A/N: Thanks for the great reviews so far! I hope you liked the lemon in the last chapter as well, hehe.
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Joey POV
All day at school on Friday, I was lost in my own little dream world, recalling the kisses Edward and I shared and the way he made my body feel. I never knew how pleasurable it could be, even though all we had done was kiss and he touched my breasts over my shirt. He caused a fire to rage deep inside, threatening to consume me, and I wanted more. I wanted to know how his hands felt on my bare skin, and how his mouth would feel as he kissed his way all over my body. Just thinking about it caused a warmth in my lower belly, spreading downward into my groin and down my legs.
At the end of the day, I rode home with Justin and Charles, who had plans to go on a date with 2 really nice girls we went to school with. They had dated all through school, but never allowed themselves to get too deeply involved with anyone with the possibility of Imprinting. Now that they didn't have to worry about it, they decided to pursue relationships with girls they really had an interest in.
When I got in the door, I ran upstairs, throwing my book bag in my room. I wanted to take a bath before Edward got here, so I began filling the huge tub with hot water, adding a little bit of vanilla oil to the water. While the tub was filling, I went into my room to figure out what I was going to wear. I finally decided on a pair of old, faded jeans that were ripped at the knees, and a huge sweatshirt that had F.B.I on the front of it. The outfit was comfortable and perfect for a night of studying. At first I was going to wear something nicer, but with Edward I didn't have to be anyone other than who I was.
Once my bath was ready, I slid into the steamy water, sighing as it relaxed my muscles. I washed my hair quickly, rinsing it under the faucet and adding deep conditioner, then putting it into a high ponytail so that it wouldn't get wet by the bathwater. I soaked for a half hour, using my creamy vanilla body wash with my sea sponge, washing thoroughly. I shaved my legs quickly, using the same creamy body wash, then started draining the tub. I turned on the shower portion, rinsing the conditioner from my hair and any remnants of soap from my body. I wrapped a towel around my body and another around my hair, then brushed my teeth and washed my face. I put on a little bit of moisturizer, then slicked my lips with clear gloss. Next I blow dried my hair using a huge roll brush, making it fall down my back in sleek, shiny layers.
I then went into my room, putting lotion all over my body, then dabbing a tiny bit of delicate perfume behind my ears and on my wrist. I threw my clothes on, grabbed my books and headed downstairs to make myself something to eat. I made 2 grilled cheese sandwiches, then grabbed a bag of Cheetos and a can of Coke and sat down to eat. My brothers left a few minutes later, and I had the house to myself.
I got up when the doorbell chimed, and I felt my heartbeat accelerate because I knew it was Edward. When I opened the front door, I felt my heart give a little lurch, my eyes roaming over him appreciatively. He was wearing jeans and an olive green button down shirt left untucked, and its color complimented the shade of his hair.
"Hi" he said, smiling at me as he leaned against the door frame.
"Hello" I said, at a loss for words. We stood there, staring at each other for several minutes, then finally I snapped out of my day dream and asked him inside. When I closed the door once he was inside, I turned around and he took my hand in his. I felt my heartbeat kick up again as he brought my hand to his mouth and kissed the back of it, causing me to flush. He cupped my face in his hand, then gently brought his lips to mine. It was a sweet kiss, and I desperately wanted more, but he pulled away before I could deepen it.
"You look really pretty, Joey" he said as his eyes roamed over me, causing me to flush even more.
"I think you need to have Carlisle check your vision, because I look like I normally do, ratty jeans and sweatshirt" I nervously laughed. He gave a little chuckle, then hugged me.
"You are too adorable. Come on, let's get going with the studying so we can watch a movie later" he said, leading me into the kitchen.
"I rented Grosse Point Blank and The Holiday" I told him.
"I've never seen Grosse Point Blank, but I have seen The Holiday. The score in that movie is fantastic, so I taught myself how to play it on the piano" he said.
"I would like to hear you play it, would you mind?" I asked, loving how gracefully his long fingers moved over the piano keys.
I followed him to our baby grand, then sat next to him on the bench like I usually did when he played for me. Seconds after he began, I was lost in the beautiful melody, each note reverberating deep into my soul. Music spoke to me, told stories without words, and I felt tears fill my eyes at the story this song told. When he was done, I opened my eyes and met his, slightly leaning in to kiss him.
"That was really beautiful, Edward. You have to teach it to Joey so that she can play it for us" I heard my mom say from behind us. I saw her and my dad standing in the foyer, just have gotten home from work. I got up and went to them, hugging each one. Edward followed, then shook my dads hand and gave my mom a kiss on the cheek.
"Hello Bella, Jacob." he greeted them.
"Hey Edward, hows the Volvo doing?" my dad asked as they made their way inside.
"It's back to new, running like a dream. Quil really knows his way around her and always fixes her like new" Edward said.
"It's good to know that he is earning the salary we pay him" he chuckled.
My parents then excused themselves, going upstairs to get ready to go to the cottage, so Edward and I went back into the kitchen to crack open my books. My parents came down an hour later, letting us know that they would meet us at Edward's on Sunday afternoon for training, then said goodbye and left. We studied for 2 more hours, and when Edward thought I had everything down and that I would ace my finals, we went to go watch a movie.
Because of the beautiful music from the Holiday that Edward played for me earlier, we opted to watch that one first. He sat down on the couch, then patted the spot next to him for me to sit down. I snuggled up against him, sighing when he put his arm around me and ran his fingers through my hair.
"You smell really good, Jo, is that new perfume?" he asked.
"No, I just don't wear it all the time, only for special occasions" I murmured, his fingers playing with my hair lulling me as we watched the movie.
"So, this is a special occasion then?" he quietly asked, brushing my hair away from my neck and stroking my skin with his fingers. I felt myself shiver at his touch, and I sat up so I could look at his face.
"It's always a special occasion when I'm with you" I said, giving him a shy smile.
My heart started hammering in my chest when he leaned towards me, and when his lips met mine, I shuddered at the emotions running through me. He pressed his lips harder to mine, and I felt his tongue brush against me, begging for entrance. I moaned softly, opening my mouth and meeting his tongue with mine. His hands moved into my hair, pulling my face harder to his and deepening the kiss dramatically.
I felt the burning in my belly starting up again, and something snapped inside of me, making me want to feel more of him. I moved my body over his, straddling his legs with my own as I attacked his lips with mine. I felt his hands moving up and down my back, then gave a little whimper when they slid under my shirt and touched the bare skin of my back.
He wrapped his arms around me, shifting us so that I could lay back onto the couch, his lips not once leaving mine. When he went to lay beside me, I stopped him, making him settle himself between my legs. He hesitated slightly, then moaned against my lips when he felt the heat of my arousal through my jeans, and I felt him press himself a little harder against me.
I tore my lips from his, gasping for air, and he moved his mouth to my neck, sucking gently on my sensitive skin. I felt his hand moving up and down my clothed leg, then moving higher and slipping under my sweatshirt. I softly moaned when I felt his hand on my bare stomach, his touch making my body respond even further to his. I felt a liquid heat between my legs, and when he smelled my arousal, he groaned and pressed his lips to mine once again. His kisses were growing more urgent, as were mine, and I felt him moving his hand higher up my torso, stopping when he met the material of my bra.
"Edward….yes….please" I begged as I inhaled air into my lungs, then attacked his lips once again. I felt him slide underneath my bra, and when his hand cupped my bare breast, I arched myself into his touch and let out a long, low moan. I felt my nipple harden in his palm, and the sensation caused my hips to lift up and press harder into his. I whimpered when he took my nipple between his fingers, then growled when he applied pressure. I felt something hard pressing against my clothed center, giving a little squeak when I realized it was his own arousal. He immediately froze, pulling his hand from underneath my shirt and looking down at me worriedly.
"I'm so sorry, Joey, I lost control for a minute there and pushed you too hard." he said, moving off of me and going back to his seat on the couch. I gave a soft growl of frustration, then sat up and moved to him, taking his face in my hands.
"You did not push me too far, so get that out of your head right now. You make me feel so alive when you touch me, and I never want you to stop. I….I love you Edward" I quietly said, averting my eyes so I wouldn't have to see his rejection. Even though he was making profound steps in this relationship and I knew that he loved me, I didn't know if he was in love with me, and I was too scared to ask. I felt tears welling up in my eyes, then felt him take my face in his hands and making me look at him. He started kissing my tears away, his soft lips soothing my burning skin.
"I…..*kiss*…love…..*kiss*…. you….*kiss*….too…." he said as he kissed my tears away, then looking deep in my eyes so I could see his love reflected in them. I felt so much joy and happiness just then, because I knew that he was telling me the truth. He really was in love with me, and it made my heart sing. I smiled, then pressed my lips gently to his.
"Do you know how long I've waited to hear you say that?" I asked in between soft kisses. I felt him chuckle, then pull away so he could look at me again.
"A long time, and I am so sorry it took me this long to realize it" he said, smiling his gorgeous smile at me. We started kissing again, but just as things were starting to heat up, he stopped. I looked at him with confusion, and when I saw sadness in his eyes I felt my heart stop.
"Edward, what's wrong?" I asked, wondering what was behind his sadness. He closed his eyes, then let out a long sigh.
"I have to tell you something that I have never told anyone else, something that I've kept hidden for a long time" he quietly began.
"You can tell me anything, Edward. Please, I'm here for you, no matter what" I said, trying to reassure him.
"It's about my marriage to Amanda" he began, and I felt myself stiffen up a bit. He looked at me alarmed, sensing the change in me.
"It's not what you are thinking, Joey. I love you, and I desperately want you, so badly that I ache" he said, and I felt myself relax and waited for him to continue. He went on to tell me what happened to her when she was changed, and I started crying for her, the horror she had gone through ripping my heart out.
"She wouldn't let me touch her, even though we were married. I tried so hard to show her that I wasn't going to hurt her, but she couldn't get past what happened to her. The emotional scars wouldn't heal, and when she found out about my unresolved feelings for your mother, it destroyed what little trust she did have in me" he explained, covering his face with his hands. I wrapped my arms around him, trying to comfort him the best way I could. I saw flashes of it in his thoughts, and felt my tears running down my face as I wept for her, for him and what had happened. When his emotions settled down, he pulled back and met my eyes once again.
"Joey, I've never been with anyone….intimately. It scares me, how strongly I feel for you, and I want to be with you that way very badly. I'm just….scared, and I don't want to mess this up with you. I have these values that are deeply ingrained in me, and I know that times have changed, as well as views on intimacy, but it's so hard for me to change those views" he softly said.
I felt my heart fill with so much love for him just then that I thought it was going to explode. My heart ached for him, what he had gone through and the torture he was putting himself through with his values. I knew just then how hard he was trying for me, to give me what I wanted regardless of his archaic views on intimacy, and I had to let him know that it was ok and that I appreciated him for what he was trying to give me.
"Well, I guess we will have to fumble through it together, Edward. You are the first man I have even kissed, so I'm more inexperienced than you are. We can take this as slowly as you need to and do whatever feels right for both of us. Thank you for trying so hard for me, for pushing your own values aside to give me what I want. I am willing to do what it takes to be with you, and if that means only some intensive making out, then so be it. I just want to be with you, because I love you with my whole heart and soul" I told him, never breaking eye contact with him.
His eyes were so full of emotion, his love and respect for me reflected in their topaz depths. He reached up, caressing my cheek with the back of his fingers, his eyes trailing over my features and making me shiver again at the intensity. His lips touched mine, and he showed me just how deep his emotions ran, our tongues coming together in a sensuous dance as our mouths communicated our love for each other.
"I don't deserve you" he whispered when I pulled away to breathe.
"You deserve more than me, Edward. You deserve all of the wonderful things that life has to offer, and it's damn time you start realizing it" I firmly said. He chuckled, then tugged on my hair playfully.
"Ok, you win, I'll try to not be so negative about myself, deal?" he asked.
"Deal. Now, why don't we get to watching the other movie. That is unless you have something….different in mind" I jokingly said. I saw his eyes darken until they were almost black, and my breathing hitched for a second.
"Oh, I do have something different in mind, but we wont be going there…..tonight at least" he said, his voice full of innuendo. I felt my face light up in a grin, his own matching mine, and I got up to put the other movie in.
We sat together, laughing and talking about the movie while we watched. It was a great movie, both a love story with some comedy and violence thrown in. Edward said that he actually liked it, which surprised me because of his cultured ways. I thought he just liked watching the classics and listening to orchestra music, but I knew that there was more to Edward than he portrayed.
It was midnight by the time it was over, and my siblings began coming home from whatever they had been doing that night. They all said hi to Edward and I, then went upstairs to go to sleep. I was starting to feel tired too, so I stood up and stretched. He pulled my body against his, then kissed me with such primal passion that my legs gave out from under me. He held me up, and once our lips parted, he whispered in my ear.
"Go upstairs and unlock your balcony door, I'll meet you up there and stay with you while you sleep" he said, and I nodded my head, unable to speak.
Once he was sure that I could stand on my own, I walked him to the door, locking it behind him and then bolting up the stairs. When I opened the door, he was already there, and he picked me up and laid me in my bed. We kissed for a little while, then he pulled the covers over me and I snuggled against him, falling into a peaceful sleep.