A/N: Me again! Thankyou for all of you who reviewed! I have surpassed my old crap I called a story :')
To say Kendall was cold was an understatement. It was now 9:30PM and he had been stuck outside for the best part of two hours, not moving from the spot he was in after Jo had left, curled up in a ball, leaning against the windows. Most the time, he was wallowing in his own self pity for the majority of the time. He was regretting hurting Jo, but he knew it had to be done. It was better for both of them and yes it hurt now, but they will be happy again. Eventually. His clothes had mostly dried and his skin had turned a pale blue colour and the shivering had become second nature to him.
A shadow walked past the windows and immediately Kendall shot up and started banging on the windows. The door clicked open and Kendall fell into the house, the warmth crashing onto his skin. He collapsed on the floor, unable to actually properly.
"Kendall, are you OK? How long have you been out there?" it was James.
"Help!" was all that Kendall managed to squeak out.
Before Kendall knew it, he was being swept up by James and carried bridal style. Kendall didn't have much time to care who it was helping him so long that he was warm again. He half-buried his head into James's chest as he was gently being rocked as he was being transported.
"God, Ken, you're freezing! And your clothes are wet!"
Kendall wasn't bothered in replying, he just wanted to go to bed and hoping that's where James was taking him.
Much to Kendall's delight, his hopes were true as James carefully laid him on his bed.
"Ken... do you want me to change you?"
"No... I can manage. Thanks James."
"OK, I'll be back in a minute when you're done. I wanna talk about what happened."
Kendall got up and made it towards the bathroom in his room and heard James shut their adjoining door. God he was cold. He stripped off his clothes and turned on the shower, then walked over to a mirror in the bathroom to observe how much of a mess he thought he looked. His skin was incredibly pale, with patches of blue on his face and his hands. His hair was slightly matted and his eyes bloodshot. His nose stood out like a red beacon. Kendall stopped staring at himself and walked into the shower. The warm water scorched his freezing skin, causing Kendall to scream out in pain. He frantically flailed and in the process, slipped on the soaked floor and fell out of the shower, coming crashing down, causing a loud bang. The water still splashed around his ankles, which resided lingering near the plug hole.
James burst through the shower door inspecting what happened.
"Kendall, are you OK?" Kendall sensed the panic in his voice.
"Ngh, I'm fine. I just slipped."
"What was the screaming for?"
"Nothing. The water. Hot."
"Come on, let's get you up."
James carefully picked up the slippery Kendall and sat him down on the toilet and turned off the shower. Kendall became very aware that he was dripping wet and naked and so grabbed a nearby towel and covered himself up. James stood there, rubbing the back of his neck and smiling nervously at Kendall.
"Thankyou." Kendall said, awkwardly smiling hoping James would leave some time soon, "I'm just going to get back into the shower."
"Do you need some help?"
"Nah, I got this."
Kendall, still with the towel wrapped around him, got up, but internally questioned to himself why James was still standing there and watching him. Kendall went to place his right foot down and once again, screamed out in pain.
"I got you!" James caught him before Kendall went to the ground again.
He quickly pulled himself off James's grasp and hopped into the shower, "Thanks, James... Er... I'll call you if I need help?"
"Sure thing, buddy." James finally left and Kendall removed the towel and lowered the temperature of the water before it came crashing down on him.
It was a pleasant feeling Kendall finally felt. Although the water was slightly hot, he could still feel the cold radiating off of his skin which made Kendall slightly uncomfortable. He just wanted to go to bed and wake up normal, no hurting ankle and warm and cosy again. As warm as he would feel if he spent the night snuggled up in James's arms. But he wouldn't ever know that feeling. Kendall just sighed and tried to warm up in the shower.
Kendall hopped out of the bathroom, now clothed in his pyjamas, and laid onto his bed, ready to check his phone, listen to a couple of songs on his iPod before reflecting on how much of an useless ass he found himself and go to sleep. Just as he got comfortable and reached out for his iPod, James came through the door which connected their two rooms. Kendall thought that he really should put a lock on it so James wouldn't do this again. He needed to prepare himself for when he saw James, he didn't like it when he just spontaneously turned up like that. James casually sauntered in and laid down on Kendall's bed next to him.
"What happened tonight then?" James said, adjusting the pillows and leaning up to Kendall, brushing shoulders with him.
There was a short pause as Kendall stared at his feet.
"I... I broke up with Jo." he finally came out with.
Kendall felt James cease the contact between them and saw from the corner of his eye a look a shock as he was turned and staring at Kendall from the waist up.
"Why? What happened?"
"I wanted her to be happy and I knew that it wouldn't be with me."
"Why not? You guys seemed great for each other!"
"Thanks, but I don't think so. I just feel we should see other people and then we would both eventually find the one we've been looking for instead of trapped with someone else."
James put his arm around Kendall and cupped his hand on his chin. James pulled Kendall's head so that they were now staring into each other's eyes. James saw not just a green orb that belonged to Kendall. He saw all the pain, all the guilt that Kendall had locked down deep inside of him. It was like he was looking right into his soul. In return, Kendall was looking straight into James's eyes and felt a warm sense of comfort as he knew James was caring.
"You know, you can talk to me if you need me. I'll always be here for you Kendall."
James let go and they both continued to stare for a few moments. Kendall had got lost in James's eyes but he didn't care. Neither of them did. They haven't had each other's company like this for a few days and it felt weird for the pair of them just to be torn apart like that.
"Thanks James." Kendall said, smiling very weakly, but James felt the warmth and kindness of the brightest smile in the world beaming on him right then.
"How's your foot?" James said trying to change the subject.
"Actually, I think it's my ankle. I'll let Logan take a look at it tomorrow, he'll probably know something."
James smiled at him with his classic smile. Kendall felt himself just melt into his bed. How he loved that smile. How he loved the person and the smile. How he had just ripped Jo's heart into a thousand tiny pieces to be with that smile and realising how he had no idea of doing so.
'Just ask him. Ask him now.'
'I can't just ask him. He won't even like me back.'
'You haven't tried.'
'Because I'm not a moron.'
'Yes you are. What's going to happen if you do?'
'He'll say no. It'll be awkward. The band will break apart and I will be left alone shelf stacking in Minnesota till I'm old and retired.'
'Try it.'
'No.'
'Try it.'
'No.'
'I'm your brain. I can make you do this.'
'You wouldn't.'
'Try me.'
James saw the look of anger, then confusion, then panic switch on Kendall's face as they sat there in silence. He knew he was deeply thinking about something. He just wanted to know what.
"Well, I'll leave you to your thoughts. I'm going to bed." James leaned up to get out of bed but was stopped.
"James wait!"
"Yeah, buddy."
"The real reason I dumped Jo was..." 'Come on, you're almost there. Do it.' "was..." 'BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! It's all you have to say' "was because I have feelings for someone else and I think I have for a while."
Kendall didn't want to tell James who, or for how long, but he thought he was this far, he might as well go all the way. Though he could get out of it. He could lie. He could just kill the conversation dead, right there. No. Kendall hadn't come this far and gone through all that today to chicken out.
"I think James... I... like... you... and... I... I want to be your boyfriend."
James froze. His facial expression had become blank. Kendall knew he was thinking about what he had just said as a few moments over, he was making those faces.
"Kendall..." James leaned his head forward to Kendall. This was it. This moment Kendall had been dreaming about since he realised his love for James. His head was about an inch away from Kendall's face. He closed his eyes to prepare himself. He couldn't help but excitedly smile like an eight year old girl watching one of their concerts. Then Kendall had this feeling brew up inside him. He was pretty sure this wasn't supposed to happen. It never happened between him and Jo, but he went with it. Kendall finally realised what this feeling was.
'Oh... shit..."
Kendall sneezed all over James's face which of course caused James to scream out like a little girl.
"James! I'm so so sorry! I think I'm ACHOO getting a cold!"
James wiped his eyes, then his face, then pulled his comb out of his back pocket and frantically started combing his hair.
"Do you know what, it's late."
"James, it's 10."
"I should really be getting to bed. I'm so sorry to hear about you and Jo."
"What about... what I said?" Kendall looked disappointed.
"Kendall. I think we both need to sleep on this. I need to know if I feel the same, and you just broke up with Jo. You need to make sure this is real and not kind of rebound thing."
"James! No! Wait!" but James had already swiftly left, closing the door behind him.
Kendall felt heartbroken. It was obvious James didn't like him or he would just have said yes straight away. No. He had to be stupid and just told him he liked him.
'It could have gone worse.' he thought to himself, 'I could have told him why I like him and what he did to me. Then he would have run away on the spot.'
Kendall sneezed again, a headache following on straight after. He felt terrible. He was ill and heartbroken and he had a painful ankle, 'Terrific.'
A/N: I wanted to stop just after when it said 'Kendall finally realised what this feeling was.' but then I had an idea for the next chapter that I hope you will like!
I want to apologise because I meant to upload this Wednesday but I clearly forgot. Can I just point out that Kendall is not going crazy because of the thought thing! I hope to upload over the weekend! Also, great news: I have a week off of school so I am aiming for 3 uploads this week. I really hope I can but I promise nothing, so please don't get your hopes up!
Review please!