now. I know that you love me but you are not in love with me. You love Leah but you are just fighting it because all of the people around you seemed to dictate it. You are just fighting against the usual because you hate it." I looked at him directly to his eyes when I said this though my vision was still little blurred from the tears. I saw that he was crying now too.
"WHAT? You think that I was just being stubborn and "fighting against the usual" when I said that I love you," he quoted some of my earlier words. "Maybe I am. But I don't love you just because I was fighting them." He released me from his hug and stepped back.
"You don't know how long and how hard I fought against MYSELF and betrayed my OWN feelings just to satisfy people around me and their views. You don't know how hard it is for me to see how you look at you looking at Alec and know that I can lose you in any minute. But I was tired of looking at the sidelines as I watch you slipping away from my hands without me even saying what I feel and stand a chance. I was afraid before that I might lose you if I tell you. But tonight proved me that I may lose you by not telling you in any moments now that ALEC decided to step in. I'm not fighting against the usual. I'm just tired of fighting MYSELF." This must be the longest statement that Jake said to me without my interference.
"Jake…" I couldn't say anything.
"I'm going to fight for you. I'm going to let YOU and EVERYONE see how much you and I would make sense. How I am the right one for you and not him." He stared directly into my eyes and his gaze seemed to go straight into my very core. I could also see the sincerity and determination in his eyes.
Then he kissed me.
Unlike our first kiss that came unexpectedly, I kind of saw this one coming. I stayed in place for a while but I responded him. His kisses were soft but it sent fire to me. Our kiss deepened till I couldn't breathe but I didn't break away. I felt like everything was slowly shifting into something that was unknown to me. It kind of scared the heck out of me but I know I couldn't stop it whatever it was. I was VERY confused.
I don't know what I am doing. I don't know what is happening. I don't know how to think. I don't know how I feel. Everything seems to spin around me and I'm getting dizzy. All I know was that after this, it will not be the same for me and Jacob. Everything will change. Everything.
AN: tada! That's it. Sorry if I commit errors... ok? I don't know when will I update but… see you till then ok? Will you wait a little longer for me? *puppydogeyes* Plus... tell me what you think… - SLCMangel..