Thanks everyone for your thoughts and well wishes for my back - it sucks but I'm a little better. Just don't tell Carol that I spent the day writing!
Fortunately Jake came to my rescue: http :// tinyurl . com/y4yhmsm (take out spaces...)
I sighed and hung my head as I listened to the phone ring. After the seventh ring I figured that whoever it was wasn't going away so I should get up and answer.
"Hello?"
"Bella, what the hell did you say to my brother!?!"
"Alice?"
"No, it's the abominable snow man, of course it's Alice" she huffed.
"I...what are you talking about?"
"I had a vision and for a second, just a second you were flickering in and out and then you were gone again and Edward...Edward is leaving."
"What? Where is he going? That's nuts he was just here!"
"He's going to Alaska, I can't tell how long. What did you say to him?"
"Nothing, Alice, seriously, he...oh..."
"Bella...tell me now or I'm going to eat your entire family".
"Alice, I just...I tried to hug him."
"Ok..."
"It was nothing, I just, I mean in school he's always putting his arm around me and stuff, but he freaked and then...his eyes went black and he drove off."
"His eyes went black?" she said seriously like she was considering something.
"Yes, that's like, that means your hungry right?"
"Yeah, usually, but they were gold before you tried to hug him?"
"Yeah."
"And then you flickered..."
"Alice?"
"Yeah yeah what?" she was distracted with her own thoughts but I could tell whatever it was was serious.
"Is Edward Ok?"
"Yeah, I think, he's a little freaked out."
"Why did he try to...?"
"Bella, you know, I mean I've told you before you smell good right?"
"Yes."
"Well there are some people who smell better then others and there are some of us who are more sensitive to it then others and well...you smell REALLY good and Edward...well, the way you smell just affects him more then the rest of us."
"So when I hugged him..."
"It's probably just because you were in a small space together like the car so you were already...well pungent, and then to get so close..." she drifted off lost in her own mind for a moment "he's ok though, I can see it now and that's why you flickered in...ok...ok..."
"Alice, what is it? What do you see?"
"He's going to Alaska for a few weeks, just to get his bearings but he's already decided he'll come back...he can't stay away for long."
"Good, I'll miss him. I'm glad he can't just leave home."
"It's not home he can't leave." she said cryptically.
"What?"
"Nothing...just...Bella I know we've only been friends a little while but...you know you're already like a sister to me."
"I know Alice, you are to me too."
"I just...don't ever want anything to happen to you ok? Be careful."
"You're starting to freak me out, what are you seeing."
"Nothing, I...I can't tell yet...I wish you didn't spend so much time with those dogs."
"They aren't dogs."
"Whatever, just, they get in the way...this is the first time...I can't tell what I'm seeing yet but you're still...flickering sometimes..."
"Should I be worried? What...what do you think it means?"
"I really don't know Bella, but I know that Edward feels...strongly for you and I know you're important somehow to everything that's coming...when the silhouette is hung out to dry the circle will complete and time is only an enemy to those who sing...you sing Bella...blood sings...when like sees like you sing..." Alice's voice was far away, like an Angel calling down from Heaven, whatever she was seeing it had her transfixed.
It was silent, the crackle of the phone line the only sound until I heard Charlie's cruiser pull up outside. How long had we been sitting there in silent communion?
"Alice?"
"Bella..." she whispered.
"Charlie's home. Are you Ok?"
"Yes Bella, everything, everything will be just fine."
"Can you tell me what you saw?"
"Not...not yet, I have to...I have to talk to Edward."
"Ok... are you sure you're ok?"
"Yes...have a good night Bella and...stay safe." the phone clicked as she hung up without another word.
Charlie walked in happily taking off his holster and vest by the front door. His patterns of daily life never altering, creating a comfortable rhythm between us. He came into the kitchen and smiled.
"Bella! I thought we'd go out to the diner for dinner tonight unless you've already cooked."
"No, I haven't that sounds great. Let me just wash my face."
I ran upstairs grabbing my cell phone from my bag. I needed to check in with a few people before I could relax with Charlie, my life was too weird for casual conversation at the dinner most days. I quickly texted Edward:
U OK? Alice said u left. miss you. Pls call soon.
Then I called Jacob's house, not expecting an answer, my daily ritual.
"Hello?" his voice answered, heavy with sleep.
"Jake! Are you sleeping?"
"Yeah, but, it's ok, I was gonna call later."
"You were?" I scoffed.
"I'm sorry I didn't call this week, I ahh, didn't have thumbs." he chuckled, making everything instantly Ok with his good natured sweetness.
"Ok, well, just what's the plan for tomorrow? Everyone's still planning on going to the beach."
"Yeah, everyone here too, at like 3PM ok? Can we… uh, I come over early though?"
"Yeah, that'd be great."
"Ok, will Charlie be home?"
"No, he's going fishing with Harry and your Dad, don't you know that?"
"Nah, haven't talked to my Dad since I got back."
"Where were you?" I tried not to let my concern sneak through my voice but I knew it was there for him to hear.
"Running...I'll tell you all about it tomorrow ok?"
"Ok, are...are you Ok?"
"Yeah...I think so."
"Are we Ok?" I asked softly.
"What? Yeah of course Bells! Why wouldn't we be...?"
"Ummm, because apparently kissing me makes you morph."
"Yeah, well, we'll just have to figure something out. I love you, you know, nothing's changed."
"Good" I breathed out a breath I hadn't realized I'd been holding.
"Now's when you say you love me too" he laughed.
"Oh is it?"
"Yes."
"Hmmm...I'll have to remember that protocol in the future."
"You are a tease Isabella."
"I'm not the one who jumps out windows when things start getting good."
"You thought that was good did you?"
"Jake!" I blushed covering my eyes despite no one being in my room."
"Bells! Come on! Let's go!" Charlie called from downstairs.
"Gotta go Pup, see you tomorrow?"
"Yeah" he growled, his voice lower then usual.
"What was that?"
"I just...I like it when you call me that."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah..."
"How about when I rub your belly."
"I like that too...amongst other places."
"Jacob Black, I'm hanging up now."
"Are you blushing?"
"No..."
"Liar!"
"See you tomorrow" I said quickly hanging up before he could tease me anymore. That boy was definitely dangerous.
The diner was full that night - apparently no one wanted to cook and I was happy to see that Angela and Ben had finally managed to get themselves out on a date. I smiled and waved but didn't go over to talk to them; maybe they'd manage to have a nice normal human date. Something I had a feeling I would never get to experience.
"So Bells, how's school been?" Charlie asked as we sat down at our table.
"Oh, it's Ok, nothing special."
"You make some friend I see?"
"Yeah, that's Angela and Ben, they're nice."
"The Newton Kid seems to think you're something special." he chuckled nodding over to where Mike was sitting with his parents, staring at me. He blushed when I looked back at him.
"Yeah...Mike's been a little..."
"Persistent?"
"Yeah" I laughed as the waitress approached us.
"So Bella, nice to see you! What'll you have?"
"Umm, just spaghetti."
"Meatballs?" she asked smiling.
"Yes, thanks."
"Charlie, the usual?"
"Steak and fries indeed."
"Alright, coming right up." she smiled at him a moment longer then necessary before walking away to place our orders.
"Dad, I think the waitress has a crush on you."
"No way. Amber's 10 years younger than me." my father laughed and for a moment, I could glimpse that he was a man and see him without the filter of parental love. My father was an attractive man, there was no reason he was alone.
"I think she does, you should ask her out."
"Nah Bells, I don't need that complication."
"You know Mom's never coming back." I said, it was harsh but he should be living not waiting.
"I know that Bella...can we drop it now?"
"Yeah...Sorry...I just...you should have more of a life Dad."
"I do! I fish and I have you."
"I'm 17 years old; I'm not exactly around a lot."
"And I work; I'm fine Bella...really."
I dropped it but I noticed that when Amber came back with our food my father smiled a little broader and let his eyes notice her a little longer. I smiled to myself but didn't say anything. The last thing he needed was to be embarrassed, then he'd NEVER ask her out.
We ate in relative silence, exchanging quick comments on our food or our day. It was comfortable to be with Charlie, I didn't have to work so hard to fill in the blanks. Like being with Edward. I was starting to get worried that I hadn't heard back from him when I felt the familiar buzz of a text message in my pocket. I pulled my phone out hoping that it would be from Edward.
Going to Alaska - will B home in a few wks. miss u 2.
I sighed, relieved that he was at least ok. I still didn't know what had gotten into him. Alice seemed to think it was all reasonable and normal though. But what was normal anymore. I smiled to myself quickly.
"You ok Bells?"
"Yeah Dad, just glad I got that message."
"That Jake?"
"No...another friend."
"A boy?" he raised an eyebrow.
"Yeah, um, Edward? Edward Cullen."
"Carlisle's boy?"
"Yeah"
"He's a good kid from what I hear."
"Yeah, he and his sister Alice are in my class."
"You are dating Jake though aren't you?"
"Dad...are we really going to talk about boys?"
"I guess not" he chuckled uncomfortably before going back to his food.
We finished eating quickly and I waited by the door while Charlie took his time at the counter paying Amber. I smiled as I watched him try to flirt. I was going to need to hold a seminar for him on how to date; not that I had any idea on how to do it. Maybe Jake should give him some pointers.
The next morning came quickly; I had slept soundly and was happy to wake up to find that the morning was already half over. At 10AM I wondered downstairs and found a note from Charlie reminding me that he would be out late over at the Clearwater's for dinner and the game after fishing. I had the whole day to myself and Jacob would be here soon.
I hopped into the shower, quickly washing my hair and shaving my legs. I threw my bikini on under jeans and a tank top and packed a bag with a change of clothes. I thought about packing some food for lunch, I didn't know when Jake would be here or what he had planned. Just as I pulled my hair up into a ponytail though I heard him outside.
"Yip!"
I leaned out my window, smiling to see my beautiful wolf.
"Hi Pup! I'll be right down!"
Grabbing my bag and slipping on my converse I ran downstairs. Outside I was greeted with an excited "Yip!" and a prancing Pup.
"Hi Baby!" I called running to him and throwing my arms around his neck. Even though I knew he was Jacob and I'd spoken to him just last night it felt like it had been forever since I'd seen my wolf. "I've missed you" I breathed into the fur of his neck, taking in his musky scent.
He purred against me, lowering his head and nuzzling my neck, making me giggle as his whiskers tickled my skin.
"So...what's the plan?"
Yip! he said bounding off to the trees, returning with a picnic basket in his mouth.
"Great! I was just wondering if I should make us lunch."
He smiled a toothy smile around the basket. Lowering himself to his stomach he let go of the basket and nodded to me.
"What?"
He smiled and gestured to his back with his head.
"You want me to get on your back?"
nod
"I don't know Pup..." I was hesitant. There was no reason to be but he was so big and fast and something about riding on his back was so...intimate.
He cocked one eyebrow at me and gestured to his back again smiling, his tail wagging.
"Alright..." I sighed "But if I fall off and get hurt you get to explain it to Charlie
chuckle
I placed my hand on his side and felt the electric current of our connection run up my arm, making me smile. I loved him so much and I was glad to see him this way, I had been spending so much time thinking about Jake, it was a joy to see Pup.
I pulled myself up onto his back, my hands deep into his fur for leverage. Throwing one leg over him I put my other arm through my back pack and wiggled around to find the most comfortable seat. His fur was shorter then during the summer but still long enough that I could put my hands in it, especially at the neck where it seemed to be the thickest. I held onto his main and smiled.
'Giddy Up!"
I called and could feel his shoulders shake with a laugh beneath me. His massive body muscular against my legs. He stood up and I could feel the power he contained just with that one small movement. It was impossible to think of this as Jake. As much as I knew it was and that they were one in the same, this body, this form was so unrestrained and feral. Anytime I was with Pup it felt like I was the safest girl alive, until he decided I wasn't. I placed all of my faith and trust in him knowing that at any instant he could turn on me.
I thought about Pup's volatile nature and his ability to ease my mind without saying a word as he began to move. At first he walked slowly, letting me learn how to move with his body. His frame flexed and rolled beneath me, forcing my hips to match his rhythm. I held on tightly, afraid that at any moment he might make a sudden turn or begin to...
Mid-thought I was thrown back, only my tight hold onto him keeping me astride his powerful body. I struggled to find his new rhythm forcing my hips to move quickly against him. His stride was long and fast and I screamed with fear as a tree loomed ahead of us. But he dodged it, throwing me slightly off balance keeping our fast pace constant. The trees zipped passed us and I couldn't keep up with the visual input of everything that could hurt me, but somehow he weaved and ducked around every danger.
I lay down on his back, bringing my arms further around his thick neck and holding onto the softer fur around the front of him. I could feel his heat against me, lulling me into safety. My body was flush against him as he moved beneath me and I could feel every step, every turn, through the muscles of his back. My body warmed up from the feeling of him rubbing against me, the oil in his fur making me slide as I moved my hips and leaned with him, able to anticipate his movements now. I tightened my thighs against his flanks, holding on with every part of me.
The speed and the friction against the front of my body was intoxicating. I couldn't help the reaction of my body to the pressure against my core and breasts. I was feeling Pup in a whole new way. He wasn't a pet or a toy; he was powerful and deeply masculine. The smell of him surrounded me as I buried my face into his fur and sighed before changing the movement of my hips, allowing myself to move against him instead of with him, increasing the pleasure that was building inside of me.
Was it wrong to feel this way? Was it wrong that I moaned into his fur as I rubbed myself against him, building the tension in my body? This was still Jake…if it was Jake it wouldn't be wrong…and Pup loved me, and I loved him and they were the same… Somehow some part of me felt like I was doing something dirty, but the electric connection that tied me to him told me that no, this was right, this was what my body, our connection demanded.
As I felt the tension of my desire building his movements slowed. I controlled myself, aware now that he had been aware of everything I had done, every movement I had made. He stopped at the edge of a clearing, beautiful with crocus and bluebells and lavender growing wild in the sun. Pup lay down finally, panting from the run…maybe…
"This is beautiful" I said as I slid off of his back looking out at the open space, taken by the brightness before me after having been under the canopy of trees. "Thank you for bringing me here" I smiled turning to him, seeing his dark eyes tinged yellow and his stare intense.
"Pup?"
Snort
"Are you ok?"
He walked toward me slowly, his large body moving deliberately with each step. I felt the hair on my arms stand up from the passion in his gaze. This was the moment when the man I loved would rip me apart, the beast inside of him bursting through, but I wasn't afraid, I was excited…
"Pup…" I breathed as he brought his head down to mine. He moved my hair back from my neck with his snout, before burying his nose into me, inhaling loudly. I shivered from the intimacy of the contact but didn't move away.
He pulled his head back and looked at me, his eyes yellow, his teeth slightly bared before he slowly walked around me, taking me in from every angle, every vantage. Now and then he would stop and smell me, placing his face gently against my skin. When he came back to standing before me he brought his large head to mine and leaned his forehead against mine.
"I love you Baby" I said softly, bringing my hands to his muzzle, scratching and caressing him, making him vibrate with pleasure. He pushed his head against me, forcing me to step back until I reached a tree.
He leaned away before bringing his nose to my neck; he moved it slowly down my torso, inhaling deeply as he slowly took in the smell of my body. He kneeled down and brought his snout to my waist. His nose reached me center and he pushed against me, forcing my legs to part as he inhaled deeply. It was strange and wrong and erotic but as he lifted his nose to bring pressure to my core I whimpered with the pleasure.
I saw as the air shifted, reality bent as the molecules realigned themselves bringing Jacob back to me. He was kneeling before me, his hands on my hips, his face at the button of my Jeans. I had never seen him phase before but it was beautiful. Magic was something that you can't explain until you see it and while I knew Jake and Pup were the same, just like I knew Edward was a vampire; it was not real until this very moment.
"Bella" he growled looking up at me, his eyes still yellow. I put one hand in his hair and moaned loudly as he brought his lips to my mound, kissing and nipping softly against the fabric keeping him from me.
"Jake…oh my…Jake what are you…?"
I moaned as he caressed me with his mouth, his hands on my hips moving up against my body. I was crushed against the tree behind me, the sharp bark digging into my skin, but I couldn't feel it. All I could feel was my desperate need for Jacob.
He released his hold on me and stood up, bringing his mouth to mine, kissing me deeply and without any restraint. I allowed my hands to roam his body, completely aware that he was standing here, fully erect and naked, rubbing himself against me.
"Bella…fuck…" he moaned into my mouth as I gripped his shoulders, wrapping a leg around him, pulling him closer to me. His erection was hot and hard against my stomach and I wanted to feel him against my skin.
"Can we…can we lay down?" I asked between kisses, embarrassed by my request, but needing to get closer to him.
"Yeah, yeah I…I brought a blanket." He ran over to where Pup had dropped the picnic basket and pulled out a large blanket. I watched his naked form as he walked around laying it out gently. He was so comfortable, so free with his body. And that body was magnificent. I watched as his muscles moved and his erection bobbed. I was dripping with my need for him, and I had no idea what that meant.
He stood next to the blanket, completely nude, staring at me. "You smell…God Bella…you are intoxicating."
I stood basking in his lust filled feral eyes for a moment before taking off my tank top, revealing the bikini top beneath. He hissed but stood still. I smiled as I noticed his dick twitch. Reaching behind me I undid the tie of the bikini back and then did the same at the back of my neck, revealing my body to him.
"Come here" he growled, his voice so deep it was almost difficult to understand.
I smiled a sexy smile I didn't even know I possessed and walked up to the naked God who was looking at me like I was the best treat he'd even seen and was dying to taste. As I got closer I could smell him, his desire wafting out to me.
"Why does that happen?" I breathed loving the scent. I placed my hands on his chest the connection making us both gasp as it coursed through our bodies making me loose all meaningful thought. All I could think of now was getting closer to him.
His mouth was on me as he leaned us down onto the blanket. There was no pretense this time, no innocent kissing or gentle caress, this time he was on top of me, the searing flesh of his chest against me as our lips met and moved in unison. I wrapped my arms around his naked body, pulling him closer, wanting to inhale him, devour him. His hands here on the top of my jeans, struggling to undo them without breaking our kiss. He panted and growled against my lips making me laugh.
"Shut up" he said through a smile making me laugh harder.
"Do you want some help?"
"Please" he breathed pulling away from me slightly as I undid and slid down my jeans. I kicked them off with my feet as he sucked at my neck, scraping along the muscle with his teeth, purring against my skin.
I opened my legs and he settled between my thighs, his erection rubbing directly against parts of me that had never been seen before, only the thin fabric of my bikini bottom separating us. I could feel the heat mounting but I could no longer be sure if it was from him or me.
I arched my back as he made love to me through my clothing, his breath ragged and harsh. He slid along my body, making me ache for more; my nerves were overflowing with the electricity that was passing between us. His hand on my breast, my lips on his neck I moaned wrapping my legs up and around his hips.
"Oh Fuck Bella" he said as I surprised him with the ferocity of my movements. I pulled his face to mine, wanting to taste him, his eyes were glowing yellow boring into mine, but I felt no fear. I knew that no matter what he would never hurt me. They would never hurt me.
I reached down between us and pulled the fabric of my bikini to the side, wanting to feel him against me, his flesh against my folds.
"Bella!" he said eyes wide. He stopped his movements and looked down at me for an impossible amount of time. "Do you…I mean…" he blushed slightly, his innocence in stark contrast with the animalism of his eyes "Do you want to…"
"I…I don't know…I just…wanted to….feel you…" I said, completely unprepared to loose my virginity out in a field somewhere, but overwhelmed with my own need for him.
"I…we don't have to…I didn't think we were gonna…"
We both shuddered as our bodies reminded us that he was still pressed up against me. He leaned down and kissed me, moving softly against my body. "Let's wait huh? Till we know…grunt…what we want…till we know what's…ahhh…happening…" his voice hitched and he dropped his head into my neck, panting against me as his rhythm against me sped up again.
I couldn't think clearly enough to respond. I pushed against him, pulling on his skin to bring him closer to me. I wanted…I wanted more…I didn't know what…but…hhhhaaaa… He moved against me and the moisture from me allowed him to speed up, sliding, rolling against me over and over again, his body vibrating softly as the sensation of our movements overwhelmed us both.
I held onto him as my body began to convulse and I felt a shiver start in my toes radiating up my legs, making them clench tightly to Jake, pulling him closer still. I felt the fire in my clit first, it built until it burned, making me scream and rip at him with my nails, I bucked under him without control until it was more then I could bear.
He grunted and moaned above me, his hand in my hair, pulling on it without thought. As I felt him still, now shaking, his cock pulsing against me I lost all ability to think. I reached up to him and pulled him down on me and as he screamed I sunk my teeth deep into the flesh of his neck. He came against my stomach with a convulsion that ripped my own orgasm from my body, leaving us both spent and shocked. The taste of his blood was salty and I licked at him, unaware of what I was doing, just wanting to have all of him.
His wounds healed as I kissed him and his breathing slowed.
"And here I was worried I would bite you" he laughed as he pulled himself up slightly and looked down at me. His eyes the deep chocolate brown that I had first fallen in love with.
"Sorry" I blushed.
"Don't" he said seriously "Don't ever apologize to me ok? I love you." He said it with such sincerity I couldn't stop the tears that fell from my eyes.
"I…"
"Are you ok?"
"I love you so much Jake…I'm terrified and happy and overwhelmed and…God, I bit you…and Pup…" I shook my head with all the things I didn't know how to sort through "but…whatever it is, I love you."
He kissed me then, our passion spent, allowing just our love to course through our bond. The electricity was still there but instead of burning me it warmed me, filling me with fresh air and joy. There was nothing in the world better then making love to Jacob Black…I couldn't wait until we were ready to do it right.
Jacob rolled off of me, reaching in his bag for a shirt he had brought. He wiped my stomach clean, smiling shyly at me as I stroked his back, touched by the sweet gesture. When he was done he pulled on his shorts and I threw on my tank top, not bothering with my bikini top or jeans for now.
"You hungry?" he asked reaching for the basket.
"Well, we did work up an appetite" I smiled, making him blush again. Was Jacob nervous around me now?
I got onto my knees and crawled over to him, kneeling behind his back, pressing my chest against his skin. I kissed him neck making him sigh before pulling away and turning to me with two peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
"Gourmet dining for us today" he smiled his Jake smile and I sat back happy to be with him. We ate quickly in silence, enjoying the sun and the sounds of the meadow. He handed me a soda and smiled when our touch reverberated through both of us. After eating we laid down, watching the clouds, his arms up behind his head, my body curled tightly to his.
He reached down and reached across his body to touch my arm, gently rubbing my skin, making me sigh with contentment.
"I'm sorry I was gone so long." He said quietly, I would have missed it if I hadn't felt the rumble of his voice in his chest.
"It's ok, really…did you find anything out?"
"Yeah…"
"And?"
"Look" he said, pulling away and rolling on his side to look at me. "I just want to enjoy being with you, do we have to talk about this?"
"Yes Jacob we do!"
"Fuck Bells."
"Are you serious? You want to just watch the clouds and hang out? I'd love that, but you're a fucking werewolf and you have yellow eyes and Pup tried to hump my leg this afternoon."
"I think you were the one humping Pup…"
"Jake…" I warned. "You know exactly what I mean! We have to talk about this."
"Ok…"
We sat in silence for a few minutes as he gathered his thoughts, eventually he laid back and looked up at the sky, talking evenly and quietly.
"So, you know how we carry the gene to be a wolf right?"
"Yeah…"
"Well we carry it in our bloodlines and some of us are more…wolf then others I guess."
"Ok…"
"So, Sam's in charge because he turned first and he's older and then when he imprinted everyone figured that meant he was Alpha you know?"
"Alpha like dog packs?"
"Yeah…"
"So Sam's Alpha?"
"No."
"Who is?"
"I am."
"What?"
"I…look I don't want to be and I told Sam to just keep being in charge because he was good at it and I'm really not ready for it but at some point I'll have to."
"What does that mean? Is that why you're eyes change?"
"No, I'm still, figuring out the eye thing…Mostly it just means that I'm in charge. You know like the edict Sam gave that we had to follow the rule about not telling?"
"Yeah" I said, getting more and more nervous about what he was telling me and what it meant for us.
"So when Sam gives an order everyone has to follow it, like physically can't not follow it, but it's not his right and…I don't want it but more and more lately I'm finding that I don't have to follow Sam and that's making things…hard."
"How?"
"Just, undermining him I guess, he's cool about it, but he's getting kind of tired of being in charge anyway. For a long time I had an out though and didn't have to take it."
"What do you mean an out?"
"You have to be mated to be Alpha."
"Mated?" I pressed…needing more answers then this.
"Yeah…" he stared up at the sky for an impossible amount of time, making me nervous. "We have to be imprinted…"
"There's more than that isn't there?"
"Yeah…"
"Have we mated?" I asked hesitantly, not sure if I wanted to know.
"No…"
"Did we almost today?"
"It's not just sex Bella…"
"Jake, you're making me nuts, what is it?"
"You bit me…" he blushed deeply and closed his eyes.
"Yeah…Why? What does that have to…? Wait, the other day you bit me…"
"Yeah…"
"But you stopped."
"Yeah…"
"This is really weird Jake."
"I know" he said sighing heavily.
I gathered my thoughts, trying to put all of this together. "Ok, so you're Alpha by right because you have more Wolf in you then Sam."
"Kind of…it's also, you know my grandfather was Chief…it's the wolf blood and the family line."
"Ok, so you're supposed to be in charge by blood right."
"Yes."
"But you can't be until you're mated?"
"Right."
"And you don't want to be in charge?"
"I…I don't know…I didn't but…lately I haven't been agreeing with Sam on everything and…it's hard taking orders from him, like it just rubs me the wrong way." He crossed his legs and sighed, I knew this was hard for him, but I needed to understand.
"Alright but, you are supposed to be in charge."
"Yes"
"And you and I…we've imprinted right?"
"Yes."
"But we haven't mated."
"No."
"Because that's more then sex…"
"Well, we haven't had sex either."
"Jacob…" I sighed exasperated, really not needing him to quibble right now.
"Sorry, no, we haven't mated. That's like a whole other thing."
"With biting…"
"And…Pup…" he blushed deeper.
"I…ok…not sure I want to know now."
"It's nothing…like kinky…"
"It sounds kinky" I said.
"It's not, it's just…you know how to Imprint the wolf had to agree? It's the same with the mating."
"I'm not having sex with Pup." I sat up quickly.
"No Bells." He laughed sitting up too. He touched his neck where I'd bitten him "I liked this…I liked…you claiming me…that's the instinct ok? For me to claim you. I didn't know what was happening the other day and I didn't know how to control it."
"Do you…is that what you want?" I asked.
"I don't know…that's a little…I don't think so…not yet…"
"Good." I laughed before I noticed his frown "What?"
"You…that's not something you…you wouldn't want to?"
"Jake, that's like you asking me to marry you…"
"Yeah, I guess." He blushed and looked away.
"I'm not…I'm not there yet Jake, I mean, you're 16!"
"I know…it just…I don't feel 16" he looked at me again, the love in his eyes as clear as if there was a neon sign. "I love you Bells." He leaned in and kissed me sweetly, pressing his lips against mine gently, lingering long enough to make me want more before pulling away.
"I love you too."
He smiled at me sadly before getting up. "We should head to La Push and help Sam dig the pit for the bon fire."
"Ok" I stood up and placed a hand on his chest looking up at him. "Are you…upset with me?"
"No Bells…I just… It's nothing, let's just go have fun."
"Okay." I said unsure, frowning with worry as I turned away from him to pull on my jeans. When I was dressed and he had packed up the bag he blushed before pulling of his jeans to phase.
"No more hiding behind a tree?" I smiled.
He laughed and I could hear his chuckle change as the air distorted and Pup appeared before me, his smile holding a little more meaning then ever before. He tracked me with his eyes as he picked up the basket and lay down so I could climb back on his back.
I came up to his face and kissed his forehead. "I love you too" I whispered before taking my place on his back and riding off toward Second Beach.
So what do you think? Click and let me know, this is longer then usual and it has me kind of nervous because I covered a lot more in one chapter then I usually do...