Chapter 10: The Argument and Regrets
Mikan sighed for the hundred time today. She's thinking of what happened with Natsume.
'Stupid Hyugga. I can't still believe that I agreed to him just because he blackmailed me. I suppose that it is mostly my fault. I should have been more careful.' Mikan thought as she stare outside her bedroom window.
Right now, she staying in her no-star dorm. She decided to stay there till later. She also didn't attend the rest of the afternoon class because she wanted to be alone. She lied that she didn't feel well. She sighed again. Then there's a knock on the door.
KNOCK! KNOCK!
Mikan changed herself to Sachiko. Then she opened the door not bothering to look like a nerd.
"Oh it's you, Senri." Sachiko said.
Sachiko let Senri in. She sat besides the window again and looked outside. Senri sat in her bed.
"Sachiko." Senri began.
Sachiko looked at him but didn't utter a word.
"I don't know how to say this but I wanted you to know that I saw you and Natsume kissed." he continued.
Sachiko's eyes widened.
"I know that it's not right for me to interfere with your personal relationship but please do think what the others are gonna think." he said
Before he could say another word, Sachiko spoke.
"It's not like that." she said.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"It's not like what you think. You don't know the whole situation so don't say that I am making decisions without thinking what are the consequences." she replied.
"Then tell me the situation so I could understand." he said.
"I can't." she replied.
"You can't? Or is it because you don't want to tell me?" he asked.
"I want to tell you but I can't. It's not that easy." she answered.
"It is never easy when it comes to you." he said.
Sachiko was shocked. She changed herself to Mikan.
"Is that what you really think?" Mikan asked.
She and Senri looked into each others eyes.
"Look, Mikan." he said running his hand to his hair.
"I just don't know anymore who is the real you." he continued looking in her eyes.
"But I am still the same." she replied.
"I know but since when did you start keeping secret from me. You never kept any secret from me. You know that you could always trust me."
"I know that. And I never kept any secret from you except when it is related to work."
"Oh. Is that so? Then what do you call your relationship with Natsume?"
"I just don't know how to tell you."
"So you admitted that you and Natsume have a relationship?"
"We do but-."
"But what, Mikan? Since when?"
"Just today."
"Wow. So when do you plan to tell me?"
"I don't know."
"So you are gonna keep me in the dark?"
"No. I would never want to do that to you. I just waiting for the right time. I don't want to hurt you."
"Tell me honestly, Mikan. Do you love Natsume?"
"No. I don't love him."
"Then why?"
"Look, Senri. I don't know how to explain this. It's just so complicated."
"Try. You know that you could always trust me Mikan."
"I know that, Senri. I just don't wanna think about it."
The two didn't spoke for awhile. Mikan looked outside the window again. Senri stood up and walked near Mikan. He knelt in front of her and touched her hands. Mikan looked at Senri. They looked at each others eyes.
"Mikan, I know that this is not the right time for me to say this but I wanted you to know what I really feel about you." Senri said
"Senri." Mikan said.
"I love you, Mikan. From the moment that I saw you I knew that I have fallen in kove with you." he confessed.
Mikan was surprised. She didn't expect that Senri will confessed to her.
"I don't know what to say." Mikan said honestly.
"You don't have to say anything. I just wanted you to know what I felt about you." Senri said
"Senri, I'm thankful for telling me your feelings but sadly, I cannot accept it. I'm sorry." she said.
"But why?" he asked.
"I can't tell you the reason. Not now. I'm really sorry." she answered.
Senri stood up and let go of Mikan's hand.
"I guess I should have expected that from the start." Senri said.
Mikan took Senri's hand.
"I'm really sorry." Mikan apologized.
"I should be going." Senri said.
"Okay." Mikan replied.
Senri left her room and headed straight to his room. Mikan looked outside and saw that it is raining.
'I'm so sorry, Senri. I never want to hurt you or even saw you in this situation but I hope you'll understand the reason why.' Mikan thought.
Her tears are falling in her eyes and she can't stop it.
To be continued.