Chapter 10
"Izzie, please hurry up I need in the bathroom." Meredith banged on the door, she was going to be late for work if Izzie didn't get a move on. "What are you doing in there? Bailey's already pissed at me, I can't be late."
It had been a week since Mark had dumped Izzie, she wasn't really speaking to anyone, she wasn't even baking that much. She had just been walking around like a zombie and no one seemed to be able to help her. The bathroom door opened.
"Finally." Izzie held out what was in her hands. A pregnancy test! "Oh my god is it positive?"
"Mer I don't what to do."
"Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god."
"Please stop saying that," Izzie said through her tears.
"Sory, ok we have to go to Addison, you need tests and you need to tell Mark. Mark is the father right?"
"Of course he's the father. I can't go see Addison, I'm not ready and there is no way that I can tell Mark."
"You don't have to tell Mark," she said sympathetically, "but you do have to go to Addison you know that."
"Please don't tell anyone."
Meredith hugged her, "don't worry Iz, I won't, I'll talk to Addison for you."
Izzie burst out crying again, "I miss him so much." Meredith hugged her comfortingly.
"I know Iz, it will be ok," she had no idea how everything would be ok.
"How is she?"
"I suppose you mean Izzie? Mark she's fine, she thinks that you honestly don't care about her, she has been like the living dead for the past week now."
"Derek, I don't know what to do, I love her so much."
"Then why are sitting here with me when you should be at home with her."
"I told you already."
"Yeah I know, you love her you don't want to see her get hurt, well trust me Mark, she's hurting right now."
"It will be better for her in the long run."
"That's what you think."
"No I know it will be."
"So are you and Addison still not talking?"
"No."
"What was that even about?"
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Was that fight something to do with why you broke up with Izzie?"
Mark didn't say anything, he just stared into his drink.
"I'll take that as a yes," said Derek.
" Addison what did you say to Mark exactly when you had that fight with him last week?"
"I told him the truth."
"Which was?"
"Derek go away he's a big boy he can take care of himself."
"Are you aware that him and Izzie broke up?"
"Of course I am, gossip travels faster than disease around here."
"He dumped her because he doesn't want to hurt her, he thinks that he'll hurt her the way he hurt me and you."
"Well he's right."
"No he's not Addison, he's a wreck, she's a wreck they're both wrecks."
"Not my problem."
"It is if you caused it."
"Derek you had no idea what went on after you left New York so please just stay out of it."
"He cheated on you I get that, you cheated on me it doesn't make you a bad person, granted it makes you sleazy, unfaithful, a whore and an adulterer but it doesn't make you a bad person.",
"It wasn't that Derek, it's Mark of course he would cheat on me."
"What was it then?"
"If you want to know I suggest you ask him."
Derek sighed Izzie and him had become really good friends, especially since she chose neuro and Mark was his best friend and he hated seeing them like this. This is what it must have been like for Meredith's friends when he had picked Addison. He still regretted doing that.
"Dr Montgomery, can I please speak with you for a minute."
"Of course Dr Grey, what is it?"
"It's Izzie, she emm, she emm she took a pregnancy test this morning and emm it was positive."
"Oh god."
"That was my exact reaction. Do you think you could run the tests and stuff."
"Sure, of course, if she's not doing anything I'm free now."
"I'll go get her."
Meredith went and got Izzie. She had been sitting in the basement by herself staring at the wall. They went back to where Addison was. "Please don't make a chart."
"It's fine Izzie," Addison said sympathetically, "some things need to be kept private."
Addison ran all the tests on Izzie and a few hours later Izzie finally received the news. "I'm definitely pregnant."
"I need to make a chart up now."
"No please the nurses can't find out, everyone will know."
"Ok fine I won't make a chart now but I will need to make one soon, so please tell me when I can ok."
Izzie nodded, "Ok I'll leave you two alone now."
"Thanks for everything." Addison smiled and left the room.
"Izzie what are you going to do?"
"I don't know."
"Are you going to keep it?"
"I can't do it alone Meredith."
"You have to tell Mark."
"No he made it perfectly clear where he stands."
"He has a right to know."
"He gave up the right to know last week."
"What happens if you keep it? He'll find out eventually."
"Not if I have an abortion."
"What? You mean you're considering getting rid of it."
"I don't know, I can't go through with this again I can't."
"What do you mean again?"
"I was pregnant before, Hannah, she's 11 now, and she has really good parents," Izzie explained as the tears fell down her face.
"Iz, I had no idea, you should've told me. Does anyone know?"
"No, I just, I can't go through giving a baby up again but I can't bring it up by myself."
"Ok well first of all let's get you home and then we'll talk about this tomorrow."
Izzie nodded silently as she wiped the tears from her face.
She went home and sat in her room for most of the day. She went to knock on Meredith's door but was stopped by the sound of voices.
"She has to tell him."
"Derek she doesn't want to she doesn't even know if she's keeping it yet."
Izzie opened the door, "Meredith why did you tell him, you promised me you wouldn't tell anyone." She started crying.
"He found the pregnancy test in the bin Iz, I had to tell him."
Izzie turned to Derek, "please, I know Mark's your best friend but please don't tell him."
"Iz, I…you have to."
"I don't! Do you think that he even wants to know."
"Of course he does."
"Well it doesn't matter I'm getting an abortion."
"What," said Derek and Meredith at the same time.
"I told you Meredith, I cannot, I will not do this again." She slammed the door shut on her way out.
"What did she mean again?" asked Derek.
"She had a baby 11 years ago I just found out this morning, she gave it up for adoption but she doesn't think she can go through with that again."
"Mark would want to know,"
"I know but you can't tell him, we have to think about Iz Derek, Mark broke her heart, we have to be there for her right now, she needs us."
Derek hugged her, "I know it will just be hard talking to Mark pretending that nothing's up."
Meredith sighed, "It's for the best."
"No it's not."
Yesterday I lost my closest friend 4 AM forever Maybe I'll never see you smile again 4 AM forever Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you to you 4 AM forever
Yesterday I wanted time to end
I wonder if my heart will ever mend
I just let you slip away
Maybe you thought that it was all pretend;
All these words that I could never say
I just let them slip away
Why don't you listen when I try to make it through to you
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, you never know
Hold a little tighter
Lostprophets – 4 AM Forever
Please let me know what you thought! Does anybody have any good ideas for the next chapter or what Izzie should do with the baby cause I have no idea what to do please let me know!x