Jax stared at her. What had she just said? ". . Giselle, I know you're epileptic but-"

"I'm not epileptic," Giselle cut him off.

"But you have seizures. I was there."

"I have seizures. I never said I was epileptic. I have a very large tumor in my brain and it causes seizures and migraines. ." Giselle felt the tears well up in her eyes,"And the doctors say it's too risky for surgery. . Th-They can do radiation to try to kill the cancer cells in it and possibly remove it if the medication shrinks it a little. But. .But right now. . I don't have insurance, I don't have money for the surgery, and there hasn't been any changes yet. . I think I'm going to die before they do anything. ."

Jax hesitated, he hated to ask this but he had to know,". . . Is that why you came to see Chibs? Money?"

Giselle nodded,"If the situation got any better I was going to ask Filip to help me pay for the surgery. Every cent of which I'd pay him back. But it hasn't gotten any better so I just didn't tell him. He doesn't need to be out of his mind about this."

"But your medical records said-"

"Medical records take a long time to transfer over seas, Jax," Giselle said, wiping her eyes.

Jax took her hands,"You've been dealing with this alone. . This is why you won't be with me? Giselle, that's crazy. You being sick is more of a reason to be happy with me."

"I know," She kissed him deeply,"Jax. . I've started falling but I'm going to die soon and I don't think I can take loving someone, knowing I can never marry them or have kids or just normal stuff. . It hurts too much. My body already throbs. I don't want my heart to hurt as well."

Jax grabbed her, bringing her close,"I want you to stop this crazy shit. Be with me. Let me help you through this. If you die, I'll be there with you until the end. I'll make your last days as good as they can get. And if you survive, I'm not letting you get away from me. You got that, Ireland?" Jax smiled at her. There was sadness in it but it was the classic Jax Teller smile.

Giselle touched his cheek again and kissed him,"Yes." Jax returned her kiss. He wanted her to be with him. This wasn't physical anymore. He was hurt now. He wanted to save Giselle. Jax had a tendency to want to be the hero for the people he loved. Not so they thought highly of him like most people would, but simply because he purely loved them. And Giselle was no different. Saving her seemed natural to him. And he wished desperately that he could save her. He wanted to. Jax wanted to make things all better, give her some miracle cure for this. He wanted to pull her close and tell her that she'd get better and never have to go through this again. But he couldn't do that. Not in good conscience. Not to someone he loved.

So, Jax would do what he could. He'd treat her the way he wanted to. Make her smile every day. Keep her happy. Make whatever time she had left good and wonderful.

Jax was brought out of his thoughts by Giselle deepening the kiss they were sharing. Everything that happened next was a blur.

Somehow, they made it back to Jax's home. He pulled her to his bedroom, wanting her close. He kissed her neck. Giselle stroked Jax's hair as his lips moved down. His kiss was hot and slow and Giselle had craved his lips since their first kiss. At first, a million things were racing through Giselle's mind as Jax laid her on his bed. But as soon as his lips met hers again, nothing else mattered. She needed his kiss. Needed him. Jax had been right. She'd wasted so much time because of being scared. Her illness was more incentive to love Jax. To have joy where fear had taken over. To know love instead of pain. Live her life to the fullest. And she would now. With Jax, if he'd let her. Giselle pulled Jax close as he unbuttoned her red top. He kissed every bit of exposed skin slowly as he revealed it. Giselle's breath caught in her throat, loving every kiss, savoring the way it felt.

Giselle slid Jax's cut off his shoulders, pushing him up. Jax let it fall off. Giselle lifted his shirt off of him and kissed his chest softly. The way his muscles felt as her fingertips ran down his abs made her moan. Jax was perfect. They kissed again, their lips crushing to each other as if they needed each other like oxygen. She pulled him closer, on top of her, laying back on his bed. Jax held her close. His hands ran over her body to her hips. He undid her jeans and pulled them off of her. He looked at her. An unbuttoned shirt, black bra, black panties, laying on his bed, long hair sprawled out everywhere. Just watching her lay there drove him crazy but he stopped,"Giselle. . If. . If this is too fast. ." He hated to say this but Jax didn't want Giselle as just a physical relationship anymore.

Giselle shut him up with a kiss. Jax chuckled internally. It figured. The one time Jax decides to hold off on physical, Giselle wants it more than ever. Jax pulled her close to him and smiled when she undid his belt and his jeans. Giselle's hands ran down his chest and up again. Her fingers traced the Abel tattoo on his chest. "Is it nice being a parent?" She asked softly. "Knowing you gave life to something so precious?"

Jax took her hand and kissed it,"It's got it's ups and it's downs but. . I love it. I don't think I'll ever love anyone as much as I love my son. Unless I have more children. But Abel is a little miracle. He's gonna be more bad ass than I am when he gets older. Once you've flipped off the Grim Reaper at birth it's all up hill from there." He smiled at her and kissed her lips. "Do you want kids?"

Giselle nodded,"I always have." She kissed him,"Okay. Depressing dialogue over now." She pulled him on top of her. Jax grinned and slid her shirt off her shoulders, slowly, his fingertips trailing down the smooth flesh of her shoulders and arms. He kissed down her neck to her shoulders then kissed to her chest, unhooking the front clasp of her bra. His fingertips moved down her stomach and he slid her panties off. He slid a finger inside her. She was hot and wet. Giselle smiled at him and moaned when he added a second finger, pushing them into her. Jax grinned and slid a third finger inside her. Giselle bit her lip.

Jax looked at her gently,"Want me to stop?"

"Yes," Giselle gulped. "I don't want your fingers, Jax. I want you." Jax smiled at her. He slid out of his jeans and boxers. "Oh. You wore underwear this time." Giselle teased.

"Well, I didn't think I'd be bringing a sexy Irish girl home tonight," He kissed her then grabbed a condom from his bedside table.

Giselle looked in the drawer,"Why do you buy such small boxes? Why not buy a big one? It'd last longer so you wouldn't need to buy the small boxes so much. And we both know you have enough sex for yourself, Filip, Bobby, and Clay put together."

Jax laughed,"Box at a time keeps me humble."

"No it doesn't," Giselle grinned.

Jax kissed her,"You're right. It doesn't." Jax opened the condom and put it on then kissed Giselle's lips again. He slid inside her slow and pulled her closer. Giselle gasped into his mouth softly, pulling him closer. Jax kissed her exposed neck as he thrust into her body. They found a motion together after a minute, Giselle moved her hips with him. Jax lifted one of her legs up a little, sliding deeper inside Giselle.

Giselle's nails ran down Jax's muscled back, leaving, long, angry, red lines down his reaper ink. She arched her back, moving her hips into his as he thrust inside, hard. Jax couldn't get enough of her. "You fit me like a glove," Jax grunted. Giselle kissed his lips, running her fingers through his golden locks, her eyes sliding shut as she moaned his name. Jax's kisses moved again to her neck. he'd noticed how much she loved it. Giselle groaned into his ear.

"J-Jaax. ." Giselle moaned softly.

After they finished, both of them fell into a deep sleep. Jax held Giselle close, savoring the feel of her body beside him. Loving how her body smelled like vanilla but her long, fiery tresses carried the scent of roses. The way her skin felt like silk under his rough, calloused hands. How creamy pale her skin was. And how she fit in his arms. Maybe Jax did love Giselle. More than he thought he would.

A/N: I know, FINALLY! Lol, there ya go for everyone who wanted Jax and Giselle to get it on. Next chapter coming soon guys!