Hello, it is I, and unfortunately this is very far from being an update. In fact I'm not continuing this story.
This two years have been pretty fucking hard. I had trouble figuring out my sexuality, my gender identity, my identity in general, I've fallen in depression, I have general anxiety disorder and social anxiety, I self-harm, my parents just keep on fighting, I live in a broken home and I've been through a couple heart breaks. I figured somethings out, I am bisexual and demiromantic, which for me it stands for sexually, I am attracted to boys, girls and everything in between, and romantically, I am still attracted to boys, girls and everything in between but there must be a bond first before romantic feelings develop. As for gender identity, I am demigirl, still identifying with pronouns she/her but not fully identifying as female, and feeling uncomfortable when I'm forced to be a "lady" (although not many know about this so I still go by cis woman). For the mental health part, I am a 16 year old, pretty mature for her age because my home made me grow up fast, and I developed depression and anxiety, being easily overwhelmed and cutting my skin. This has not been diagnosed by a professional, but I know my feelings, and I feel like doing absolutely nothing because I am worthless and life is worthless but I'm too scared to let everyone down so I do everything, end up stressed, anxious and overwhelmed and my way of coping is through self harm. I've been clean for two weeks. I got a girlfriend, and it's a long distance relationship which fucks me up just a little more, but I love her and I'd wait as much as I had to to meet her.
Tbh, you probably don't care about this, but by reading it you'd understand why I lost inspiration in this story, and I sincerely hope you understand.
Anyway, this story won't be continued so I'll probably just delete it, and you can take the idea and write your own story about it yourself, I wouldn't mind.
Nowadays, I'm not that much in the books fandom, but more in the bandoms, and yeah I've been trash for a year and a half. If you want, you can follow me on Instagram phan_taloon, or in AO3, where I'm hopefully starting a fic on bands, under the same username.
Thank you for staying here through my shit, I'm sorry to let you down if you were looking forward to this story. I love you all.
Love, Val (sorry if i ever gave you a different name, this is my actual name)