AN: Thanks for the reviews!

Yep, last chapter was 'How to Train Your Dragon'.

To Dhevz: And Cagalli just like Athrun as a friend. She didn't like him, yet. And Athrun was still unsure. Maybe until this chapter, and it's three weeks later.

I hope you like it.

Disclaimer: I don't own 'Gundam SEED/Destiny' and 'Knowing'

Chapter 9

July 17th 2010

These past few weeks, Athrun and Cagalli had managed to get to know each other. But Cagalli thought that Athrun wasn't giving her his life story as much as Cagalli did him.

Cagalli's birthday was May 18th; she loved drawing and has become an illustrator for almost a year. Her father, Uzumi Nala Athha was living on their house at the other city, and Cagalli loved him so much. She told Athrun her story when she was in elementary, junior high and high school. She could cook but not as much. She liked rock music, though she liked others too, and Orlando Bloom. Her life was colorful.

Athrun didn't show much expression when Cagalli asked him about his life. He was born on October 29th. Like Lacus and Cagalli, he and Kira were best friend since high school. He had been prepared to run his parent's business ever since. His parents died when he was fifteen, and he lived with his guardian since that until he died after Athrun turned nineteen, and off course Athrun saw his death. Athrun didn't mention that. Athrun life's wasn't so colorful. He was fine until he was fifteen; he was normal before that, but he didn't mention it either. He preferred classic to rock. And he mentioned again his favorite painters, those dark painters.

The more time she spent with him, the more she could observe him. Athrun was beautiful—or handsome, and she could understand why he had many fans, though she hadn't met many. He was kind and generous, once there was a woman from a foster house came to his house before they started their night to take the check Athrun had promised to give to the foster house. The woman talked to Cagalli while Athrun went to bring the check, about how Athrun so generously help the building of the foster house, and how he had helped the other social instances. Cagalli was amazed. Athrun was good-looking, wealthy, kind-hearted and generous.

But his life was so gloomy and empty, Cagalli had thought.

Even so, Cagalli was starting to see something. Athrun really liked their movie night and always called her if she would come every weekend. And Cagalli called him twice a week to ask him about his day. He always answered it the same, just how his work was today, boring as usual. She liked that Athrun was different at least when their movie time; he talked and smiled more. And she loved that Athrun only do it with her, not with anyone else. She thought once she had some kind of crush on him, but then tried to shrug it off.

So, Cagalli wouldn't miss every weekend she had, even though Sai had called her to come to attend an abrupt meeting on her free day like today. It ended longer than Cagalli had predicted, so he called Athrun after the meeting, on her way home. She loved her time with Athrun too much to miss this weekend.

Cagalli was walking to her apartment, her cell on her ear, waiting for Athrun to pick up. On the third ring, he answered.

"Cagalli? Are you coming tonight?"

"Yeah. Sorry, Sai had called me for an abrupt meeting about our magazine's anniversary theme, so I was a little stuck there. I'm going to your house now. I just need to go back to my apartment to get my things."

"It's alright if you don't wanna come tonight, if you're tired."

"No. That was just meeting, and I'm not tired. I used to our routine now. You prepared all the food tonight, I won't bring any."

"Okay. I'll see you at…" Athrun trailed off.

"About six thirty."

"'Kay. See you."

"See you." Cagalli ended the call just when she got to her apartment door. It was six fourteen now. She needed fifteen minutes to get to Athrun's house. He had mentioned once about watching at Cagalli's apartment, but she said that his house is nicer than hers.

Cagalli didn't want Athrun to wait so she grabbed anything she could find at her rack where she placed her movie collection, and headed to Athrun's house straight.

"Pick one," Athrun said, holding the CDs on his hands like holding cards. It had become a habit every time they watch movie. It was Cagalli's turn. Cagalli closed her eyes and picked one. When she saw the CD, she scrunched her eyebrows.

"What?" Athrun asked as he put the other CDs.

"Nothing. It's just… Have you watch 2012?"

"Yeah. The visual effect was great…"

"It's just…" Cagalli held the CD to Athrun, "this movie has the same theme, apocalypse. Do you want to watch it?"

"Is it boring?"

"Not really. I kinda like it."

"Then, let's watch it," Athrun said. Cagalli then got up and put the CD. Cagalli sat back and sipped her cola. Athrun always had it ready every time they had their movie night. Athrun noticed that it was starting to rain. He would have to take her home later.

When they saw a little girl scratching the door of the closet, Cagalli was silent but she was surely paying attention. On the other hand, Athrun was starting to feel uneasy.

"What does the title mean?" Athrun asked as the timeline moved to 2009.

"'Knowing' means they will know something. Just see," Cagalli said and picked a slice of pizza.

They continued to watch the film. They saw the Caleb boy got Lucinda's paper full of numbers, Professor Koestler learning the paper, and when he found out that those numbers refer to some disasters which had happened, Athrun's face appalled.

Cagalli was watching the movie, and suddenly turned her head to the guy beside her. She was confused when she saw Athrun's desperate face. He was growing paler as the disaster came up, as the paper had been written, when nobody believes the professor. And when he failed to stop the train accident, Athrun got up and went to the bathroom.

He stayed there for a while. Thinking about those people died on the train derailment. How the professor had warned everyone that there was an accident coming. How none of them believes him. How similar his life with the professor, even though the professor didn't have to live it for a long time.

And what would he do now?

Nobody believed him either. He had tried to prevent the death he had seen, and he had never got any luck. They died just the way he had seen it on his nightmares.

He hit the wall hard, and felt the hurt but repeated it over and over, fed up with his life.

He understood that Lucinda had to write all she knew about that disaster, that she felt the need to tell it to the others, to prevent it, and she became stressed when she couldn't finish it, because the voices in her head and the amount of victims.

And she was free when she died, right? It wasn't her responsibility anymore after that. It had become Caleb's and Professor's. But he couldn't do that.

Lucinda wasn't cursed, she was warned. It was different from him.

Athrun's ability was a curse, and it couldn't be put forward to other people, would never stop until he died.

And he always failed to die, when he drowned himself, cut his own wrist, there would be a way he would be saved; his guardian and Kira had found him on the right time. Thus, he lived until now. He waited, to dream his own death, but it never come.

And he didn't know how long he would live with this horrifying curse on him.

He hit the wall once again and screamed out loud.

He slumped down to the floor, and sobbed.

"Athrun…?"

Athrun turned his head to the door, and heard someone knocked it a few times. Cagalli must have been worried. He didn't realize she was out there. How long she had been knocking and calling his name?

The door opened, Athrun didn't lock it when he entered it.

"Can I come in?" She asked after she opened the door just to make herself known. Athrun didn't answer.

Cagalli opened the door wider and gasped. She walked hurriedly to Athrun and picked his right hand. Athrun noticed that it was bleeding. He turned his head and saw the wall he had punched. Cagalli followed his gaze and gasped louder.

"What did you do?" Cagalli asked. Her voice was worried and angry. Athrun stayed silent.

"Let's get that hand taken care of." She pulled Athrun's arm. He sat still. "Come on, Athrun!" She said sterner and pulled him again. He got up, but didn't really think about it. He just followed Cagalli's hold on him.

"Where's the first aid kit?"

Athrun heard that but couldn't proceed.

"Athrun?" Cagalli shook his body impatiently. "The first aid kit?"

"Bathroom…" Athrun whispered.

Cagalli huffed, and walked to the bathroom and looked for the kit. She found it and went back to Athrun in the living room.

Cagalli had stopped the movie after Athrun ran away. She followed him to the bathroom and waited outside, thought that he needed a moment alone. When she heard him screamed, she was getting worried and knocked the door for two minutes, before she realized Athrun didn't lock the door.

Athrun stayed still as Cagalli cleaned his hand and put gauze on it. She cringed as she imagined Athrun hitting the wall, and the pain. After she finished, Cagalli put the box aside and rubbing Athrun's hand softly and carefully. "Why did you do that?"

Athrun looked like a statue now to Cagalli.

"I picked the wrong movie, didn't I?" Cagalli hung her head down.

"It's not your fault," Athrun answered. Cagalli sighed in relief, internally.

"But I saw you. You get paler and paler through the movie. It must be bothering you. And this…"Cagalli nodded to Athrun's hand on hers, "don't tell me it's nothing."

Athrun gazed at her for a while. These past three weeks Cagalli had given him the happiest time in his life. He felt different from his usual self, he felt more alive. He tried to forget his dark side, but tonight he had showed her his weak side, more than he had let people see, more than the break down within Kira and Lacus' presences. He really wanted to stay with Cagalli, but once again, the fate was conspiring against him, by the movie Cagalli coincidentally chose tonight.

Like he was told to tell Cagalli to stay away from him, by showing her his weakness, by telling her the truth.

The ones who insisted to know about him end up in two ways, keep up with him –Kira—or stay away from him—Miri. He had warned them. It was their choice to ignore it or accept it.

And he knew his happiness never last long.

"You really wanted to know?"

"I've been looking for the answer. But I give up. Just tell me." Cagalli looked at him, her eyes pleading.

Athrun waited a few minutes, gathering his courage. He remembered again all those happy moments he and Cagalli had shared. And then he looked at her.

"Prepare your things. You might want to go from here after you heard my story."

I know Nicol had said Athrun always sleeps on his concert, but I make him like classics here, to match his personality.

I had 'calculated' it all, but I think I messed up. Was it too early again? Maybe… I think it is. And there are some things that I do think are too fast on later chapters. But it's because I just want to give Athrun the 'gift', before the prologue happen. He needed to be spoiled before the bad things happen (am I giving you much spoiler?)

Do you still like it? Or do you think I better stop?