Hajime took a life changing leap of faith two years and a few months ago. He was standing behind a tree watching over a certain male who was busy sitting on the sand under a palm tree, reading a thick book.
It was late in the afternoon and the sun was about to set. The sky exploded with a blend of shades of reds, oranges, violets and blues, giving the atmosphere a serene vibrance.
Hajime's hands were shaking, a cold bead of sweat rolled down his forehead. He couldn't believe he was finally going to do it. It took him a while to finally accept that he had feelings for the clueless male that was reading away and now was the time he was going to tell him how he felt.
Yup… It was now or never. Hajime gulped.
"Are you sure about this Chiaki?" Hajime bit his lip. He thought telling Komaeda how he felt would be a breeze, but now that he was standing here, a few minutes away from telling him everything, he felt dead-nervous. He was certain he would rather jump off a cliff than to go through with this but he needed to… he wanted Komaeda to be his boyfriend and he was confident that Komaeda liked him… but probably not in a romantic sense. That thinking was the cause of Hajime's pestering doubts. "Do you think he likes me back?" Hajime squeaked.
"Trust me Hajime. You'll be fine." she encouraged him, giving him a pat on the back. "I'm pretty confident that he feels the same way about you." she smiled.
"How would you know?" Hajime asked, grabbing the side of his collar, loosening it up. The boy was obviously uncomfortable and getting more nervous by the second.
"I just do." Chiaki replied confidently.
"No, you know what? I can't do this. There's no way he'd return my feelings. What if he ends up hating me? I'd rather stay friends th—"
Chiaki puffed her cheeks and pushed the taller male out of their hiding spot. "Just do it Hajime!" she said, getting annoyed of his constant worrying. "Quit wasting time."
"Chiaki! Hold o—" Hajime said trying to stop her. He stumbled but regained his balance as he stood in Komaeda's range of sight. He glanced over at Komaeda who has now just stopped reading and was staring directly at him.
Hajime just stood there for a good few minutes staring back at a very confused Komaeda.
"C'mon Hajime. You can do it." Chiaki cheered in a whisper that only Hajime was about to hear.
"Uhm… Hajime?" Komaeda said worried.
Hajime coughed, his cheeks were turning red. He approached the male who was now standing by the tree he was reading under, earlier. "Uh… Komaeda I ju—"
Komaeda touched Hajime's forehead. "You don't look so well Hajime. Are you okay?"
Hajime's cheeks flushed with a darker shade of red, he was sweating like crazy now. He grabbed the hand that was placed on his forehead and squeezed on it gently. "Uh, Yeah. Anyway Komaeda… I need to tell you something." Hajime's eyes darted to the side, getting even more nervous. "I… l-like you." he stuttered. "I uh… mean notjustlikebutsortoflikelike." he rushed. "So uh… If you want… can I be your boyfriend?" he shut his eyes, expecting a painful answer from the other male.
Komaeda was quiet, no response came from him except for his hand shaking in Hajime's gentle hold.
Hajime looked back at the male, Komaeda wore a tint of red on his cheeks.
They stood like that for a good minute, with no decision coming from the white-haired male, Hajime looked to the ground and scratched the back of his neck with his free hand. "I'm sorry…" Hajime said. He was about to let go but then Komaeda gripped Hajime's hand, not wanting to be released by the touch. Hajime looked back at the boy in surprise.
"Ah… Hajime, it's not like that but… I just want to ask you something. Are you sure about it?" Komaeda blinked with a questioning expression.
"What do you mean?" Hajime replied, confused.
"I mean, why would you like trash like me?" Komaeda asked with genuine curiosity in his voice.
"You aren't trash Komaeda. You are one of the most precious people in my life." Hajime said and pulled the slightly taller male into a warm embrace.
The white-head stood in shock. He never would have thought, even if he had the power to gather all his luck in exchange of something, that Hajime would want to be his boyfriend. "I— I've liked you for so long Hajime." He hugged the other male tighter. "I always thought you would never like someone like me." his voice cracked. "You don't know how happy this makes me." He smiled with tears running down his face.
"I'm really happy too Komaeda." Hajime just kept hugging the other male, not wanting to let go. He looked over at where Chiaki was: she was still peeking behind the tree they were hiding in earlier, and gave her a thumbs-up.
She gave a thumbs-up back with a satisfied smile.
"Mission accomplished." She mouthed.
Hajime was wrapped up in thin sheets, waiting for his lover. He stared at his finger that twirled on the sheets that was illuminated by the orange glow of Komaeda's bedside lamp. A small satisfied smile spread across his face. Hajime and his friend's futures looked very bright; he was just assigned new projects by the Future foundation, he and his friends are doing well with the Island's facility upgrades and his relationship with Komaeda has been going strong, they have now just finished celebrating their 2 years of being together.
The future they all planned was coming into fruition. He was sure nothing could ruin the things that they've been building for the past years; the island, their future and their relationships with one another.
The creak of the door brought him back from his thoughts. Komaeda walked across the room and lay down beside him. He looked at him with a smile and leaned in for a kiss. "Happy 2nd anniversary." he said.
"Yeah, happy 2nd anniversary." Komaeda murmured to the brunette with a soft smile. He turned to shut off his bedside lamp. Strong arms wrapped around him as he fixed his position to get comfortable.
After a few minutes Komaeda began to speak.
"Hey Hajime?"
"Hm?"
"Don't you ever get tired of being with me? I mean it's been two years already."
"Komaeda, how many times do you have to ask me that question?" Hajime asked, a little tired by the constant self-doubt of his boyfriend.
"Well, it's hard to imagine that you would still want to be with tra—"
"You aren't trash Komaeda." Hajime said. He kissed the back of Komaeda's neck and hugged him tighter.
Komaeda freed himself from Hajime's hold and turned around to face the male. Their noses were touching, his grey eyes stared into Hajime's green and red ones.
"I'll never leave your side Ko." Hajime said with sincerity in his eyes.
"Doesn't that seem like wishful thinking? What if I do something so horrible that would make you want to leave me?"
"Like what?" Hajime asked. He was sure there was nothing Komaeda could do to make Hajime want to leave him but he was still curious on what Komaeda had in mind.
"Like… hmm… I don't know." Komaeda said and turned to face the ceiling, his hands on his head, thinking of something to answer Hajime's question.
Hajime gave out a light laugh and sat up. He looked at the plotting male beside him. "Whatever you're planning to do, I'm going to make sure you fail." Hajime smirked. "You aren't letting me leave you without a good fight. And I'll always make sure we end up together in the end." he said with a determined smile on his face.
Komaeda looked at him in the eyes for a few seconds.
"But what if it's me who wants to leave you?"
Hajime's smile vanished, he felt a throbbing pain in his chest as the words left Komaeda's lips. He never thought of that. He was caught off guard by Komaeda's question. He paused for a few seconds to regain his composure. "Then I'll find you another reason to not want to leave me." his smile returning but it was not as confident as the last one.
"Not that I want to leave you or anything Hajime." Komaeda added with a sheepish laugh, realizing he hurt the brunnete.
An awkward silence fell over the two until Hajime spoke up again.
"Promise me, Ko, if it ever does happen, I want you to tell me." Hajime said in a quiet and serious tone. He looked at Komaeda and gave him a sad smile.
"Ah… yeah. But I doubt it will happen." Komaeda said, smiling. Making sure he gave out the brightest smile he could muster at that very moment.
The smile on Komaeda's face made Hajime relax. He sighed and kissed Komaeda on the lips. "Good night Ko. Try not to think too deeply with those kinds of thoughts" he said as he lay back down beside him. "You are very important to me."
Komaeda burried his face in Hajime's chest and wrapped his arms around him. "I'll try. Good night Hajime. I love you."
"I love you too."
