Dear Diary,

If orgasms could kill, I`d be already dead.

I thought I`ve seen it all with my men. I discovered, Donnie had a thing to teach me.

I never even thought my body could do thing like those Don made me do. He made me... squirt, made me scream, made me beg him to do that again.

He told me all those teaching porn videos came around. Of course he`d do something original. It`s Donatello. The inventor, the scientist, the artist. I was his instrument, and he was the musician. His fingers gained the sexiest melody one could hear.

After we both came, we were laying on the bed, trying to calm our breath and hearts. And as soon as I could talk again, the first thing I asked was to repeat.

This time he started with massage, first relaxing, then really tensing. His hands were sliding all over my body, never touching intimate parts. Teasing. I arched my back, pumped out my butt to prompt him, but damn, this one knows how to make a girl wet without even kissing her.

I`m so happy. I`m complete.

Those last weeks were really hard for all of us. Donnie was mad at me. He was hurt, and at some point I even thought this is the end, he`d never forgive me for coming to his brothers first.

He held back like I`m a monster. He didn`t even give an opportunity to explain myself. This was a real horror. I was broken. Without him I could never be what I am right now.

Truth be told, if at least one of them held back, I`d be the same empty. To me they all are perfect. They all are united, like not four, but one man. It was so hard for Donnie to take this, but he did. Eventually, he forgave and we started all over again.

We had our dates, like normal couples do. Slowly I tried to open his heart again, and I was opening myself, too.

I didn`t give up when his anger poured on my head. I gave in. I had been... tasting every angry word he said, every the sharpest emotion he threw in my face. I deserved that. I took it as my punishment. And to be honest, I wanted to do that. For me, for both of us it was a catharsis. A moment when you clarify your soul through pain and tears.

I knew words would never be enough. They`d never heal us. So, one evening I just came to him and begged him on my knees. And I`m not even ashamed to tell this. I don`t think it`s a shame or humiliation. As Leo said, ramifications should be held with honor.

Thank God he listened to me. He gave another chance. It was so hard for both of us to bypass this situation. I wanted to teach Donnie a lesson, but I learned one myself instead. Never, never put a beloved one through such a pain. Be honest and sincere. Even if there`s a chance you wouldn`t be understood, still you were fair saying the truth others should know.

During our dates I never let any other turtle to lay a finger on me. I wanted to be pure for Donnie. I went crazy every time he was near. He was so confident and calm, but sexy as the devil. Maybe he didn`t do this on purpose, I don`t know, but he sometimes looked at me like... like he`s making sex with me right now.

Ok, that might be my vivid imagination, though. But still...

Now, when the hardest time is over, I enjoy their company as much as try to make them happy and satisfied.

Raphael needs sex more often, than the others, I should say. Damn, he`s so insatiable. He comes to me after the patrol, full of both testosterone and adrenaline. He kisses me like mad, quickly prepares me with his tongue and fucks hard like it`s the last day of his life. It doesn`t last long, though. We both cum quickly. And after the first tension decreases, we have sex again. This time slowly, with tender kisses and soft stroking. He may want to repeat in an hour or so. Sometimes he comes the very next day. Depends on the night. If there`s a fight, he may be only excited. If a fight is hard, he prefers to rest.

Michelangelo is another sex machine. Who would`ve known! He may turn any other game into sex foreplay. Like yesterday we were cooking in my kitchen. There wasn`t anything sexy about it, he was making the pastry for pizza and I was chopping the vegetables. His hands were sticky and there was a knife in my hand. And suddenly he says: 'You hold that knife so sexy!'

The other moment he literally pulls me out of my chair, turns me around, grabs my wrists, droves the knife into the chopping board, squeezing its handle in my own palm with his... He breathes me in the ear, telling me how hot I am and that pizza isn`t the only delicious product here... Nonsense, but so damn turning on nonsense. With his hands in pastry, and me flattered on the kitchen table with vegetables everywhere... He makes me wet of those whisperings. Mikey doesn`t even bother to take off my panties, just slips them aside. After we both cum, he washes his hands and returns to the work with such a face like nothing happened.

Leonardo never shows he wants to have sex right now. This prompts me to figure out some devious plans. For example, he sits and reads a book. I creep, for a second or two hover over his shoulder like I want to have a look of what he`s reading about, then I bite him on the neck and lick the hurt place. And leave, smiling. He watches me with his eyes half hooded. I know this evening he`ll come to my place. And when he does, we don`t speak at all. We just crash into each other like lovers, that haven`t seen each other for a long time. With Leo it`s always with no rush. He gives a lot of attention to foreplay, making me practically jump on him. His thrusts are deep and painfully slow. But he growls like a beast and this makes me crazy! And after sex he`s very tender.

Donatello has a habit to stick out his tongue while working. He doesn`t even notice that, but I do. I lick his lip and slightly bite that tongue of his. He knows I`m turned on, but asks me to wait. Because we never do it in the Lair. Not to bother Splinter. Although I think he knows. One day we`ll tell him. Definitely.

With Donnie I always scream like insane. When he comes to me later, I can`t wait and push him on the bed. He laughs, because he knows it`ll be his way. We both know. He`s the king of teasing. Sometimes he slaps my butt cheeks while he roughly fucks me and I can cum right in the moment. Sometimes he bites me, pretty painfully, but it merges with the pleasure his cock brings me in the same moment. Sometimes he`s very tender and slow. His tongue brings me so much ecstasy like you wouldn`t believe.

In the city full of zombies, where it`s only work-home, work-home, it`s a bless to have someone you think about all the time. My men are my main treasure.

I have a plan I want to become a reality. If Leo`s so serious and closed, I think I can help him to step over his composure.