WARNING CHAPTER CONTAINS ITEMS OF A VIOLENT NATURE.
Chapter Ten
Lily stumbled as she got out of the fireplace, catching herself just in time. She heard Harry's wailing and looked to a distraught Severus. "He won't stop crying, we both forgot to have you leave some bottles and he's hungry." Severus said and Lily felt terrible, in her anger and haste she had forgotten to provide for her son's needs.
"Let me have him and I'll let him nurse a bit." Lily said and the baby was handed to her, she took him gently and covered him in her cloak, as she unbuttoned her shirt. "There now Harry, that's better isn't it?" She asked the baby and smiled down at him, after Harry had finished eating and had fallen back to sleep, she spoke to Severus. "Severus I need to talk to you, my bond is settled but there is another matter."
"What is it Lily?" Severus asked.
"I know I have asked a lot of you already, but I was wondering if you could brew a lineage potion for Harry. You would have to do it with the bonder watching, but without the potion I'm afraid that the Potters might try to take Harry from me somehow."
"Of course I will help you Lily, Harry is my son too and I won't have him grow up like James Potter. Not if I can do anything to stop it."
"Thank you Severus, I just don't want Harry near those people." Lily said and smiled at him, Severus' chest suddenly felt warm and he smiled back before he could stop himself. Lily was smiling at him, Lily WAS SMILING AT HIM! He suddenly felt like everything was right with the world and wondered how he could have her so close to him.
"I understand, I don't want the Potters near him either. I will make sure that you and Harry are safe."
"I can take care of myself Sev, I'm a fully trained witch and I know how to cast a spell or two." Lily said and kissed him on the cheek. "Though it was very sweet of you to think of defending me." She said and Severus brought a hand up to the cheek, before hastily bringing it back down again blushing. Lily looked at him and then looked away quickly. She always seemed to be doing the wrong thing with Severus, it was just that he was her friend...Yes he was her friend and Harry's father, that was all.
"I know you can Lily, but I know more about defensive magic then you do." Severus said and Lily was silent, she didn't want to be reminded of her friend's abilities. She didn't even want to think about them for that matter. Still being a deatheater was a part of who Severus was, she would have to accept that part of him or leave him and she couldn't do that to him again. She knew that even though he was Voldemort's servant, Severus was still a good man.
Still the silence dragged on, until Lily moved over to Severus' table. "Sev, do you have a spare quill and paper, I should write that letter now."
"Do you want me to take Harry, while you write it?" Severus asked and she nodded, handing the baby over to him. He sat down in the chair across from her, as she wrote about Severus' being willing to make the potion. She was almost finished when Severus winced and jerked. "Lily take Harry I need to leave." He said and she stared at him, suddenly terrified. It was the middle of the day and Severus was being called to HIM. Severus handed her Harry and disapporated.
Severus arrived at the receiving hall in Malfoy Manor, coming in time to hear a baby's screams.
"Silence that infant, before I do it for you Malfoy." Lord Voldemort said.
"I am sorry my Lord, I cannot find my wife and this is the first time I am alone with Draco. I can't get him to stop crying." Lucius said and Severus was immediately concerned for his Godson. Voldemort's temper had not been at its best of late, Severus wished that he had never heard that Prophesy.
"If I might help my Lord?" Severus asked Lord Voldemort and was greeted with the stares of fifty deatheaters.
"I did not take you for the type to know how to care for children." Lord Voldemort said and Severus felt himself blush, before walking up to Lucius Malfoy. He had never seen Malfoy so hopelessly out of his depth and scared. Severus was afraid as well, for his Godson...Voldemort never was predictable and Severus felt that he would have to act and quickly. He noticed the way that Malfoy was holding his son, it was clear to him that the baby was uncomfortable. The other deatheaters had children as well and he wondered for a moment why they had not helped Lucius, before remembering that it was not their place to do so.
"Give him to me Lucius and can a few of you step back a bit while I calm him? Do you have milk for him Lucius?" Severus asked and Lucius nodded, calling to a house elf.
"Go get me a bottle."
"But Mistress said that we isn't to be helpings you. This is being your bonding time with the young Master."
"Who is the Master of this house? It is not my wife!" Lucius snarled and the house elf looked terrified.
"I is not disobeying orders, I is good elf." The house elf said stubbornly and Severus realized why Lucius hadn't left the baby with the house elves, it was because he couldn't."
"Let me just take him and I'll see if I can calm him without feeding. I am not even certain that Draco is hungry." Severus said and Lucius handed the baby over to him at once. He stared down at the blue eyes of the crying Draco. He knew that once a meeting was called, they couldn't leave it for any reason, but he didn't see why Voldemort hadn't asked Lucius to leave or why he had threatened Draco. He cradled the infant in his arms and rocked back and forth.
"Hello Draco, I'm here, your Godfather is here. Everything is fine, you just like to throw fits like your Papa don't you?" He asked and looked down at the baby, he continued to rock Draco. "You know you've got your Papa's eyes and your Mama's nose, you even have Auntie Bella's cheekbones. You lucky little baby you."
"Is there a point to this Severus?" Voldemort asked and Severus' face went from red to ashen in a second.
"I found that it helps my own son to calm down, even though Harry is only a few days old."
"Harry?"
"Harry Potter, you remember our talk, my lord? Harry came a bit earlier then expected and I wanted to make him my own."
"What you see in a mudblood is beyond me Severus, but still we all have our little perversions after all." Voldemort said and several of his followers laughed.
"Yes my lord, the mudblood was the first contact I had with another magic user my age. I grew attached, as one without superior company is wont to do."
"I do not blame you Severus, in fact you have done me a service."
"I am always happy to serve you my lord." Severus said and realized how much he sounded like a house elf in that moment, as Draco continued to scream. Severus held out a finger and stuck it in the child's mouth, Draco seemed surprised by that, but the other death eaters were even more so.
"What are you doing to my son?" Lucius demanded.
"Quieting him, he needs to eat, he's hungry and he needs a change as well. I do not know what Narcissia was thinking leaving you with Draco unprepared." Severus said.
"I am unsure of that as well." Lucius admitted. "I do not see why the boy cannot be raised by house elves, it is after all the traditional way of going about such things. Yet Narcissia insists that we should raise Draco." Lucius said and Severus awkwardly patted his shoulder.
"A boy needs his father too." Severus said and felt uncomfortable with everyone's eyes on him.
"So now that the baby is quiet for the moment, perhaps you should get it some sustenance Lucius, we will wait for your return. Though if you are more then five minutes in getting what is needed, I shall be...Displeased." Voldemort said and Lucius walked from the room stiffly. The rest of the death eaters waited in silence for Lucius' return, he came back eight minutes later. "Lucius you are late, crucio." Voldemort drawled and Lucius' screams filled the air, along with the cries of his son. The other death eaters could do nothing for him, to attempt to make Voldemort see reason would do Lucius no good at all. Finally it was over, Lucius was shaking all over, but at least he had stopped screaming. He slowly rose to a sitting position, every ounce of strength going into maintaining his dignity.
"My Lord may I get the supplies for the baby?" Severus said.
"Yes and supply Lucius with a sustaining potion." Voldemort said, a sustaining potion would lesson the after effects of the curse, while the meeting was going on. However afterwards the effects would be twice as strong. The potions lasted for two hours, but after that Lucius would be in terrible pain.
"Very well my Lord." Severus said and snapped his fingers, a house elf came at once. "Go get the silver colored potions from the stores." He told the creature and the house elf vanished, reappearing with the potion a moment later. He looked them over, saw the proper potion and returned the rest with the house elf. He handed the potion to Lucius and took the bottle himself, he then cast a warming charm on it and stuck it into Draco's open mouth. Draco surprised at something now covering his mouth stopped screaming and began to suckle.
"Now that is taken care of, I need all of your reports. Severus you first, how are the potions I requested coming along.
"They should take several more weeks to finish brewing my lord, do you need my services for any other potions in addition to the ones you already have requested?"
"Perhaps you should look over Malfoy's stores, the stores would seem to be able to tell you more than me after all."
"Yes my lord, I will do it after the meeting."
"Good, now Bella report."
"The Longbottom House is being carefully watched my lord, it will not be easy to attack them."
"DON'T YOU THINK I KNOW THAT?" Voldemort demanded his magic flaring out from him and knocking over several deatheaters who did not brace themselves in time. "STILL I NEED TO ATTACK THEM! DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY GOOD NEWS FOR ME, OR AM I SURROUNDED BY INCOMPETENCE?" No one spoke and Voldemort began to cast curses at them. Severus now really wished that he had thought never to report that idiotic prophesy to Voldemort. Now the already more than slightly mad Dark Lord was coming unhinged. He could do nothing but stand there, as Draco started to scream once more. He hated himself for it, knew that you weren't supposed to do such things to infants, but cast a silencing charm over Draco. Draco continued to scream and cry, his little face and body turning bright red from exertion, but all Severus could do was hold him. He held onto his godson, as Voldemort threw curses at everyone around him, before ultimately calming down.
"My Lord, will those you allowed to see your magnificent power be requiring potion as well?"
"No I do not want my death eaters to be as weak as lambs, we are going on a raid today!" Voldemort said and Severus nodded. Even though he privately thought that several of the death eaters were in no condition to be standing, let alone going on raids.
"Someone will have to stay behind with the baby, my lord." Severus said and Voldemort stared at him.
"Do not tell me what to do with my followers, surely that banshee can survive a few hours alone." Voldemort said, before Severus felt the familiar pain of the cruciatus. He refused to scream or fall to his knees, he held on tightly to the baby, as Voldemort held the curse. He wondered how much longer Voldemort would curse him for, as seconds seemed to turn into hours. Finally Voldemort released the curse and Severus felt the overpowering urge to curl into a ball and sleep. He could not tell the dark lord that babies had to be watched almost constantly and he feared for his godson. However self preservation stopped him from saying anything, something that disgusted him. "We are going to the home of Gracile Dejarvis, she has been vocal of late about us and deserves a lesson."
"Yes my lord." All the death eaters said in unison, though Severus wondered why thirty death eaters were nessasary for one household, he tapped his toes three times and a house elf tugged on his robes.
"Take care of the baby while we are gone, keep him out of sight until only Lucius and I are here." He said, before lying the infant down on some carpet and slowly getting back to his feet. Together the death eaters disapportated and reapporated at a manor house.
"Cast anti Appariton wards and disable the floo." Voldemort commanded and the death eaters rushed to do his bidding. Next Voldemort had them circle the house and light it on fire. Soon screams filled the air as people tried to rush out of the house, Voldemort cooly ordered whoever escaped to be killed on sight. Severus was glad that he was positioned, so he didn't have to do the killing. He saw a six year old carrying a year old baby struck down by the curse and fall on top of the infant, who cried until it too was silenced and then a ten year old tried to escape out his window on a broom near Severus. He stared at the boy, watched as his wand came up, as the curse was cast and the boy fell to the ground. No one was safe from Voldemort's madness and if he did not kill the boy, he would be punished. Still Severus felt sick as he stared at the mangled body of the child, hearing Bella laugh somewhere in the distance. His attention returned to the fire, slowly the screams died and he was so glad not to have to kill anymore that day. Voldemort then cast his mark and disapporated taking the other death eaters with him.
Severus felt nausea roll over him in waves, but he refused to succumb. Killing had never gotten easier for him, even though he had stopped counting the times. Severus knew that he was no wizard, that he was a monster. The meeting dispersed soon after and everyone left, but him and Lucius. By that time the shaking had started to return and Severus looked to his friend. "I would help you Lucius, if you have want of it." He offered and Lucius nodded, Severus was trembling himself and all he wanted was some Ogdons at the moment, though a part of him was thinking how pathetic he was and how like his father he had become. He managed to get Lucius to a bedroom and sat him down on the bed, he then summoned a house elf.
"Lucius is in no fit state to look after Draco, I want you to bring him to me so I can remove the silencing charm. After that get Lucius a sleeping potion and two pain potions." Severus instructed.
"Ogdons first, bring up three bottles." Lucius told the house elf and the creature disappeared. The baby and the whiskey arrived with two glasses. "Thank you Severus, you most probably saved Draco's life."
"I don't think that Voldemort would harm someone's heir."
"Can you be sure of that, because I can't be, not anymore." Lucius replied, as he poured the whiskey, nearly spilling the amber liquid. "I don't need a sleeping potion."
"Lucius, you are going to prefer to be out cold in a bit."
"I don't see why I can't just drink myself there." Lucius said and Severus poured himself a glass as the potions came. He removed the charm from Draco and instructed a house elf to take care of the boy. He knew that pain potion mixed with alcohol made a person drunk much faster, but he didn't have any choice. He needed the pain potion and he needed a chance to forget.
He knocked back the firewhiskey and poured himself another and another, until he could barely think to see past his hands, let alone any of that other stuff. Fire whiskey was the best thing ever, he looked over to Malfoy and grinned at him, Malfoy laughed and took another swig. "YA 'naow I Luv ya Ceus."
"You my friend have had too much, you never could hold your drink that well." Lucius said and Severus laughed.
"Ey oo ya nefea swure ya ourds."
"Because I do not wish to sound like an imbisile." Lucius replied and Severus frowned.
"Wh'a 'foath."
"Even I could not understand that Severus, I believe that you need to go home and sleep it off. I myself plan to drink more of this lovely firewhiskey." He said and Severus pouted.
"Ehy ya don' do tha' wif me?" He demanded and Lucius sighed.
"It should be a sign that I trust you, that I've allowed myself to get as drunk as I have. I don't trust anyone to the amount you seem to trust me. Though you never did tell me you had a son."
"Iessh sommut tha' appen, Lile naehded meh." Severus said and poured himself some more firewhiskey.
"I told you that you have had enough my friend, I do not wish to have to pick you up off the floor. Nor do I wish to share a bed with you and I do not think that I would be capable of moving in any event." Lucius said and took another swig of fire whiskey. "I should get you a portkey and hope that you make it to bed in one piece." He said and laughed, as if amused by his own joke.
"Ohkesh." Severus said and Lucius managed to snap his fingers after several tries.
"I need a portkey for Severus, to take him home."
"Yes Master." The house elf said and a moment later Severus had a personal portkey.
"Ghoodyahe Ceaus."
"Goodbye Severus." Lucius said and Severus heard him laughing as the world went black. He toppled to the ground a moment later when he arrived at the house.
"Severus?"
"Ilo Lilea." He said and smiled a dopey smile at her.
"Are you alright?" She asked.
"I aeem besher fen Ashite, I aeem 'runak." He said and Lily stared at him.
"Have you been cursed?" She asked, then smelled him. "You have been drinking haven't you?"
"Onhee a 'ittle." He said wavering on his feet, Lily stared at him. He had to have a reason to drink so much, but she didn't want to know what it was.
"Come on Sev, lets get you to the bed."
"Na' shleepsshes. Wha' ta 'al." Severus said.
"I can't understand you Sev." Lily said and saw the tell tale shaking, it was better if Severus remained drunk, being drunk would dull the pain of the after effects. Or at least that is what Lily had heard previously. She cast a spell that would allow him to speak normally, so she could understand him, instead of listening to his slurred speech.
"Where's Harry, Draco's not as cute as him."
"Harry is in his crib sleeping Severus and you shouldn't hold him right now." She told him and Severus actually pouted, she stared at him in confusion.
"You are so pretty Lily, prettier then a flower." Severus said and Lily stared at him, as he drunkenly came up to her and wrapped his arms around her. "Pretty Lily, don't deserve you, I'm bad."
"You aren't bad Sev, can you let me go now?" She asked and he shook his head.
"Don't want to, you smell nice." He said and Lily stared at him, he was stronger then her and she couldn't win against him in a fight. Even though a part of her knew that Severus would never hurt her, still she didn't want to be trapped by his arms. "I kill people Lily, cause the Dark Lord would kill me if I didn't. I've got blood on my hands, all over my hands and I don't understand why you would come to me. I'm so bad!" He said and started to cry, she stared at him for a moment, before wrapping her arms around him. There was nothing else she could do tapped as she was. She wanted to be away from him, knowing that he had killed before...That he had taken a life, that was hard for her to hear. Even though he had said that it was kill or be killed, still he had done it. She didn't know what to say, or do. There was Severus her friend, then there was this Severus the one with blood on his hands. She didn't say anything, instead she gently pulled him towards the bedroom.
"Now Sev, I think it would be nice for you to have a bit of a lie down." Lily told him gently.
"No, I'm not sleepy, wanna be with you." He said still clinging to her, she sat down on the bed and pulled him with her. He landed on top of her and giggled. "You are so pretty." He said and kissed her on the mouth before patting her cheek. "Pretty Lily." He said and Lily felt dazed for a moment, he had kissed her, it tasted like firewhiskey, but despite that she felt a warmth growing in her chest and started to panic.
No not again, I can't fall in love, I can't be trapped again." She thought before looking up at Severus. "Sev can you let go of me now, you're crushing me."
"Don't wanna let go of you, stay here please?" Severus asked. "Like you did before, you keep the nightmares away, I know you must be spending nights in my bed." He said and giggled. "That sounds wonderful doesn't it, you spending nights in my bed."
"Severus I..." Lily said, she had no idea of what to say.
"You take away the bad dreams, I dream about Voldemort and killing people and my father. They won't leave me alone, but you let me sleep...I haven't been able to sleep well in years and now..." He trailed off. "You are so very pretty, I don't deserve you, my pretty Lily. I wonder if you like lillies, I could get you some if you like. I'd get you a whole truck load, flowers for my pretty Lily." He said and Lily laughed.
"I actually don't like lilles Severus, they smell bad." Lily said. "Can you get off of me?"
"I don't wanna, cause if I do, then you will leave and I don't want you to go. I killed a boy today, killed him as he was trying to escape, he was only ten years old. He wasn't even old enough to go to Hogwarts and I killed him, I'm bad Lily. You should stay away from me, but I don't want you to leave. These last weeks have been the happiest in my life, I don't want them to be over." He frowned, she stared at him, her heart going out to him. She hoped that she would never have to kill another human being. "Why am I speaking so clearly to you, I'm drunk I shouldn't be talking like this."
"I said a spell so I could understand you Sev, I can't really understand what your saying when you are this drunk." She told him and he nodded, as Harry started to cry.
"Who's that?" He asked and she smiled.
"That's Harry, I will go get him." Lily said and moved into the nursery, she picked up Harry changed him and walked back to Severus. He had killed a boy, that boy could have easily been her son. She couldn't understand how he could do something, when he acted so differently around her. She wondered for a moment, which was the act and what was the true Severus. Still either way he was a killer and she should leave him, but she couldn't at the same time. Severus needed her and she could never turn away anyone that needed her. She walked back to the room slowly and stared at Severus, who had fallen asleep while she had been gone. He was snoring incredibly loudly and she stared at him. This man was so confusing, so hard to understand and yet she longed to truly know him. He was a killer and yet she would stand by him. She didn't understand why she couldn't leave Severus, even if he needed her she should go...But she felt as though he would take a part of her heart with him.
Severus moaned in his sleep and Lily hesitated for a moment, Harry was crying but she had a feeling that Severus was passed out and wouldn't be waking any time soon. She gave Harry her breast, holding him with one hand, while she stroked back Severus' hair with the other, until he settled down once more. "Poor Sev, Harry Daddy isn't feeling very well so you have got to be a good little boy." She told him and the baby just stared up at her, his eyes still unfocused. "That's my good boy, just drink some more and go to sleep." She said and gently stroked Harry's head, the skin was so very soft and new. "I love you baby." She told him and kissed the top of his head, eventually Harry's eyes closed and he stopped suckling, his breathing deepened and he started to make his snuffling snores. She smiled down at him a moment, before gently laying him down on the corner of the bed. She cast protective spells around him, before going over to Severus. She gently took off his shoes and cloak, only managing to do so with a levitating spell. After he was in only black jeans and a shirt, she transfigured the pants into pajama pants. It was later then she normally stayed up, as she had been waiting for Severus and couldn't sleep until he came home.
He started to moan again and she gently settled him on the bed. She held on to him, waiting for him to settle which he did eventually, before rolling over and wrapping his arm around her, his face was nestled against her shoulder and he seemed to relax almost instantly. She felt somehow safe in his arms, she didn't want to disturb him, so she transfigured her clothes into pajamas and fell asleep listening to his snoring.
She awoke five or six hours later and looked directly into Severus' sleeping face. She hesitated a moment, before She held out a hand and gently ran it down his face. He didn't stir and she smiled softly, moving back a bit to watch him as he slept. She wanted to feel that warmth again and that sense of connection, so she hesitantly kissed him on the lips. His lips were soft and sleep slackened, unlike they had been only an hour before, they were sweet and tasted of firewhiskey at the same time. Again the warmth filled her from the inside out and she felt fantastic. She had never felt this before, not even with James. She hesitated a moment, before kissing him again and feeling more daring, put her tongue into his mouth. He tasted of firewhiskey and she felt wonderful, kissing Severus was like a drug, now that she had tried it she wanted more. She didn't understand why she felt this way, but decided to go with it. Severus moaned softly in his sleep and she wrapped an arm around him.
"Lily." He sighed, his lips pursing a moment before relaxing again and she stared at him confused. She shouldn't be so close to him, her body was pressed up against his and she didn't feel entirely comfortable with that. What was more unsettling was the fact that Severus was becoming aroused, she didn't know how to handle that, but she felt the change in his body. She wondered for a moment what he was dreaming about, but then realized that it was all too obvious. She backed away from him, suddenly intimidated. James had been the only one that she had seen aroused before, the only one she had sex with and the only one she had kissed. She stared at Severus, before hastily moving back from him, she had been happy with James. She had liked to pleasure him and receive pleasure in return, but it had not been of her own free will.
She watched Severus, as his hips bucked slightly and he moaned and twisted in the sheets. She had no idea what to do, his dream was making her feel uncomfortable and turned on. Which in turn made her even more uncomfortable, as she didn't really trust her own reaction. She found herself wedged against Harry, uncertain of what to do. She looked down at the infant, peacefully asleep and smiled softly. Suddenly Severus arched on the bed and his eyes snapped open.
"Lily?" He asked. "Was that a dream?"
"It was Sev, go back to sleep, you are drunk." Lily said and he stared at her, huddled beside Harry, he could see the uncertainty in her eyes.
"I'd never do that to you Lily, I would never take a woman without her consent. You don't need to fear me, I'm a man and I have needs...But I can satisfy those with my own hand, your friendship is more important to me than any sexual encounter that may happen."
"You mean your love for me is more important don't you Sev?" Lily asked and he stared at her a moment, before nodding.
"Yes, I suppose that's what I mean...I think I'm pretty much sober now, its been several hours since I fell asleep hasn't it." He asked and Lily nodded. "What did I say to you? I don't remember."
"You called me pretty Lily and offered to buy me flowers, it was sweet Sev." She said and he groaned.
"I sound like a right idiot." He said and Lily laughed.
"You weren't that bad, though we should try to get some more sleep. I'll stay with and keep the nightmares at bay, but you need to change your pajamas first." She said and he blushed.
"Um, I didn't well...I didn't get all the way, the pajamas are fine." He said. "I've lost my erection if that's what worries you and I don't blame you with what happened with James. I just need someone to hold me right now." He admitted and Lily stared at his face, noticing that he was moments from breaking down. At that moment Harry started to cry and she picked him up. She was surprised that Harry hadn't woken them up before this. She smiled down at the baby and turned her back on Severus, feeding him and changing him, before cradling him in her arms, as Severus watched them both. "You are a wonderful mother Lily."
"I'm pretty new at it, but thanks Sev, I appreciate you saying so." She said and smiled at him, before returning to rocking Harry. Harry fell asleep after a few minutes and she laid him down, before reapplying the safety spells. "Severus I want you to know that I think you are a good person, I know I've most probably said it before...But I will say it again, you are good Severus. Good people are sometimes forced to do bad things, but you shouldn't blame yourself for wanting to live. Those people you killed, were already marked for death by Voldemort, he would have tracked them down eventually."
"How can you say that Lily?" Severus demanded.
"I say it because its true, when it comes down to it...Its either their life or yours, you don't have a choice...Just like you don't have a choice in leaving Voldemort. I wish you could be free Sev, free to live your own life, how you choose."
"I gave my choice away, before I even knew I had it. Don't try to make excuses for me Lily, I am a monster."
"Are Aurors monsters? What about the order? To your thinking is everyone that harms another for the sake of themselves a monster? Then there are few people out there that aren't monsters. You were a young boy that was tricked into making a bad decision, its not your fault."
"It is my fault, because I stay. I stay as the other death eaters do, even though those with half a brain know that we serve a madman...Because I am too afraid of my own end, to leave."
"Oh Severus." Lily said and wrapped her arms around him, she felt him shaking and pulled back for a moment. "Sev do you need..."She trailed off as she saw the tears in his eyes and held him as he cried. It was the only thing she could think of to do for him. Yes she was bothered by the fact that Severus killed people, but what bothered her more was that he was forced to do so. She could only hold him until his tears stopped, then she pulled back and wiped at his face. "You are not a monster Sev, you could never be, because a monster wouldn't be crying now." She told him and kissed his forehead. "Get some sleep." She said and moved so her body was touching his, arms settled around her and she smiled at him, before closing her eyes and taking her wand from her pajama pants, cast a sleeping spell she had found while reading. He sighed as his eyes closed and his arms loosed around her, as he started to snore, she smiled and closed her own eyes.