That filming with the Capitol was definitely odd, but I am just trying to keep with their history of doing weird things. I thought about making the director as crazy as Cesar but decided against it.

Ollie

The ride back to District 14 was long, mainly because the film crew joined us and kept asking us questions about what life in District 12 was like. The Hunger Games may have ended, but the Capitol was still the same as ever. These people were so into themselves it was nauseating. Stosh had to kick me under the table after one of the film crew asking how I can bare being near people covered in coal dust. I was this close to calling him a name that would make my father roll over in his grave.

When the guard led us through the door that opened to the Atrium in Sector A I breathed a sigh of relief. "I refuse to ever do that again." I yelled out.

Stosh laughed and linked his arm through mine. "Noise ordinance, remember?" He whispered.

"I don't care!" I called out again. A guard shot me a warning look and I shut my mouth. I didn't want to get in trouble, I just felt like using my own words and my own free will for the first time tonight. We made the long, quiet walk back to our room and threw ourselves on the bed.

"That was exhausting." Stosh said.

I nodded. "I hope we are done with filming."

Stosh rolled toward me, using his arm to prop himself up on his side. "Did you really mean what you said?"

I raised an eyebrow. "Which part? I was reading off a prompter."

He shook his head. "Not during our interview. You strayed from the script for a little bit there."

"Oh." I replied. "I guess I did. I mean, I said it all from the heart. I try to picture what life would have been like if the Breeding Center didn't exist. We would probably still be friends back in District 12, and Sage wouldn't exist."

His face grew sad. "Yeah, very true." He rolled onto his back and clasped his hands behind his neck.

"What? What did I say?" I grew aware of the fact that I had upset him.

"Nothing Ollie." He sighed. "I'm going to get ready for bed." He stood and headed into the bathroom, I heard the shower turn on.

I laid back and went over my words. I had truly meant what I had said, what would have bothered him? Life with out the breeding center? Of course it would have been different. Life with out Sage? Well, we wouldn't have him. Was it the 'I guess' part?

Then it hit me. I jumped out of bed and walked to the bathroom. Stosh was just finished up in the shower, and stepped under the dryer. He was half way through with putting on his clothes when he noticed me.

"Did you need something?" He asked.

"That isn't how I meant it." I said, my voice almost a whisper.

"It's fine Ollie."

"No. Obviously it isn't Stosh. It hurt your feelings and I'm sorry."

He sighed. "Let me ask you a question Ollie. If I hadn't given you Sage, would you still be with me?"

I gaped at him for a moment. "I can't answer that Stosh. I have no idea. Having Sage changed everything, I can't imagine life before him."

He pulled a shirt over his head and looked at me. "It isn't that hard of a question Ollie. Either you love me or you don't, Sage has nothing to do with this!"

"He has everything to do with this!" I yelled at him.

"Then I guess I have my answer." He pushed past me and headed to the fireplace, setting new logs on the burned up coals. He started the process of lighting the fire, something he did robotically now.

I follow him into the sitting room, refusing to give up. "Why does it matter to you so much? I love you now, isn't that enough?"

He got a fire to spark, poking the logs with a metal poker. "No, it isn't Ollie. I need to know that you would love me with or with out Sage. What if you had met Cruz before you had Sage? Before we even got together in the Breeding Center? What would have happened then?"

I gave a big sigh. "Stosh, none of this makes sense. Why are we focusing on the hypothetical?"

"Just answer the question Ollie." He said through gritted teeth.

"Fine." I was getting angry now. "Say Cruz appeared in District 12 while we were in school and approached me. Sure, I could see forming a relationship with him. But Cruz and my friendship started because of the special circumstances we were in, I doubt he would have given me the time of day back home."

"I'm tired of feeling like we're forced to be together Ollie." Stosh stood up from the fire. "I know I love you, I have for awhile. But it didn't become a possibility for you until we arrived here. Maybe you should be with Cruz."

I shook my head. "No. What about Sage? What about our family?" I placed my hand on my belly, even though no baby grew there yet.

"Let's see what happens when all of this is over. You'll be spending nine months with Cruz while I am back home. See how you feel then."

I watched as he walked over to the bed and crawled in, pulling the sheets up to his neck. I sat down on the couch and stared at the fire for a while, thinking over Stosh's words. Had my words earlier caused him to snap or had he been thinking of this for a while? The argument we just had didn't help with my confusion on who I should be with. Both Stosh and Cruz did something different to me. I felt alive with Cruz, and electricity pulsed through us. With Stosh I felt comfortable and thankful to have him by my side. He was my best friend, my lover, and the father of my child. I could definitely be happy with him, but Cruz still had a lot of mysteries surrounding him.

I waited until Stosh's breathing grew heavy. A small snore erupted from his mouth and I made my move. I grabbed my robe out of the bathroom and entered the hall. I made it to the end before a guard stopped me.

"Where do you think you are going? It is past curfew."

"I need to go to District 15, for medical attention."

He eyed me. "I'll escort you to the medical unit."

"No, I need to go to District 15." I don't know what I was thinking; he wasn't going to let me go anyway. "You know what, never mind."

"Ah, there you are Ollie. Ready for our trip to District 15. Sorry we are going so late." Dr. Weaver walked up behind me.

The guard nodded and let us pass. Dr. Weaver and I walked in silence to the hangar, boarding a small hovercraft of doctors and nurses.

He leaned over to me once we were in the hovercraft. "We are on call for the maternity ward tonight. Apparently there is a high volume of mothers coming in this week so they pull us from District 14."

I nodded, he didn't really need to explain anything. "Thanks, for helping me out back there."

He shrugged. "No problem. I like you Ollie. You are strong willed, smart, and have a great partner in Stosh. I also understand how much you love your son and I think it is important that you see him as often as you want."

I smiled. "Thanks." But in truth, I wasn't going to District 15 to see Sage. I was going to see Cruz.